Chapter 11

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Chapter 11 - THE Confession

"Will he be ok Mark?" I heard Cabir's voice coming from a deep well as I tried to collect myself..

"Hopefully! He collapsed cuz of a strong nervous attack!" Mark, the doctor's, voice reached my ears and I heard a sob around..

Navya? She was crying..

"Please make him ok?" I heard her voice ..

"Love can destroy even a hard tree like Manik!" Mark's voice had a dejection..

Suddenly realization hit me.

Yes !

Oh fu*k!

I just lost my love?

I just let her go?

She must be crying she must be asking for me?

Did she eat her dinner?

I should be getting up..

My eyes snapped open and I got up with a jerk.

"Compagno! stai bene?(Buddy are you ok?)" Cabir asked sitting beside me and held my hand..

Khawabon ne hi,
Dil dukhaya ankhon ka,
Hathon mein hay,
Dard juda hy hathon ka

"Cabir! Nan-nandini! She is calling me! I should go!" I spoke frantically and tried to get up but Cabir held me..

"Buddy! Just relax! Nandini! She is gone! You yourself let her go! She is not coming back!" Cabir spoke in a strict voice cupping my cheeks and I stared at him...

He was right...

I..! Manik Mafia Malhotra let his love go...

I let my shimmer go...

I let the last flickering flame of my life go which was showing me the alley of happiness..

"I let her go?" I asked in a dazed tone staring at his face and he nodded sadly.

"I myself let her go?" I questioned myself..

"Yes! You let her go!" Cabir's faint whisper reached my ear and suddenly I felt my breathing stopped.

"Cab-cabir! It's suffocating! Open the windows! Open the fu*king windows!" I shouted loudly..

"Manik be in your senses!" Cabir tried to calm me...

"Mjy saans ni aa ri Cabir! Am dying buddy! Am dying!" I shouted so loudly that my own lungs hurt and Cabir held me tightly against him while Navya rushed to open the windows..

But the fresh air from outside didn't made any difference because it was suffocating inside...

"Ahhhhh!!!! Nandini.....!!!!!!! Koi usy wapas lay aoa please! I can't live without her!!! Please bring her back please!!!!!!!!" I yelled and yelled still clinged to Cabir he didn't let me go for a single second...

"Calm down Manik! Calm down!" That's all he was whispering in my ear and Navya was sitting holding my hand. They didn't leave my side...

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Sath chala jo mere bas woh
Tera saya thaa,
Sadiyon tujh ko chaha bas,
Do pal ko paya thaa..!

"You know when we walk hand in hand I feel so happy!" One day she had confessed the fact with me when we were walking around the lake..

The flashback memories came roaming in my mind as I laid on my bed staring the ceiling aimlessly.

"Acha? Why do you feel so happy?" I asked taking her in a side hug and she climbed my feet immediately. Her favorite activity now a days was us walking with her on my feet..

"Because!" She stretched her word and I smiled holding her close. "I feel that we become each other's shadow! Just like heer ranjha?" She exclaimed excitedly and I chuckled at the mention of heer ranjha!

"Seriously Shim? Heer Ranjha? You are relating US with those lost old lovers?" I asked in a teasing tone and she made a pout..

"Oho Manik! Come on! Heer Ranjha's story is not old! It's still refresh in our hearts!" She complaint placing her hand on her heart and I sighed...

"21st century ki larki ho kay you believe in these sh!ts? I thought tou will talk about Romeo Juliet?" I asked a little annoyed and in sarcastic tone playing with her hair and she made a dejected face..

"Manik! You and I believe in love na? Tou we have to believe in all of them! Whether it's Romeo Juliet! Heer Ranjha! Sohni Mahiwaal! Sassi Punnoo!" She ranted and I stared at her with very unpleasant expressions.

"Ya sab dost hain tumharay?" I asked sarcastically and she slapped my head...

"How mean Manik??! They all were lovers!!! True and mad lovers!" She said angrily and I walked further with her..

"Am not acting mean Shim! I know who were they! But it's important to note that the ending of their love was not happy!" I argued and she frowned...

"Manik! Sometimes destiny plays unfair!" She too argued...

"Rubbish! It's all in man's hand! If he wants a happy ending he can write it all by himself!" I spoke a little loudly..

"So that means you are denying god's will?" She almost freaked out..

"Hey! I didn't mean that!" I said glaring at her...

