"Are you ready?" Gun asked me while fixing my necktie

Actually, I'm not yet ready to bid my last goodbye to my mother, but I need to, I need to see her for the last time

"Yes" I answered

" Let's go"

Gun drove the car and went to the cemetery where we will bury my mom, My heart is beating very loud and fast, this will be the last moment that I will see her face, I took a deep breath before opening the door and walking out

Everyone is staring at me, I can see how they pity me.

I walked next to my mother's casket and smiled, I took a deep breath and wiped the tears on my eyes

" Mom, Thank you for everything, I'm sorry for the things I've done that hurts you. Saying that I am feeling sad would be a bit too shallow, words just can't explain how I'm feeling, so low Life has taken away someonesome o precious, so dear it's just not possible to imagine that you won't be near me. Mom this goodbye is going to be painfully hard and long but like you always said I'll try and I'll do everything to be strong"

After the ceremony ended and everyone left, I stayed on the grave of my mom.

" Let's go" Gun offered

We are about to walk when we saw Oab and Jeed walking near us

" What are you doing here," Gun asked

" Condolences" They answered in chorus

" Off I'm really sorry, I know that this is not the best time to discuss this but I think I need to tell you everything," Jeed said

"What's that?" I asked

They took a deep breath before speaking

" We just want to say sorry for all the things we did, for fooling the both of you, I really don't want to do it but your father locked my dad on a situation wherein we cannot escape, we all know how powerful your father is and--"

" Can you stop beating around the bush and just tell it to me directly" Off shouted

" Oab and I are siblings" She explained

" WHAT!?" We shouted in chorus

" Now it's getting clearer, that's why you knew each other, that's why you run last time when the doctor is looking for Oab's family member?" I said

I saw how Jeed's eye started to water

" We are sorry, I know you can't forgive us but please let us help you, We'll help you to put your father in jail," Oab said

" I'm not in the mood, I'm tired can we just discuss this tomorrow, I need to rest," I said

I walked fast going to the car while Gun is following me

"SHIT!" I shouted after sitting

This is frustrating, really frustrating, why does my evil father need to hurt everyone just to have what he wanted

"Let's go home," Gun said and started driving the car

"No let's go to my old house, I need to look for clues, maybe mom left anything" I answered

"Are you sure?" He asked

Actually, I'm not, I don't have the courage to visit that house but I need to, for my mom, for me and for everyone

" I can do it, besides, you are here, I know that you will never leave me," I said and held my wife's hand

As we reached home, I hurriedly run inside the house

I still smell the scent of my mother, I walked straight to my room and roamed around when I heard a loud noise coming from the room of my parents

I quietly walked near it when I saw my dad huddled in the corner while sobbing

" I--I'm sorry honey, I'm sorry I was not there to see your face, to bid my last goodbye---It's my selfishness that leads us to this situation, it's my fault that--" He stopped talking when he saw me standing in front of him, He immediately wiped his tears and stood up

" Why the hell are you crying! " I asked

" What are you doing here?"

" It's none of your business!"

I was about to walk when he suddenly held my hands

" Wait Off, My Son wait," He said as he slowly pulled my body to face him

" What do you need?" I asked still not facing him

" I'm-- I'm sorry" He whispered

" What?" I asked

" I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything, I admit that I killed your mom, If you are looking for clues to use, here.." He handed me a piece of paper

I took and opened it, I know that this letter came from my mom, I know it because I already memorized her handwriting.

To my Son Off,

I'm sorry for everything, for not being a good mother to you, I know that you are facing many challenges right now and I'm really sorry I am no longer their team help you, I guess this time you should know how to stand with your own fee, I don't want to leave you behind but I don't have a choice, I'm really tired. Please don't hate your father, forgive him not for you but for me.

      Mom

Mom's letter made me realize that no matter how hurt you are, how angry you are, you should know how to let things go.

Forgiveness is always the key, but I can't, I can't figure my father.

I can't and I won't.

I sat on the couch and wiped the tears on my eyes. Gun is standing in front of me, staring and not saying any words.

He walked near me and hugged me, A hug that simply reminds me that whatever happens, he will always be here on my side, that I can use his shoulder to cry on.

Mom, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry.