This is already on wattpad but it's going in this book too cuz I said so
Summary: Heather duke ends up purging in the school toilets, Mac goes after her to try to stop her, they miss the rest of school and have a very important conversation and Mac convinces her to try therapy

This is also out of character and so are all my fics cuz umm :3

Tw- bulimia
Please don't read this if you think you'll get triggered by this easily it's not too heavy but stay on the safer side pls!

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There was always a problem for Heather Duke. Whether it was her being chandlers verbal punching bag for years or chandler belittling her bulimia saying she was just 'hopping on the trend'. Life was so much easier when they were all younger no problems about anything and everyone was friends with everyone. Popularity or status didn't matter they were just sweet clueless kids no hate or wrong doing had corrupted them yet.

Then middle school wasn't too bad but popular people were already getting separated from the 'losers'. Chandler made sure that they would become the most powerful and popular clique in school. She started becoming more bitchy but it wasn't too bad and atleast she wasn't homophobic, well she really couldn't be all of the heathers were lesbians after all. Then they got into high school. Everything felt like it fell apart. Mac was still sweet as ever but chandler was really becoming a mythic bitch. It started as small things just saying shut up Heather a lot to her. Then when duke started throwing up her meals. Chandler said she was just hopping on a trend. She wasn't she did it to feel control to atleast have control over something in her life for once. It was something that slowly turned into every meal.

