FREYA'S POV -

My first instinct was to flinch away immediately. How the hell he ended up in my room? My glare towards Daniel turned icy and dark. "What are you doing here?"

"Relax, kitten. Just came to talk, that's all." He said slyly.

"Don't call me kitten." I barked.

"Hey hey, stop fighting you two. Frey, are you okay? You sounded pretty hurt. It was like you were terrified." Ally spoke up.

"Nah, just a nightmare, horrible one." I shrugged. My thoughts went back to my dream, correction, nightmare. That was really horrible. Having two husbands and a boyfriend already and having them all in my home and two of them raping me? What about never? Oh god.

I guess it was just the thoughts I had been thinking last night. I was thinking about all three guys that had already confessed their feelings to me. One being the ex.

"Okay, I'll let you guys alone to talk." Ally stood up from the bed and left my room while giving an understanding look towards me.

I sighed audibly and Daniel looked at me. I shrugged subconsciously.

"Are you guys together now?" He asked bluntly.

"Who?" I raised my eyebrows, confused. Who was he talking about, Zac or Niall?

That's right, hell I was confused, so was my life.

It was confusedly fucked up.

"You and Horan." I frowned at his answer. How did he know we hung out?

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"Stop the act; you two are the main headline for celebrity gossip." Daniel rolled his eyes.

I made a face and rolled my eyes, too. "So what if we are?"

"Just wondering. What about Zac?"

"Are you here to inquire me, Daniel?"

"Just answer."

"What if I don't want to answer?"

"Then you get to deal with the actual Daniel."

"Aren't you Daniel right now? Or are you bipolar?" I was confused.

He leaned in a bit, eyes narrowing. "You know what I'm taking about."

"I- I really don't." I flinched at his tone of voice, it was slow, and harsh.

He sighed at my stupid attempt of a reply and closed his eyes while my eyebrows furrowed. Stepping back, he opened his eyes and I was actually surprised to see his eyes a natural shade of light brown. It was so soothing, calming, even.

"You are aware of my feelings towards you, Kitten. Yet you..." He trailed off.

"Yet me? I what?" I asked. "I what, Daniel?" When he stopped for several seconds.

"Yet you play with my feelings. Stop doing this, it hurts." He looked down.

I don't know what came over me, but I couldn't help but speak. "Oh, so now the big Daniel is hurting, wow. Big deal."

"Freya..." He looked at me and that's when I saw hurt clouding his eyes. Woah.

"Are you... Are you really hurt? Like, you really like me? As in?" He sighed at my question. It was dumb of me to answer.

"I've told you, you even considered it. Yet you go over and kiss Zac like that." A scowl took over on both of our faces.

"First of all; you know how I feel about Niall. Secondly; I've told you that I do not carry any type of feelings towards you, thirdly; I never kissed Zac, we both were into it. And it happened, eventually. Nothing's wrong about it." I finished.

"The key word is felt. You felt for Niall. You two are over now. That's why I told you about the feelings for you. I'd never try to put off your relationship with him." He looked down, not meeting my eyes.

"Look at me." I demanded.

He looked at me. "What? You know I like you."

"No, you just like the idea of me. We were friends, Daniel. What happened to that? You were your own person, don't let your feelings control you now. You know it perfectly that I won't be choosing you anytime. Hell, I'd never play this choosing game if it was in my demand. You have to respect my feelings too, the way I feel about Niall." I slowly speak.

"I think you're right, but... I like you, not the idea of you. I respect your choices and feelings, but you have to open your eyes too." He said carefully, he even held my hand. But his tone changed, his breathing became uneven and he let go of my hand. "The guy you're hurting yourself for is out there enjoying the time of his life, he's just drinking beer and acting all sunshine and rainbows as if he doesn't have a care in this world. You're beating yourself up to get back with him because you still have feelings for you, but guess what? He is enjoying while meeting up with you." His eyes turned a bit darker.

"Daniel, stop before I say something I regret." I said lowly.

"No, hear me out. Just like the way you said that I like the idea of you, how about I say that you only like the idea of Niall? Huh? Would that hurt? Of course! Because you love him! While I'm here, left alone because I fell for the girl who fell for another guy but not me!" His voice was loud, but not on the verge of breaking point.

I was shocked. How long has it been, the way it was? Did I skipped some times of my life and forgot to even remember?

"Daniel, you... How long? How long you've kept these feelings to yourself?" Her voice croaked.

"Good job! You finally had the courage to ask that." He rolled his eyes. "It's been months. You know? When you started seeing Horan for the first time? That's when I realised..."

"Why didn't you confessed to me then?" I asked.

"I saw that you were starting to grow feelings for him and Karry said that she will try to-" I cut him off.

"Wait, hold on." I held up my hand. "Who the hell is Karry?"

"She's my cousin. Anyway, I was really infatuated with you but later on I felt this, this jealousy coming over me when I saw you two together, kissing, it was over whelming." He sighed. "I just couldn't control it."

"What should I do then?" That came off rude and I did not intend to.

"You should give me a chance, then. I swear that will be worth it." He said, smiling a bit. Hope clouding his eyes.

"I'm just so sorry I can't give you what you want." I muttered whilst looking down to my hands.

I looked up to see he has already closed his eyes briefly, but then opened them. Sighing sharply, and moving his hand through his hair, quite attractively might I add, he made eye contact with mine. I was confused to see his eyes so distant.

"Okay."

That's what he spoke.

Then he stood up, swayed his legs over to the floor, picked up his phone and keys...

And then he left.

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After hours of laying in bed, thinking and swimming in them, I decided I should take a shower and see what everyone is up to.

Turning on the tap, I decided to take a bath. Putting in the bath bomb, I stripped and laid in the water which was like a boiling water for my body. I winced but soon my body was used to the scorching warmth.

Immediately, my thoughts went back to Niall. What if Daniel was right? What if Niall is back just to see if he likes the idea of me, too? What if I like the idea of him only? Those thoughts freaked me out. Goosebumps rose on my skin, my breathing became ragged, and I closed my eyes, going deeper into the water.

No, I will not allow Niall to hurt me all over again by walking off. I will not fall again for his charm like I had five months ago. I can pretend to be like that, but I will brace my self.

Who am I kidding? This is me, Freya Maxwell, who is anything but confident. Me, who gets vulnerable every fucking time Niall touches my hand. Me, who can't control their hormones while being close to Niall. Me, who is an absolute chicken. Me. Only me. You can't expect something like that from me.

I took a sharp intake of air when Niall's beautiful face swerved in my vision. The blonde hair of him, the beautiful curve of his lips...

Oh how much I've missed kissing them lips, or how I used to call him mine when I was the one cheating on him...

Stop that, that's not called cheating. My brain was confused. I can tell that I totally love Niall and only him. Screw that. I'll ask him to meet me and I'll pour everything I've been thinking, to him. I'll tell him how much I love him. I'll tell him how much he means to me and how I've missed the feeling of his lips against mine. I'll do everything what a boy does to get his women back. It's time to get my man back, I guess.

Wait. What if he rejects me? What if he gives me that idea of a no? What if he feel I'm being weird? What if he thinks of me lowly because I act like a mad women? What if I mess everything up? What if he ignores me? Or worst, what if he never reply to my text?

Oh god, I think I'm going crazy. Dear god, help me. Please.

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