Jessa's POV

For the fifth time in a row I sighed. For an hour now I'd sat on my bed completely confused. The sun was setting, the afternoon light seeping through the curtains into my room.

Why was the universe so against me? It took so much courage to walk into Alec's office and even more to ask to use his laptop.

I got it in the end and i only had to suffer a few mean comments and glares. I even did a little victory dance on the way back to my room.

Things were finally looking up for me.

Then I sit in front of the machine ready to do some job hunting only to find out that computers had changed drastically over the last few years.

For an hour now I'd been staring at the screen. His wallpaper was a picture of Agnes, an ear splitting grin plastered on her chocolate covered face.

While I'd found the picture endearing in the beginning, Agnes's grin was starting to piss me off. It felt like she was mocking me.

"Ugh! How do you work this thing!" I groaned. So far I'd made no progress.

I'd only figured out how the mouse worked. I tried looking for a web browser.

I clicked on different icons hoping to find one but I stopped when I ended up opening porno videos a couple of times. Turns out Alec watches a lot of porn.

The thought of him jacking off flashed through my mind but I shut it down.

Seeing him shirtless around the house was already doing things to me, I didn't need to add my dirty thoughts to that.

I closed the laptop and turned on the bed, my eyes trained on the ceiling. I had to get a job. I needed money so I'd be able to get out of here.

Alec never missed an opportunity to blatantly tell me how unwanted my presence in his home was.

I was tired of it and I wanted...no needed to get out. If I worked hard enough, I'd have enough money to move out and rent an apartment near Mama's house.

That way I'd be able to visit her as often as possible... hopefully everyday.

Plus Alec would finally be rid of me so he can move on and be happy. I'd even go out of my way to make sure we'd never accidentally bump into each other.

It'd be like I never came back in the first place. His happiness or at least a semblance of it was ruined when I came back into his life.

I'd do anything to make sure he's okay again..even if it hurts me.

Now all I needed was said job.

Ask Alec!

No! Absolutely not!

You don't know how to use this thing. He does!

He already hates my guts. He won't help. He'll just insult me.

Or he'll help.

You don't know that.

Neither do you!

I groaned again. I was actively having an argument with myself inside my head. It was official.

Call me the new Mayor of Crazy town.

Stop stalling and go ask him!

Okay okay okay! I'm going.

I pulled myself off the bed. Grabbing the laptop, I made my way to Alec's office.

Alec's POV

"No Damien. I don't care if the phone case is fucking purple...just buy the damn phone." I said seething. Why didn't I buy the damn phone myself?

I could have avoided all this. But no, I just had to ask Damien.

To be fair it'd seemed convenient at the time. Now? Not so much.

"You have to care Alec! What if her favorite color is blue and you get her brown? She won't be happy!"

I groaned pinching the bridge of my nose.

"If you don't stop this right now, I'll shoot you in the balls the next time I see you." i threatened.

I love my best friend. I really do but man was he annoying. It takes a special kind of person to be able to deal with Damien on a daily basis.

"But Alec-" I hung up before he could say more. I didn't even care whether Jessa like the phone or not.

It's a phone, she isn't supposed to have feelings about it.

Besides, I was only buying it for her because Cece kept complaining about not having enough time with Jessa.

Sure she was exaggerating but I understood her. She'd missed her daughter.

I thought it'd be a good idea to get her a phone so Cece could call her as often as possible.

I just wanted her to be happy so she'd get better.

Soft footsteps heading towards the office interrupted my thoughts.
I could feel my body slowly tense up the closer she got.

When she stopped in front of the door, I unknowingly held my breath. She didn't knock. I found it cute how terrified she was of me.

"Just come in. I know you're there." I said.

The door opened and she slowly stepped in. The scent of strawberries filled the office. Her hair was messy, like she'd run her hands through it a couple of times.

She still hasn't changed her clothes.

Fuck! Just when I'd managed to calm down.

"Uhm..i wanted to ask you something." She whispered, her eyes trained on the floor, a giant red tinged her cheeks.

