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The atmosphere suddenly turned stale, hard and dark in a blink of an eye. Jungkook's eyes were flaring, empty of anything but pain.

"You don't want kids?" Jungkook whimpers, acting like a wounded puppy. His head hung low, pheromones souring.

Jimin doesn't respond at first, scrambling for words he couldn't seem to find.

"It's not that I don't, it's just that kids aren't something I've ever thought about." Jimin tries explaining very poorly, unsure how to go about it without making things worse.

"So what I'm hearing is no." It was a sharp jab, his tone was spiteful and angry.

Jungkook felt like his whole world was crashing down, true dreams he'd imagined for them. He'd been dreaming of their future since the moment he knew Jimin was the only omega for him. He thought once they mated, marked each other children would be the next step. In his alpha mind he thought that only logical. So Jimin's reluctance was a shock to him, he felt insulted, like he wasn't good enough for his omega he didn't want his pups.

"Why are you getting so mad about this? I don't want to talk about this right now." Jimin just wanted to enjoy what they had, he hated how easy it was for them to drift into a fight.

"Why am I getting mad about this? You're kidding me right? I have every right to be mad about this when I've just found out my omega doesn't want to bare my children." Jungkook's alpha is rutting in its fur, his rage is slowly building and he doesn't know how to stop it.

Jimin can't help the scoff that arises when he speaks, in a fit of anger he pushes Jungkook away. Finally getting the alpha off him, to give him space. The knot had subsided the second the air turned sour.

"I never said that! You're twisting my words. I haven't decided yet if I want children. I'm allowed to think about it before I let you put a baby in me. You're being childish and frankly impulsive. This is a stupid argument about something that isn't going to happen for the next few years." Jimin roughly throws himself off the bed, no longer in the mood for the affection of his alpha. He's sure if Jungkook tired he'd bite his head off.

Jimin didn't understand why they were talking about this. Why suddenly now having kids were so important to Jungkook. They'd never talked or mentioned the idea of kids before, so why now?

"I'm being childish? You're the one yelling and not wanting to talk about it. I think I deserve a say on whether we have kids. You're my omega!" Jungkook's emotions were leading him down a path that he may not return from. Saying things that were only angering his omega.

"You don't deserve anything! It's my body, my life! Only I get to decide what happens to it. And don't you even dare talk about me like I'm some object that you own. I'm not talking about this because it's ridiculous, we're not having kids because we're to young and we've only just started this relationship. Why are you so hung up on this?" Jimin was pacing the room, fists clenched, his skin flushed and hot.

He'd never felt so angry, the audacity of Jungkook to try stake his claim on him was despicable. He didn't deserve anything, this was his body and he would decide what happened to it.

"I'm hung up on it because just like any alpha I want my omega to bare my pups. It's not ridiculous Jimin to want to start a family. We've mated, marked each other and now the next step is to breed. I want you to bare my pups. I thought you'd want this too." Jungkook couldn't see the rational side of it all, to lost in the natural order of the things to understand the insanity.

"Why? Because I'm an omega and that's what we're good for right?" Jimin scoffs at him, deciding he needed air, needed to get away before he ripped his alphas head off.

He's being unreasonable, his alphas head is on and there was obviously no chance of an adult conversation about this. He begins getting dressed, no longer in the mood for anything but to get out.

"That's not what I meant!" Jungkook tires defending himself, scrambling off his bed when Jimin begins dressing. "What are you doing?" Jungkook barks angrily at him, trying to stop him when his pants slip on.

"I'm leaving! I've got work." Jimin ignores him as he finishes buttoning up just shirt.

He felt like he was suffocating, the stench of aggression thick in the air. He needed space to think, to figure out his life and what he really wants.

"You're not leaving! You're not allowed out of my sight." Jungkook attempts to grab his wrist to stop him leaving but to his surprise Jimin flinches away.

"You're not the boss of me! I'm allowed to do whatever I want. Don't follow me. I need some space right now." With that Jimin shoves past his alpha, angry and emotional and a little fragile.

He didn't bother looking back or listening to his alphas pleas for him to stay. Jungkook was the last person he wanted to be around. He wanted time to cool off, to gather himself and really think about what he wanted. If Jungkook wanted kids this badly he knew he would have to make a choice. If he wanted them too.

Jimin felt completely and utterly drained, exhausted and feeling shitty. A headache was already beginning to creep up on him. His wolf was huddling in the corner sulking, he was mad at him for upsetting his alpha. It was never Jimin's intention to start a fight, make something out of nothing. He just wanted to voice his opinion on how he felt about having kids. It's a big decision, a commitment that Jimin isn't sure he wants yet or ever. He thinks it's only fair he feels this way. It's rational not to want to jump into the deep end without having thought about it first.

