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Chapter 17

Omkara's closes his eyes as his eyes fills looking around their room, He smiles sadly while taking the sindoor in his palm. He, gulps the lump which was forming wasn't it yesterday he had filled her parting? , putting it back on its place Omkara walks towards the cupboard to freshen up to clear his mind, His lips curve up as a lone tear makes its way through the corner of his eyes, seeing her dresses lying beside him .

"It's Mine !" Omkara shuts his eyes tightly for talking it out louder, The Fact He was married and He is ought to share his things with his wife seems to be harder than He had thought it would be.

"So?" Gauri raises her one brow challenging him to speak out, She bites her lower lip to stop herself from giggling seeing him gulping.

He runs his fingers in his hairs as his heart aches each thing around reminding about her– He thrusts the towel in his hand as he marches towards the washroom. Letting the tears mix with the flowing water under the shower he lets out a cry , Wasn't I that worthless that I do not deserve happiness? Had I become that heartless that she left me?

He walks out the with a towel wrapped around his waist, He smiles seeing her sitting in front of him but his smile vanishes as he blinks. He gulps Wasn't it yesterday that she selected a dress for me? and made me wear a shirt? ,

Omkara dresses up pulling out his phone he dials her number She cannot leave me just like that! , He rings continuously but from the other end, there isn't any answer frustrated he throws the phone making it bounce on the bed.

He runs his fingers around his face, his heart aching the very thought of she walking away from him. Omkara sees his phone ringing, Without wasting a second he answers the call "Maaji" he whispers shocked.

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Omkara pants as he had almost run up twelve floors by staircase as he wasn't having the patience to wait for the lift. There he saw His Minion sitting frozen with her head hanged down. Omkara moves his eyes from her to Pinky who was crying standing in front of the ICU. Pinky notices Omkara and hot tears wells up as she cries harder  Omkara without wasting time he runs towards Pinky.

Omkara hugs Pinky sideways as he pacifies her "Papaji is strong haina –He will make it through Maaji—Now stop crying –You are the pillar of our family –If you break how will others be? –Be strong –Just like my good Mama okay?"

Pinky nods wiping her tears , Omkara soothes her shoulder kissing her temple. Pinky moves her eyes from Omkara to Gauri who was sitting frozen since the time she came. Omkara blinks her eyes assuring her as he leaves her.

Omkara kneels down in front of Gauri who was watching him without even blinking. Omkara takes her hands which were in her lap into his. She doesn't protest instead she lets him.

"Come—with—me" He whispers softly trying to pull her up but Gauri sits glued to the chair. Omkara sighs and pulls her by her forearm and drags her out of the ward as she follows him like a robot.

Once at a desert place Omkara makes her sit on the nearby chair. She sits like a robot – her eyes icy and emotionless.

Omkara kneels down in front of her as he lifts her chin up using his thumb, tiny droplets fall on his palm.

"Gauri—Titli" He calls her quickly seeing the dam breaking he stands up and pulls her in a hug . Gauri buries her head onto his stomach as she sobs "Dada—Dada—Om—Dada"

Omkara holds her tightly as he cups her face hurriedly "Sssh—Dada is a Fighter –He would come back!" Omkara assures her as she cries onto his palms.

"Doctors aren't saying anything" She sobs into his chest standing up "I need My Dada Omkara---I need My hero"

"Look up—Titli" He whispers tenderly, she raises her head up her cheeks wet with full of tears.

Omkara wipes her tears as she cries more "Our Dada is a Fighter right?"

Gauri nods

"Our Dada is strong and he is going wake up anytime soon—Can He see his bachci crying?"

Gauri cries more hearing him "He got a heart attack –Om-and doctors say--this is the second time –I don't know when he got before—I am such a bad daughter!

"Baby—stop crying –My Girl is the best one could get –see if you are crying like this Who will console Mama? You should be strong for Mama –Got it?" He says tenderly kissing her forehead. He rubs the tears off her cheeks.

Omkara sees her still in pain- He flicks her nose "Where is My Sassy Queen?"

