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Jaemin closes his laptop and takes out his phone. He, Jisung, and Taeil were still at the library because Jaehyun was probably going down on Taeyong. Or at least, that's what Jaemin figured. Jaemin finally finished all his homework and now he could just sit back and relax. But, of course, that wasn't gonna happen.

Mark:
Jaemin...I need you to do something for me

Jaemin:
Ok? Whats up

Mark:
It's jeno...i'm on a call with him rn and he's...he isnt ok Jaemin

Jaemin's eyes widen at the text, his heart slowly filling with worry.

Jaemin:
why
What's wrong?

Mark:
His family life is kinda shitty- i wont say anything too personal but his mom hasn't been home all week and it's getting to him..

Jaemin:
oh...
What do you need me for though..i mean you're his best friend

Mark:
Youre his soulmate

Jaemin:
yeah...
He like hates me tho, he def wouldnt wanna see me

Mark:
He doesnt hate you Jaemin

Jaemin:
?

Mark:
He told me himself that he doesnt hate you-

Jaemin waits a moment as the three dots continue to show as Mark types.

Mark:
Look that isnt the point right now-
Shit he's begun crying
Jaemin i need you to get to his house like now..youre his soulmate, and you both may not realize it,, but everything is better when your soulmate is there
Yes im his best friend,,, but the feeling a soulmate gives is very different than a bsf
Just...trust me on this ok

Jaemin pauses, taking a moment to think. On one hand, Jaemin wanted to go and help Jeno, it's what his heart told him to do. On the other hand...Jaemin was confused. Yeah sure, they were soulmates but Jeno really didn't like him. At least, that's what he thought.

Jaemin:
...
Alright whats his address

Mark:
*address sent*
Thank you jaemin- i'll stay on my call with him but tell me when youre close to his house

Jaemin:
Ok

Jaemin locks his phone and stands, grabbing his backpack in the process. "Jisung...I'm heading out."

The younger turns around from the table he was sitting at and looks up at Jaemin. "But Taeil didn't tell us we could go home yet."

"I'm not going home...I'm going to a friend's house. I'll be back by tonight, well, maybe. I'll let you know, ok?" Jaemin pats Jisung on the head before walking off to Taeil, letting him know that he was leaving.

Thankfully, Jeno didn't live too far from the library, so it wasn't a hard walk for Jaemin. It wasn't dark out either, so when he was about 5 minutes away, he texts Mark.

Jaemin:
Im almost there
....is he ok

Mark:
He's....calm but not in a good mind set rn
He can get like this sometimes..or a lot of the time actually
Thanks again Jaemin..for doing this for me

Jaemin:
Even if i dont know my feelings for him yet,,, i know i care about him
Im not doing this for you, im doing this for him

Jaemin puts his phone in his pocket and walks up the porch steps to Jeno's house. He knocks on the door and waits a few moments before it opens.

"Why are you here?"

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"Jeno....Mark told me to come here...I don't know what's wrong but I'm here to help." Jaemin states as calmly as possible. He had to restrain himself from hugging the boy in front of him. Jeno looked like a mess, his eyes were bloodshot, his face was stained with tears. He was shaking slightly, whether from an emotional overload or just being cold, Jaemin wasn't sure. Jeno looked and sounded like he had given up on everything.

Jeno sighs and turns around, going back into his house. He leaves the door open, not caring if Jaemin stayed or left. The younger takes this as a sign to come in, so he enters. He closes the door behind him and follows Jeno, finding him on the couch with his head in his hands.

"Jeno..." Jaemin gently takes a seat next to the crying boy, and puts a hand on his shoulder comfortingly.

"It wasn't supposed to be like this...I was supposed to have a normal family like everyone else, but it got all fucked up." He begins to shake again, his voice trembling. "She didn't have to be this way Jaemin. She could have stayed strong and been there for me...but now I don't even know where she is. I'm alone."

"You aren't alone Jeno..."

The boy lifts his head, tears streaming down his face. "Yes I am. I'm alone Jaemin. I feel like I have no one."

"You have people who care for you Jeno. Mark, Jisung, Donghyuk...me."

Jeno rolls his eyes and turns away from Jaemin. "You don't care, Jaemin."

