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Chapter 15 C

Nandini's POV...

I didn't know why I woke up...due to thirst or due to his absence.

But it was still very much dark in room. The big digital wall clock was striking 3 am of the night.

Okay! So....

Where was Manik?

I turned my side trying my best to seal the hisses coming out of my mouth and my eyes immediately spotted his vague figure through the see-through glass door, he was sitting outside on the edge of the wooden trail.

Why did he leave the bed?

Wondering to myself I slowly got up.

We slept peacefully, promising each other I remembered! Then why did he leave the bed?

The tension built up inside me and I took a deep breath before placing my small feet on the cold floor. Without bothering to wear the slippers I stood up, my head spun a bit but I steadied myself with the wall.

Taking quick steps I walked out of the room on the wooden trail to reach Manik.

The quietness around was so peaceful and soothing but got disturbed when my feet screeched over the wood.

Manik hearing the sound turned quickly and got up with a jerk.

"Nandini!" He was worried as he sprinted towards me and dizziness once again overpowered me. He reached me and I fell in his arms happily.

"Hey!" He spoke lovingly caressing my cheek as I got myself wrapped in his body.

"Why did you wake up?" He asked lowly pulling me up more against his body and I smiled softly looking at him.

"You are seriously asking me this?" I murmured lovingly staring in his eyes and he let out a small chuckle.

"My absence woke you up isn't it?" He asked shaking his head and I nodded with the same smile to which he bit his lip.

I too smiled back and he rested his forehead slowly to mine.

"You want to say something hai na?" I took the initiative to ask what, was the matter with a hammering heart and to which he lifted his head as he nodded almost unconsciously looking at the stars.

"Let's sit there! I want to tell you a story!" He whispered with an absent mind, still looking at the stars and then looked back at me to ask for my approval to which I gave in.

I hope everything goes fine...

Wrapping me in his arms he lead me towards the edge of the trail and carefully made me sit.

"It's cold...tumhy thand lag jye ge! I'll just bring the blanket!" He announced already walking back to get the blanket leaving me blessed about his care and love.

I wrapped my arms around my torso and smiled to myself like a school girl before looking to the smooth...shiny water.

The small ripples made it look so breathtaking as air passed touching it moment after another.

The cold wind tickled my hair causing them to dangle around my shoulders and I didn't care how messy they must be looking.

For the first time in my life I didn't care about how I looked...because I was beautiful in the eyes of my man I didn't want anything else. I didn't want more than being loved by him.

Taking a deep sigh of relief I closed my eyes for a second and opened them again too stare at the moon, along with the stars.

"Nature is so beautiful! Why I never noticed?" I murmured to myself and suddenly let out a gasp as I felt his lips around my temple while his arms wrapping around my waist.

He was now sitting down with his back with the comforting pillow and pulled me in his lap, then he cuddled both of us in our thick, cozy blanket. My back rested over his chest and my head on his shoulder.

Ok..ok...I love him...I love him...

"You are noticing nature because today you are with me!" Manik whispered in my left ear and placed a small kiss over there.

Just freaking tell him that he's gonna kill us with his little breathtaking kisses! Queen cried out and I blushed ducking my head down.

"Today what I am is all because of you Manik!" I whispered lowly snuggling back into his chest deeper and he just hummed over my head before breathing in my hair which tickled my heart.

Control....

"Tum...kuch btanay waly thy?" I stammered lowly distracting both of us and he pulled back from my hair as if remembering that he was really going to tell me some story.

"Yes...a story!" He spoke with a sigh and I turned my head a bit to look at his.

"I am all ears!" I added with a smile wrapping my arms around his which were on my waist.

He smiled back and leaned over my face as he rubbed our noses together which made me giggle to which his smile went deeper.

"Story is about!" He started softly pulling back to look at his favorite stars and I followed his gaze.

"About?" I asked with a small pause and he sighed.

"My beautiful angel mother!" He whispered and my breath stuck in my throat.