Gauri scrunches her nose rubbing it. Seeing the tender look in his eyes she hugs him tightly "Dada will be fine right?" Somehow she needed his assurance.

"Our Dada would be Fit and Fine!" Omkara assures her while wrapping one around her shoulder and placing the other on her cheek.

Much later, Omkara folds his hands praying outside the ICU room, His eyes gaze down to Pinky who was crying in the arms of Gauri, who was now a bit recomposed.

Gauri looks at Omkara, her eyes coated with unshed tears, Omkara blinks at her assuring her everything would be fine.

After two hours, Omkara holds in his breath seeing the doctor walking out, "Mr.Oberoi Can I have a minute?"

Omkara nods as Gauri stands beside him along with Pinky "Mrs Sharma this is the second major attack –Did you know when he got the first attack?"

Pinky nods making Gauri look at her in disbelief "A year back!"

Gauri closes her eyes tightly hearing Pinky's words, They Married her off soon for this reason –She had doubted whether horoscope was the only reason given that her father wasn't a person who believed in those.

Omkara intertwines his fingers with hers squeezing it lightly – He knew she was in a swirl of emotions inside her. Gauri tightens back in the heat of the need –She needed him right now in her emotional mess.

"He is lucky he fought this time but there is no always the next time—so take care of him –do not make him feel stressed! High emotions are not good for his health"

Omkara nods "Thank you Doctor, Can we see him?"

"Sure—in a while –when he is moved to the room!"

Omkara comes to Pinky and Gauri who was sitting outside the room until Shakthi gets back to his conscious.

"Mama---Have something," Omkara says passing the cup of coffee and a sandwich which he had purchased down in the canteen.

'I don't want anything " Pinky says sniffing

"Mama" Omkara places the tray on the nearby chair as he keels front of her "Now—I get –Where –Gauri had inherited this stubbornness," Omkara says giggling trying to ease the situation.

Pinky chuckles "Shakthi always says that," She says sadly

"Now be My good Mama –and get some energy—Dada is going to faint seeing your Famished look!"

Pinky widens her eyes as Omkara chuckles. Pinky takes the cup of coffee and sandwich in hand.

Omkara moves his gaze to Gauri who was standing outside the room gazing through the glass door –at her Dada.

"Gauri" He places his palm on her shoulder as she turns around.

"Why isn't he back to consciousness ?"

"He is under sedatives Gauri"

"He will be back to Good right?" Gauri asks hopefully

Omkara places his palm on her cheek "He would!"

"Come have something !"

"No—I am not hungry"

"You look famished Gauri—My Foodie cannot stay in hunger for a long time –come- have some"

Gauri shakes her head not moving an inch from the door , Omkara tugs her wrist pulling her "Can't You understand that I do not want anything" Gauri yells at him exasperated gaining the attention of the people around.

Omkara looks upset as he fakes a smile at them. Pinky had gone to the washroom in the meanwhile.

"Gauri—please" He pleads softly

"I—Don't want anything !" Gauri repeats firmly and turns around looking through the glass door at her Dada.

Omkara sighs and sits on the nearby chair – He leaves his share of food too untouched When she is starving how can I eat?

Omkara walks out of the hallway leaving her alone outside the room to get some fresh air. He feels his vision blurring and his head spinning. Omkara blinks twice to shake off and blinks his eyes and holds the nearby wall to support himself, with the support of the wall He sits on the chair.

The nurse who sees him identifies him quickly, "Sir--Are you fine? "

"Yaa-ya" Omkara says with his head in his palms

"Sir you look like you would faint any moment –Here have some water" She passes a glass of water which Omkara hurriedly gulps down.

"Thank you"

The nurse taking the glass back, "Would you like to have something?"

"No—I am okay—Thank you"

The nurse nods not convinced as she leaves.

Omkara rests his back on the chair, His head spinning but he was upset and more than everything he wasn't feeling to have something when She was famished.

"Mrs.Oberoi" The nurse calls her, Gauri rubs off the tears as she turns around and moves aside to let the nurse in.

