And as you yell, as my family sits their letting out disappointed sighs I can't help but smile.

Your voice is the same as

the yelling voice I hear in my head telling me I'm better of dead.

Or the feeling when your surrounded by "friends" knowing your truly alone in the end.

Sitting their struggling to listen in class. When their an even bigger mental test you hope to pass.

So no my grades aren't 90's, but I passed the biggest class of all. when struggling between with my mind in class I won.

Instead of picking death I chose to live. So here I sit smiling against what you all say. If I wasn't so smart, I wouldn't be sitting here today.