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TW:ANXIETY, INSOMNIA, BRIEF MENTION OF SUICIDE, 

Peters POV

I stare up at the ceiling, unable to sleep. Again. I dont know why I cant sleep. Maybe my mimd is moving too fast, or Im afraid to dream because of nughtmares, but im just so tired.I want to sleep, but my stupid body wont let me. Ive tried drugs, but my fast motabolisim burns them off before they work. Ive tried lullabies, rain, the whole thing. I tried essential oils, but they just gave me a sensory overload. I've throught of putting myself out of my misery, but I dotn want people to die just because Ive been having sleeping problems,

I know Tony has noticed, I mean how could he not the bags under my eyes are bigger than the Sahara desert. He keeps asking me if I'm OK but I am I just can't sleep there's nothing that anyone can do about it.  It's normal everyone struggles of falling asleep at some point this is just mine. I get shocked out of my thoughts when someone knocks at my door.

"Peter? I know you are awake, please let me in" Tony pleads from the door. Maybe if I dont respond he will go away. I stay silent, and I hear Tomy sigh from the door.

" Peter please, I'm just trying to help you, you can't keep pushing me away" Oh yes I can. I still dont answer and he sighs.

" I love you kiddo. I just want to help." I feel bad for ignoring him now. Ill talk to him tomorrow. I hear him walk away. I decide to just get up and finish that essay I've been waiting to do.

The next morning

I get up from my desk. I have decided to not talk to Tony like I said previously. Because that means talking about it. I dont want to talk about it. I quickly run to the kitchen, grabbing some snacks and then run back so theres no chance if seeing Tony. I plop down onto my bed and open a bag of chips. I hear a knock on my door. Again. 

"Kiddo please. I know you are there please talk to me I just want to help you. I've been there where either I'm afraid to sleep or I just can't. I've been there are I want to help you. You need sleep, and I know you have been avoiding me. I bet you haven't gotten any sleep since I saw you last, which was like 3 days ago. Please Peter, just let me in so I can help you. I know you don't like asking for help, neither do I, but you need it." I don't respond, and her Tony sigh, again. I start to cry, because no one had ever said anything like that to me. 

"Okay kiddo. I'll be down in the lab. If you need anything, I'm here." I sigh before starting the next episode of Glee. Maybe talking to Tony will help. Or it will ruin any reputation I had with him. I decide the latter, and will make some dinner for the two of us tonight. I stay in bed the whole day, thinking and watching glee. I notice that it's 6pm, so I go up to the kitchen.

Pastas pretty easy right? Well, maybe for a person on a good nights rest. After the water starts boiling I don't pay attention and drop the pot, burning my entire forearm. I scream out in pain, and I hear Tony rushing up the stairs. 

"What the hell? Are you okay! Oh my god come with me to the medbay." Tony exclaims.  I let him drag me into the elevator and up to the medbay. He sits me down and puts my arm under cold water. I hiss at the pain. 

"What happened? Are you okay?" I start to tear up.

" I'm sorry, I've just been such a dick lately because i was ignoring you so I wanted to make it up to you but I dropped the pot and not everything is ruined!" I sobbed collapsing into him.

" I'm just so tired, I want to sleep! Please make me sleep!" Tony holds me tightly as I sob into him.

" Shh, it's okay kiddo. Come on. Let's get you settled." He leads me into the elevator and up the stairs into the main living room. He gently lays me down on the couch and grabs a blanket wrapping it around me. 

" We can talk about all that later. I promise. But right now, you need to calm down. What movie do you want to watch?" I sniffle.

"Star Wars" i say quietly. Tony chuckles,

" I thought so." He gets the remote and flicks to the channel that plays Star Wars 24/7 and sits down next to me, pulling me into a side hug. I suddenly realize something.

"Tony? I'm- I'm not okay. Is that okay?" He looks at me for a moment.

"It's not your fault, and it's okay that your not okay. Don't worry about that now." I snuggle up against him before saying,

" I love you dad. Thank you." Tony looks shocked before smiling softly.

"I love you too kiddo. So much" and with that, sleep finally takes me. I think I'm gonna be okay.

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Also hi! Def didn't write this during school...

Love, pumpkinspicebae