My fingers shake,
My stomach turns,
I feel nauseated.

I see your name and my eyes light up,
But my heart also fills with dread.

I want so badly to open your message.
In hopes that it'll make me smile like it used to.

But things have changed.

You don't think of me like you used to.
I don't see you like I used to.

Somewhere along the line I started to like you.
Somewhere along the line I accepted you didn't like me.
Somewhere along the line I realized I was "just another girl" to you.
Somewhere along the line I realized I couldn't just be another girl. I was so much more.

I hold back until I can't anymore and I open your message, holding my breath.
When did something so sweet turn so sour...