"No no no! You have to believe that destiny do play role in writing our fates! it's not always in man's hand!!" She spoke in a determined tone and I sighed...

"Fine fine! I can't win from you!" I accepted my defeat finally...

"Very good!" She was super happy...

Roiyaan royiaan ankhiyan royia,
Aansuon ke bina ....Royia,
Roiyaan royiaan ankhiyan royia,
Aansuon ke bina...... Royia.....

"You were right Nandini! It's all about destiny! I was wrong! I was wrong all the time! I thought I could control the fate! But I was wrong! Your believe in god was right!" I murmured as few lone tears escaped my eyes and absorbed in the pillow...

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I never felt this much helpless in my whole life jitna I felt in that whole long whole month..

Yes it was a month since I last saw her...

Since I last touched her...

Since I last kissed her...

Since I last held her hand...

I lived days like a lifeless body. Drinking and smoking to no extent. I forgot to change my clothes daily it was Cabir and Navya who used to come to me and forced me to change.

Rishab called in these days and he was very worried for us but I asked him not come back and just concentrate on his studies. He told me that Nandini don't talk to him much and he was trying to come back as soon as possible.

I laid on the terrace floor and stared at the stars. They were shinning brightly. It made me smile and sad at the same time as they brought her memories back. I sighed and turned my side. As soon as I turned my side I went numb as she was lying beside me..

"Bella?" I whispered in disbelief and she smiled...

"You are back?" I asked still confused and she nodded...

"Why you left? Please give your Manik a chance to explain?" I pleaded and she raised her hand to close my eyes.

"I am not away from you Manik! Find me! Find US! I want you to get us back! Don't torture yourself get up and look in the mirror! You will get the answer!" I heard her whispers and it confused me more. Suddenly I didn't felt her hand on my eyes and I opened them with a jerk.

Sh!t...

Did I just hallucinate Nandini?

This is not good....

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I stared at my reflection in the mirror and was surprised as I was unable to recognize the person standing in the mirror. I touched my swollen eyes and dried lips..

Jesus.!! What have I done to myself?

My cheeks were sank in and I had lost so much of weight...

It's been a week since I hallucinated Nandini.

She asked me to find the way...

She asked that she wanted us back?

I was looking horrible...

That wasn't Nandini's Manik...

I immediately showered and wore a fresh pair of tracks with my hoodie. I came down stairs and saw Navya. She raised her head and after seeing me a surprise filled her face as it was for the first time in last five weeks when I myself came down...

"Good evening Manik! How are you feeling now?" She asked hugging me slightly and I hugged her back..

"Good evening Navya and yeah am feeling good!" I said lowly and she break the hug.

"Manik! Be strong my brother! I know it's hard for you but me and Cabir we both are with you! We both love you! Please ! Aur dekho when Nandini will be back she will be so angry to see you like this!" Navya said cupping my cheeks and I look at her in a little amazement..

"You think she will come back?" I asked in an unsure tone and she smiled..

"Do you have believe in god? And the destiny?" She asked placing her hand on my heart...

Again god...

Again destiny....

"Yes I do!" I blurted out and then scratched my head unsure of my own confession...

"Then trust me! She will come back in your arms!" She whispered softly and I lowered my head...

"Thank you! I just need fresh air! I will be back in few hours!" I said to her and she nodded..

"Be back soon! I will cook your favorite food in dinner!" She exclaimed from my back and I smiled...

Thank you for all the love and care...

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I stood in front of the staircase of church and stared at the church bell without blinking my eyes. I had walked out of the mansion for some fresh air and I didn't know how come I landed up in front of the church. The same church where I used to come with Nandini.

Going inside without holding her hand seem horrible. But unintentionally my steps moved forward and I was climbing the stairs. In no time I was standing in front of the Christ's sculpture.

Why I was here?

To pray?

Seriously?

I didn't know how to pray...

I didn't know how to ask for something...

But reluctantly I knelt folding my hands just as I used to watch Nandini praying..

"Well I don't know how to pray! How to ask for anything! But I don't why am here! And..!" I started and then lost the trace of words as the sadness overcome me...



Then I didn't knew for how long I kept kneeling in front of the god until I felt my knees aching.

I was here for her...

I was here to pray for her come back...

I was here for....for?

Was I acting selfish? I never come here when I should have to make god happy but now I was here for her..?

What will god think of me?

