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Bucky paced his room, muttering to himself, as he walked.......stomped from one side of the room to the other. He was angry, angry at the world, at HYDRA, angry at Stark; but most of all, he was angry at himself.

"Buck..........."

"Save your breath, Steve. I am not apologising or anything else to Stark. He has had months to do something about finding (Y/n). Yet instead of putting all that fancy equipment of his to some actual use; to figure out some way of bringing her back, Stark is more concerned with what she was able to do to his damn suit, rather than what they have done to her............" Bucky growled, as Steve made his way into the room and took a seat on the sofa.

Steve could understand his old friend's frustrations, he could understand his anger. He could understand the fear in his eyes, at knowing that (Y/n) had been taken by HYDRA and tortured, just like he had been. Fear that he had lost her.

When it all came out about what and who Rumlow really was; what his intentions had actually been at S.H.I.E.L.D, it had also come out about what had been going on between he and (Y/n). About the relationship that they had had for some time. And (Y/n) had been left to prove that she knew or had nothing to do with what Rumlow had been doing. The agent having to claw back her reputation; having to prove herself over and over again. To sit with Fury and having to tell him everything that she knew, everything that she could remember; everything that had been said between the pair, even at the most intimate of moments. (Y/n) having to ignore the muttering and the gossip, that would be heard, as she made her way through S.H.I.E.L.D headquarters. Things only improving when Fury, Stark and Steve had shown their support for her. Each of them knowing the kind of person that she really was, where her loyalties truly lay. Yet no matter what Steve had tried to say to Bucky, he had continued to believe that she had known everything; that (Y/n) and Rumlow were still seeing one another. The captain not blind to how his best friend would watch her every move, would check and question everything that she did. Yet then, something had changed. Steve not sure what had happened, or what had been said, but Bucky's attitude had altered towards her. Distrust, dislike, disdain, replaced with something else; with care and concern, with, dare he say.......love. Steve not about to blame Bucky for his feelings towards her, and actually, the captain had liked to see his friend smile, whenever she was near. The captain believing that they both deserved to find love, and what better than to find love in one another.

"It's all my fault..........."

"What.........?" Steve's brows furrowing, as he looked up at Buck who had now stopped pacing.

"Buck............."

"No, Steve. If I had been with her, like I should have been. If I had even been close enough to her, I would have been able to stop them from taking her. From doing what they have done to her.........."

"You can't blame yourself for this. And I don't think for one minute that (Y/n) would blame you either. She, just like the rest of us, know the risks; know what could happen. What we face every time we.........."

"No. You don't understand. HYDRA took her before I had a chance to..........." Bucky slumping onto the sofa, dropping his head into his hands and gripping at his hair.

"Buck.........."

"I didn't get chance to tell her............."

"You will Buck. You'll get the chance, I promise. We will get her back, and fix whatever they've done to her. No matter what you think, Stark is doing all he can, its just that they've hidden her well. But if HYDRA have sent her out once, they will send her out again. If they see her as the Winter Soldier's replacement, they will want to use her, just like they used you. And given what she was able to do to Stark, Nat and Sam.......to you, HYDRA will send her after us, again........."

"And if they don't? If HYDRA see what has happened as some kind of unforgivable failure and they kill her, then what........? I have another death on my consciences........the death of the woman I love........." Bucky retorted, as he looked up at Steve. The captain not missing the tears that were trying to break from the corners of his friend's eyes.

"They won't. HYDRA have put too much work into her. Whatever serums that they have used her to enable to do what she did, she has obviously taken to them, and they will want to see what else she can do, what else she can take. (Y/n) is the perfect guinea pig. And if anyone is to blame for all this; if anyone should have her possible death on their conscience, it's Rumlow. After seeing him today, I'm sure that he is the one that took her; the one that brought her to HYDRA. So, maybe if Stark can't find (Y/n), then maybe he can find Rumlow, and he can lead us to her." Steve continued, as he placed his hand on Bucky's shoulder. The former HYDRA assassin slowly nodding. Promising himself that if he found out that Rumlow had so much as lain a finger on (Y/n), he would not be responsible for his actions.

"Then let's go and see if old iron breeches, can find us a traitor." Buck replied, as he got to his feet, Steve quickly joining him, before the pair made their way to the labs.