“Ya! What are you doing Kwan Ho !? You've been making the house a mess since ever it's lost! If you're searching for something, look for it patiently! ” I shouted as I heard my voice echo the whole house. Right now I was standing in my room, glaring at Kwan Ho, who was standing Infront of me, holding my half destroyed burger pack which I ordered for me just a while ago.

Kwan Ho replied me, “ Aniyo Ki Ra! I can't find it anywhere, I am stressed! ” He did sound a bit frustrated, I knew his situation because once even I struggled the same to find my outfit I was supposed to wear for my freind's birthday.

I sighed and said to him, “ it's okay, but search it carefully, when you drag things in and out it will fall everywhere and who knows? it might go hide the visible thing more, am I right? ” and he nodded feeling rather disappointed.

I just reassured him that we would find it and tried to help him out, I rummaged through my drawers and closets to find it, but it was nowhere. I heard footsteps coming towards my room, it was Woo Jin who came to my room, his hands behind. It was causal for me, I was searching for the thing.

Tae Soo ran behind Woo Jin and leaned onto him, I focused back again to the search. But they both giggled while they saw me searching seriously. I glared at them and asked, “Ya! Are you serious!? You're laughing at me? What's up huh!? ”

“haha... Unnie, I feel really bad for you! You're searching for his undie! The truth is, it's with me” replied Woo Jin teasingly, while Tae Soo grabbed the underwear from Woo Jin's hands, which was behind Woo Jin. He waved it like someone showing a stinky sock and both of them giggled, I knew it was an underwear Kwan Ho was looking for, but not that one, which I've never seen before. It was a white undie with pink hearts! sometimes I felt Kwan Ho as a sister, he is really one.

I laughed out smacking the closet door which I held onto, as I saw it. I noticed Kwan Ho's face turn red, and yes he did feel embarrassed. Kwan Ho rushed towards the door from the drawer he was rummaging through a while ago, to grab the undie which was in Tae Soo's palm, I can guess why Tae Soo was messing with Kwan Ho using his, what can I call it... Maybe a pretty Undie, hehehe. I can't get off it's hearts. Okay jokes apart, maybe it's because they want something from him in return, In their language, you can call it a 'deal'.

That's how Tae Soo and Woo Jin get something they want from their siblings fulfilled, ain't it amazing when such funny things happen between siblings? Certainly, they are very funny. However, Tae Soo took away the undie before Kwan Ho reached out to it, then Tae Soo spoke up with a sarcastic smile plastered on his face, “u-u-ah! No undie till you do us the thing we asked you.”

I folded my arms and leaned to the closet watching their drama. “Ya! what do you want from me you peanuts!?” asked Kwan Ho. I hid my giggles and raised an eyebrow trying to act serious. Woo Jin replied, “listen you little banana! I want you to draw me that picture I showed you so I can participate in the competition.” and Tae Soo added, “I want you to make me those pancakes you made for Ji Hye.”

I rolled my eyes, such a pretty problem made them play with his undies, I know about Kwan Ho, he'll do anything to get himself out of trouble. He asked, “if not?”

“if not I will click the prettiest picture of this undie and post it in the Instagram saying 'Park Kwan Ho the new idol's gorgeous undie'” said Tae Soo grinning.

I felt the sweat dripping on Kwan Ho's head as I understood his stress. The whole room felt silent as they spoke no words. After about moments, Kwan Ho nodded agreeing to the conditions. Finally, the war is over. The three of them went away arguing with each other. I was left alone in the room to clean up the mess Kwan Ho made. The fact is that, I shouted at Kwan Ho when he was about to drag out my wardrobe. You know what girls have in their wardrobe, I would have been in a fix if he scattered it all over. So I saved my self screaming at him, now I have to clean up the other mess he made.

As I picked up the books fallen from my desk, I caught the sight of my mother's diary. I always wanted to read a book a long time ago, because I've almost read all the books of my taste in the public library. she gave me her diary where she had recorded about Jeon Kook uncle and Appa. Since ever I had been busy with my job applications, I could not read the last few pages. I think I must read it and finish it off, plus, I have nothing else to do except to clean up the mess.

