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Ollie
MON | 9:12 AM

Milly:
Olls?
Are you available to talk?

Ollie:
Mills, hey!
Of course I am. What's up?
Nasa Italy ka raw?

Milly:
Yes, in the mean time. Just spending time with my brothers before I fly back.

Ollie:
Oh, nagkabati na kayo ni Tita?

Milly:
Not really :/
Am I too cruel for withholding my affections from her when I see her trying naman na now?

Ollie:
Not at all. You're allowed to express your hurt. It's been years of frustrations and disappointment on your end after all.
Anyway, what's up? What do you wanna talk about? Something wrong?

Milly:
No, nothing's wrong.
It's about Kai.
I need a guy perspective lang.

Ollie:
Oh, you finally got back to him?
What do you need perspective on?

Milly:
Kasi... we agreed to talk about us again once I get back. I was hoping to apologize sana for leaving him and I wanted to try and rekindle our relationship.
But he hasn't given me a definite time when that would be. He needs to think pa raw kasi which is okay. I can wait naman no matter how long it takes.
But kanina, he asked me to tell him when I'd get back.
Does that mean he's ready to talk na?

Ollie:
Not sure. It can mean a lot of things din kasi. But why didn't you just ask him? I'm sure if you did, you would've had the answer by now? Or are you guys in no contact again?

Milly:
We're talking...
I'm just nervous to clarify :(
It feels like I'm starting again. I'm so nervous to talk or even think about him.
Plus, I don't want him to think that I'm rushing him.
Baka kasi he just wanna be updated.
And... okay... I'm kinda scared.
Na baka sabihin niya di pa siya ready or he doesn't want me back anymore :(
I know it's my fault for pushing him away and it's wrong to suddenly want him back when that's all I've ever done. I guess I'm just scared to face the consequences of my actions and losing him for good :(

Ollie:
Hmm valid feelings and I totally get why you'd feel that.
But remember, Mills. This is also the same guy that waited for you back when you wouldn't even talk to anyone. I think you can be honest with him. He's a straightforward guy.
Also, I don't think he'll do anything to hurt you? He loves you too much to do that and I can attest to that. I witnessed it firsthand.
Now that you're ready to talk about you two, does that mean you're intending to stay na ba for good?

Milly:
Yes...
Gods, yes...
I was so stupid to think otherwise, Olls :/
Coz I realize, I don't wanna lose him pala talaga. When it became real and it hit me in the face, I realized how wrong my decisions had been :(
I had to hurt him severely pa to even arrive at this realization so I understand his reservations.
I'm just...
Fuck...
Kinakabahan kasi ako.
Now ko lang naman narealize na I'm in love, Olls.
I wanna talk to him some more but I'm so nervous even just thinking about him. Texting him pa kaya to ask?

Ollie:
Hay, Mills. I dunno if I should laugh or commiserate with you. On one hand, I'm happy that you are finally admitting that to yourself and have made the decision to stay. On the other hand, I kinda feel bad that both of you are in this position.
Still, I'm glad na you can say it freely na. I know how hard getting to this point had been.
Just ask the guy, alright? Kung in love ka, I'm sure he's head over heels.

Ollie:
Plus I've seen his effort din kasi, Mills. I've seen how distressed he was when he couldn't get to you. I think he deserves the communication from you after waiting for so long. I'm not saying you should rush him but just...
Just do what you can to let him know how much he means to you. Don't let him go this time if there's still a fighting chance.
If I were in his position, I think I'd appreciate that more. It would show you really mean to stay this time.
Of course if he said otherwise, we should respect that too.

Milly:
You're right...
I'm just so freakishly nervous, gosh :((

Ollie:
Love does that. But hang in there, Mills. I believe in you.
Where ka ba? Lemme give you a ring. Let's talk, aight?

Milly:
Just here in my suite. You can call.

Ollie:
Wait a sec.

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Ollie San Martino
MON | 4:15 PM

Ollie San Martino:
I know it's not the intent here, but I just wanna be sure.
You're not intentionally asking Milly to chase after you, right?

Kai:
Of course not. Why would you say that?
Is that what she thinks I'm doing?

Ollie San Martino:
No naman. Just needed to ask. Haha. But I did think you won't do that to her din, knowing you.
But seriously. I'm relieved to hear that you're both in contact again.

Kai:
Ano bang sinabi niya sayo?

Ollie San Martino:
I don't think I can share that though? Haha trust me, you wouldn't wanna hear it from me. You'd want to hear it straight from her.
Just know that you're making my friend extremely nervous here haha. But it's alright. I know why you needed the time to think.

Kai:
Di ko siya pinaghahabol. Sinabi ko naman sa kanya. Kailangan lang namin ng oras para makapag-isip.
Baka kasi nabibigla na naman siya. Gusto ko lang maging sigurado siya bago kami mag-usap.
Isa pa, nasa Italy pa siya. Di to yung tamang oras.

Ollie San Martino:
What's the game plan though?
Are you going to get back together with her once she returns here?

Kai:
Pinag-iisipan ko pa.

Ollie San Martino:
You mean there's a chance di kayo magkabalikan?
I thought that's what you wanted to happen?

Kai:
Kung may natutunan man ako sa mga nangyari, di sa lahat ng oras, relasyon ang solusyon.
Bago pa ang lahat. Ang kinatatakot ko, baka sa oras na iparamdam ko ulit sa kanyang mahal ko siya, di niya ulit kayanin.
Wala naman kasing nagbago. Nasa parehong sitwasyon pa rin kami.
Problema pa rin magulang ko. Wala pa rin dito ang lolo niya. Walang nagbago.
Kailangan kong masiguro na di niya ko bibitawan kapag naging mahirap ulit lahat.
Kasi lumuhod ako non, Ollie. Lumuhod ako pero natiis niya yon.
Pag kinausap ko siya ngayon, susuko na naman ako sa kanya.
Kailangan ko ng oras.
Natatakot akong pag bumalik kami sa dati, baka iwan lang ulit ako.
I want her to be sure this time.
Yung di pinangungunahan ng kahit sino, kahit pa ng sarili niyang takot na mawalan.

Kai:
Wag mo munang sabihin kay Milly. Nag-iisip pa ko.
Hayaan mo na muna siyang makasama pamilya niya doon.

Ollie San Martino:
Damn. It went that bad pala 😔
I'm sorry you had to go through that, man.
I can't imagine being in the same position and still being as wise and cool-headed like what you're doing now. I just wish you and Mills can be happy, whether that's together or individually. You've been through so much 😔
Just... know that we're here for you too, alright? I hope Mills can get through this properly too. I'll support you both in your decisions no matter what.
You're both friends to me. Not just her but you also.

Kai:
Kung ano ang makakabuti samin. Yon na muna ang uunahin ko.