•||Ch20: Behind the Reason||•

||Mishal POV||

I opened my eyes and sat up slowly with a yawn. I rubbed my eyes then looked around the room. The wall in front of bed was made of glass from where you could see heavenly sight of mountains. On the ceiling, there was a beautiful and an elegant chandelier.

For a second my mind was blank then I remembered last night I slept on couch after Zayaan fed me. He must had took me here but he wasn't in the room. I removed the duvet from me but before I put my feet on the floor, he entered in the room with a tray in his hands.

"Where are you going?" He asked me.

He came towards me and put the tray on the nightstand then turned to me and placed his lips on my forehead and kissed me. A sigh escaped from my lips and a smile stretched on my lips.

"Washroom," I told him with a smile.

He stepped aside and I stood up and went to washroom. After using washroom, I entered back in the room and sat on the bed beside him. He took the tray from nightstand and put it between us.

There were chocolate chip pancakes and two mugs of chocolate milk but there was only one fork and knife. Slowly, Zayaan fed me and also ate with the same fork which pleased my heart.

After we were done eating, he took the tray and walked out of the room. I stood up and followed him out of the room but went to the hall and opened the glass door. I stepped out of the hall to the patio and sat on the chair.

Suddenly, a beautiful fifteen to sixteen years old girl entered in the patio and squealed as when she looked at me. She came running towards me and quickly sat in front of me, near my feet.

"Wow! Everyone are telling truth!" She said in awe as she stared at me with her cute big smile.

I looked at her in confusion but a smile also appeared on my lips as I looked at her cute face.

"Why you are sitting down? Come and sit here," I told her, softly and patted the chair beside me.

"Nah-ha! My abba always says never to sit beside and equal to you guys," She said with a smile and shook her head.

I frowned at her and was about opened my mouth to tell her again to sit beside me but stopped when I heard a voice from behind me.

"And how many times I have to tell you that none of our family member care about this," Zayaan said and stood beside me.

She smiled sheepishly at Zayaan and stood up slowly and sat beside me with a cute pout. I chuckled at her cute face and looked back at Zayaan who sat with us, in front of me.

"She is Rubab. Her parents are farmers in our land," He told me.

I nodded my head then turned to Rubab who looked at me with a grin on her face.

"Last night many workers caught a glimpse of you when Zayaan bhai was carrying you in his arms and since then they all are gushing about you and how cute you both were looking," She said and giggled.

I felt my cheeks turned red on thinking about many people had seen us last night.

"I am feeling jealous because I didn't witness that beautiful scene," She mumbled with a pout.

She started talking about everything and telling me everything about her village and mountains while I listened her silently with a smile. Suddenly, I felt so relaxed and a sigh escaped from my lips. I glanced from Rubab to Zayaan and was shocked to see my feet in Zayaan's lap and he was massaging them.

"Sir?" I heard a man's voice from behind me which made Zayaan to behind me.

"They are here. Waiting for you in the living hall," He added, on which Zayaan nodded his head.

I heard the footsteps behind me faded away and Zayaan put my feet back on the ground gently and stood up. Rubab also stood up and looked at both of us.

"I think that's my cue to leave," She whispered and ran to the same direction from which she came.

I looked at Zayaan who was already staring at me and put his hand forward for me. I slowly put my hand in his and stood up with his help.

"Who is here?" I asked him, silently but he didn't answer me.

He took me inside the house silently while I followed him in confusion. When we reached to the living hall, I looked up at the guests and stilled. A gasp escaped from my mouth and I looked at them with wide eyes. My eyes filled with tears and they flowed through my eyes one by one nonstop.

"I will be in the lawn," Zayaan said and slowly removed his hand.

I felt him slowly walking away from me but I didn't move my eyes from them.

"Aren't you going to hug me?" I asked, weakly while looking at a particular person.

She stood up weakly and walked to me slowly. Her own condition was just like me, tears flowing through her eyes nonstop and her lips were quivering. She stood in front of me and this was the first time, I saw her from this close. This was the first time, I noticed how much similarities we both had.

Her dull lifeless eyes for once turned into bright and speaking eyes. I slowly took a step near her, closing the space between us and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her in a hug.

"Ma!" I cried and sobbed while hiding my face in her shoulder.

This was the first time in my life I felt so many emotions from a motherly hug. A real hug from a biological mother who I never hugged. I never thought my dream would come true, a dream of hugging my own mother.

Warmth, happiness, peace, love, secure, and most important it was like I had a heaven in my arms. A beautiful heaven which was wrapped in my arms. A beautiful heaven which took me on the ninth cloud.

I didn't know how long we both were standing like this, crying and sobbing in each others arms. It was like none of us wanted to pull away but she pulled away slowly and held my face in her hands and showered my face with kisses.

"My child," She cried and placed her lips on my forehead.