I tidied the place as soon as possible and sat in the swinging couch in my balcony with the diary. I opened the last pages and started reading it.

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...10.14...

Today was the day when my twin babies came to this world. I never mentioned when I got pregnant. But it happened 9 months ago. And I got the double news that I was pregnant, and the second is, I was expecting twins. Later around the 8th month doctor said that I have a boy and a girl in my belly. Today was the day of delivery. I'm sitting in the hospital bed at the moment, and right now, my husband, Ji Hu is cuddling with the babies leaving me to write my diary.

I'm in extreme pain, I know my love will take a good care of me along with the kids. He's been pecking my hand for hours since the process was over. I asked him what to name my little versions. He said me to choose the name for little Ji hu and he would choose the name for little Jessica. Haha... I love him alot. I kept thinking as to what to name my babies, then I thought of naming something with letter 'K' because that was my second favorite letter. So... Park Kwan Ho. Ain't it cute? I said this to Ji Hu and he said he loved it, and since they were twins, little Jessica also gets a 'K' letter name.

After a pause he said, he wants her to be called as Park Ki Ra. I love that name too, a simple and cute name.

I never told what happened in the past 9 months, when I got to know I was going to be a mommy, I rushed down stairs to tell this to Ji Hu. He was jumping out of joy as soon as I told him the good news. Ki Yun and Ji Hu planned my baby shower. After I got my baby bump, they held the baby shower and to be honest I was really shy at the teasings I got from Eun Rii that day. Then a waiter came and mistakenly spilled the juice on me because he sprained his leg, I didn't make it a fuss, I went inside the room to get changed, after I was done I rubbed my belly and said to my children to be strong. As I came outside, Ji Hu pushed me back to the bed.

It startled me, I asked what happened, he pointed to the knife pricked onto the wall, he saved me from being killed! Who might have tried to kill me? I still have this question. He picked me up carefully, and read the letter, it Said, “you will be dead with you kids soon! Don't expect them to this world.” I don't know anything, but Ji Hu got really afraid afterwards, he refused all the contracts he got from HYBE. He took a break from his works till my delivery was over.

The day before the delivery, yesterday, the tragic incident happened. It was raining heavily that night, Jeon had texted Ji Hu that he is in a trouble. Ji Hu didn't want to leave me, I insisted him to go toward Jeon. After millions of trials, he left leaving me and my kids in my belly home alone. As he left, I stood near the doorstep waving at him, as I rubbed my belly, someone hit me hard on my head from behind, I don't know who it was, I only can say that it looked kind of some woman fully covered in black, since my vision was blur. She hit me again and my vision blurred even more, my belly got squeezed to the wall and the pain was unbearable, I fell down loosing my conscience.

At the hospital, after the procedure Ji Hu said me that nothing had happened to Jeon, he was hit hardly on his head to loose conscience and someone else texted from his phone. It was a disgusting prank, he thought so, he came all the way home after treating Jeon. He found me laying at the doorstep, blood dripping from my head. He picked me up and got me into the car.

He almost lost his senses, he drove all the way to the hospital cursing the one who did that to me. I regretted sending him to Jeon, I should have confirmed about Jeon calling Eun Rii. I felt really sorry for putting him in that trouble. I will never forgive myself for this. Ji Hu said that as he drive halfway the tire of the car got punctured and that too because someone had set up nails on the road, purposely to stop us from reaching the hospital.

He thought it was the same person who tried to stab me on the baby shower. He carried me in his arms running all the way to the hospital. I glanced his swollen and wounded feet as he said this to me. He won't be able to walk for sometime, I got him treated while my babies were being tested. I was thankful to him for bringing me here on time. I just don't really know who did this, but I don't bother to know, my kids are safe, My family is safe now. But one day he or she might try to harm my family again, they won't be able to do anything, because my family is very strong.

That was the tragic incident. Now my kids are safe... Here comes the doctor, he says I can go home but might face difficulties in sitting and walking about a month. However, my husband and kids will heal me soon. That's all...

