-Michaels POV-

Next week is my wedding and i couldnt be any happier. Everyone in the office is excited and cant wait, except for Gavin. Gavins my boi and my secret love. It will always be a secret because I love my so soon to be wife just a little more than Gavin and I believe Lindsay and i belong together.

"Excited for next week, Michael?" Ray said. We just editing some videos, it just Ray, Gavin and I in the office right now. Ryan, Geoff and Jack were on The Patch.

"Yea, i am. Im little nervous though." I said "Were you nervous before you and Ryan got married?"

"Yea. Things like this are nerve racking but worth it in the end. I love Ryan and being able to call him my husband is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Just wait Michael, it will go by fast and a few months done the road you will look back and forget all about the nervous."

"Yea i guess your right. I cant wait to call Lindsay my wife i love her so much."

As i said that Gavin got up and ran out of the room, almost looked as if he was crying. Why the fuck would he be crying.

"Whats up with Gavin?" I asked worried.

"I'll go talk to him." Ray said then went to find Gavin

Why did it look like Gavin was crying? He doesnt like Lindsay right? Maybe he likes me? What am i thinking he could never like me hes dating a girl named Meg i think. She she kinda look like Lindsay with the red hair. Maybe he does like Lindsay, maybe he looks at Meg like and thinks shes Lindsay. He maybe my boi but no one steals my boo, even if i do have crush on him.

Ray came back a little while later. "Hes alright, he uh got a text from Dan saying hes cat died."

"Oh. Alright."

As the days passed whenever the wedding was mentioned Gavin would get upset, sometimes he would even leave the room. There is no god damn way that hes fucking cat died. 

"I'll come get you later and we'll go out for some bevs? Just me and you, last night it could be just me and you before im married man." I asked. We were outside hes new house. He moved out of Geoffs a few weeks back, he lives with that girl Meg. I was the one stuck with giving him a ride home. Lindsay was already home. She wasnt feeling well and Ashley, Burnies girlfriend drove her home.

"Sorry Michael i can't i have to help my sister with somethings around the house. Maybe when i get back from England in a few months" gavin said getting out of the car. He said my name right. Now that i think about it he has been doing that the last few days, and when it  comes to team lets plays, its now always X-Ray and Vav, leaving me with Ryan. I know that Ryan would rather to be on Rays team. Team Haywood/R&R Connection.

"Wait when do leave?" I asked before he could close the door.

"Few hours."

"Your going to miss my wedding! You said you would be the best man!"

"Lindsay didnt tell you all this already? I told her two days ago. She said she would tell you. Guess it doesnt matter anymore, you know now. Besides, i wont want to ruin your wedding. I got to go before my sister Meg calls screaming, told her I would help her clean the house before we left. See you in six months Michael. Early congratz on your wedding."  Gavin said then closed the door and walked into hes house.

What does he mean ruin the wedding? Meg's his sister? Ray knows. He has to. He was the one that talked him a few days ago. 

I drove to the apartment complex i live in, which Ray just so happens to live in as well. Although he lives two floors below me. 

When i got there i knocked on Ray and Ryans door. Luckily Ray answered.

"Hey Michael, what brings you here?" Ray said 

"Whats the real reason Gavin left the room the other and all the other times in-between when the wedding was mentioned. I know you know Ray." 

"He doesn't want me to tell you at all but ill tell you after the wedding. By then you'll be married and Gavin will be in England for six months."

"Ray Haywood, your going to tell me NOW. I was just with Gavin and he said one of the reasons he was leaving was because he didn't want to ruin the wedding. What the fuck is going on."

"Look Michael you think its easy for me to keep a sercert like this. Be lucky i was able to convince Gavin to come back, he was planing on never coming back. You can take guess and i could tell you if your right tomorrow at work."

"Im not going to work tomorrow. Geoff said Lindsay and I could have the day off to take care of last minute things for the wedding Saturday." 

"Alright ill let you take one guess now." 

"Babe dinners almost ready. Oh hi Michael what brings you here?" Ryan said walking over to ray and kissed his check.

"I just want to know what going on with Gavin, i find out today that he leave for England tomorrow."

"You mean you haven't figured it out yet?" Ryan said

"Rye, we aren't suppose to tell him." Ray said lightly hitting hes stomach.

"You know to?" 

"Geoff and Jack know to." Ryan said

"How am I the only one that doesnt know!" 

"Maybe there is apart of you that knows but doesnt want to expect that as the truth." Ryan said

"You guys know Gavin has a sister named Meg?" 

"Yea, dude she works at Rooster Teeth. She does vidoes for the know and is sometimes on The Patch." Ryan said

"I thought that Meg was hes girlfriend, and that he was only dating her because she looked like Lindsay." 

"He doesnt like hes sister that much." Ray said

"So if  its not Lindsay that he likes, than is it me? Was I right and didnt want to believe it?" 

"I'll tell you if your right after the wedding." ray said

"After the wedding it will be to late!" I said slowly raising my voice. "I need to now, i have loved him for a long time.  When i met Lindsay she filled the whole in my heart that he made. i wanted to forget my feelings for Gavin when i proposed thought we belonged together. I never could. Hearing him say my name correctly hurts. Please tell if im right." 

"We can't. Even if we did, Lindsay needs you now, its already to late." Ryan said. 

"I i guess it is. Promise to tell me after the wedding?" 

"Promise." ray said.

I went up to my apartment which i share with Lindsay. I stood outside the door for a second as i heard her talking to someone.