She quickly wiped my tears and pulled me with her and made me sit on the couch and sat beside me. I quickly wrapped my arms around her and held her tightly and softly.

"See, Qirat, didn't I tell you when ma and Mishu meet, they both will forget me," I heard Numan's playful voice.

I looked up at him and saw him looking at us with a grin and tears in his eyes. A chuckle escaped from ma's mouth and she opened her second arm for Numan. He didn't waste his time and quickly approached and wrapped us in his arms.

"I am so happy for both of you," He whispered and kissed on both of our heads.

I smiled at him and looked behind him at his wife, Qirat, who quickly wiped her tears and looked at us with a soft smile.

"Come and join us in a group hug," I whispered and called her.

She smiled and also approached us and joined us in a group hug. For the first time in my life, I felt myself utterly completed. If the death angel came to take me life, I would happily give him my life because all my wishes were completed today. But before dying, the only thing I wanted to hear was Zayaan's confession which was now the only thing in my bucket list.

Numan and Qirat both pulled away from the hug and let me and ma having mother daughter time. Numan and Qirat sat on the couch across us and watched me and ma with a smile.

"How are you?" Ma asked wiping her tears.

"After seeing you, perfectly fine and after hugging you, energetic," I told her with a huge smile and quickly wiped my own happy tears.

My smile quickly wiped away from me lips and a frown formed on my forehead with a fear ran in my veins.

"Pa? What about him? Did he-did he know?" I asked them in fear.

I looked from ma who quickly looked at Numan and moved my on Numan.

"No," Mom whispered which increased my fear and I quickly looked at mom.

"What-what if he... he finds o--,"

I was cut off by Numan who stood up and approached me. He kneeled down in front of me and looked up at me with a smile.

"He will not find out, Mishu. Don't be stressed. It's not good for you," He told me, softly but the panic inside me didn't decrease.

"How?" I asked him.

"He isn't at home and don't worry your hubby have taken care of everything," He said, softly with a wink.

I felt my breath getting normal after knowing Zayaan took care of it.

"I approve your husband. He is perfectly good for you," He added with a smile.

"He is someone whom I can trust. A worthy and well deserved man for my daughter," Ma said and wrapped her arm around my shoulder.

I put my head on her shoulder and smiled thinking about Zayaan. Numan went back and sat beside his wife while I talked with my ma.

Soon it was lunch time and Zayaan entered in the living hall. I felt his eyes at me which made me look up at him with a smile. I noticed his tense self quickly relaxed when he noticed my smile.

"Lunch is ready," He informed us.

I slowly stood up and looked at my ma who also stood up. We all went to dinning hall for the lunch. I sat beside my ma and let her fed me with her own hands. Again tears started forming in my eyes but I held them.

• • •

The cool breeze was blowing as the sun slowly was setting and hiding behind the mountains. The sky had beautiful shades of colour and stars were shinning brightly. An arm slowly wrapped around me and pulled me near a warm body. I leaned against him as I watched Numan's car disappearing out of sight. I quickly wiped my tears because I didn't want them to leave so soon but I understood they had to reach home before pa.

I put my head on his chest and looked up at him with a wide and soft smile. He looked down at me and wiped my tears and placed his lips on my forehead.

"Thank you so much for this," I whispered with a happy sigh.

"You don't have to. Now come inside and have something to eat before rest," He told me, softly.

I nodded my head and we both walked inside the house. He took me to the patio and made me sit on the chair. He disappeared inside the house and appeared again after few minutes later with a tray. He placed the tray in front of me on the table and sat beside me. We both ate in the same plate and with a same spoon, just like in morning. Like most of the time, he fed me with his hands.

After eating, he took me inside the house and gave me medicine which doctor had prescribed me. I went inside the small closet and was surprised to see he had put some ladies clothes there. But none of them was something which I could wear for sleeping.

I sighed and moved to Zayaan's section and hesitantly took out of his loose T-shirt and trousers. I stared down at his clothes then slowly removed my clothes and changed into his comfortable and loose clothes. I put my clothes neatly in the laundry hamper.

I stood in front of the mirror and stared at myself with a smile. My eyes moved down on my baby bump and my hands automatically moved on my bump. I wasn't looking bad in his clothes.

I exited from the closet and entered in the room. I arranged the pillows on the bed before sitting on the bed with a sigh in relief. I looked up when Zayaan entered in the room and he stilled as he looked at me. His lips parted and he slowly approached me and stopped in front of me.

"I hope you don't mind about your clothes borrowing by me," I told him as I glanced at him shyly.

When he didn't answer me, I felt myself panic at his silence and looked at him.

"O-ah! I-I.. think I should ch--," I was about stand up and going to change into other clothes but I was stopped by him.

How?