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I closed the diary wondering about everything that had happened to eomma, I felt those tears in my cheek, I wiped them quickly as soon as I heard my mother from behind, “Ki Ra, look your brother has a pink undi—” she noticed me wiping my tears I think. She said walking toward me,“oh, you read my diary? I thought you finsihed it already.” I didn't bother to reply her, I just wrapped my arms around her, still weeping. I wasn't sure whether she heard my words clearly, but I said weeping and cracking inbetween my words, “I love you so much Eomma, You've experienced alot Eomma. I love you alot.”

She patted me as a tear dropped from her eye, she rubbed it off and consoled me calmly saying, “Mwoya Ki Ra? you're still like a child, you're a grown up girl, you are 18 now, come on take a chill pill. Forget the past, it's 18 years since it all happened.” I pulled back from the hug as she pecked me in my forehead.

I heard my mother was the beautiful woman in HYBE when she was young. Even now her beauty hasn't faded away, she has not a single wrinkle in her face, just that, we can say she has grown old once she tells her age only, other than that she's so beautiful. I love her so much for she had gone through alot, the strongest woman I ever met in my life.

After this emotional moment was coming back to normal, I asked Eomma , “where is your love?” teasingly. I couldn't believe she blushed when I asked that. Her young features made her look more adorable, I can garuntee that appa would not waste a single second to peck her cheeks till they are red. Just before I closed my mouth finishing off the sentence, I found him standing at the door.

I said, “There comes HYBE's handsome star!” and it left Appa with a smile. He came and threw his arms around eomma, pecking her forehead. And then shifted toward me. I asked, “what's so special that Eomma and Appa have come all the way to my room?” rubbing the sheets over my comfy bed, and patting beside me for Appa to sit. He sat beside me and said sliding his arms on my shoulder, “Jeon Kook uncle and Eun Rii aunty are coming over”

“Jinjja!?” I sprang from the bed, excited. I was waiting a long time to meet them. I continued after a pause, “Omo Jinjja!? Appa is big J coming for real?” and Eomma nodded for him. I asked if I could convey this message to my brothers. You might be wondering who is big J. I know my Eomma's story, of course I knew that Jeon uncle loved my Eomma.

I call him big J because I had that habit since ever I was in my childhood. Another reason is that he gets m chocolates everytime he came over. I guess he was the main reason for chocolates to be my most favorite. As I rushed out of the room, I peaked behind through my shoulders to see what Eomma and Appa were doing.

I realized I had nothing to do between a husband and wife when they are talking in private. So I closed the door behind me, making sure nobody disturbed the couple. I chuckled at the thought that they were still behaving like teenagers in love. I rushed through the stairs to find my troublemakers seated in the couch, one in the laptop, one in the phone and the other reading a book. I noticed that Kwan Ho was missing, then as I glanced to my left and saw him carry a plate of pancakes from the kitchen for Tae Soo.

Yeah right, I forgot what Tae Soo wanted him to do in order to hide Kwan Ho's undie matter. Hehe, I walked forward and sat across them. Kwan Ho laid the plate and sighed dramatically saying, “Ottoke, I can't make any more pancakes, please!” and Tae Soo nodded, satisfied with what he got.

I added, “okay babies, Eyes on to Ki—”

“go mind your own business please!” I heard Ji Hye cut me off, still working on the laptop. She's such a interrupter! Interrupts whenever I try to speak. I ignored her and continued, “Eyes onto Ki Ra. Big J is coming over with Eunah aunt!”

I knew nobody heard me because they were busy, if they understood what I was saying, they would turn the house into a mess out of excitement. Uh.. I think one person did pay attention to me ,“really! Ki Ra are you saying the truth! Lover boy is coming over!” it was Kwan Ho. Now, he calls uncle Jeon as lover boy because he always catches Eun Rii aunt and uncle Jeon flirt with each other. Funny right, once Kwan Ho repeated it, that was when all the siblings went crazy realizing what I just jabbered!

I kind of felt a slight Jelous when Kwan Ho called Big J as lover boy. because it's cooler than what I call him as. However, I wasn't surprised to find uncle Jeon at the door.

