Embarrassment

Discomfort

Disgust

Sadness

Invalidity

Failure

Loser

Adjectives

To explain feelings

Of how it feels

To be pushed around

A dark street

Or an airport

At 30

In a

Wheelchair

When your mother

Who is 30 years older

Does the pushing

And you pretend

This is all a part of life

No it's really not

It's part of a nightmare

That fails to go away

Each day I wake up

Hoping today

Is that day

The day I can get up

Walk around

Leave my room

The second floor

The house

The driveway

The street

Walk strong

Full of breath

Without vertigo

Vacuum draining exhaustion

Pressure in the head

Migraines

Body tremors

Without the

Ever present reminder

Of the wheelchair

In the garage

When?

When can it happen already?

2 years isn't enough?

I lose hope a lot

So much so that I stand

Sometimes in my home office

Staring at the diplomas on my wall

My academic accomplishments

That are being wasted

How?

How do I fix this?

How do I feel young again?

Not in a never ending nightmare that includes

A wheelchair

Please

Save me

Help me