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Mom
SAT | 11:47 PM

Milly:
Mom.
Help me. Please.
Why did it become like this?
I'm in so much pain. I don't know what to do.
Everything's wrong. Please help me.
I'm in love with him, but I don't know how to love him. I pushed him away and I hurt him because all of you ruined this love for me. All these years I've been looking for a place I can call home and now that I found it, I don't know what to do with it kasi sinanay nyo kong lagi akong naiiwan.

Milly:
Why did you leave me? Why do you say you love me but you're not here? Why were you never here? Why did you and Dad leave me behind? Why did you lie to me?
What was wrong with me? Why was I not enough? Why couldn't you love me the way I love you? I needed you.
I needed you then and you weren't there.
Why do you keep hurting me? Why do you keep showing me that your love is selfish?

Milly:
Why can't I love anyone right? Why am I so afraid no matter how hard I try?
I love him. But I don't know how to love him. Because I'm so afraid I'll ruin him like the rest of you did to me. Why didn't you love me enough to stay?
Was I not worth it?
Would I be worth risking his family over?

Milly:
He deserves so much better, Mom. I can't give him what he deserves. I had to leave him because he scares me so much and I feel so guilty because he deserves everything I can't give. I don't know how to love him. I don't know how to fix myself. I keep wanting the future I know he wants but I don't know how when I'm so broken. I'm stuck. I thought I could do it. I tried so hard. But you keep pulling me into this cycle, and I keep hurting him. I'm so scared that they were right.

Milly:
I will never be worthy of him.
I hate you. I hate you and Dad for breaking me like this.
Please free me.
Please.
Free me of you. Of this stupid cycle I'm trapped in.
It hurts so much.

Milly:
I hate you.
I hate you and Dad for turning me into this.
I hate myself for still being affected by it.
And I hate myself for doing to him the same thing you did to me.
I became exactly what I hated.
And I hate it.

Mom:
I'm so sorry, Milly anak. Where are you? Let me see you. Let's talk this over. Please, Milly. Anak.
Your dad and I didn't mean to hurt you. We love you so much. You mean the world to us. So please anak give us a chance to talk.

Milly:
Don't.
Don't bother.
All those years I waited for you but I'm done.
I'm done.
I'm not waiting for you anymore.