holly's pov

"I'm home!" I yell getting no response which doesn't surprise me.

I hear tiny footsteps approaching me. I smile watching Toulouse run to me. I embrace him in a hug. While he gives me kisses on my cheeks.

"I missed you boy," I say while rubbing  his belly.

"I just wish you weren't the only one who loved me," I wipe a tear from under my eye with my sleeve.

Toulouse nuzzles his face into my neck. I close my eyes still hugging his little dog arms. I detach myself standing up once again. Walking to the fridge to see a note.

Dear Holly,

We left you a credit card that has enough cash for the month we'll be on our business trip. Never forget we love you.

I doubt they were on a 'business trip' they probably were on vacation without me. I thought I would get used to an empty house but everyday I just feel lonelier. I have no idea what I would do if I didn't have Toulouse.

I fill up Toulouse's water and dog food bowls up. He watches me wagging his tail and barking at me. At least one of us can be happy.

I hear a buzz from my phone. I take it out of my pocket unlocking my screen.

From Justin:

Hey baby.

I smile before texting him back 'hi.'  Seconds later I receive another buzz.

From Justin:

What are you up to?

To Justin:

Nothing. I'm home alone.

From Justin:

I'll be over in a minute.

I laugh to myself he's probably horny.

A few minutes later I hear the doorbell ring. I walk over to the door checking in the door hole to make sure it was Justin. Once I confirm it's him I open the door for him.

"I brought ice cream," he smiles.

"And I have the movies," I smile back.

"So you're parents are on another business trip?"

"Yea."

"That makes this the fifth time this month."

"Whatever," I snap.

"How about I get spoons and you can set up the movie in the your room?" he says trying to calm me down.

"Sounds good," I fake smile.

"Good," he says walking into the kitchen.

I run up the stairs trying to make sure I don't have clothes scattered everywhere. I try to catch my breath once I make it to my doorway. I sign in relief when I see it's spotless. I plop on my bed logging into Netflix.

Shortly after I picked the maze runner Justin entered my room with one spoon and a tub of ice cream with Toulouse trailing behind him.

"I think you're missing a spoon," I state.

He smirks. "You know what they say. Share a spoon with your girlfriend."

"No one says that," I laugh.

"They should," he laughs causing butterflies to erupt in my stomach.

"What movie did you choose baby?" He asks while getting comfortable on my bed.

"The maze runner," I grin.

"I'm starting to think you like Dylan O'Brien more then me," he replies.

"Never," I giggle. I kind of did prefer Dylan but I had to settle for Justin.

He rolls his eyes playfully. Engulfing his arms around my petite body. I press play on my laptop. I try to concentrate while watching Dylan because you can't deny how hot he is but I keep hearing buzzing.

"Is there a bee in here?"

"Why would there be a bee in here?" he replied back rudely.

"I just keep hearing buzzing. You don't have to be so mean," I say feeling my eyes burning from the tears I'm holding  back.

"You don't have to be so clingy."

"I'm not the one who came over you jerk," I say throwing the ice cream filled spoon at his face.

"Ow. You're a bitch," he growls.

"And you're an idiot. Tell me something I don't know," I remark suddenly gaining more confidence.

"Whatever just continue the movie," he says trying to kiss my lips but I turn my head the other way so his lips meet my cheek instead. 

"Holly please don't be mad at me," he pouts.

"Justin whenever you don't get what you want is the only time you act like you care. Any other girlfriend would be mad at you," I say removing his arms from my body.

"That's not true. I love you."

"Do you now?" I snigger.

"What do you mean? Of fucking course I love you Holly," he says looking into my eyes but there wasn't any true remorse maybe only lust since he always told me I was hot when I was angry. 

"I don't know when you're telling the truth anymore," I say exhaling a breath I was holding in.

"Then why do we try?"

"Because I love you too much to let you go. So I rather live with the angels and devils inside of me telling me to give up. We both know I would never give up us. We've been to the moon and back," I reply feeling a tear falling down my cheek.

"Holly. I should tell you something before it's too late."

I furrow my eyebrows. "And what would that be?"

"You're not my only one."

"How long has this been going on?" I say my voice getting nasally from all the crying I'm doing.

"Two months after we started dating."

"How could you do this to me? I love you Justin. I thought you loved me too."

"I didn't mean to hurt you Holly. That was never my intention. I just wasn't satisfied I guess," he says scratching the back of his neck.

"You guess? I guess I should slap you," I remark.

"Please don't. Holly we can make this work. We have for a year already," he pleads.

"Only because I didn't know you were cheating on me idiot," I say slapping his face as hard as I can.

He holds his cheek rubbing it wincing. I smile knowing I gave him a fraction of the pain I'm feeling from knowing he's being cheating on me for most of our relationship.

"If I can't be your only one. I'm breaking up with you."

"Holly please," he begs.

"I'm not changing my mind."

"Fine you can be my only one."

I roll my eyes. "I hope so."

"Just kiss me," he replies.

"Are you kidding me?!" I yell.

"What's wrong?" he frowns.

"You expect me to kiss you now that I know you're lips could have been anywhere," I scoff.

"I told you I would stop for you."

"Where were you before you came over?"

"What does this have-"

"Where were you?!" I scream.

"Please stop screaming at the top of your lungs at me!" he yells back.

"I can't help it. I don't know whether to leave you or stay?"

"You should stay."

"I have no good reason to."

"My love isn't a good enough reason for you?" he says his eyes darkening.

"I didn't mean that. I just have mixed emotions."

"I can fix them," he smiles.

"How?"

He leans in to capture my peach pink lips. Gently moving his lips against mine a few seconds later he gently pulls away.

"There," he says cockily.

I giggle. "That did kind of help," I reply.

He grins at me. I can't help but smile back. Were interrupted by the buzzing of my phone.

I check my phone to see a new text from Tiffiany.

From: Tiffiany

Nova just kissed Justin.

I knew that couldn't be true because I was with him. Why would she betray my trust like that?

A/N: I'm not ready toulouse jariana at least not yet(whoops.) I hope the story is starting to make sense. I want you to see how people pretend to be something they're not.

It's official updates are every Monday :)

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