When he leaned down and let his soft and rough lips met mine as he slammed his lips with mine. The kiss turned from soft to rough which took my breath away. I felt myself getting lightheaded with a rough yet little soft kiss which had so much feelings in it. Soon I was laid on the bed with him on top of me carefully but he pulled away from the kiss which made me disappointed because I wanted to continue whatever was going to happen.

He kissed me on my forehead before laying beside me with a sigh. Both of us were breathing heavily and only sounds in the room were our raging breaths. I turned my head to look at him who was rubbing his face with his hands. He quickly stood up from the bed which made me to sit up quickly.

"Where are you going?" I asked him and stopped him by grabbing his wrist.

I felt him getting tensed which made me slowly removed my hand and I looked down at the floor. I felt him turned around and he kissed me on my head before whispering,

"I need to take a shower."

By saying this, he quickly walked to the washroom. I felt frustration in his voice and it left me confuse for a second. I laid back on the bed with a sigh and hid my face in my hands.

I think I should also take the shower.

My wild thoughts were not leaving me which made me facepalm. I closed my eyes tightly and groaned silently. I sat up slowly with a pout and glanced at the door of washroom but before I did something which made me regret later, I stood up from the bed and walked out of the room.

I walked to the kitchen to drink cold water but my eyes fell on my newly found love, Nutella. I picked the jar from the counter and opened the lid. I also found a packet of Lays and took it too. I went to the living hall and opened the sliding door and sat on the couch with crossed legs, like yoga style.

I opened the packet of Lays and put it on my lap. I picked Nutella jar in one hand and took chips from the packet before dipping it in the Nutella and put it in my mouth. I munched them and closed my eyes. That combination was helping me forgetting whatever happened in the room.

When the chips finished, my hands were full of chocolate. I licked all the chocolate from my hands and wiped my chocolate-ful face with the tissue which was in front of me on the table. I pulled my lips in a pout when I looked down at the empty jar and packet, on my lap. Suddenly, someone chuckled softly which echoed in the silent hall and startled me.

"Don't worry. We will buy a new jar for you," I heard a teasing voice from my left side which made me quickly looked at him.

Zayaan was standing against the door frame with amusement sparkled in his eyes and one side of his lips curled up playfully. The water on his wet hairs made me look so weak because they were shinning brightly under the moonlight. The water from his hairs were dripping down on his face. All the wild thoughts hit me again by one glance at him.

The word which starts from ‘s’ and ends at ‘y’ suit him perfectly!

S-E-X-Y!

I mentally slapped myself for being like this suddenly. I shouldn't listen amma bi but now look what she was doing with me.

OK! I shouldn't blame her but maybe I think I can blame this on my pregnancy which is making me a mess.

I quickly looked away from him and pressed my lips together and pinched on my hand to wake myself.

"What happened?" He asked me and I heard him walking towards me.

"Nothing. Nothing," I squeaked and quickly stood up before he reached me.

I put the empty jar and Lays packet on the table and quickly walked past him to the room with burning cheeks. When I entered in the room, I quickly laid on the bed and pulled the duvet up to my face and hid myself from him. I closed my eyes and felt a wave of exhaustion hit me and darkness took me in a second.

During my sleep, I felt the duvet removed from my face and soft lips place on my forehead but I was too tired to open my eyes. But before completely slumbering into darkness, I heard him whispering, quietly in a foreign language,

"Za ta sara meena kwam!"

(I love you!)

• • •

It was almost a week since we both were in a trip or maybe second honeymoon. We both spent our days together in each others company and few times he took me for a small walk around the house. And during nights, I avoided him because I didn't want to repeat whatever happened that night to me. My night routine was before he came in the room, I laid down on the bed and pretended to sleep.

During those pretending sleeps, I got to know a little thing about him. He secretly massaged my swollen feet when I was sleeping and also humming a soft tune which made me sleep peacefully.

It was daytime and sun was shining brightly, spreading it's rays in the room. I winced in pain as I laid myself on the bed and a sigh escaped from my lips when my back hit with the soft and comfortable mattress. I closed my eyes and sighed again. My lower back was paining from the last two days but today it was paining more.

A groaned released from my mouth when I felt cramps in my stomach and tears started to form in my eyes. I inhaled deeply and tried to breathed out but ended up coughing. I opened my eyes and wiped the tears which flowed through my eyes and the sweat from my forehead. I breathed in and out slowly again and again. Finally, I felt a lot of better after fifteen minutes later but I was exhausted from the pain. I closed my eyes again and let the darkness took me.

I opened my eyes slowly and tried to sit up but my back wasn't letting me. A cry escaped from me when it hurt sharply. I looked at the ceiling and felt my world spinning. I was feeling like it was my time to leave the earth with this amount of pain. I looked around for Zayaan but he wasn't present in the room.

