Chap 17: insecurities
not proofread as it's almost 2am so....😴
The scents of lust lingered strongly in the air, musky and howling, steaming up the car and fogging the windows. Jungkook's alpha pheromones cascaded around the omega, enveloping him in this delicious roasted almond tang that lured him in so sensually. It made his skin crawl, wolf gleam in desire, body tremble and form slick in preparation.
Jungkook's large, rough hand devoured his tender thigh, clawing and squeezing it like he god damn owned it. He liked it, found the aggressive touch to be intoxicating, sending his nerves haywire with need and arousal. His throat had become dry, lips soaked in spit from the constant lick of his tongue. His blue aqua eyes glistening with a subtle purple, sparking a erotic tint to entice his mate in.
Jimin didn't really know why he is feeling so horny or desperate for the touch of his alpha. He supposed it had something to do with the erratic emotions running through his mind. It had been a long, stressful, emotional night that had him feeling like the helpless child he once was when his abusive father was around. He hated it, hated feeling like that because it made him feel useless and he didn't want to feel like that ever again. Being confronted by his father brought back a lot of suppressed emotions he's been trying to hide from. It brought back the pain, the fear, the shame and weakness his father shrouded him with whenever he is around.
Jimin shakes his head, ridding those hideous thoughts before they crushed him under its fatal toll. He had to push through it, get over whatever hold his father still had because otherwise he wouldn't have a life.
"I love you Jimin." Jungkook's deep, dominating voice sliced through the thick haze.
The confession caught Jimin of guard, it wasn't exactly the first confession but it somehow felt like it. Three words that somehow could change everything in one single second.
Jimin glances his way, finding Jungkook's violent white eyes staring back at him in adoration, like he is the only thing he could see.
"I love you too." Jimin felt those right in his gut, wolf howling in approval at his heartfelt confession.
Jungkook's wolf ruts around smugly, a gruesome yearning to pull his omega into his arms and smother him with his scent and comforting marks. The desire to mate and mark him even more longing, more desperate than it has ever been before.
The moment the car pulls up, Jimin is peering out the window awestruck by the luxurious, overly dominating apartment building. His eyebrows knit, conforming to the idea this must be Jungkook's pristine home he's envisioned for so long. The outside in itself flaunting just how expensive and extravagant it is.
"This is your house? Why we we at your house? You've never brought me here before." Jimin removes his gaze from the window, flicking it towards his alpha.
"Because, I want you to feel safe here which you will since my scents all over it. Besides, I think it's about time you see where you're going to live." Before Jimin had the chance to comment on the remark he laid out there, Jungkook is already unlocking his door, stepping out to dash to the other side, opening Jimin's like the gentleman he is.
"Jungkook-." Jimin attempts to speak but Jungkook has other ideas.
"Come Jimishi, I've got so much to show you." The alpha pulls him along, clinging tightly to his small hand.
Jimin is in awe the moment the step inside, the lobby carved in expensive marble and elaborate styling with diamond incrusted chandeliers hanging proudly from the ceiling. It was beautiful to say the least, it made Jimin feel small and intimated as it reminded him just exactly how wealthy and important Jungkook is.
A respected alpha who had it all, power, wealth, strength and the pick of any omega. Yet he'd picked him, an omega who had nothing, barely the clothes on his back. He offered Jungkook nothing, couldn't give him the honour or grace other omegas could give him.
A sickly kind of self loathing washed over him, a gnawing at his confidence. He knew it was stupid, feeling self conscious about being Jungkook's omega but being here, in his luxurious home it reminded him just how different their lives where.
"Jimishi?" Jimin snaps from his self distracting daze, finding Jungkook staring at him with his white moon like eyes.
"Yeah? Sorry-." He shuffles quickly into the elevator, trying to keep his scent sweet not to give away his true feelings.
Jungkook tugs him close, burying his head against the crook of his neck. His nostrils flare at the delicious smell, devouring it best he could. He wrapped his strong arms securely around his waist, an act to show exactly who he belonged too.
"Don't get to intimidated by it baby, this is going to be your home too." His husky voice tingled the hairs on the back of his neck, Jimin can only nod though he wasn't sure he'd like it here.