He knows Jungkook would be a great father, a great alpha to their pups. He knows he'd be a good father too, he'd treat them right but it doesn't mean he's ready for them now. He's still got a life to live, goals he wants to reach before he gets tied down and has to focus all his time on a growing pup. It was too much for someone so young. He thought Jungkook would understand that, realise he's asking to much of him to soon. But it seemed that he didn't, in fact he was angry at him for not feeling the same. Felt betrayed by him, by his omega because he didn't want kids.

Jimin wanted to scream, cry, pull his hair out. It was frustrating, Jungkook was acting like a child, overreacting, being defensive. He didn't even let him explain, just started yelling at him, claiming he was being selfish, not thinking about him or their future. Jungkook was making it out like Jimin was trying to stop them from moving forward in their relationship. Telling him he wasn't committed to him, wasn't interested in having a life with him if he didn't want kids.

It hurt. It really hurt that his alpha thought he wasn't committed to them. He wasn't serious. If he didn't want to be with him why would have agreed to be mated? Of course he wanted to be with Jungkook, he loved him. But things are more complicated than Jungkook is willing to realise.

This wasn't like ancient times where once an omega and alpha mated they immediately breed, where the omega becomes pregnant with their alphas pup the second the mark is made. Times have changed, the life set for an omega is no longer one where breeding is the only thing they are for. Jimin wants a life first before the idea of kids come into the picture. He thinks that's fair, most people wait until they're ready or at least older until kids come into it. Their relationship is still fresh, even though they've known each other a few years it was never anything serious. This is the beginning of their relationship, of them being an actual couple not simple fuck buddies who got each other off when needed.

Jimin wanted to enjoy being with him before things changed. He liked how they were now, how close they are, how all that mattered was them and no one else. Bringing a child into the mix would change all that, would strain their relationship, take away their time together. They wouldn't have a moment to breath, a moment alone as they'd be to concerned with caring for the pup. He wanted to enjoy their honeymoon for a little bit longer.

"You look like shit." It's the first thing he hears when he enters the cafe.

Hoseok was taking down the chairs when he entered looking a little ruffled.

"Gee thanks." Jimin grumbles under his breath, sulking past him.

"Why do you look so fucked out? Is it because you are?" Hoseok teases, unaware of the real reason his appearance is so messy.

Jimin ignores him, instead going to get his apron and try distract himself from the angry alpha that awaits him if he decides to return home-well his soon to be home. He begins setting up for the day ahead, he reaches over to grab some plates but almost drops them when Hoseok screams.

"Oh my god!" Jimin flinches at the screeching from the beta, barely catching himself before Hoseok is on him.

"Get off me Hoseok!" Jimin squirms in his arms, trying to shove him away as the beta attempts to peak at his covered neck.

Hoseok stumbles away with wide eyes, glancing between him and his marked neck. Jimin rubs his mating mark, suddenly a little self conscious about it being seen. He wasn't ashamed of his mark. No. He was proud to bare the mark of his alpha  but after the fight he had with Jungkook the mark has been left feeling tender and achy. It hurts from the pain he has caused his mate. He can feel that Jungkook is hurting, that he is angry. His mark is practically throbbing and it stings.

"You're marked! You and Jungkook mated? This is amazing!" Hoseok coos and aws at him, elated that his precious omega is finally settling down.

Jimin chews on his cheek, not reacting the way Hoseok would've imagined a recently mated omega would.

"Why don't you seem that happy about it?" Hoseok farrows his brows, eyeing him up like the detective he thinks he is.

"I am happy!" Jimin is quick to reply, becoming defensive at the accusation.

Of course he's happy about being mated, any omega would be. He just isn't a very showy person, doesn't like parading about gaining the attention of every man and their dog. He gets enough attention as it is being a male omega, he certainly doesn't need more.

"Really? You could've fooled me." Hoseok's playful stabs were not going down to well with him, his emotions were already on edge and having Hoseok snark at him like this wasn't helping things.

"What does that mean?" Jimin practically froths at the mouth when he speaks, eyes glaring daggers into the beta.

"Nothing! I'm just joking. You're  just not as excited as I'd expect an omega to be. But I guess you're not really like other omegas so I shouldn't be surprised."  Hoseok explains, smelling the sudden tension brewing from the small omega.

The last part stung a little, he didn't know why but being reminded he isn't like other omegas hit him hard. He wasn't like other omegas, he acted rudely and smug to alphas and more specifically his own. He's not submissive by nature, doesn't have the urge to bred or bare children like an omega should. And he was reminded of that with the fight he just had with Jungkook.

