Hey guys I'm back again. So we had this big Christmas party at my grandparents like we do every year except this year I wasn't feeling the best and I jus kinda stood off to the side not really deciding to talk but I would occasionally engage in a conversation. Well now my entire fucking family thinks I'm a fucking  weirdo. They're always acting weird around me and they're just avoiding me and it really hurts. Because my brother is always yelling and cussing at me and telling me I'm worthless when my parents aren't home and he's watching us. He's a 15 year old and when I try to tell my parents he always denies and they always believe I'm so fucking tired of it!!  It always Jacob this and Jacob that and I'm just tired of it!!! And I don't tell anyone in my family my problems or even my friends because some of the things I go through I don't want them to know about because then their just gonna pity me and I fucking hate it!! And nobody who's gonna read this will not know me on a personal so writing about it won't really bother me. My family can be nice to me sometimes but then they can't be. Sorry if this was super emotional and I know that of anybody reads  this at all they'll probably think I'm crazy or just plain stupid but yeah that's kinda my life when I'm not at school so yeah...
Man did that feel good to get off my chest. Well see y'all later.