- Eleonora -

Monday morning, I haven't seen Blaze on Sunday after- our kiss.

I was working, who am I kidding I can barely get my mind straight, I wore different socks on my feet, I brought the wrong bag to work, I forgot to charge my phone and I didn't even eat breakfast.

That kiss, that kiss changed everything. What am I supposed to do after this... after that amazing moment that is driving me insane.

What should I think of his disappearance? Is he avoiding me or ignoring me because of the kiss? Was the kiss so bad he doesn't want to see my face? Or as he made solid thoughts about us, about what will happen... About us.

Oh, my God is he ignoring me because of the contract? I can't believe I knew this was a bad idea. This is difficult to say but I guess my mum was right how can I look at him now I know he's right I mean we shouldn't have broken the contract and this is breaking the contract that we both, he and I had stipulated and sign it together, we agreed to those terms and conditions and we both break them.

This is SO very wrong. I am not even thinking in the right English.

I should've never said that I had feelings for him this goes against so many things in that bunch of papers, we had more than physical contact then ever, and that is actually against the contract too, I guess Blaze beinghe ethic and political self , has decided that maybe it was for the best for me to ignore what happened and follow the rules of the contract which is not incorrect.

I mean it's pretty much everything that we should do, and I know it's the best inand only right choice, however I can't help but feel bad and sad about it.

I think the bread, knowing I should hand this now I need to go upstairs and talk it out with him. I need to clear this up. I need to go up there and say that I agree with him. We should ignore it. Forget what happened and keep going with this fake marriage it will be easier this way and we should just forget erase that kiss from our mind and start fo respect the contract.

So with no further ado, I walked out of my office and walked upstairs, I was about to enter his office as I heard Connor claiming for me to knock over that was starting to get way overrated between us.

I walked in without any thoughts on my mind and I found him leaning against his desk reading some papers. It was nervewracking how good-looking he was, even leaning over his desk with a concentrated face slowly turning the pages he was reading, either I was going insane but he looked extremely hot just simply reading.

"I see my wife has arrived with her usual no-knocking policy" he claimed taking his eyes of the papers and carefully watching me step in the office closing the door behind me.

"Do you need something? I have another reunion in 5" he advised me

"I need to talk to you " I breathed while gulping in my own nervousness. I saw him furrow his eyebrows and placing the papers away, laying them on his desk, so he could give me his whole attention making be even more nervous.

"What about ?"

"About that"

"That?" he asked confused

"Why you know... That"

"That" he said thinking about what I meant

"I understand your point of view on this and I must say that I agree with you this is the only way we can carry on our fake marriage"

He throw out a laugh "What are you talking about?"

"You know what I am talking about" I said sternly looking at him not wanting to say that word... it would only make it more real than it already was

"I don't... you look like a lunatic you're making no sense. Although I must say you still look cute" he smirked, making my heart do loop to loop in my chest.

"I am talking about... That...on Sunday-"

"The kiss-" he question but I quickly interrupted him

"No no... That!" he raised an eyebrow probably questioning my weird behaviour

"That..." he said finally realizing I was trying to avoid that word

"I came here to say that I agree with you. We should forget it, erase it from our minds so this marriage as hard as it is can work better" I explained understanding his point of view that he didn't told me but I already knew.

He laughed at my comment, while crossing his arms and finally looking at me "you want me to forget our kiss?" he asked making my chest tight

"I want you to forget THAT, yes... Like you"

"I never said I wanted to forget such thing" he said, making me quite stunned... So he was thinking of cutting our ties? Letting go this moment we had and keep going with our lives exactly how they where. "Wait a minute what are you proposing?"

"I am proposing for us to erase that from our minds, in factwe can't deny it was clearly against the contract we had stipulated so it's only right if we forget about it and act like it did happen"

"You want me to forget that we kissed?" he asked tilting his head and making me nod shyly "How can I do that, if it's the only thing that I have been thinking the last days?"

I gave a sharp breath trying to control my heart "Well... try harder" I said pressing my lips together

He lifted his eyebrows in surprise "Do you really want me to?"