The nurse opens the door and before entering she says Gauri, "I met Mr.Oberoi while coming over—He looks famished and He was feeling faintish too-I gave him water but its better if he eats something "

Gauri nods processing the information. Her eyes move to the tray which had food untouched. She instantly feels guilty –He was being nice to her and She shouted on him!

Gauri takes her purse and the tray with untouched food. She touches and sees the sandwiches too cold for her liking and the coffees too.She decides to get fresh ones.

Gauri takes a seat beside him and shoves the tray to his lap. Omkara opens his eyes and sees the through the corner of her eyes to see her not even sparing to pass a look at him.

"Eat" Gauri orders and stands up on her feet to walk back but Omkara holds her wrist making her raise her brow at him in question.

"Gauri—Don't be stubborn—eat something please?" He pleads seeing how famished and exhausted She looked with her eyes red.

Gauri removes his fingers around her wrist as she takes three steps forward. Hearing the plopping noise Gauri sighs turning around seeing the tray on the chair as he was resting again with his eyes closed. With the creasing lines on his forehead and the way he was running his two fingers around the temple massaging, She knew he was having a bad headache Why he has to be stubborn?

Omkara smiles victoriously inside but keeps a straight face as he feels her sitting next to him again.

"Eat!" She yells at him irritated this time shoving the whole sandwich into his mouth. Omkara gobbles munching shocked and annoyed by her action. Once swallowed the food down his throat he gulps a glass of water .

"What is wrong with you?" He asks in a raising tone, "I would have choked !"

Gauri glares at him, "If you had it all by yourself why would I even pull out this?"

"Gauri" he lets out a sigh "Why are you being so stubborn? –You and I know very well you are famished since the night before –Have some! "

She opens her mouth and closes back embarrassed hearing the grumbling of her stomach. Omkara holds the cup of coffee in front of her mouth, He pleads through his eyes as She gazes into his eyes as she drinks the coffee from his hand. Omkara too eats along with her in silence.

"Good girl" Omkara pats her head as she completes her sandwiches too. Gauri doesn't react to it as she leaves the place going to check on her Dada.

Omkara lets out a troubled sigh seeing her giving him the silent treatment . He was ready to her retorting but not the silence – Silence suffocating him.

"Why did you hide Mama?" Gauri asks with tears brimming in her eyes as she sits beside Shakthi on the bed while Pinky sat opposite to her .

"We –didn't want --you—to worry"

"I had the right to now!" Gauri yells at her frustrated

"Gauri—Understand –"

Gauri cuts her off "So this was the reason –that I was rushed into marriage—"

"Your horoscope-"

Gauri cuts her off "That was one of the many reasons –You knew Mama how I much I wanted to be Independent and working -- let's leave all that –You gave me in marriage –so that you both can wash your hands off me !" Gauri regretted the moment words left her mouth as she saw the hurt pass across her mother's face.

"What are you speaking –Gauri?" Pinky cries "He was scared—" She says softly pointing at her Dada who was unconscious,"He feared He wouldn't survive to see your big day—that was the reason ---how could you think-"

Gauri looks away as her eyes fills , "I am sorry Mama" She tells softly "I was upset and hurt that you both hid something so big from me "

Pinky nods wiping her tears, "Let it pass—Don't ask him anything "

Gauri nods holing her Mama's palm squeezing it lightly to show truly she regretted her words.

It had been a few hours that Shakthi had woken up and had looked guilty at Gauri , Pinky had happily told Shakthi how Omkara had been a pillar of support to them. Om had stood in the corner and walked up to them when Shakthi urged to see him . Shakthi had go on on to say how lucky they were to get a Son-in-Law like him but when he saw the bitter smile curving on Gauri's lips hearing Shakthi's words . Omkara knew the damage was already done he for the first time felt he wouldn't be able to rectify his mistake –Was the damage he done to her beyond repair?

