My heart would beat out of my chest, if I was still human but I am no longer one. I am a vampire. My heart doesn't beat at a normal rate anymore but that doesn't mean that I can't feel nervous, right? Because I do.

My hands shake uncontrollable when I reach for the handle of the door. come on, Emily, you can do it. Ethan is already inside with the beta, whose name I learned is Aiden, to prepare him for my arrival. He looked worried when we got here as if he was afraid that I would get hurt.

Pushing the door open, I hesitate when I walk inside of the room. What if I lose control again? Will he ever forgive me? Ethan sits and is talking to the injured beta when I stop at the foot of the bed.

Closing my eyes, I swallow the lump in my throat. ' I wanted to apologize for what I did to you and for what I called you.' I hastily say with my eyes still closed. While nerves run through my body at a high speed, making my hands shake uncontrollable. I peep between my eyelashes to see two smirking guys. Opening my eyes completely, I just stand there.

'What? Why are you two just smirking?'
They look at each other before the begin to laugh out loud. My nerves are gone and make place for anger. 'Stop laughing! I try to be a descent person here.' I hiss at them but they just look at each other and begin to laugh again even louder than a few seconds ago.

Placing my hands on the end of the bed, I try to calm myself down but it doesn't work instead I hold the bedpost tighter until I hear a loud cracking noise underneath my hands. I take my hands of the place to see that I have broken it and when I look up I see two baffled men staring at me. Nervously I scratch the back of my neck and try think of something to say but I come up blank and I'm relieved when Aiden begins to speak.

'So, you are this apes mate, huh?' I look shocked at him. He is going to ignore what just happened? Maybe I should do that to. 'Mate? What does that mean?' He raises his eyebrow and looks at Ethan. 'You didn't tell her? You're just Stupid.' I look confused at the both of them and play with the hem of my shirt.

Ethan looks at me with big eyes. 'You don't know?' I sign loudly. 'I thought that my confused stare would be obvious enough.' My comment makes Aiden laugh while I run my hand trough my hair. I take a seat next to Ethan and look at the both of them before I continue. 'I was turned not so long ago, maybe a year ago or so. The point is that I don't know much about all of this.' I say while pointing around us.

'Wait! You are a newborn vampire? Damn girl.' Aiden looks at me with a surprising smile while I don't know what he means. 'What?' I asked him confused. He looks at me and just shakes his head. 'Newborn aren't normally that strong.' He explains with a matter of fact kind of tone. When I turn to Ethan I see that he looks at me with a surprising smile but also with a hint of proud, it makes my knees tremble and face redden but I don't look away. It is like his green orbs see right into my soul and I don't even mind it. I feel this warm and tingling feeling inside me, all because of him.

'What happened to you?' Saddened I break eye contact with Ethan and look at Aiden. 'What do you mean?' I ask nervous. I wasn't ready to tell them that story. I don't know anything about them except for their names. 'How did you become a vampire?' I swallow loudly, knitting my eyebrows I look down to avoid their stares. I wasn't going to tell them my story, not yet anyway.

'It is a long story and you should get some rest.' I quickly stand up, knocking the chair against the wall by accident. 'Uh, sorry about that and Aiden I'm really sorry about what happened in the forrest. Usually I'm not like that.' I say before I try to leave. I make it to the hallway of the hospital before a hand takes a hold of my arm which makes a warm tingly feeling erupted where he touches me. I silently gasp and look up to the person that holds my arm. For a moment I forget my sadness and anger but not die long, it came all rushing back at a high speed.

'What is wrong, little red?' His eyes are filled with worry, that it makes my stomach drop. 'I just can't talk about it. I don't even know you.' I say with a trembling voice. His hold on me tightens while he forces me to look him in the eye. 'You are my mate and you can tell me everything. I would never hurt you.' I shake my head no and try to get out of his hold. 'You need to let me go.' I grind my teeth and slowly breath in and out. Instead of letting me go he just tightens his hold on me again. Why can't he get the hint?

Breathing is getting harder and harder with every second that passes and the only thing I feel is fear and sadness. 'Seriously, let go.' I hiss frightened. 'Now!' I command madly when he doesn't move a muscle. I feel myself losing control again. 'What is wrong with me?' I whimper silently but Ethan heard me.

I scurry back as far as I can in the hallway. My canines grow into bigger ones. Turning to the right, I come face to face with myself. A mirror hangs before me and what it shows makes me horrified. The white of my eyes are blood red and veins are forming around them. It was the first time I saw myself like that and it frightened me even more than I already was.

'Annistyn? Calm down. Little red look at me.' His arms are wrapped around my waist in a protective way. The little sparks erupting everywhere he touches me, makes me calm down a bit. 'I can't. I don't know what is happening.' I whimper afraid. 'Sweetheart you are vamping and if you don't control yourself you will hurt someone.'