iMessage
my people
MON  | 10:35 AM

Milly:
Hey girls. I'm out of country for a few days. When I return, can I talk to you? I need your help.

Neve:
San ka punta, be?

Milly:
To Italy. Mom's home. I'm going to see her to talk. I wanna ask what really happened with Lolo. And to tell her na rin what's been weighing me down all these years.

Ran:
omg
ready ka na harapin siya? :O

Milly:
Yeah. It's been a long time coming na rin naman and I'm done running away and pretending everything's okay. I've been operating based on fear for a long time. I want to be braver this time.

Ran:
taking control of your own narrative, yas!!
pero pano yong sa daddy mo? kakausapin mo na rin? magkasama ba sila doon?

Milly:
Dad's here. They broke up na raw sabi ni Tita. But I won't talk to him just yet. I don't think I'm ready to face him yet. I'm still so angry :/
Idk why but I'm more upset with him than I am with Mom.

Ran:
izoki, baby steps muna
no need naman mag big jump agad agad sa mga ganito
go at your own pace
mahirap dyan yong pilitin ng isang bagsakan tapos ang ending, more trauma :<

Neve:
Agree kay Master. Saka siguro kasi mas mataas din expectations mo kay Tito, be, kesa kay Tita. Kaya magkaiba rin yung effects nila sa 'yo. Mas close ka rin kasi sa daddy mo, e. Mas nakasama mo siya kaya gets na mas nasaktan ka niya :(

Ano pa man 'yang mga gagawin mo, basta support lang kami lagi ni Master sa 'yo! 🙏🏻

Ran:
tro sa mas nasaktan kaya mas may anger
kaso noon, more hurt less anger ih
ang important now, inaacknowledge mo nang may pain and anger nga
anger helps talaga xD
bat mo pala naisip kausapin mama mo? ano nagtrigger? parang last time nabanggit mong binlock mo na sila?

Milly:
Lolo left a video for me. He was so worried that I would never move on from what my parents did kaya kahit buhay pa siya, he made sure to leave something behind to address that :(
And I realize, he was right.
I've been bogged down by other people's mistakes all my life. I punished myself for things I didn't do and would never do.
I think it's time to free myself of that and take hold of my own life.

You were right too, Master, when you said I won't be able to start owning my own life without acknowledging my pain and understanding why I'm hurting so much.

I had to look at my pain in the eye and actually sit down and let myself feel it. That's the only way I can process it.

Milly:
You know what I also realized? That I was never really angry despite the countless disappointments. I never let myself feel angry no matter what because I tried and kept trying to understand where they were coming from. But it was to my own detriment, I see that now. Understanding them only led me to abandon my own feelings.
That's over now.

Milly:
I'm ready to accept what I really feel.
It all began with Mom. It's only right it ends with her too.