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Kairos
MON | 11:11 AM

Milly:
Kai.
Baby. My eleven.

I thought all night long how I'll talk to you because I'm so scared of saying the wrong things again. I'm scared and so ashamed to face you and I don't want you to think that I'm playing with your feelings.

But I realize that you need to know.

You need to know how I really felt that night when you asked me why I did this to us.

There's no real answer :(

I was just a coward who didn't know how to be with you. I was so scared of so many things and I dragged you down with me because of that. It was never you.

It was all me.

I'm so sorry baby for how I treated you the last time you came to see me. And for all the other times I hurt you and let you down.

I didn't mean any of it. Any of what I said.

I didn't mean to let you go like that. I will forever regret that.

It breaks my heart knowing that you left thinking that you're hurting me when that's far from the truth.

You were the only true comfort I knew, Kai. The one thing that kept me going.

But I took that for granted and I'll forever be sorry to you.

Milly:
I'm flying out. To Italy, to talk to my mother and settle things once and for all.

I'm letting you know so you don't feel that I don't care about you.

Although that's thick faced of me to say now after everything I put you through.

Milly:
It's unfair of me to ask you to wait because I don't even know how long I'll be gone. Or if I'll have the courage to face you after all this.

I'm so scared to face the truth that you might not want me back anymore.

But baby

If you have it in your heart to give me another chance...

Can we talk after this?

Milly:
I'm so sorry, Kai.

Milly:
My apologies won't undo anything. And you deserve more than a half-hearted message like this.

I just want you to know before I fly out that letting you leave that night was the biggest mistake I've ever done in my life.