I was kneeling in front of him and was praying for her? Not for His forgiveness but for her forgiveness?

Suddenly I felt a pat on my head and I opened my eyes. The vision went blurry I never noticed that my cheeks were wet...

"Aren't your knees aching my child?" It was the Priest. I stared at his face and he smiled affectionately. "Are you asking for something precious?" He asked again and held my hand making me get up. He made me sit on a bench and gave me a glass of water to drink. I quietly drank.

Yes I was asking for my life....

"You look disastrous! Would you like to share anything kid?" Father asked once again caressing my hair and I felt a lump again forming in my throat..

"Father! I..! I have committed a sin!" I spoke lowly and extreme sadness washed over me.

"Sin? We all commit sins son! Ask for Christ's forgiveness! He will forgive you!" Father said softly and I shook my head....

"Father! I don't want Christ's forgiveness! I want HER forgiveness!" I pleaded holding his hand tightly and he nodded in understanding it gave me courage to speak more.

"Yo-you know she made me believe in god! She forced me to come to church! She forced me to lit up all the candles here! And now! She is angry! She is hurt! She asked me to let her go I did!!! But now! I can't accept it! Bohat yaad aati hai!" I ranted frantically and Father smiled..

"Then confess your sin!" Father said casually smiling all the time and I stared at him again..

"You mean THE confession?" I asked in a scared tone and Father nodded!

Was I ready to confess?

Was I ready to tell god that I was a heap of dirt? I know god knew what I was but I had to confess verbally..

And Yes! I will! I will confess! If it brings my Nandini, my Shimmer back I will...

I got up and walked towards the Christ sculpture again. I took a deep breath and started..

"I am Manik! A Mafia. I was born on 30th August 1989. I opened my eyes as an orphan in the house of an old nurse. My mother was dead and I don't know who my father was! I lived with that nurse for my 10 years of life she was affectionate but her husband was cruel! Then she died and her husband threw me out of his house finally! I became a street dog! Roaming here and there in search of the purpose of my life! Then I hooked up with a mafia gang! At age of sixteen I killed the very first person ever!" Speaking non stop I reached my Mafia life.

"Then I lost count! I killed and killed! Forgot to stop! But I promise I didn't kill any innocent! I killed only those who were sh!ts! Who don't deserve to live! Then I came across with my biggest enemy! John Francis!" At only the name of that bast*** my jaws clutched...

"I had an orphanage! I used to fund that orphanage secretly! Cuz I didn't want any other child to be homeless like me! I didn't want any other Manik Malhotra to be born! But one day Francis came to know about my little secret! And..! And he! He burnt that orphanage! Before I could reach there everything was finished! The children! The maids! The chef! The Gardner! The nannies! All were burnt and dead! I suddenly lost everything! My own men started betraying me! One night I was attacked by him! The same night I met her!" And finally I reached the most beautiful phase of my life...

"My shimmer! My Bella! Cara Mia! Love of my life! Beat of my heart! Soul of my body! Blood of my veins! Wisdom of my mind! I loved her truly! I loved her madly! I loved her insanely! I loved her like a lost puppy! I dreamt of a family with her! A happy family! She! Me! And our princess! But the real sin I committed was!" I spoke and spoke my Voice started getting heavier as I reached the most bitter sin and reality of my life...

"I lied to her! I lied to her about what actually I was! I lied to her about everything! And one day! One day she came to know about my reality! She came to know about what I was! She claimed that I took advantage of her! She asked me to let her go! To prove my love I did! But I can't breathe! I can't even imagine a single second without her! I know I shouldn't be lying! But don't I deserve a little happiness? Am I that bad? Am I that sinful?" I was crying.


Crying madly..

"Ask her to give me a last chance! Ask her to come back! I am dying! I know her condition must not be any different! I know she must be missing me as much as I am missing her! Please! Please!!! Ask her to forgive me!" I wailed loudly and fell on my knees. I felt a pat again on my head and saw Father standing near..

"Am feeling sad for you my child! But now that you have confessed yourself! Trust Christ he will find a way! But you will have to pay the price for the sins and lies!" Father spoke sadly and I look at him confused...

"Price? What price father? I will pay as much as you will tell me!" I spoke hastily...

"No child! It's not about the money! I am scared you will lose something precious!" Father's voice had extreme sadness which shook me to the core...

"Will it be her or any of my friends??" I asked unsure and scared of my own words but Father shook his head.