"I'm not like other omegas am I? I'm a fucking disgrace of an omega." He ducks his head down, an act of shame condemning him.

"What? What are you talking about Jimin? You're an amazing omega." Hoseok is quick to comfort him, soothing him by strengthening his scent.

Jimin shakes his head, not believing it to be true as even his wolf is howling at him he's a bad omega. He disappointed his alpha, he made him mad, he isn't worthy of his pups.

"I'm really not Hoseok. I'm so fucking stupid! He probably hates me." Jimin couldn't hold back the mangled tears, he feels vulnerable and raw.

He needs his alpha to comfort him, tell him everything's going to be alright, shower him with affection like he desperately needs.

"Who hates you?" Hoseok takes the withering omega in his arms, coaxing him to calm down.

"My alpha." Jimin winces at the words, he loved how they sounded but he wasn't sure if that was true anymore. Not after how they left things.

Hoseok frowns at that, not believing that could ever be true. Not when it was describing Jimin's alpha who was completely head over heals for the omega.

"You're joking right? That big oaf loves you, I don't think he could ever hate you." Hoseok gently runs his fingers through his delicate hair.

Jimin only cries harder, beginning to stink the place up with his sour pheromones.

"You don't understand Hoseok. I really fucked up, I don't know if I can fix it. He was so angry, I've never seen him so mad." Jimin cringes at remembering the words they threw at each other, still just as painful.

"I don't understand?" Hoseok coaxes his own scent around him, keeping him stabilised.

"We got into a fight, a big one. Jungkook-he just wouldn't stop talking about it. He wouldn't let it go. I don't understand. He's never talked about having kids before, about the possibility of us being parents but now all of a sudden it's all he wants to talk about. It's like the only thing on his mind since we decided to mate. He wants pups Hoseok. He really wants to be a dad and I'm not sure I can give it to him. I don't want kids-well not yet and maybe not ever. Kids scare me, I mean really scare me. I'm going to be a terrible father." His omega wanted to make his alpha happy, bare him pups like he desires but he also was absolutely terrified of the idea. He didn't want to be a disappointment, ruin their lives because he wasn't good enough.

"Why would having kids scare you? You'd make a great dad. You're kind, thoughtful, protective and caring." Hoseok couldn't ever imagine Jimin being a bad dad, not the omega he knows.

"I-I Don't know, every time I think about the idea of kids. Of being a father all I can imagine is me treating my pups like my father did. I know I'm nothing like him, I'm not an asshole or abusive but I can't help but fear that maybe I will be if a kid comes into the picture. That maybe something will click and I'd suddenly become just like him. I can't do that, I can't be like my father and hurt my child." He begins to shiver, the thought alone making him want to puke. If he ever hurt his child it would destroy him.

"Jimin. Jimin look at me. You're nothing like him, you'll never be like him. Look at who you are, who you've become. I know for a fact there's not a single bad bone in your body. You're the sweetest, most caring guy I know. You look after your dad, make sure he's safe, that he's happy. God! You call him all the time just so you can hear his voice, so you know he's okay. You protect him. You protect those you love not hurt them. You'd never hurt your pups, they'd be lucky to have you as a father. And if that's the reason you don't want kids I'm sorry but that's stupid. You'd be the best god damn father in the world." Hoseok pulls Jimin's head back, hands rubbing his cheeks as he forced him to stare at him. Jimin needed to know his fears weren't ever going to happen. He was a good man who was going to be a great dad.

"And listen to me. If you don't want kids you don't have to have them. Just because Jungkook wants them doesn't mean you have to too. If kids isn't something you really want them don't force yourself to just because someone else does. This is your life not his, and if he can't understand that then he obviously isn't the alpha I thought I was. You should talk to your alpha Jimin, you need to stop getting so locked in your head. Talk it out with him, don't go losing your shit no matter if that rut deserves it." Hoseok pats his shoulder, hoping he'd got through to the strong headed omega. Jimin would always get himself stuck inside his head, overthink, overreact and push everyone away in order to protect himself.

Jimin nods along to what he's saying, absorbing his wide words. He knew he was right. Hoseok usually was. He couldn't run from his problems because they made him mad or upset. If he really loved Jungkook he'd consider his feelings. Think about his wants as well as his own. He had to stop acting on impulse, stop getting upset and shutting everyone out. Jungkook was part of his life, his mate, his alpha, his new life. And if that involves kids then he'd have to consider that.

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Sorry for ghosting for awhile. Been struggling a little with writing & getting back on the house. Not super happy about this chapter but please enjoy.

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