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and I in no way think Natasha is a spy, this is just a fanfiction so don't go crazy on me. 

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Being a secret agent wasn't the easiest thing. She has been undercover since the moment that Clinton Barton allowed her to join him back at the shield base. Fury was right to be skeptical because every move they made was part of the plan. 

But he wasn't part of the plan. 

She was never supposed to fall in love with the solider. Heck, she never planned to fall n love period. But Captain Rogers seemed had made his way into her heart. But with her life hanging on the line would she do what was necessary.

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Her mission all those years ago was simple. Gain the trust and kill them from the inside. She was almost compromised when Alexander Pierce went rogue and tried taking over Shield. Because was taking too long. 

But she handled it, just like she always done. But now there were some problems on the horizon for her. 

Steve Fucking Rogers

The only man in the entire agency who could compromise her. Everyone knew that she wasn't always a good person, but they all knew that she had changed. But the thing was...she hasn't. She was going to drag all of them down. And today was finally that day. She had gotten everything that Ivan had asked for. And now she can go back.

She wore her black leather boots and black jeans and her usual black jacket as she walked into the conference hall. She looked in all the Avengers sat there discussing the mole. They had heard of all someone stealing information, but luckily for her, she is a better spy then they are. 

Steve Rogers saw her walking into the room and smiled. That smile. The only thing holding her back from her mission. She kept in though, she didn't respond to him. She took one last look at all of them. She would never be able to get any of this back once she took out her gun. 

Oh well, Carpa Diem. 

"Hey, Na- WHAT THE HELL!" Tony yelled once Natasha pulled out her gun pointing it at Tony's head. The other Avengers watched her confusingly, thinking it was just Natasha threatening Tony again. "Little Red, listen whatever you think I did I swear I didn't do." He said.

"Shut up." She said. Clint carefully stood up putting his hand out to his best friend about to ask what happened but she pointed her other gun at him. "Don't you dare move." She said. Everyone sat there not moving afraid that something would set her off. 
"Today is the day." She said happily. They looked at her confused. 

"What day? Did we miss your birthday if so-" Tony started but Natasha gave him a look to shut up. 

"I have been waiting for this day since the day you brought me here." She said looking over at Clint, who was now more confused than ever. "I can finally go home." She laughed. That's when it all hit them. Steve sat hurt and confused. 

"Home? You are home." Steve said. Natasha laughed shaking her head. She removed the gun from Clint and Tony's direction and walked over to Steve, making sure the gun dragged along everyone toward him. 

"I was never home." She said. "Home is not here, it will never be." She said. "Stand up." She said to Steve. Steve didn't move. "Stand up pretty boy or your best friend," She nodded to the file in his hand of James Barnes, the winter soldier. "Will have a real nice awakening. I sure he will just love to forget you again." She said. Steve clenched his jaw. And although she hated seeing him so betrayed she kept moving. 

"You are better than this," Tony said as  Steve stood up. 

"Natasha you are making a huge mistake." Fury said. 

"Natasha don't do this. We can save you. I did it before." Clint said pleading with Natasha. She was still his best friend, and she was still his kid's aunt. They loved her. She was his family. Even if she didn't believe it. 

"I am tired of the lies. Don't act like you all do suck in a breath when I walk by. Don't pretend you don't watch my every move to make sure I am not doing something wrong. But guess what? Even with your eyes following me I was still able to get past all of you." She said with a nasty smirk. "Well Boys, Maria, Nick." She said addressing them all in the room. "it's been an absolute horror. Now I suggest you don't fall me. Or I won't hesitate to blow pretty boys brains out." She threatened. 

She pushed Steve so he would walk out of the room. She kept the gun low so that no one would see it jabbing into the soldier's stomach. 
"Why are you doing this?" Steve asked. "Please don't do. I know you, Natasha-" 

"My name isn't Natasha. And stop saying you know me because I know you don't." She said. 

"I love you. I know you." Steve said, Natasha felt tingles run down her spine and her heart skip a beat. 

"Love is for children." She said to him. But Steve was going to be persistent. 