His mother?

"Ohh!" I whispered, trying to figure out what to say and he nodded over my head.

"It's been years, it was our routine to visit this lake house. All traditional, everything desi, Indian, so typical. Three months, those three months used to be the best months of my life!" His voice was getting excited and I could clearly feel him reminding those healthy moments of his life in his head.

"I, Baba, Mama and Bhaiya! It was a pure bliss you know!" He chuckled and I too smiled. "Bhaiya, he used to push me inside this water lake! Myny swimming un say he seekhi the! He was a champion in his academic years! Hero thy! He still is!" Manik was drowned in his own words and his fingers laced with mine unconsciously. "Tumhy ati hai swimming?" He asked me lowly and I just shook my head. "It's okay I'll teach out!" He added warmly and I held back a smile quietly nodding my head.

We love him! Queen squealed and I nodded at her.

"And you know what was my favorite part of our vacations?" He told me enthusiastically and I looked back to his eyes almost watering.

Awww...this man.

"What?" I asked lovingly cupping his cheek to assure him my presence.

"Mama's traditional look...the saree...the bangles!" His voice held so much beauty as he remembered his mother and I stared at him dumbfound.

It was just a small thing....and he was so fascinated by it.

Mothers are true angels Nandini! Who can understand better than us? Queen sighed and I controlled the urge of shedding tears.

While Manik closed his eyes on my touch and rested his face in my hair. I could feel his tears wetting my skin and I didn't stop him.

"Manik! Your mother is in better place!" I whispered lowly running my fingers in his hair. "And she's so proud of you!" I told him with a small hiccup and he leaned back to stare at my face.

"She loves you!" He spoke with a teary smile and I gave him a confused look.

"Haan?" I whispered softly.

"Yeah! She asked me to tell the love of my life that she loves her too!" He explained cutely and I couldn't stop my smile this time.

I cupped his cheek once again and pressed my lips on his forehead.

"And I love every person whom you love!" I replied back with a smile and he let out a giggle.

"Naa! You are wrong here!" He was back in his cheerful mood and I smiled more shaking my head, asking him to explain his philosophy. "Yeah! You are wrong cuz I love you more then you love yourself!" He spoke with glittering eyes and I giggled slapping his forehead.

"Aray you are laughing!" He spoke with a pout and I nodded not hiding my smile. "Main sach keh raha hoon!" He added with a whine and I laughed more.

"Acha ab hatto mjy nend aa rahi hai!" I spoke with a small attitude just to tease him and his jaw dropped open.

"Why are you being so mean to me?" He asked with a shocked face and I shrugged with a naughty smile. But he was getting serious.

"Yar tm jaan ho meri!" He emphasized on his words and I felt zoo rattling in my stomach.

The environment was getting hot...

"Jaan tou lay li hai tumny meri!" I spoke with a hint of pain, not meeting his eyes and his hand slid in my hair quickly, forcing me to look at him.

"Myny jaan lay li hai?" He said in a dark voice and I shivered on the coldness of his aura.

"Haan! Tumny li hai meri jaan!" I spoke in an accusing tone, not realizing what I was talking about.

"Tou kya tumhri jaan meri nahi hai?" He asked in a bit cold bit hot voice and I gulped shaking my head.

"Nahi...!" I whispered in a teary voice and pushed him a bit to get up. "Nahi hai meri jaan tmhari!" I added and got up but he held my hand quickly.

I looked back and found him staring at the water with his favorite dark look.

"Agar tumhri jaan meri nahi...tou tumhri khud ki bhi nahi ho skti!" He spoke in a seductive voice and looked at me with so much of love in his eyes.

The love in his eyes made my knees wobble and he pulled me back in his arms. I gladly fell in his arms and his lips were on mine kissing the heaven out of me while I held him to my dear life not even realizing that I was crying.

"I love you so much!" I muttered between the kiss and he whispered an I love you too while cupping my eyes with his hands.