Every time she'd purge chandler would say "grow up Heather bulimia is so '87"
Then Mac, her girlfriend, would always say in the nicest way possible that she should see a doctor, she knows she should. Then when veronica eventually joined their clique. She didn't really say anything about it which was nice because then she could act like she never did throw up the food she ate in the school toilets. If it got out that Heather duke would spend some of her lunch purging in the toilets their reputation would be ruined. Everything they worked so hard for would be gone. There's so many things that if they'd get outside of the clique it would ruin them.

~~~time skip~~~

Lunch. The smell of food already made duke feel sick to her stomach, she hasn't eaten since the evening but she did purge dinner. She just hopes she didn't give in to eat she dosnt want to be bent over the toilet for half of lunch purging her guts out again.

"Heather you good, you zoned out for a minute" Mac said to her.
Duke just nods, she feels so drained and out of it. She stayed up at least half the night because of the stabbing pain in her stomach.
"God such a pillow case" chandler said.

Everyone started eating but still continuing the gossip, no one tried to make her eat, after all she'd purge it all anyway. But still all of them, even Chandler she just can't always show it, knew that if this continued she'd wind up dead.

"Heather maybe you should try eat something even if it's small please" Mac pleaded, she knew this could go two ways going to the bathroom and purging or she could actually eat something and have some more strength. The second one would be practically impossible to play out though even if duke was trying to slowly recover from her bulimia.

"Ok..." was the reply she got, now she just has to convince duke to not purge her guts out.

Heather McNamara got out her lunch, it wasn't those manky school dinners none of the heathers had those Veronica was the only person in the clique who acctually bought stuff from the cafeteria on a regular basis. Veronica and Heather were in a deep conversation discussing something probobly the lunchtime pol idea for tomorrow. That was always something they talk about because one person could only have so many ideas. Heather and Veronica weren't bothered by their hushed conversation so that was good. She just want her girlfriend to finally eat something and not throw it up. What had happened to make her come to this, she was fine in middle school and then high school had happened and it had changed them all, but not this badly?

"What do you want from here?" Mac asked maybe if she let duke choose then she could choose something that would make her a bit more comfortable? "And remember you don't need to eat all of it ok, eat however much you want just eat something"

"Mkay" duke said she wanted to choose something that was small, and she could go purge while Mac would be distracted by chan and ronnie so it wouldn't make her upset. She just decided to take a protein bar.

"But I think it's a good question"

"Well I don't sawyer, Heather Heather tell Veronica that her question for tomorrows lunch time poll is ridiculous"

"It's not!"

"Stop the bickering it's stupid, do your even have any other idea for lunchtime poll tomorrow?" Duke asked this would solve the stupid argument.

"Ugh shut up Heather!" Chandlers answer answered dukes question perfectly.

"Sorry Heather" duke replied with her normal response everyone knew this was normal it was just how they acted. And to be fair duke did always challenge Chandler but both of them know that she dosnt mean it.

While being so absorbed in the argument between Veronica and Chandler, duke hadn't even noticed that she'd already opened the protein bar and already ate all of it.

"Fuck" duke thought.

You fat dyke are you really gonna throw all of your work away

go on go to the toilets quick and throw it up before you digest it

Heather could feel tears pricking her eyes. She couldn't cry not now , not when they were in the canteen. She quickly got up and ran away before anyone could stop her.

"Heather wait" Mac called after her but it didn't work.

"I'm gonna go and try stop her" and with that Mac went after the green girl.

When Mac Was making her way to the regular bathroom there was a sea of freshmen which made it take longer.

When she finally arrived to the toilets she heard wretching sounds. Not good...

Knock knock

No answer, not good.

"Heather, open the door" Mac asked.

Silence

"Heather if you don't open this door i will"

Then there was a chocked breath and then duke broke into sobs.

Mac managed to open the door because duke hadn't locked it in her rush , and there her girlfriend sat on the bathroom floor sobbing while the smell of vomit strongly lingered the toilet. McNamara quickly pulled duke into a hug and murmured sweet nothings into her ear, doing a small rocking position.

In the toilet bowl there were small chunks of undigested protein bar. Yuck. Mac would flush the toilet later her first and most important priority right now was Heather not anything else.

"I'm sorry" duke said it so quietly that if Heather wasn't right next to her then she wouldn't of heard her.

"Baby what are you sorry for, you did nothing wrong"

"I told you I wouldn't throw it up and I did"

Then the smaller girl started sobbing into the shoulder of her girlfriend.

"God chandlers right I am a pillow case I've never cried over purging before why now?"duke thought to herself.

"No no your trying to recover right?"

"Yes"

"Remember recovery isn't Iinear and it can be really hard but I will always be there for you ok"

"Ok and I love you"

"I love you too"

They both shared a small sweet innocent kiss.

"How about we get you sorted out and then get ronnie to write us a note so we can leave?"

"Sure"

Mac helped up duke and they both walked over to the sink. Mac took out some mints out of her bag to give to duke while she also looked for some makeup To reply so it wouldn't be obvious of what has happened in the bathroom.

-10 minutes later-

Duke was finally sorted out, it felt nice to know she dosnt have to do this alone. She smiled for the first time in quite a while a genuine smile.

"Now I'm just gonna text ronnie so we can leave this place"

Ronnie

Mac- hey can you forge a pass for me and duke so we can leave

Ronnie- sure where are you guys and I'll give it to you there

Mac- regular bathroom

Ronnie- ok onw now

"She'll be here soon"

Duke nodded. She wasn't really sure of what to do, the silence was nice though it wasn't like an awkward silence it was those nice comfortable ones.

"I love you Heather" duke told her it just felt like it was right especially in the moment.

"Awh I love you too"

They hugged eachother. Latching onto eachother like it's their only life line and they stayed like that until Veronica came.

"I brought chan too because she says she wants to skip too" Veronica said. "Anyways here's your pass in case you guys get stopped, just don't bang eachother ok"

"Yes we know" mac and duke said it at the same time, that's what Ronnie always says if their hanging out alone with eachother.

"We're gonna go now so bye Heather bye Ronnie"

"Bye" they both said.

Duke didn't feel like sleeping but she felt so tired she just wanted to get home and cuddle with Mac and just forget about today. She also felt so weak so she was just clinging onto her girlfriend or else she'd probobly fall over.

She didn't want to drive either, thank god that Heather could drive because if she would end up driving she'd probobly crash.

"Heather, can you drive, maybe back to yours"

"Sure"

The rest of the way to the car park was silence. Not the wired awkward type of silence the good comforting kinda silence.

-time skip to when their back home at Mac's-

"We're here"

Duke woke up, she didn't even realise that she fell asleep while on the drive. God she felt tired still.

"Heather? You sure your good you keep on zoning out?"

"Mm. Oh yea I'm fine"

The smaller girl flashed a smile and then started to get out the car.

"When we get up to my room we can cuddle because I feel like we haven't cuddled in agessss"

"Of course I missed that"

They both eventually got out the car and upstairs to Mac's room. Getting situated in the bed was quick,they were both tired and just wanted to cuddle. Mac knew this was the time any other time she'd try suggest it she'd probably ignore it or blow up saying she's got it 'under control'. No she didn't. Gods sake! If she kept doing this she'd die, DIE FOR GODS SAKE! She really didn't want to lose duke she was like the most important person in her life.

"Hey baby" Mac started she felt nervous but she had to do it now before it was too late.

"Yeah" duke said while cuddling up to Mac more.

"I think you should get help, you know see a doctor for it or maybe a therapist because I'm scared for you"

"Mac, I've got it all under control remember and I'm trying to get better and it's slowly working very slowly"

"I know your trying to recover and I know it isn't linear and it takes time, but god you've been purging for so long I'm shocked how your not dead. And I know that you will end up dead from it if it won't stop soon enough. That's why I think you should get professional help not try to do it yourself and with me helping you. You know I love you but love can't cure a mental illness baby"

By the end of that duke was going to cry again, god she's cried so much today but damn macs right.

"I'll go..."

"You don't have to bu- wait you'll go"

"Yeah I think it would be good for me, don't think my parents will be happy to find out that their daughters not only a fucked up dyke but one with an eating disorder"

"I'm so happy for you baby and if you want I could go with you to appointments like for moral support waiting for you once your done with the sessions"

"I'd like that" duke said finally smiling for a change.

She smooched Mac on the cheek.

"Now how about we continue that cuddle session and we can talk about this" duke said while making a gesture with her hands, "later, hmm?"

"Gladly" Mac said.

They cuddled with eachother for what seemed like ages, they were both at peace and happy.

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