Shakthi was discharged the next day as he was cranky to get back home. Omkara had personally asked for a nurse to look after Shakthi for few days for which Gauri had reprimanded that she was here to look after her Dada . When She was planning to nestle in her parents' place . Omkara didn't feel like leaving her behind so he too made up his mind to stay with her . He had ringed up his parents letting them know who had panicked and chided him for not telling him earlier.

"Shakthi—Are you fine?—My Boy—He forgot to inform us—I feel so bad" Tej goes on seating next to Shakthi.

"I am fine bhai" Shakthi replies with a small smile despite the small ache he was having. Despite Gauri's glare Omkara had appointed a nurse shutting her up saying "It is for My Dada"

Jhanvi moves her eyes to Gauri who was standing by the door "Why didn't you inform us Gauri?"

"Maa—You were sleeping and it was just five in the morning –I didn't want to worry you"

"Gauri—we are family right –then how could you think we wouldn't be worried? if Omkara hadn't come we wouldn't even know! and I feel so terrible that I wasn't here for You and Pinky"

"Jhanviji—its fine" Pinky assures walking in with a tray of coffees and snacks "And Omkara beta was there for us!"

Gauri smiles when her eyes fills , She sneaks out without anyone's notice he would be there for everyone but not for me --.

Omkara extricates himself from the elders as he sees Gauri leaving. Jhanvi smiles seeing them through the corner of her eyes escaping. She turns back to answer Pinky who was asking why Daadi didn't accompany.

Gauri sits on the bed with her arms wrapped around her knees waiting for him, she knew he would follow her behind just like she expected Gauri hears the slight creaking of the door. She rocks back and forth trying to keep her tears at bay.

Omkara pushes the door slowly his eyes gazes around the room , her room, His mind flies back to the memory, It was in this same place, Their parents had suggested them to get to know each other, She had asked him shyly Whether he would like to marry her as he wasn't even talking. He had said a soft 'Yes' and paced out quickly. Omkara lets out a troubled sigh MAY BE that day if he had let her know everything –today their circumstance would have been different –they would have been married with an understanding or she would have rejected him but Why did the latter hurt him?

She sees the slight dip of the bed as he sits right next to her so close that there shoulders were lightly brushing against each other .

'Can We talk Gauri?' Omkara whispers tiredly tilting his head to look at her .

Gauri raises her brow slanting her neck to look at him .

'Why did you leave without informing anyone?" Omkara asks getting straight to the point.

Gauri lets out a mocking chuckle as her tears glisten "Why did you choose to escape? and I am not the one to escape"

"Gauri--Please--Let's talk out - Once We are home" Omkara says softly not wanting their parents who were currently down to know what's going on between them . involving too many people would make them more distant instead a good conversation could solve their differences .

"Home? " She laughs mockingly "Home is Where heart is -- When Your Heart is with her- How could I be Your Home Omkara ?" Her vision blurs as tears pool up .She looks down to hide her tears .

"Why didn't you Omkara? Why didn't you say it was her who you wanted ? Why?---My Heartaches—My husband is in love with another woman?—Did I hope too much? –it is not like we were forced into marriage –juts once You could have told me –but no—No!—Why didn't you Jerk? Why?" She sobs loudly crying onto her palms

"You are the First Man in My life—and I had hopes –I dreamt a life with you—A Happy one since the moment our marriage was fixed—My nights were filled with dreams –dreams with you— Aren't I beautiful enough? –Aren't I educated enough? ---You are the Only person who makes me question myself !"

"The First Day—First Night—When you asked my name ! –I felt all hopes draining then repeatedly my dreams drained but Then Yesterday—those small moments made me squeal and jump in happiness like a hormonal teenager—I wanted all of You—I wanted those little moments to continue –I had few wishes in our marriage –I wanted to be the reason of your smile—I wanted us to behave like a normal couple—I wanted my husband to give me a hug before he goes to work and a small kiss on my forehead with a 'Small take care' –At nights I wanted him to talk to me about his day and both of us to cuddle to sleep, I wanted us to go on walks hand in hand –and get to know each other—A little care and affection only I craved from you Omkara !"