"I do care. I really do Jeno..." Jaemin tries to reason.

"No, you don't." Jeno stands in anger. "You began to ignore me, acted as if I wasn't someone to you. Acted as if I didn't exist. You didn't care, Jaemin. And you don't care now. It hurt....I don't know why but it fucking hurt me to see you ignore me like that. I got used to your little smiles and small waves. I liked it actually. I don't want to like it, or to like you but I can't help it!" he turns to face Jaemin again, his cheeks red with anger and his eyes crying in sadness. "I don't know what's going on with me Jaemin...I'm confused and lost and...." He looks down at his feet, his voice barely a whisper. "I don't know what to do anymore."

Jaemin sighs. He stands and brings Jeno in for a hesitant hug. Thankfully, the older doesn't pull away and just cries into Jaemin's shoulder. "Jeno...I do care for you. I really, truly, honestly do. I used to not want to like you...I used to hate you, and you used to hate me. It's confusing for me too Jeno. I don't really know what's happening, and I'm not sure how this'll all work out. But it will, and I've come to terms with the fact that I will love you sooner or later. It'll happen and we can't stop it. Even if you want to. But Jeno..." Jaemin pauses, thinking about his next words carefully. "About ignoring you...I'm sorry. I really am. But I was hurt. You were hurting me Jeno, whether you realized it or not, you were hurting me. Every time I smiled or glanced at you, all I would get in return was either an eyeroll, or a frown, or a glare. I was trying to be a good person to you Jeno, but you didn't want that from me. And it hurt me to know so, but I figured that I would give you space and let you figure things out. I didn't want to confuse you anymore...and I didn't want to get hurt anymore. I'm sorry Jeno." He stops talking, letting the boy in his arms try and calm down.

"I'm sorry Jaemin....I don't know why I don't want to love you...I don't even know why I hated you...you don't deserve someone as hurtful as me. All I do is fuck everything up...I'm sorry..." Jeno trembles, his arms now lazily wrapped around Jaemin's waist.

"It doesn't matter if I deserve you or not. Yes Jeno, you hurt me. You've hurt me now and you've hurt me in the past...but...I don't want you to hurt, ok? I can give you space to think about everything...I don't love you yet, but I do care for you. I really do, and you don't have to believe me. Heck, you don't have to like me....but I'm always here if you need anything...ok? I'm going to wait for you Jeno....I'll wait for both of us. I know it's confusing right now, it's confusing for me too. I'm lost and not sure what to do, but what I am sure of is that I don't want to see you in pain when you don't need to be." Jaemin brings the boy to the couch and Jeno just continues to cry into his shoulder. "But I am here for you. I am here and I will stay here. I'm not going anywhere Jeno...I can promise you that. Things are weird right now, I know. But they won't be this complicated forever, ok? I need you to believe me."

It takes Jeno a moment before he shakily mumbles out, "I believe you..."

Jaemin smiles softly. "Good, thank you Jeno. For not pushing me away in your hardest times. It means you trust me, and for now, I can be content with that." He runs his hand through Jeno's hair, calming the older boy down. They spend the next few minutes like that, just sitting on the couch, the sound of Jeno's soft breaths in Jaemin's ear. Jeno soon slumps down, signaling to Jaemin that he was asleep. The pink haired boy stands gently, as to not wake up Jeno, and quietly leaves the house; but not after putting a blanket from Jeno's room over the sleeping boy. He walks to the end of the block before taking out his phone.

Jaemin:
I calmed him down
He's asleep..

Mark:
God thank you so much Jaemin
I told you....the feeling is different when a soulmate is nearby

Jaemin:
mhm
Let me know if he ever gets like this again

Mark:
I plan on it
Thank you again jaemin

Jaemin:
Of course Mark

Jaemin leaves the chat and goes to his phone calls, choosing Taeil's contact.

"Hello? Jaemin?"

"Hey hyung, are we allowed home yet?" Jaemin asks, checking the time. 7:30.

"No, still at the library..." Taeil sighs. "You heading back here?"

"Yeah, I'll see you guys in a few minutes."

"Ok see you soon. Bye." Jaemin returns the greeting and hangs up, making his way towards the library.

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