The metal doors slide open with ease, revealing the god like palace his alpha lived in. Jimin's jaw dropped to the floor, eyes trying to adjust to the beauty before him. He's so paralysed in place he didn't budge when Jungkook tries pulling him along.
"Come my omega, we haven't even seen the bedroom yet." Jungkook cheekily winks at him, dragging him out from the small elevator.
The moment he steps inside he's hit with the dominating stench of his alpha. It smothered him, devoured him, coated him in its delicious haze. His wolf cries with glee, loving the smell, it being the only thing he ever wanted to pass through his nostrils.
"It smells nice." Jimin comments, unable to hide the pride his wolf felt.
Jungkook grins ear to ear, teeth grazing his bottom lip greedily. His icy eyes raking over him, taking all his will power not to pounce on his omega right here an now.
"You know what would make it smell better?" He's latching his hands onto the sides of his omegas waist, pulling him in until his body pressed against his own.
Jimin snorts at him, tongue licking over his plump lips feeling the tension in the air turn thick and disgustingly sweet.
"You're being sappy again alpha, don't want people thinking you're going soft." He teases him, eyes hooding as they ran up his body.
Jungkook growls lowly, animalistic but also gentle, leaning down to rub his face into the side of his neck. It sent a spark slithering up his spine, an inhale of a shaky breath leaves his lips. His small fingers go to cling at his shirt, suddenly feeling his body heat up.
"I'm only soft for my omega, no one else." His lips hover over the tender part of his neck, hanging just where his scent gland is.
"Your omega." Jimin couldn't lie, it sounded perfect slipping off his tongue.
Jungkook's wolf is pleased at that, tongue making kitten licks up the crook of his neck, teeth gnawing ever so slightly. The only fragrances in the air were a mangling of savoury and sweet, morphing together so magnificently it had Jimin's head spinning at the over stimulation.
"Let's give you the tour before I take you right here, I'm having a very hard time controlling myself. You're just to tempting Jimin." Jungkook is moving away to quickly for Jimin's liking, instead of finishing marking up his skin he opts for grabbing his hand in his.
Jimin gets man handled around, being taken into the oversized rather excessive kitchen. A marble, galaxy styled island sat front and centre. The pots and pans hung up in the air, counter tops clean and sparkling like they've never seen an ounce of dirt. Jimin would've said it was a bit much but it would have been an understatement.
"You seriously need a kitchen this big? How many people live here?" He quirks a brow, giving Jungkook a sly look.
"What? I like having a nice kitchen, and anyway I know how much you like to cook." Jungkook received a harsh slap, Jimin playfully glaring at him.
"I'm no housewife Kook, I'm not going to be cooking and cleaning after you." He crosses his arms, moving around the large island.
Jungkook laughs gently, knowing Jimin most certainly was like one omega he's ever met.
"Never thought for a second you were."
Jimin smiles at him, eyes softening as he laughed at his annoying alpha. Jungkook admires Jimin, getting any chance he could to take a moment to appreciate what he's got.
"Okay, I want to show you the living room." Jungkook snatches his hand, dragging him away from the kitchen down the hallway.
Jimin looks around, noting how open planned the penthouse is. There had to be at least two levels to it, the stairwell twirled smugly up to the second floor.
"You're going to love it here baby, I really think this can be our home." Jungkook seemed almost giddy, like a child high on sugar.
Jimin giggles at him, both swaying side to side as they walked. Jungkook gives him a much deserved peck on the lips, pulling him along only to stop in his tracks when he makes it to the opening to the living room. Jimin not expecting to stop rams into his back, making a grunt when he does.
"Hello Jungkook." The once delicate scent in the air turned almost toxic, Jimin finally able to smell the new, foreign scent of an alpha that was hidden by their own love filled one.
Jungkook's hold on him tightens, in a protective instinct he's pushing his smaller body behind him in an act to shield him.
"What are you doing here?" It came out blunt and heated, Jungkook clearly not wanting this man here.
Jimin glances over his shoulder, his blood running cold when he meets the red eyes of Jungkook's unfriendly, rude, spiteful step father.