It was his way of making me asleep.

And I slept there only, with his lips on my forehead.

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"Manik please!" I whined throwing my hands in the air and he shook his head calmly eating the sweet chocolate balls from the bowl.

"Tum itna nahi kar skty mery liye?" I asked angrily giving him a glare to which he was least affected obviously as he stared out at the sky which was ready to pour any second. The dark clouds, the cold wind and Manik's presence it was lovely. But he wasn't agreeing to what I was asking him.

"Manik!!" I whined again and bounced on my toes but no change.

He was sitting in the glass door, on the floor resting his back with the wall and was wearing a black vest with a simple Nike trouser. His hair was messed up and he messed them more as he was running his fingers in them every now and then. A bowl of sweets lying just next to him, it was half empty already.

Seriously it was a sight to witness, seeing the man you love the most in this care-free manner was bliss.

It's been more than 15 days since we were living in the house and Manik had treated me like real princess.

A REAL QUEEN!!!!

He used to do every chore all by himself.

Whenever I used to wake up in the morning he was already up waiting for me. The first thing he used to do was refresh the bandage and then he used to pick me up till the restroom. He used to ask me daily if I wanted to take a bath and if I did then he used to prepare me one.

Then the food. The breakfast, lunch and dinner. My idiotic cravings.

Manik was a pro in cooking anything and everything.

Mukti bhabi brought me clothes but I didn't touch them. Instead I kept on using Manik's shirts which were way too much comfortable and soothing for me.

Manik didn't use to let me step out of the bed. He used to tuck me in the blanket every second and asked me to rest properly.

It was irritating sometimes but I enjoyed it.

I had no idea what was going on in my company because Manik said that he has taken care of that and I needed not to worry.

And yes...he was a romantic freak. He was always touching, hugging and stealing kisses. But to my extreme disappointment he didn't proceed more than that.

He didn't try to 'cross the limits' not even for once and even if I asked him. He just politely denied to it telling that we can't do this.

It was frustrating you know.

Nandini! You besharam! Queen nudged and I bit my lower lip looking at Manik's serene face. He looked so calm as the wind passed touching his face.

"Are you even listening?" I cried waving my hands infront of him and he looked at me with a warm smile.

"I am listening, baby!" He spoke softly nodding his head and I made a small face. "But I won't sing...I can't sing neither I can play the guitar!" He added with a sigh and I was so disappointed.

"Why Manik? It was your dream to be a rockstar!?" I exclaimed unhappily as I stood in front of him.

He let out a chuckle and looked up at me before pulling my hand so I landed directly in his lap with a gasp. He made me straddle him and wrapped his one arm around my waist pulling me into him gently.

"Dreams are associated with people!" He started speaking caressing his one knuckle on my cheek and I listened to him with a bad mood. "And my dream of becoming a rockstar was associated with Mama! Wo nahi hain...tou dream is no more!" He tried to make me clear with his point but I shook my head.

"But I am here! You won't do this for me either?" I asked with a small sad face and he cupped my cheek smiling into my eyes.

"I'll okay! I promise...maybe one day or someday I'll be able to continue this dream! But not now...not today!" He spoke with a small shrug and I was still not happy, which he sensed obviously.

So he picked up a sweet ball and neared it my lips.

"Come on...let's not ruin this moment! I have promised to sing for you and I keep my promises you know that don't you?" His voice was serious and warm which forced me to nod though out of my consent but still I did to which he smiled nearing the chocolate ball more to my lips.

I reluctantly took a bite and before I could chew or swallow sudden there was loud rumble on the sky which made me shriek aloud the next moment I hide myself in Manik's arms shivering loudly.

"Hey!" He got worried as he wrapped his arms around my petite form and I hide my face in his neck breathing out loud. "Nandini!?" He whispered soothingly in my ear while his hand slid into my hair calming me down.

"Manik! I am scared!" I whimpered lowly and closed my eyes tightly as the flashes of my horrible past appeared in my head.