" Don't you say that." He said. "we both know you don't believe that. Please don't tell you to believe that." He said. "I know that someone deep down that you loved me." He said. "You can't tell me these few weeks meant nothing to you." He whispered, making sure to smile to people as they walked along the hall. 

She stopped and looked him in the eyes. Someone wherein the eyes she was pleading for help. Begging him to help her. To save her. But she knew no one could. She knew that she was gonna die. 

"It meant nothing." She said. But Steve saw the tears that threatened to fall. He saw the pain. He knew something was wrong. 

"Where are you taking me then?" He asked as they approached the exit of the building. The Avengers would still be suiting up, so she had one minute to leave. She dropped the gun she was jabbing into his chest. She looked around and then wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him down into a kiss. 

Steve was shocked at first but he knew she wouldn't do this. She wouldn't hurt him. She was just waiting until they couldn't see her. And when she pulled away the tears were glimmering at the edge of her eyes. 
"Help me." She said. Steve about to ask her what was going on when he blinked and she was gone. She disappeared as if she was never there. 

Steve stood there lost and confused. Without knowing anything except the fact that the woman he loved was lost from him. 

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Steve sat listening to the rest of the team talk about the situation. No one could believe what had just had happened. Steve refused to believe that she wanted to kill them. 
"She can't do. I have brought her in. I know she wouldn't hurt any of us...physically." Clint said. He too was refusing to believe his best friend was anything like this. 

"Barton get over it." Maria said. "how we didn't see this sooner was a mystery to me." She rolled her eyes. Clint looked at her shocked. 

"Are fucking serious Hill?" He said. "You act like she meant nothing to YOU! YOU ARE TREATING HER LIKE A FUCKING ASSASSIN" He yelled slamming his hand on the table startling everyone. No one has ever seen Clint o angry. 

"She is. She just threatened to kill all of us." She said back to him. 

"If she wanted to kill us we all know she could. None of us had any of our weapons and we were all too shocked to have stopped her. So fuck me. if she wanted to kill us she would have." He said. 

"ENOUGH!" Fury yelled. "I am fucking done. You all need to stop acting like mother fucking children." he rubbed his temples. "Should have known not to trust a spy." He mumbled. No one spoke as the room fell silent. He had already told them that one of them would have to bring her in before she got back to her contacts. 

"I'll do it," Steve said is the only one to speak up. "I will bring her in." He said and tony burst out in a small laughter. 

"What are you gonna do rogers? Recite a poem for her? Explain you undying love for one another? Because you know that everything she has ever said to us has been a lie? I hop you understand that." He said threatening. "So why should you do that? Why should you bring her in" He asked as Steve stood up to walk to the door ignoring Tony only partly? Steve turned back to him before leaving and looked Tony in the eyes. 

"Because I am the only one who will die trying." 

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He didn't know if she would be here but it was worth a try. He was going to find her and she would come back with him. He sat in the park, but away from all the crowds. It was his and Natasha's hidden corner.  

"Rogers." A scared voice spoke. Steve quickly stood up to face her. She was scared that he would be mad at her so she kept her distance from him. 

"Natasha." He said softly. "what's going on?" He asked. "Why are you doing this?" He asked. 

"I want you to know that I do love you Steve. It wasn't my mission to fall in love with you. "She said as if she was being rushed. "But I have to go back." 

"Please just explain to me why this is happening. Why are you leaving the team?" He asked. 

"Steve it's not my chose. But if I don't go they will kill me. I am scared. Scared of a fate that may even be worse then death." She tried to find the right words as Steve approached her. She quickly moved away. "No please I don't wanna cause you anymore pain." She cried. 

"Natasha, the only pain I have is watching you like this. I don't fully understand what is going on however I am in love with you. I am not gonna let you get away from me that easily." He said deterined. Natasha laughed sadly. 

"How Steve? How are you gonna save me?" She asked Steve appraoched her once more and she didn't back away. He took her hand into his and smiled. 

"Together." 

You wanna know what happens next? Comment down below and I may make a part two.