Ohk that's a relief. Because I had nothing more important and precious then her and my friends including Rishab...

"Will she be back?" I asked again and Father nodded....

"She will..!" His voice had a certainty and suddenly I felt light.

Light like a feather...

She will be back...

She will....

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"Manik!" I heard Cabir's voice and I opened my eyes..

"Haan?" I asked lowly...

"Francis's all hideouts are destroyed now! I am afraid that he will become more violent!" Cabir said sitting beside me on the bed...

"It's ok! We will handle him! I will dig his grave by myself!" My tone was dangerous one now...

"And what about her?" He asked hesitantly...

"I have left everything in God's hand! I will wait for his move!" I said softly and Cabir frowned...

"Since when Manik Malhotra started believing in god?" Cabir asked and I shook my head..

"Since when she left!" I said in a sad tone and before he could speak more my cell phone buzzed..

"Your phone!" Cabir said pointing towards the table and I ignored it turning my side. Cabir sighed getting up to check my phone and what he exclaimed next stopped my heartbeat!

"Manik! It's Nandini!!!!!!" He shouted and I jumped off my bed in a second. Other second I snatched the cell phone from his hand and it was real...

Yes...

She was calling....

Finally....

Oh God...

Thank you....

Thank you so much....

My hand shivered as I slid screen to answer the call...

"Hel-hello?" I spoke as put the phone near my ear...

I felt my lips turning dry...

I felt my heart jumped in my throat...

"Man-Manik!" I heard her voice more like a sob. After 5 long weeks I heard her melody...

"Nan-nandini!" I too stammered and sliding with the wall I sat on the floor with a thud and rested my head with the wall closing my eyes. Tears made their way down to the cheeks but who cares...

I didn't know that confessions can bring miracles...

"Ke-kesy ho?" She asked still sobbing and I too sobbed...

"Theek ni hoon!" I replied lowly trying my best to control myself...

"Kha-khana khaya?" She asked again her voice was so painful and I shook my head...

"Nahi khaya!" I replied like a baby my voice had a sense of complaint and she sobbed louder from other side. "Tum ny kha-khaya?" I asked softly this time..

"Nahi! Tm ny nahi kha-khaya tou ma-main kesy kha leti?" She spoke and let out a sob again.

Again silence of few seconds...

"Man-manik!" She took my name again...

"Haan?" I asked lowly...

"Mj-mjy tum-tumharay pass ana hai! Wapas!" Her words rang in my head and I felt my mind blew away...

"What did you just said?" I spoke loudly..

"Manik! I want to come back! I want to be in your arms! I want you to hug me! I want you to kiss me just like you used to do!! Please come and take me with you! Please! I need you! Am sorry that I left!!! Am sorry! Your Shimmer is so sorry!" She wailed non stop crying loudly and I felt my head spinning...

She threw water on the fire which was burning me every second...

She pulled me out of the sea in which I was about to drown...

"Shhh! Shim! Don't need to say sorry! I am coming to take you! Just hang in there!" I spoke hastily and my voice was filled with contentment. I was about to hung up when...

"Manik suno!" She spoke again as I got up grabbing my car keys...

"Haan?" I asked lovingly halting in the door...

"Jab tm aoa gay na! Tou main tmhy aik baat btaoan ge!" She spoke so softly and I felt that she was smiling...

"Kya baaat?" I asked lovingly and she giggled lightly between her tears.

It filled my heart with satisfaction...

"No..! I want to see your reaction! I will tell you face to face!" The calmness of her voice made me smile...

"OK! I am coming!" I spoke happily...

"Jaldi ana! We are waiting for you!" She whispered lovingly...

"We?" I asked in a confused tone and she giggled more...

"Nothing! Just come soon! Bye!" She spoke sweetly...

"Hey hey! No wait!" I said hastily before she hung up...

"Hmm?" She hummed softly..

"I love you!" I heard myself saying...

"I love you too!" I heard her whisper and with that she hung up..

I should get going...

But I didn't know that game wasn't over yet!
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I don't know but I have very mixed feelings! I am crying! My head is aching due to constant crying! Maybe because I know what's gonna happen next! My heart is bleeding only with the thought of Mafia and his Shimmer's future! I am scared! All I would say just be patient and have faith in me!

Lastly next chapter will be Nandini's POV..

I will try to update the next chapter within two three days so chill..!

Love, Mawara..





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