"You have been a bad girl Nandini! Get the fu*k out and stand in the rain!!"

His shouts rang in my ears and I held onto Manik tightly.

"Nandini! Nandini!" His voice seems like coming from some oblivion and I snapped my face at him.

"No bad thoughts!" He warned me. "No memories of your past!" His tone was no different as he stared deep into my eyes. The fire in his chocolate orbs felt like dripping inside of me bit by bit and my breathing started getting back to normal. "I am with you! It's just you and me!" He was now whispering caressing to my cheeks and tucking my hair behind my ears.

"It's just us! You are safe! I'll protect you! I won't let anyone harm my baby! I won't let anyone even touch you! I love you! I love you so much! Do you love me?" He was asking with so much of patience and love that I melted.

I melted on his each word, on his each alphabet.

"Tell me baby! Do you love me?" He asked lovingly smiling at me so adorably and I broke out of my trance suddenly, nodding my head frantically.

"Yes Manik! Yes! I love you!" I whimpered out holding him to my life and he chuckled darkly pulling to my nose.

"I trust you!" He whispered in my ear placing a small kiss over there and I felt blessed.

He trusts me....

Manik trusts me...

My man trusts me...

I was being trusted for the first time in my life and nothing could be better then this.

"You...you trust me?" I spoke with teary eyes and he chuckled again.

"I trust you, meri jaan! I trust you on my life!" He spoke playfully tapping my nose with his forefinger and I smiled.

I smiled so widely that I felt my cheeks would hurt and he just stared at my face.

"But! Do you trust me?" He asked with a doubtful face raising an eyebrow at me and I was confused.

What kinda question was that?

"Manik ofcourse I trust you!" I said with a small voice and he made a face.

The rain was pouring hard now and the water on the floor was now touching Manik's leg...and it was seeping a little inside the room too.

"Then prove it!" He spoke in the same tone and I pouted.

"How?" I asked still confused.

"Let's play in the rain!" He spoke excited like a kid and my heart leaped in my throat.

"Manik nai!" I spoke lowly cowering back but he held me tightly.

His face was covered with a little angry expression now.

"Kab tak Nandini? Haan? Till when? Till when you'll keep cowering back from your fears? Kab tak?" He was scolding me. He was angry and I looked down, embarrassed.

"Am sorry! I don't know!" I whimpered and he sighed cupping my cheek to make me look at him.

"I promised you, baby! I promised to face your fears with you!" His voice, so understood. "Then don't you think we should be making new memories? The good ones? Which will replace the bad ones?" His voice was so loving and caring that I let out a deep breath, before nodding my head.

On my nod, his eyes lit up. Like a kid.

"Tou bheegain?" He asked excitedly and I nodded again. "Oh yessss!" He exclaimed loudly and in jiffy he got up from the floor with me in his arms.

I let out a laugh because he started twirling me around in his arms as he led us in the rain.

As soon as the cold rain touched my body I let out a small gasp.

Manik too, was laughing as he placed me back on the wooden trail.

I got drenched immediately so did Manik and it felt blissful. I looked at my hands almost numbly and they shone with the water trickling down of them. Then I looked at Manik who was enjoying the rain by spreading his arms around.

His face, the contentment, the serenity.

His eyes were closed and his face was upwards.

The water was dripping from his torso and he looked handsome, hot everything.

I moved forward as the urge of touching his wet hair arouse in my heart and I raised my shivering hand to touch him but suddenly stopped.

Hey idiot! Why did you stop? He's your man come on Nandu! Queen exclaimed nudging me badly and I gulped.

OWN HIM! Tell him what you want! She again tried to fit some brain in my head and I licked my lips before reaching out to his face.

As soon as my fingers touched his face his eyes shoot open and he looked down at me with a wide smile.

"Jaan come, enjoy the rain just the way I am doing!" He exclaimed loudly and turned me so that my back was against his chest. Then he spread my arms along with his and I shivered.