I had no idea what she was going to ask but her behavior was amusing.
Involuntarily, my brow raised

"Yes? What do you need this time?" I asked, feigning annoyance.

"Uhm...I don't know how to use it." She whispered, gesturing to the laptop in her hands. Her voice was so small that if you hadn't been listening really closely, you wouldn't hear a thing.

But i had been listening. I smirked at how cute she looked.

"I didn't quite catch that. What did you say?" I asked, pretending not to have heard her.

She looked at me. It was obvious I'd heard her. She huffed.

I raised both eyebrows, giving her a look.

"I said I don't know how to use it!" She said angrily, gritting her teeth, her eyebrows furrowed.

I have no idea why but I burst out laughing. With her tiny frame, she looked like an angry kitten.

She reminded me of Dahlia, Jenna's car, when she was but s few weeks old. The red on her cheeks deepened considerably.

"Forget I asked." She said, turning around and walking out of my office, slamming the door behind her.

Her leaving sobered me up.

Fuck!

I got out of my chair and ran after her. She wasn't in the hallway so I headed to her room.

I barged in to find her sobbing on her bed, her face buried in her pillow.

"No, no cariña, don't cry. I didn't mean to you " I said, walking to her bed. {Darling}

"Go away! I hate you!" She said, sobbing louder, her words slightly muffled by the pillow.

Jessa was an overemotional fryer. For some reason, everytime she cried it was like she turned into a child.

She probably never realized it but she turned babyish each time she cried. I found it pretty endearing back then.

You still do.

"I'm sorry cariña. I wasn't laughing at you. You just looked too adorable." I coerced, rubbing her back in slow comforting circles.

It was like we'd both forgotten who we were, what had happened between us. It was like we were back to before...before she left..before her twin died...

We were back to when it was just her and I, two teenagers who were madly in love.

I was aware of the words slipping out of my mouth but I had no control.

It was like I was stuck in a trance. The part of me that still loved Jessa had taken over. I'd called her darling twice.

She abruptly turned over and sat up. Her eye had turned red and puffy, her nose was reddish as well as she sniffed and wiped her eyes.

Adorable. So fucking adorable!

"You're lying. You were laughing because I said I don't know how to use a laptop."

"Id never do that. I'm sorry if I made you feel that way." Why the fuck was i apologizing? I was supposed to be mad at her.

I shouldn't even care that she's crying.

"You swear you're not lying?"

"I swear cariña." That word again. Damnit!

"O-okay. I believe you." She said sniffing again.

"I'll show you how to use it okay?" She nodded slowly. She looked so adorable.

I grabbed the laptop from her bedside table.

"Okay. Here's what you do. First...." I trailed off when I turned to look at her only to find her staring at me.

I looked at her. For years I'd dreamt of her, her emerald green eyes haunting my dreams and my every waking moment. I would sit and think about her.

I'd wonder what she was doing, I'd wonder if she was missing me as much as I was, I'd wonder if she was thinking about me.

I'd wonder if she'd ever come back, I'd wonder when if her to hold and kiss her, I'd wonder if I'd ever get to hear her laugh or see her smile.

And with each thought tears would fall from my eyes and my chest would burn with pain.

Staring into her eyes at this moment I realized that I'd never be able to get her out of my life, out of my heart.

She leaned closer, our lips almost touching. I could feel her warm breath on my face.

"Once...just once..." She whispered, her voice trembling at the intimacy of the moment we were sharing.

Without a second thought, I crashed my lips to hers.  I felt her tears fall down her face, wetting my cheeks...maybe they were my tears.

I wasn't sure at that point. At that moment the world around us disappeared, the chaos, everything was silent.

All that was left was her and I and this moment.

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🤭🤭🤭Wow.. didn't think things would get heated so quickly.

😂💔Now the question is... what's happening next?

I honestly don't know how the chapter ended like this...😂this wasn't meant to happen. Oh well.

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-Daisy