Song: why don't we - words I didn't say.

Imagine: you and Bucky used to be in a relationship. Not anymore, he broke your heart, and yet he can't live without you.

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'Well if you're so weak that you can't take it anymore then why don't you just leave huh?!'

'Well maybe I will!, but know that when I walk out that door, I' am never getting back!'

'Well good!, maybe I don't want you to!' He yells.

'Fuck you Barnes!, I give you everything and you push me away!, you treat me like garbage but gets jealous when anybody else treats me like an actual person!, you don't own me!, I'm a person not an object!'

He stays silent, he knows you're right, you're absolutely right and no matter how hard he tries he keeps screwing its up.

'I've been through hell, and I know that you did too, I do but I can't take sitting home alone anymore, waiting for you to come home to me, because you simply forgot about me...'

I get so caught up in me
That I don't realise what I'm missin'
All of my priorities
Never put you in my plans

Now, three days later, you're still cooped up in your room, refusing to go out. You feel so hurt that he will let go off you so easily while you stood by him while he was having nightmares, when he would turn all commando on you and actually hurt you.

You stayed no matter what and now that you needed him, he abandoned you.

Every time we got closer, I pushed you away
Pulled you right back just to give you the pain
If I was your sinner, then you were my saint
Guilty of breaking your heart

'Y/n, honey you have to get out of your room to eat...or at least let me in..'

'No!, Nat please go away!, I don't want you to help me!, I want to be left alone!' You try to be all tough, but most of it cracks up before it reaches Nats ears.

She has seen you react to a few breakups in the past but this has to be one of the baddest you've ever been through.

You were crazy about Bucky, all the way up to your breakup, even when you fought you would love him unconditionally. And Bucky was crazy about you too. He's just an incredible dumbass to end it this way with you.

Not when he was telling Nat how excited he was to ask you to marry him in just a few days from now, but she guesses that's not going to happen.

He's a mess, everyone in the tower can see right through him with that. He's absentminded, he barely sleeps without you by his side and he's not smiling anymore.

And Nat hasn't seen you in those three days, so she can only imagine how much worse you look right now.

I lie here awake, thinking of all the games I played
I let you wait, hundreds of promises that I
(I never made, ) I fell forever in a day
('Till you walked away, ) because of the words I didn't say

'What are you doing Bucky?' She asks him.

'I-I don't know...' he sighs in defeat. 'I don't know what to do... fuck...I screwed up...bad...I can't control myself around her and...I never meant any of the words I said...I should've stopped her from walking away...I should've said something...Fuck!'

'Go talk to her because I can no longer stand here and watch you both completely drown in misery...you go up to her door and tell her all the words you should've said...she won't say nothing back but she will listen...fix it...'

There is no me without you
And you don't realise what you're missin'
This time I'm on something different
Let me show you why, for real

'Y/n?' He knocks on your door.

You sit up in your bed with a look of disbelieve written all over yourself.

'Are you there?'

You don't answer, you're getting angrier by the second, how dare he yell at you and now just knock on your door.

'Y/n?'

'What!' You snap.

'I know this won't mean shit to you right now and I take full blame for that, but I'm so sorry... I don't know how to handle myself when I'm around you... and god I didn't mean anything I said... I should've apologised to you and change my behaviour and I should've talked to you more...I should've stopped you from walking out because I can't fucking live without you....you calm me when I need to stay calm, you help me sleep through all the nightmares...you tell me everything will be okay when I'm not confident or hopeful...I was going to propose...and god I still want to...'

Your breath catches in your throat, he wanted to propose? Scratch that he still wants to propose?

'I need you to know that even though I don't deserve it, fuck even though I deserve nothing from you, I'm so sorry...please give me a chance to change myself for you....'

You slowly slide out of the bed and make your way to the door, unlocking it and opening it. You stare straight into his eyes.

He breaks eye contact, unable to look you into the eye because of the embarrassment taking control over him.

'You hurt me...the things you said...after everything I've done for you-'

'I know...' his voice cracks up. He frowns trying to hide his pain, his tears.

'You should've talked to me about it, this would've never happened if you talked to me about it....'

He nods, his throat too tight to answer you.

'So let this be a good lesson for you Barnes because I swear to god that id this happens again...you won't get off this easy...'

He finally looks up with this new kind of hope in his eyes.

'Did you mean it?'

'Mean what?'

'You wanting time propose to me...that you still do...'

'Ever word...but I understand if you don't want to marry me...' He shakes his head a bit.

You pull him into a kiss, 'Yes....I'll marry you...on one condition...'

'You name it...anything...'

'If you do something like that ever again...it's over...'

'Noted...' he pulls you close, laying his head against yours.

'And next time something like this is bugging you, talk to me...it would be weird that you chat my ears off about anything else but you won't come to me with these type of things...'

'I promise you I will, if it comes back...you'll be the first to know I swear...'

'I love you...'

'I love you too...'

See, I can't live without you, I hope you forgive it
A world without you is a world without living
I can't live without you, I hope you forgive it
A world without you is a world without living
I can't live without you, I hope you forgive it
A world without you is a world without living
I can't live without you, I hope you forgive it
A world without you...