We were standing normally, although there was nothing special in it but still it felt too romantic, too exotic to handle.

"Close your eyes, look up!" His voice turned huskier as maybe he started feeling the same which I was feeling since the moment we both got into the rain.

His fingers were curled with mine as I finally closed my eyes. I unknowingly rested my head on his chest and moved my face upward.

The little raindrops fell on my face and I felt peaceful.

Manik was right, it was the best way to enjoy the rain maybe.

I felt myself getting lost in the beauty of rain when slowly I felt his warm, speedy breath near my ear and I squeezed my eyes in anticipation of what he must be going to say.

"You know how much I love you?" His whisper was breathtaking as he gently brought our arms to hug me from back to which I just hummed.

"This is us Nandini!" He continued lowly. I nodded to myself feeling what was he trying to convey.

"This is us, baby! Loving each other, being in each other's arms!" He was speaking in some trance and I knew where was he going.

"That wasn't us, crying in pain and agony! That wasn't us!" His voice was turning painful and I realized he was crying which made me sad like hell.

His wounds were still fresh. Mine were still fresh.

We needed to heal them.

"I...I am scared to lose to Nandini!" He spoke in a shattered tone and something inside me broke badly.

My breath hitched in my throat and I felt myself going crazy on his insecurity as I turned frantically in his arms to look at him.

"Manik please!" I cried loudly holding to his face which was all wet, some maybe due to tears and he shook his head.

"I...I am sorry for making you sad Nandini! I am sorry! But...I love you so much! I can't help it!" He whimpered resting his forehead with mine and I hiccupped shaking my head.

"I know that you love me Manik! I know!" I too whimpered back and he let out a shaky breath.

"Please don't leave me again!" He spoke like a baby and I felt myself drowning under the guilt of whatever I had done, once again.

"I am not leaving Manik, I am not going anywhere, you are not gonna lose me ever!" I tried to assure him and coaxed him to look into my eyes but he refused.

"Manik!" I called him with so much pain but again he didn't.

He kept standing motionless.

"Baby you have to look into my eyes!" I whispered desperately and a bit angrily to which Manik's eyes snapped open.

Baby!!! Queen exclaimed and I ignored.

"Look at me, look into my eyes!" I pleaded and he stared in mine softly.

"I am here, with you in your arms!" I whispered lovingly and he looked like a small baby who needed assurance.

"You can feel me right?" I asked in a coaxing tone and he nodded, just like a kid.

"Then you gotta trust us! We are not losing each other!" My tone was romantic and I could feel his fingers almost digging into my waist.

I also cupped to his cheeks and he pulled me up in his body.

We stared in each other's eyes as the water trickled down our bodies.

His hot breath fanned my face and felt the hair of my neck raising as I anticipated once again.

"Manik!" I breathed out his name and his eyes darkened. The look, it reminded me of the night.

The night, many days back. The night, he marked me his.

The passion and intensity on his face made my breath quickened.

"Nandini!" He took my name in such a voice that my knees almost gave out. I noticed his eyes diverting to my lips which were a little parted due the sharp breath I was taking.

He waited.

I waited.

We waited.

But he didn't move forward. He didn't proceed.

He didn't kiss me.

What was he waiting for?

I didn't know what he was waiting for so I chucked all the thoughts and stood up on my toes to level myself with him.

He still didn't do anything and neither do I waited.

I held the strap of his vest tightly and fused my lips with his finally to which he groaned loudly holding me tighter.

The kiss, it was something more than magic as I tried to dominate him but he was an expert. I was the one who initiated it but he was the one to lead it. His lips were sucking the life out of me and my knees wobbled once again. I tried kissing him back with the same passion but he was way too smarter.

He was everywhere in that single moment, in my mind, in my heart on my body everywhere.

Feeling a bit bold I tried to tug his vest it was my way to tell him that I wanted him but before I could register anything he left me.