"But all broke—When I saw –the love –so much love –that I cannot even describe in words in your eyes for her ­, I feel devastated! –For a moment my mind went blank"

"Did you think I would cheat on you?" His voice heavy

Gauri doesn't hear him as she cries loudly –She cups her mouth to muffle her sobs "But this damn heart! –believes you that You wouldn't cheat behind my back! ---Damn heart!! Why does even got a liking to you—I don't love you Omkara! but that little affection and the fact You belong to me hurts me! ---So much love for her ­why not for me? ---Daadi is right –maybe I cannot please you –that's why you do not have at least little affection towards me!" she rubs her tears angrily but the dam breaks again as She cries louder.

She finds herself pushed into his chest. She holds his collars in a fist crying onto his chest, "If You told You needed her I would have let you go happily!"Gauri says tries to hold back her tears showing his & Ishana's hugging picture while raising her head up to see him already looking at her with so much pain.

Hot tears wells up as she sobs loudly pushing him back as he holds her still in his arms "I can't! Omkara this hurts ! --- I am selfish Om –I want you to be with me not her . I want you to look at me at least —at least—a little affection like you are gazing at her" She points the picture poking her index finger but Omkara's eyes were fixed on her.

"I am selfish –Damn this heart—Says not to let you goo—this damn heart says You are my husband –You married me so You belong right next to me !! but this same heart says to let you go—let you be happy –let you love her like you are doing already !---Why did you marry me Omkara?---Why??? I know I am not beautiful like her but at least once –at least once didn't you feel for me Omkara?" Her voice flatters as she swallows the lump and continues with a sad smile on her lips seeing him mute like always

"Two months back I was living my life to fullest—happy and carefree –Since the day I married you –I am in tears –I am scared I might run out tears !"

She cries harder into his chest wetting his shirt. Gauri feels his cheeks pressed onto the top of her head as tears trickle down his cheeks onto her hairs. Gauri raises her head up , "Now that you have brought up this upon us –Let's end this—Lets put both of us out of misery! – I am letting you go—you are free to love –no longer you are tied to me –I am Freeing You from Our Marriage –Divorce Me Omkara!"

His hands fall off her shoulders hearing her words, His world crashed within a few hours. Her lips quivered as the words rolled out of her tongue. Unable to take the misery and shattering off her heart She slips down from the bed as she rubs off her tears wearing her slippers she walks into the washroom and locks the door and turns on the knob letting the trickling water drench and take away her miseries.

The tears which had been flooding on his dark chocolate brown orbs trickles down as he hugs the pillow close to his chest crying onto the pillow. Omkara sees Ishana's and his picture.

"Why is this happening with me Ishu?—You left me and Now she too wants to go? Am I heartless?—Why can't none understand that I too have a heart—This heart too pains—this heart to yearns for affection! –this has too wants to experience the Happiness every human craves –Why?"

"Just like her –even I dreamt off life with her, My minion, My? , Can I even call her 'My' Now?—this hurts! – You didn't even give me a chance to let me talk Gauri! "

"Home is where the heart is " Omkara mockingly chuckles with tears streaming down as he pulls out his phone looking at His Minion's picture "I wanted Me to be Your home ! –My Sukoon! "

"Divorce right—If that's what You want I will give you" Omkara rubs of his tears angrily as more tears make its way down "I wanted OUR lie to continue –MAY BE ONE DAY we could sleep in each other's arms happily! --- But it All BROKE –No-MAY BE's !"

Gauri walks out of the washroom drenched from head to toe, Omkara raises his head with unshed tears in his eyes. She blinks her tears back smiling at him "You are free to go--- to her ! – Be Happy Always!" She whispers swallowing the lump as she wraps the towel around her pulling a new set of dress.

"I wish You asked me What I need—Titli" Omkara replies back with heavy voice

Gauri stiffens as she holds onto the cupboard hearing the door slamming shut, "I wish You told Me before about her then it wouldn't have hurt the way it hurts now!"

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