"I think we should stick to what we agreed on, in the contract"

"The contract... I see. Is that your biggest worry?!" he asked with interest and I had to lie by nodding a yes with my head at his question. He started to throw soft chuckles "What am I going to do with you?"

His laughs were concerning me, I looked at him with frowning eyebrows trying to understand if he was making fun of me or just being his stupid self

"What if we renew the contract?" he purposed as he stood up making me straighten up

"Renew?"

"Yes. What if we renew the contract? I guess we both agree that we broke it... So I propose a change."

"Renewing the contract might not be a bad idea" I thought to myself, we can make more strict rules... this can be avoid in the future, we can at least be individuals that know each other, friends maybe? Sure why not...

"Great then. 8PM at Palm Court." He proposed getting closer to me.

Palm Court " Plaza?" I asked recalling one of the most New York hotels

He nodded with a soft smile "Don't forget to bring your terms and conditions, so we can establish our relationship"

"Our relationship?!" I questioned while my heart started to pump quicker

"Hm" he nodded with all the stillness and calmness in the world, did I not has the same effect on him that he has over me? "You said it quite a few times, remember?"

I gulped nervously "well I was talking about our relationship as...friends" I let out looking at his grey eyes which seem to held a bunch of pain

"Don't you dare to call us friends-" he said stepping closer to me, his chest inches away from me "we are everything but friends" his hand carefully travelled to my face, he grabbed a small hairs that were on my face and drove them behind my ear.

The feeling of his fingertips brushing into my skin made me burn and out of breath, his proximity was driving me insane and I wasn't able to rationalize correctly and I could only pay attention to his parted lips.

"We were never friends, Eleonora" he whispered, my name came out of his mouth in a way I never heard anyone else calling me, it brought desire, and passion but also calmness and possession I felt like I was stuck again, and I was about to become a complete hypocrite once I would let his lips land on mine...

Am I that easy? I thought to myself but as his breath came closer to mine every possible thought vanished from my mind, and I just received clarity and full mind control once a knock on the door interrupted the moment-

"Mr. Maxwell" Connor called from the outside, I saw his breath of disapproval and his face dropping in agony from this ruined moment.

"Shouldn't you let him in?" I asked Blaze as his eyes kept wondering my face

"Should I?" he questioned with narrowed eyes

"You should" I commented quickly taking a step back finally getting off of his charm

"Come in Connor" he allowed and with that Connor walked in with papers on his hands

"I am sorry for interrupting you," Connor told us as he kept walking towards Blaze handing him some papers

"Interrupting?" I asked with a nervous laugh " You weren't interrupting in fact... I was just leaving" I said as I walked towards the doors and watched Blaze's amusing face

"8 pm. Plaza. Don't be late" he reminded me

"I am never late" I stated as I left the office with an odd feeling over my body. So many things were going through my mind.

First of all I couldn't deny how nervous how I was for our dinner... It was just the two of us eating dinner. Not that we haven't done that previously but this time it seems more than just a dinner, it's something more-

I might dare to say that it looks like a date... Is this a date? Maybe I am overthinking but if for some reason this is actually a date I can't believe that was his way of asking me on a date. He didn't even ask, he only demanded the time and place- how romantic of him. That takes me to my second point.

Am I being to easy? Am I letting him in that easily? It looks like I am way more head over hells that him and that makes me look desperate and with low self-esteem. While I barely breath near him he seems to be in control of everything, he doesn't even flinch or looks tense at something I say or do, and that makes me think if I am too easy.

Is it werjd to be overthinking something like this, I know Blaze has had a load deck of women after him and with him and I am sure they weren't hard to get. According to what I know and half of the world, Blaze just needs to snap his fingers and a girl would fall into his lap. The though of that makes my chest burn and my stomach sick, maybe I am just like those other girls he had... Maybe I am just way too easy like them and I have fallen for him in a way that he hasn't fall for me.

Maybe I am scared. I am scared of falling deeply in love with him.

I am not afraid of commitment. I'm afraid giving in- I am afraid if surrendering too quickly and pouring my heart into hands that won't know how to hold it.

I am scared of being the only one who falls in love.

And I am also afraid... Afraid of the amount of power he has over me.

Maybe I should save myself from some pain... or I could test him if his wants and needs are the same as mine.