He broke the kiss.

All of a sudden backing off.

I stared at him shocked and amazed.

My lips still parted, my breath still so uneven and I was shivering so bad.

"Manik!" I let out a shocked whisper as he stood with head low and breathing heavily.

"What...what's wrong?" I asked feeling so broken and he shook his head.

"We...we can't do this!" He whispered in a scared tone and I felt like dying,

"Why Manik?" I let out a soft cry and he looked at me. "Why not?" I questioned again staring at him with sorrowful eyes and he was also broken.

"Because, I...I don't wanna hurt you!" He finally told me the reason and I closed my eyes shaking my head. "I don't want to see the fear in your eyes when I'll come close to you!" He added to the reason and I shook my head more.

"I don't want you to fear me! I don't want you to hate me!" Manik was crying and I looked up at the sky.

God why are you so unfair?

Why are you doing this to us?

Nandini! Assure him! Tell him that you are ready! Queen spoke sadly and I didn't hesitate this time.

I moved forward and held to Manik immediately to which he held me back crying in my hair.

"Manik! You are not gonna hurt me! I am not afraid of you!" I told him softly running my fingers through his hair and he was shaking.

I needed to tell him that he was so precious to me.

I needed to tell him that I loved him so much.

For that I needed to be bold.

"If you can't love me due that fear!" I whispered in a determined voice and he paused, his movement halted.

"Then let me love you Manik!" I added to my words and felt myself going all numb.

Because I knew whatever I was starting needed a lot of courage but today I'll prove myself. I'll prove my love to him.

I'll let him know that I was not afraid of a physical relation anymore.

I was not afraid of having a physical relation with HIM...

Manik broke the hug and stared at me with wide eyes.

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Manik's POV...

"Then let me love you Manik!" She spoke the words so confidently and my eyes widened.

Was she for real? She knew what she was asking for?

Manik, don't refuse to her, looks like she really needs you! For the first time Mr. Subconscious was so serious and I felt he was right.

I broke the hug and looked at her.

"Do you know what you are talking?" I found myself whispering and she nodded frantically hugging her fists close to her chest.

"Let me love you! Let me tell you that how much you mean to me Manik!" She cried-pleaded and I were amazed.

"Let me do it! Be with me Manik! Please! You told me na....you asked me to start putting my wishes forward? That's my wish Manik! I want you! I want to make love to you!" She spoke and spoke while I stood shocked, in some trance.

She was now staring deep into my eyes and I was too numb to react.

"Will you let me love you Manik Malhotra?" She asked lovingly, somehow pleadingly and so confidently that I found myself nodding my head.

What the hell AM I DOING?

I promised myself that I won't ever do that to her because I know it will hurt her but why did I agree to her.

I could notice her eyes lit-ing up on seeing my agreement.

She lovingly cupped my cheek and pecked my lips deeply to which I closed my eyes.

Am I doing right? I don't want to hurt her.

Never ever.

I don't want her to think of me that I was same like everyone else.

Soon she broke the kiss and smiled at me.

I reluctantly smiled back and she backed off a little just to hold my hand.

"Come!" She offered me and started walking forward back to our room to which I followed her.

Let her lead you! Mr. Subconscious was acting sane somehow to which I finally agreed.

In these few days I was so close to her yet so far. I never tried to cross the limits because I couldn't get the fear which I saw in Nandini's eyes out of my head.

I had promised myself that I won't hurt her ever again but now she was so persistent and so confident, I failed to refuse her.

She finally brought us back to the room and left my hand. I turned to shut the door and she walked forward towards the bed.

I leveled the curtains because it was now getting dark outside and the rain was not in a mood to stop.

After that I took a deep breath and clenched my fists with my back still to her.

I knew she was waiting for me to turn.

Manik why are you being an ass!!

What is wrong with you!!

"Manik!" She finally called me.

Sighing to myself I turned to see her sitting in the middle of the bed on her knees and her hair dangling around her face.