"No its not that i dont, its-.......i was going to tell him i week after we have sex and ride it off as his........i dont know what you want me to do Kerry i know that you want me to call it off but i cant, its to late he needs me.......we can find away to be together i promise..." 

At this point i have heard enough. Shes pregnant with Kerrys child and apparently she loves him more, than me and she agreed to marry me. I dont know whats worse, losing the person i love or losing the person im was going to be marrying in a two days. 

I walk into my apartment and throw the keys on the kitchen table. 

"I uh gotta go ill talk to you tomorrow. Bye." Lindsay said quickly before hanging up the phone.

"Who were you talking to?" I asked 

"No one really just an old friend." she said 

"Sure about that." 

"Yea."

"Well you better call your boyfriend back and tell him you need a place for you to stay.." i said not calmly not wanting to start any fighting. "Kerry will treat you better than i ever could."

"Michael what are you talking about." Lindsay said getting up and walking over to were i was standing.

"I heard you on the phone with Kerry. Its alright I'm not mad. I have to many other things on my mind to upset. Like Gavin. You knew he was leaving and forget to tell me, anything else he told you and forgot to tell me." Ok maybe i was getting alittle mad. 

"He told me the reason why he was leaving was because he loves you and he didnt want to ruin the wedding. Said that he didnt want to ruin your friendship and that he is happy for us and wants us to be happy together start family, he only told me this because he thought i had the right to know."

"Call Kerry and get the fuck out of my apartment! NOW! Get your shit later! I just want to be alone right now." 

She looked at me with glassy eyes and walked out almost in tears. Shes the one that cheated on me why the fuck is she so upset. Probably the hormones. She did say she was having Kerrys child.

He really does love and i cant do anything about. Hes in england for the next six months. i cant go there, he went there go get away from me. I know he doesnt want to see my face. I wouldnt blame him if he didnt want to ever see it again. I should have told him how i felt when before it was to late.

When Saturday rolled around. Everyone went to the wedding hall, but the wedding didnt happen. I failed to show up on time. I got several calls from Geoff, Jack, and the Haywoods. I didnt answer. I showed up an  hour and a half late. I was in my tux but i looked like a wreck. 

"Where have you been your late!" Geoff yelled at me.

"Yea no shit Sherlock. Lindsay didn't tell you guys that the weddings off."

"No i didnt say anything. I thought you might actually show and go on with the wedding."

"Why the fuck would i! Kerry should not me, you are having his child."

Everyone started to talk amougest themselves. Kerry went up to Lindsay to comfort her. They guys and I started auguring. I dont feel like arguing i would rather go to england to see Gavin. I should have gone yesterday. I thought about and even packed some of my clothes but i know Gavin probably doesn't want to see me. Ill be here when he gets back though, i could wait.

"Michael! Are you even listening! How the fuck could you do this?" Jack said. I wasnt.

"Not really i have other things on my mind." I said with attitude.

"What the fuck could be more important than your wedding. This isnt what Gavin would have wanted."

"Were you listening to me before you fat fuck! Shes pregnant with KERRYs child! She doesnt fucking love me, why should i go through with the god danm wedding? Besides why the fuck should i marry someone i dont love, or who doesnt love me back. And how do you know what Gavin would want!" As soon as i said fat fuck Jack kinda took a step back and everyone else shut up. This isnt new that im raging so why people made it seem like it was i dont know.

"He told me." Jack said in a low voice.

"I guess Michaels right..he shoulsnt have to marry someone that doesnt love him. I guess i have just been lieing to myself about loving him, I actually love Kerry."

Kerry didnt say anything, he just pecked her lips with his own.

Im glad Lindsay is happy, even if its at my own prise of losing Gavin.

I was talking with Lindsay, she was apologizing and shit like that. I wasnt really paying attention. I thought i heard Gavins voice and Geoff talking to someone. I turn to see Gavin standing there talking with Geoff.

"GAVIN!" I practically yell cutting Lindsay off. I running over to him. "What are you doing here, i thought you would be in England right now."

"Meg convinced to switch my flight to the same one shes taking which is tomorrow, so i decided i would come and support my boi." Gavin said. He sounded as if he was fighting tears. "Although im confused as to what going on, shouldnt everyone be dancing and having a good time right now?"

"No, there isnt going to be a wedding. Lindsay is having Kerrys child and even said herself she loves Kerry. Although even if she didnt, i would have cancelled the wedding anyway. I dont love her. I love someone else."

"Wot you going on about Michael. She really having Kerrys kid?"

"STOP SAYING MY NAME CORRECTLY ITS KILLING ME!" I snapped. "I love the way you pronounce my name Micool, your beautiful green eyes and even your stupid nose." I looked down as i said this. "I guess what im trying to tell you is that, i uh, i love you and i since we met, Lindsay was able to fill the whole you left in heart and i thought i was over you, but over the past week i realized i was wrong."

"Michael, i-i dont know what you want me to tell you."

Everyone was looking at us still trying to figure out whats going on. Fustraed i just pulled him down and kissed him, almost immediately he melted into the kiss.

"I love you Gavin."

"I love you too, Micool."

After all this happened we explained what was going on. Kerry decided not to waste a perfectly good wedding day so he and Lindsay got married apparently they have been dating for almost a year.

Everything worked out fine in the end. Everyone was happy. Gavin still had to go to England for six months, he planed to record and post slow mo guys videos with Dan. Ill be here when he gets back though, ill be patiently waiting for my boyfriend to come home.