I couldn't get this song out of my head. As much as I tried not to think about him, to remember him, I couldn't stop myself. When I was little, Y/S/N would sing this song to me every once in a while -- to get a smile out of me and make me feel better, or just because she could. Granted she never sounded perfect, but it always seemed to work. But now, this song was all I could think about, and it would reminded me so much of what I had just lost.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are greyYou'll never know dear, how much I love youPlease don't take my sunshine away."

When I moved here, to the Stark Tower, I've always hated everyone, I've hated everything.

  I hated my life here in this world.

 But then he came into my life and brightened up my world and made those sad days disappear.

  He was my sunshine; he made me happy when everything was grey.

"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried."

Every day after he left me, I couldn't help but dream about him. Even after he promised "I promise I will come back."

 I never wanted to wake up from my dreams because I knew I would never see his face again - his gloriously, beautiful, angelic face. When I was awake, I was always crying for him, hoping beyond hope, wishing upon every star that I could see, praying endless prayers that he would return back to me, that this was all a big, gigantic nightmare that I couldn't wake up from.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are greyYou never know dear, how much I love youPlease don't take my sunshine away."

"Oh, Steve!" Every night it was the same thing, the same quiet tears trickling down my cheeks, the same words - the same unanswered questions, "Why did you leave me! You promised, Steve!"

 My sunshine will never return.

"I'll always love you and make you happy

"If you will only say the same But if you leave me to love anotherYou'll regret it all some day."

My heart will always be his, no matter what he, or anyone else, says. When he left me, he took my heart with him -- ripped it out of my chest. Now, I'm an empty shell, waiting, endlessly for my love to return with my heart.  After declaring his love for me so frequently, and with him constantly saving my life - What happened? Why? Why did he leave me with an empty heart?

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are grey You'll never know dear, how much I love you Please don't take my sunshine away."

My life is now dark, and black. I can't see anything, I can't focus on everything. My life is gone, my captain, my sunshine is gone.

Ever since our first mission, he has always said, in one form or another, that he loved me. I was his life. That he would protect me. If anything ever happened to me, he wouldn't be able to handle it. But now he's gone. I couldn't help but think it was my fault. 

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine."

Steve was, and is, and forever will be my sunshine.

"You make me happy when skies are grey."

Because of him, grey skies and cloudy days, were made bearable, and at times even enjoyable. But now, I hated them because of all of the memories they caused. I prefer my sun, my Steve.

"You'll never know dear, how much I love you."

"Please don't take my sunshine away."

"Please, God. Give me my sunshine, my Steve back to me," I sobbed every night as I lay on my tear-soaked pillow, crying myself to sleep, and every day as I managed to make it through yet another lonely day without him.

"Please don't take my sunshine away."

... Steve ...

"Please don't take my sunshine away."

...Steve... My sunshine ... My life.

When they took his dead body back, Tony gave me a box and said, "Steve was going to give this to you." I took the box from him and looked at the red velvet box.

I was already crying.

I opened the box and saw a gold shiny ring.

I cried my heart out.

Sorry if it's shitty. lmao bye x