I didn't know how much time had passed but slowly the pain faded away, leaving me a whole mess drenched in sweat. Slowly, I sat up against my pillows and wiped my face. I removed the duvet from me and put my feet on the floor and stood up slowly. I walked to the washroom weakly with my hand against the wall for support. I took the warm shower and changed into loose clothes.

I exited from the washroom and went back to sit on my bed. Just as I sat on the bed, Zayaan entered in the room with a frown on his face. He looked at me and his eyes turned into concern.

"You are looking pale," He said and approached me.

He kneeled down in front of me and held my face but I quickly wrapped my arms around him and put my head on his shoulder with a sigh.

"Mishal?" He called me and rubbed my back gently which made me sigh deeply with a lot of relief.

I didn't move my head from his shoulder nor I removed my arms from him but hummed softly and quietly.

"We are going back home. Mom wants both of us to come home quickly and you seriously need to visit hospital for your check up," He said, softly and in concern.

I hummed again and let me eyes to close as I was exhausted again. I heard him sigh and he pulled away and looked at me. He kissed on my forehead before picking me in his arms. I moved my head and put it on his chest and snuggled into him.

"Your weight isn't increasing," He said with concern etched in his voice.

I opened my eyes slowly when I felt myself placing in the car. I looked at him with my tired eyes as he buckled my seatbelt. I closed my eyes again and let the darkness consumed me.

I woke up when I felt the car stopped moving. I opened my eyes and rubbed them before looking around. I sighed as I realized we were finally back to our house. My side of door which made look at it. Zayaan appeared there and bent down to unbuckle my seatbelt and helped me to climb out of the car.

"First thing, you are going to do is having rest after a healthy food," He told me, sternly and helped me walking to the door.

He opened the door and held my hand with his other arm around me. I was so grateful for him to hold me or otherwise I would have fell on the floor. I was about to put a foot inside the house when a loud voice boomed in the whole house,

"Don't you dare to step a foot in this house!"

I startled and looked up at the owner of this voice. I was so shocked to see Zayaan's mother glaring at me with pure disgust and hate.

"Mom!" Zayaan called her in loud and cold voice.

"Zeba!" Amma bi and Zayaan's father called her name, sternly at the same time with Zayaan.

I felt goosebumps of fear under her deathly glares. Zayaan helped me and took me inside the house. I glanced at him through my eyelashes and found him glaring at his mother.

"Why did you call me so urgently? And why are you behaving like this?" He asked his mother in emotionless voice with a straight face.

However, his mother didn't effect from his tone and kept glaring at me which made me to hide behind Zayaan. Amma bi and Zayaan's dad were looking at her with an angry and shocked face while Aabro was standing in the corner looking at mom straightly without any emotion.

"How can you accept a sinner girl like her is beyond me! Do you have any idea how she is making all of us fool with this dirt in her stomach?" Mom asked to Zayaan in anger and pointed at my bump in disgust.

Her words made me stilled and my heart to beat fast and my breath uneven. All the muscles inside my body tensed and my brain numbed. Zayaan beside me held my tightly but gently and was shaking in anger.

"Don't you dare to call my child a dirt, mom," He told her, sternly and dangerously.

"Are you in the right state of your mind?" Amma bi asked her in anger.

"I am! But not you all are. I have reports which proves that she has this dirt before this marriage. And to cover this dirt, she sedu--,"

"Stop it, mom!" Zayaan shouted in anger on which I startled and quickly grabbed his arm.

Tears were streaming down my eyes and my heart was beating rapidly in fear. This was what I was so scared about from the beginning.

"Why? Why are you saving that prosti--,"

"Don't you try to call my wife with names," He said in anger and wrapped his arm around me, giving me a side hug.

With all this sudden drama, I was feeling hydrated and dizzy. I was feeling so weak right now to fight for myself but I was feeling a little relief to know I have amma bi and Zayaan to support me and to fight for me.

"Zeba, stop with all this nonsense and go back to your house," Amma bi said to mom in anger who didn't move an inch.

"I am not leaving until I make sure she leaves my son alone with her dir--,"

Mom started again shouting loudly but everyone was silenced when Zayaan opened his mouth.

"His child inside her is mine and your grandson. And before you start calling her with names again, you must know your son is the reason. I am the reason. I was the one who raped her," Zayaan loud voice boomed in the hall.

I looked up at him quickly and tried to search for something but all I found was opposite. I shook my head at him and moved away from him.

"You are kidding?" I asked him, quietly and hoped he was just to save me.

I tried to search in his eyes for the sign of joking but all I found was ashamed and guilt on his face.

"I am not. I am the reason behind this baby," He said looking at me with guilt written on his face and clenched his fists.

The seriousness in his voice mixed with the shame was telling me, he was lying which broke my heart. All I felt was betrayed and played by him. Suddenly, I felt myself unbalanced and dark dots in front of me eyes appeared along with a sharp pain in my back.

"Why?" I asked, faintly before I fainted.

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