Guilt

"You sleep here, I'll sleep on the sofa," I heard Giner said as she put me on the bed.

My head is aching.

"Giner, can you stay with me for a while, I need to talk to someone," I said.

I sat up from the bed, Giner sat in front of me and smiled.

"Okay," She answered.

" What will I do now?" I asked.

" Sleep, rest and face it tomorrow," Giner simply answered.

" How am I going to talk to Lee?"

"You know what? Lee is a jolly person, I was able to know him for the past days, and all I can say is that he is like an open book, you can understand him easily by just staring at him. Watch him, keep your eyes towards him and you'll know him more," She said.

" But how? That was our first interaction and I ruined it, "

" Let's put it this way, "Giner said and took a piece of paper and a pen.

" Imagine this is You," She gave me the clean paper.

" And this is Lee, "The pen.

" At first, you are just an empty paper, then Lee came"She continued while writing in the paper.

"Lee made use of you, he is willing to waste he's ink for you, willing to write anything on that paper for it to have a worth," She explained.

"I don't get it," I said and brushed my hair.

"It's simple, Ali, Lee is willing to sacrifice anything, everything for you, the only thing you need to do is to see your worth and his worth as well. Lee is like a pen that is willing to be wasted for you, you heard everything he said earlier, you heard not only the words from his mouth but the thoughts in his mind and his heart, learn to read between the lines, "She said and stood up.

"We are still early tomorrow, let's sleep," She added and went out from the room.

I'm pre-occupied, my mind is full of ideas on what to do, but I don't know how will I do it.

Lee, why are you doing this to me? I laid down to the the the bed and focused on sleeping.

Maybe tomorrow I'll be able to find answers to my questions. I closed my eyes and finally fall asleep.

Lee

As I walked out of the bar, I did my very best not to face Ali, I bid my last goodbye for him. Pat, Helen and Athena we're following me.

I am walking in the middle of the road when I heard a loud horn, I can't move, I just stared at the bright light in front of me when A guy pushed me, we both rolled on the sidewalk. My world started spinning, I heard my friends shouting, I tried to open my eyes when I saw Ali's scared face. He shook my body while waking me up, I was about to touch his face, my hand were raised high when he shouted.

"Lee, Lee wake up, call an ambulance," He shouted.

I thought it was Ali before I closed my eyes, he touched my face. "Blood, fuck, ambulance," He shouted.

It was just an imagination, it was not Ali, it was Rommel, he saved me.

I can still hear my friends calling my name, I smiled before closing my eyes.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw a sharp light that is hurting my eyes, I glanced at my surroundings and everything is plain white. I stood up and tried my best to remember what happened.

I remembered the accident earlier, am I dead?

I roamed inside the room and saw a familiar guy, he walked near me and hugged me, it was Ali.

"What are you doing here!" I asked.

"I'm waiting for you," He answered and smiled.

Now we are alone together.

He held my hands tightly and kissed me.

"Where are we? What are we doing here?" I asked

Instead of answering he walked straight pulling my hands, I am just staring on our hands. Is this a dream? If so, please don't wake me up. Don't wake me up to this beautiful dream.

Ali stopped walking, we sat on an empty bench, we are in the middle of nowhere.

"Look," He said.

I stared at our surroundings when a protector like appear in front of us, showing our photos.

"Why are you showing that to me?" I asked.

"I just want you to know that life is wonderful, look at your genuine smile, how pretty your smile is, and I don't want those smiles to be gone from your face, Lee if I cannot make you happy, can you please promise me to smile again? Smile not for me but yourself. I am sorry if I ruined your life, I ruined your happiness," He explained.

"You did not ruin anything, you should not blame yourself because the problem is not you, it's me, I assumed too much to the extend that I needed to hurt you," I explained.

"Just promise me one thing, if I won't be able to make you happy, please, do everything and make yourself happy again,"

"You are my happiness, how am I going to do that?"

" Just do it, I'm not forcing you, it's a wish that you needed to do, for me, for you, and US"

"US?" I asked.

"Yes, US"

I was about to answer when a light flashed on my eyes, I woke up and saw Ali's head lying down beside me holding my hand.

I roamed around and saw my friends sitting huddled in the corner.

"Wh--what happened?" I asked.

They all run next to my bed. I saw how scared and concerned they are. Even Ali, he was still holding my hand, the way he held my hand is like he was telling me that, I will never let go of your hands again.

"If this was the meaning of what I have dreamed earlier then I'll be happy. If Ali on my dream was telling me to be happy, I will be happy.

I will be happy for me, and the future us.

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