"I've come to see my son, is that not allowed? I notice that you've got that omega with you again." If Jimin didn't feel small already he did the moment he stood up, towering even over Jungkook who stands tall and proud.
"I'm not your son." It was the only thing Jungkook could say, if he said more he'd sure insult the man which wouldn't end well.
His step father growls, it barely heard but Jungkook's expert ears could. His reflexes were to keep Jimin closer to him, trapping his body between his arms.
"You are, you hold my name Jungkook. You're my son whether you like it or not." He takes a step closer, creating an unwanted smaller distance.
Jungkook clenches his jaw, being confronted like this by the man didn't sit well. He despised the man, right to his very core because of how controlling he was of his life and how he demanded to claim every aspect of it like it was his to own.
"I thought I told you I don't want to speak to you, if I'm not wrong I made that quite clear." Jungkook's white eyes glared a burning hole into him, the pheromones in the air becoming painful, to much for Jimin to handle.
His step father hackles, stepping forward once again which only resulted in Jungkook snarling, bearing his pearly fangs.
"Not a step closer!" His alpha is barking at him to protect, to protect, to protect.
His omega was in a room with a dangerous alpha and he wasn't about to let him get hurt again. He uses his scent to try take hold of the situation, needing to dominant in order to take charge.
"Why are you still with him? I thought I made it clear he isn't good enough, he's tainting our good name. I will not have you be associated with an omega like him." That statement alone had Jungkook's wolf snapping at him, feisty and ready to sink his teeth into something.
Jimin couldn't help letting his words slice into him, a knife digging deep into his open wound. If he didn't already harper insecurities from the second he stepped into this place they sure were coming now full force in one cruel blow.
He didn't know where all this was coming from, the lack of self esteem, questioning his self worth. None of it remotely crossed his mind, maybe once or twice when they first started whatever it was that lead them to what they are now. But nothing that made him question himself or doubt if he was worthy of a spectacular alpha such as him.
Though now he felt it, the weakness, the pathetic sting that circled him. He guessed everything that has happened in the last twenty four hours has something to do with his wavering emotions and mental health. It had to be the reason his words were getting to him, he's already feeling vulnerable and he certainly wasn't helping matters.
"Fuck our good name! Don't talk about my omega like that! I thought I made it clear where I stand, he is my mate and my omega." Jungkook growls like an animal, a fire cowling in his stomach just about ready to burst.
Jimin couldn't stop the smile that lathered his lips, seeing Jungkook stand up for him like that was both alluring and endearing.
His step fathers pheromones sour, rage envisioned across his ragging eyes and curling lips. The tension so thick not even a knife could cut through it.
"He's is lower than us, than you. You're a strong alpha, a pedigree who deserves an omega who is just as pure. Not some rut whose nothing and a no body." It the last straw Jungkook could take, his alpha took control, his actions no longer his own.
Before his step father could register what is happening a sharp left hook is thrown his way. Jungkook is on him, snarling, growling and snapping his teeth.
"You need to leave now! I'm not having you disrespect my omega!" Jungkook used his alpha voice, a rare occurrence since he hated using it, forcing people on his will to do what he said somewhat scared him.
Jimin stiffens at the tone, it sending his wolf crawling at the alpha voice. His step father had the same reaction, turning rigid before composing himself and scampering to his feet. He gives him a hard stare, chest heavy but nonetheless gives up the fight for now at least. Jungkook gritted his teeth, his scent harsh and cruel lingering in the air. He wipes his bleeding lip, stroking his bruising cheek.
"You'll never be good enough for him, no matter how hard you try." He leaves with one last, snarky remark to gnaw deeper into Jimin's aching wound.
Jungkook barks at him, an urge to bite his head off came to mind. Jimin just stood there lost in thought, in the gruesomeness of his mind that ate his soul and his confidence.
All the things said to him by his alpha father and Jungkook's were ragging their angry heads and it was not pretty. He couldn't fight the lingering thought that they were right.
He wasn't worthy and he would never be.
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I know ! The angst🥺
Love you my honeybuns💕
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