Life is peaceful till you entered it but when you came in, it became beautiful. Well I got a best friend in you with whom I can share everything. Even after knowing I cant love you, you were there for me always like a true friend.

You banged the walls of my heart which I built carefully so that no one will hurt me with such a force that they broke. I wondered what is the strongest force which melted my heart? Its love . . your unconditional love towards me. I am also a human being and I too need love, especially for a lonely soul like me its so precious.

I still remember the days when you used wait for me for long hours just to hear my voice or a simple text for me. Your care and concern for me were not definable. You were the one who taught me to live and dream, whatever I dream today is with the confidence you gave me. You understood me better than my parents or any of my friends. With the confidence you gave I ruled in my profession, do you know people are jealous of me . . and the credit goes to you.

When finally I accepted your love that is the day when I saw the most beautiful smile and that's yours. How we shared all our past, how you opened up every secret of yours to me without any hesitation, how we planned for our careers and your dream house . . I still remember. All these made our bond much stronger. Even being distant from each other our hearts were always connected. All magic of love . .

I used to be jealous of your girl friends and following you have but still I used to be happy that you are mine. I know how possessive you are, so I never made you feel insecure and you were happy with it. You ignored me many times but when I needed you were there. You know how sensitive I am and the way you use to care for me brings tears.

Then time played cruel role and we needed to separate our ways obeying the societal norms. I remember how we wanted to fight against this caste system and other beliefs. You wanted to be my friend even after but I could not . . How can I be just friend of yours? Not possible right!

Leaving you is the most toughest decision of my life and painful one too. My everyday used to start and end with your name, even now it is the same. Its been years since we parted our ways but still I love you the same. People say time heals all the wounds but its not the same with me.

I lost myself, my smile and the confidence you gave me. I am staying at home like a burden on my parents which they are trying hard to get rid of. I am trying to be back in form just for the promise I made that I will take care of myself and fulfill all my dreams. You asked me to be selfish but I could not be because that's not my nature.

I got accustomed to this life and accepted everything thinking you were not in my fate. Well you deserve a better girl than me and I am sure you will get one. At first I used to cry all the night but now I do it once a week. I am happy that you are doing a great progress in your life. I am proud of you that you achieved all our goals at this young age.

But when I saw you happily engaged to someone it hurt me a bit. I thought its a bit but I did not expect that I will be shattered. You are very happy without me, that's good. But what about me? Still lost in you . . I have not moved on, my mistake. I cant love someone again but seeing you I think I can. When you can be happy, Why cant I?

I may appear stronger but you know how weak I am from inside. I did not expect that you will wait for me life long even though you promised to wait. I thought I was heart broken when we parted but no!! Its now I am having more pain . . I do not have anyone to share my pain and it is because of you. Loving you made my family hate me like plague, I cant share it with my friends and spoil their happiness.

Why did you enter my life? Why did you love me? Its all your mistake . .

No . . Its the stupid me who loved you back and could not forget you. So mistake is mine . .

Why should god let us meet when we are not destined to be together? May be its what they call . . FATE

I learnt a biggest lesson in my life. . and I thank you and my fate for it.

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A lonely girls' broken soul