Hoseok was still asleep, and Jeongguk was still on tumblr.

He had laid Hoseok's body down horizontally against Jeongguk's pillows so his neck wouldn't hurt in the morning, and was now sitting against the headboard.

The people kept asking about J-Hope (as Jeongguk had decided to refer to him online) and Jeongguk kept obliging. It wasn't as weird as it would've been if Hoseok's been awake, but Jeongguk still had to look at him every minute or so to make sure he didn't know what Jeongguk was doing. (And also just to look at him, because he was curled up on himself and had this little smile on his face, as if his dream was pleasant. Jeongguk hoped it was; Hoseok deserved pleasant dreams. And pleasant everything.)

Jeongguk had completely given up on getting over his crush. His guide was no help, despite being infallible.

Because, he realized, it's not a guide to getting over love.

Fuck.

He looked down at Hoseok and wondered what it would be like to kiss him. To hold him in his arms. To have Hoseok feel the same fire in his fingertips whenever looking at Jeongguk.

Wouldn't that just be all his dreams coming true at once?

Hoseok's hair looked so soft, Jeongguk wanted to run his hands through it.

He didn't. He went online and ordered more plushies instead. He had an upcoming giveaway, after all, for the people who said he should tell Hoseok how he felt.

What would you say? Jeongguk watched Hoseok's chest rise and fall gently.

Would you stop smiling, if even for a second, before letting me down with pity in your eyes? Jeongguk looked at Hoseok's eyelids, how they fluttered open occasionally, his eyelashes dark and pretty. (So, so pretty.) (Like everything else about him.)

Would things be awkward? Would you act normal but inside always be wondering whether I still loved you?

Would you love me back?

Jeongguk didn't know what to think. He knew Hoseok like he knew his own mind, but he had never done this before. 'This' meaning any of it: having such strong feelings for someone, not having a clue what the other person thought, everything. Jeongguk felt like he was drowning in uncertainty.

Hoseok shifted beside him and made a small humming noise in the back of his throat. Jeongguk reached for his phone and opened tumblr again.

jkitsjeongguk

im probably gonna die tonight. it's been nice knowing u guys <3

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