NATSU's POV

ALL I did was to stare at my office door the moment she stepped out. I have lots of things to say to her but all my words just vanished in my throat the moment I heard all the things that she kept on herself for I don't know how long.

'You don't need to say anything, Natsu. But I want you to know that I really tried so hard to make you happy. I tried to fix you but I ended up being broken.'

I don't intend to break her that way... I close my eyes tightly when her words ring in my ears once again. My heart clenched in pain again... 'You don't have the rights! You have no rights to accuse me that day. You have no rights to take me like that. But still, you never heard anything from me after that. You never heard me say anything despite the fact that I should ask you for a lot of things'

I'm sorry Lucy... I am very sorry for what I had done to you. I am so mad to myself. Mad that I hurt the woman who stayed with me on my darkness years.

"Damn..." I murmured.

I DIDN'T avoid his punch and I just stood there in front of him. He was cursing and shouting but I kept my lips sealed - Erza on the other side was just watching like she just there to make sure that this guy will kill me because of what I did to her friend "How could you break her?" he said as he grabbed my collar "How could you show your face right now?"

"Tell me where is she?" I murmur. I need to apologize to her "Tell me where is Lucy?"

I cursed under me breathe when he punched me in my face again "YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHTS TO SAY MY SISTERS NAME!" he shouted

"S-Sister?" I say disbelief is really visible in my voice and I'm sure also in my face

"Yes! I am her big brother" he chuckled darkly "You don't even know that she had a big brother? Well, what do I expect? You and Lisanna just dictate my sister's life as you owned it! Well sorry to say this to you! I won't fucking let you near my sister."

"I-I..."

"Your sorry won't change anything to my sister. You just leave her nothing but pieces of her broken heart."

I was left there dumbfounded. I grip a handful of my hair and tug on it hard "I-I..." I don't even know what to think? All I want to do right now is to beg to her... to apologize but... but I don't know how to start "Damn it..."

"You don't deserve her!" Erza yell.

I looked directly on her eyes as I smile bitterly "You're right. I don't"

"Just don't find--"

"But I love her," I say as I feel the pain in my chest - the same pain whenever I remembered her begging me not to touched her "I fucking love her! I'm so stupid. God, I'm so stupid!"

But I know... I don't deserve her... not even a little.

"You finally realize right? That you love her!"

"That's not the problem!" I shouted "Do you even know what I feel right now? I just hurt the woman who stayed with me in my darkness years. I just fucking..." I can't even say what I've done to her - I can't even say that I raped my own wife because of my jealousy.

Erza sigh and pat my head like a kid "Listen, Natsu" she started as she looks directly in my eyes "You'll forever pay for what you did. You need to make her happy. And to do that you need to stay. Lucy loves you. I know it will never be erased even though you act like that. Even after everything you have done, even she pushed you away. You have to stay with her. You'll forever remember how you treat her, how you broke her... and for as long as you love, you will bear the pain of hurting the woman you love."

"Erza?"

"But still I hate you for hurting her."

I BIT my lower lips when I remember that day - the day when I realize I fucked up big time. I picked up my phone and I look at my wallpaper. It was her when she was singing - probably it was the time that I was sick and I asked her to sing for me "I am very sorry, Lucy."

It's been two years since Lucy left me... all I did has waited for her to come back. I even cut all the connection I had with my flings before - it just that Leona really pushes herself with me a while ago and I just have mistaken her into Lucy so I kissed her.

I picked up the brown enveloped that Lucy left here in my office and when I saw the document insides her words rung in my ears again as I read the document 'You don't have the rights! You have no rights to accuse me that day. You have no rights to take me like that. But still, you never heard anything from me after that. You never heard me say anything despite the fact that I should ask you for a lot of things'

I clench my fist... as I grip a handful of my hair and tug on it hard... I am very sorry on what I've done and I'm very sorry that I can't give you the freedom that you wanted because I will take you back to my arms once again... because...

Lucy Heartfilia - Dragneel is belonged to me, not to anyone else.