Today is our New Years eve, Lee and I went to the office together holding each other's hands, everyone in the office was staring at us. Lee wanted to remove our hands but I held it tightly. I want everyone to see how proud I am to have a wonderful person in my life.

"Congratulations," They all shouted.

"Ayiiee, Lee will never celebrate his Christmas and New Year alone, it's been like 4 years since you had your last relationship right? And now you are settled, I wish that next year will be your year, I hope you stay together forever," Helen said.

I saw how Lee's face suddenly turned red. I love how white his skin is, I can easily see when he's shy, angry, or afraid.

We smiled and sat on our stations, both of us were happy working.

I saw how Lee smiles whenever our workmates come and congratulate us.

Rommel came next to our sides and apologized for what he did, Lee knew that he has a girlfriend. Rommel told us that he just wanted to help Lee, he is a good man as well.

I accepted his apologies, Lee already told me everything. Besides, the way he made me jealous worked perfectly.

I also discussed Marie and the thing happened to us that night, I thought Lee will be mad but he just smiled and kissed me, he said that as long as I did not initiate it, it's fine with him.

I'm happy having an understanding boyfriend.

Our company gave us a New Year gift and free foods, Lee and I decided to eat together while our friends are sitting next behind us.

This is one of the best New Year Eve I ever had. Eating delicious food with him, and having him by my side.

He wore the best yellow outfit today to welcome the new year and the new us.

It was indeed a roller coaster of feelings for the past months and luckily, I found what happiness means.

This is the end of the page of the love for Me and Lee for this year and we are going to write more stories on the next coming years.

Ali remember that whatever happens you should love him, show him what happiness means, he was the reason behind those smiles in your eyes and lips, he made you the best version of yourself. Make Lee the best guy in this world. Show him the stars through your eyes and show him rainbow through your actions. Colour his life, make it meaningful as possible.

Bye for now.

Ps. I love you, Lee Miguel, forever and ever.

Love love: Ali Michael.

I closed the book where I wrote our love story, I ended it very well, to be honest, it's been like 4 years since I met Lee and I finished writing this book but every time Christmas and New year comes, I'll have my time to read this.

Lee is one of the best things that happened in my life. I was sitting here in the park where we usually go, where we usually enjoy our US time together way back then.

It's been 2 years now since Lee left me here in the Philipines, he needed to go abroad to take his chemotherapy, during our first year he was diagnosed with blood cancer and his parents decided to go abroad for him to have a rest.

The only thing I left was this story that I wrote when we are still together.

The story I made to ease the pain while Lee is far from me, these books have everything that Lee and I had for the past year's. Happiness, sadness and most of all is the love that we built.

We stopped communicating because his parents did not allow him to use gadgets, for the past year's we were sending love letters but it also stopped when Lee's mom called me and told me that Lee was getting weaker that he is having difficulties on writing. I understand it because I know that when a person is undergoing chemotherapy they tend to have a weaker body. Their hair is slowly losing. But his mom told me that he is doing his best for me, for his family and friends.

He is strong and I know that sooner or later he will be back smiling at us. We have lots of dreams to do and I can not wait to fulfil it with him.

I look at the sky to prevent my tears from flowing. Lee told me not to cry when I'm sad because it will never help me, instead, I should smile often to be able to be surrounded by positive vibes.

I took a deep breath and smiled.

Lee, I miss you so much until when are you going to stay there? I hope you get well, I can't wait to see you again.

I want him to stay on my side forever and I promise that once he arrived back I will do everything for him.  I will fill the years that we were not together.

I was sitting on the bench when I received numerous text messages from my friends. Telling me to go to Lee's house.

My heart skipped a beat when I read his name.

A smile grew on my face, I was about to stand up when my wallet fell off the floor, it opened and I saw Lee's photo on it. I picked it up and smiled.

"Now let's see each other again I missed you so much," I kissed the photo and put back on my wallet and pocket.

I took a deep breath when someone shouted my name. I know that voice, I know that it's Lee.

"Baby, what are you doing there," He shouted.

I was stunned, I was just staring at him, my eyes started to water, I tried to stand up and walked near him but my feet were not moving.

"It's you? You're back?" I said.

I'm still crying, I'm still standing waiting for him to walk next to me, but he was just standing, smiling and waiting for me.

I tried my best to walk, he's here but why it seems to like he's still far from me? He's smiling but why do I feel that those smiles are empty. His eyes were wide open but why do I see emptiness and sadness through it? I have so many questions to ask but the only thing that came out from my mouth was.

"I love you, I miss you,"

I fall from the ground, my eyes were already blurry due to crying. I glanced up and saw Lee still smiling and staring at me.

I wanted to shout, I wanted to run but my body is saying different, it's like my body has its own life and I cannot control it.

What's happening to me?

I should be running towards him, hugging him, kissing him and filling him with love that I was not able to provide for the past years.

I wiped the tears on my eyes, I was still sitting, I tried to stand up when he shouted.

He laughed at me, I glanced at him, his laugh never changed but his facial expression is very different, it feels like he is not the Lee that I met a long time ago.

I should be happy, right? But why does it feels like I am a burden, my heart feels empty and heavy.

"Hey, Mr what are you still doing there?" Lee said

Those were the last words I heard from him. I wish everything is just a dream, and if this is a dream, please wake me up. Wake me up to this horrible nightmare.