“Anneaughaseyo! My lovely babies!” ran in uncle Jeon, with his hand full of bags and gifts, leaving his wife and children to follow behind him. As usual, he brought us a load of gifts which we admire the most.

I leaded uncle inside the hall, halfway from the corridor, “Hello Jeon Uncle, it's really happy to have all of you here.” and he replied with a nod, hobbling with his heavy bags. I helped him carry the bags, as I loaded them on the dining table, pulling a chair for uncle Jeon to rest, Eomma and Appa came to the hall.

I glanced at the corridor to find Eun Rii aunt walking in, holding little Do Ha's tiny fingers. She was my most favorite cousin, 5 years old. I gave a slight nod to aunt and carried little Do Ha in my arms. I turned to see Tae Soo and Ka Ya hugging each other, Tae Soo loved spending time with her, maybe because he has that crush on her yet. I grinned as I watched Tae Soo blush around her. Oh, yeah she was 16 years old, same age of Tae Soo's.

The eldest child of Jeon uncle was Lee Min. He was Woo Jin's favorite and Kwan Ho's partner in crime, Even he was 18. Whoever I introduced few minutes ago were Jeon uncle's children.

How nice it is to have your family members around you, gathered after a long time. I was even more happy to see Jeon uncle and Dad together. Of course, Dad and Jeon uncle were best buddies, so he loved spending time with him, same goes to eomma and aunt.

I carried Do Ha and leaded the group of youngsters to the garden, where I love spending most of the time. The best thing is yet to come, the beach! You might have known we have our own beach behind our garden, we are allowed to go there only in the evenings.

I sat on a chair set up in the round table, others sat around it. Do Ha and Ji Hye were swinging in the swing I had built for Ji Hye when she was small. As we sat I heard Eomma and Appa coming with uncle and aunt. I called out for Jeon appa, “Big J! Over here.”

“Well, I would be happy if you would stop calling me Big J, Ki Ra.” he said feeling awkward and a bit shy.

“why?” I asked giggling.

“well, It's just embarrassing when an 18 year old girl calls her uncle like that” he said calm but acting a bit embarrassed. This made me laugh out loud.

“Ah ha! Call him lover boy, like me!” interrupted Kwan Ho as he distributed the pancakes for all. I glared at him trying to grab a pancake, but he smacked my hand causing me to flinch. He said, “no pancakes for a twin who glares!”

I was really hungry but he never allowed me atleast to touch the pancake. It was that 'If your bad am your dad' material, Hehe. I continued to conversate with Jeon Uncle as he joined the table with a pancake in his plate.

“uncle , is it okay if I call you Jeon Appa?” and I wasn't surprised when he nodded happily hearing that. The reason why I chosed to call him as 'Appa' was because he also once loved my mother alot, and wanted to acquire her. His good and beautiful qualities never change. After about a while, Eomma and Appa joined the scene.

“Ya! Jeon KooK, Eun Rii's eommonim complained me that you have been telling her excuses to prevent her from coming to your home to meet Eun Rii, is it true?” asked Eomma playfully.

Jeon Appa choked when he heard eomma speak and swallowed the pancake with much difficulty. You might be wondering why I'm eyeing the pancakes, I haven't got one yet! Kwan Ho yaaa! I heard Jeon Appa reply Eomma,“ she called you? Yeah she can call you because you're her daughter's bestie boo!” He sort of teased Eomma.

“hmm... It means it's true! Seems like someone doesn't like their mother-in-law intervening in their world.” giggled Appa. Eomma slightly smacked gesturing him to stop it since kids were around.

When everybody were almost done with pancakes, Eun Rii aunt asked Kwan Ho, “Kwan Ho, weren't you planning to apply for HYBE selections?”

“I did aunt, I'm waiting for the results.” replied Kwan Ho.

“What about you, Ki Ra?” asked Jeon uncle. I replied, “Well, actually— I don't like lying but, I tried more than 5 interviews and I was kicked out.” everybody laughed there, literally everyone! All were laughing at me!