She was wearing one of my black dress shirts and she looked irresistible.

So breathtaking, so beautiful.

Her face was devoid of any make-up. Her lips were little swollen her breathing was a little shallow as she looked exotic to me.

Some Greek-Goddess. I wanted to fall in her feet and never get up.

I wanted to love her so bad but I didn't wanna lose her.

I stared at her so did she until I found her lips turning into a small smile.

And her next move made me fall for her like crazy as she spread her arms.

"Come to me Manik!" She whispered softly and gestured me to come close to her.

She was looking so innocent yet so hot.

"Come here!" She added to the whisper and I found myself walking towards the bed.

Robotically, staring into her eyes deep I sat just beside her on the bed and she was smiling at me affectionately.

For a moment there was no sound except our uneven breaths and the little tiss sound of rain outside.

She stared at me with loveable eyes and I could feel she was so nervous. But I waited, I waited for her to lead us.

Finally she moved and leaned up on her knees to reach me.

Taking my face into her palms she kissed my forehead to which I closed my eyes shut. Her body was flushed against mine as she continued kissing my eyes one by one.

Tonight her gestures were speaking volumes.

I just sat numb and motionless as she now kissed my left cheek soon I felt her lips on my ear and lingered there for a second before she whispered,

"I love you Manik!"

And I felt blessed.

I felt light and at ease.

Then she leaned into my other ear and placed a kiss over it.

"I love you so much, so so much!" She whispered more lovingly and I carefully held her waist.

She now looked at my lips and her thumb lightly grazed them to which I sighed looking intently at her.

I expected her to lean forward and kiss me but rather she slipped her hands to the hem of my vest.

She wanted me to take it off. I gave her a look and she was staring at me expectantly.

Deciding in my head I allowed her to let the vest slip over my head and she with shivering hands threw it somewhere in the corner of the room which made me smile.

Then leaning up once again she held my shoulders and gave me a slight push. Telling me to lie down which I obliged. She carefully put her one hand under my head helping me to settle on the pillow just the way I do to her every time I help her in lying down and she had my heart in that very moment.

Bending over me once again she kissed my hair and run her fingers through them for a moment.

She was copying my gestures and it made my heart bust with a different kind of emotions.

She was really so much innocent.

So so precious.

After that she sat back on her knees beside me and shyly looked down maybe due to my gaze.

What was she upto now?

I was confused until her trembling fingers reached for her own buttons of the shirt and she looked down more so that her hair was a curtain now hiding her from my heated gaze.

Once again she left me amaze as with shivering fingers she opened the first button and I waited, she reached for the second and it also came undone.

I could feel it how much courage she was mustering up just to prove her point and I had it enough.

Stop being an ass Manik! Don't make it so difficult for her! Give it a chance! Mr. Subconscious slapped my head and I sighed to myself before quickly getting up.

I held her hand which was reaching to her third button and she gasped looking at me through those heavy thick eyelashes.

"Let me help you with this!" I whispered seductively, as her fingers curled into mine and she stared at me with so much of longing in her eyes.

It made my heart ache but I was determined to heal US!

"Come here, baby!" I added pulling her into my lap and she without any protest straddled me carefully.

"You don't have to prove yourself! You are mine!" Whispering the words huskily in her ear I gently tugged her earlobe with my teeth to which she sighed in content as her hands wrapped around my hair.

Quickly I unbuttoned the shirt and pushed it off her shoulder to which she held me tightly as I took her in my arms and threw her on the bed.

She stared in my eyes with all the love she had and I stared back with the same emotions.

"I'll take this onwards from now!" I muttered over her lips leaning dangerously closer and she once again cupped my cheeks.

"Hmm! Hmm!" She hummed nodding her head and I rested my forehead over hers breathing out loud. "Make love to me Manik!" She whispered desperately and I captured her lips in a heated kiss.

"Gladly!" I muttered in the kiss and she moaned softly giving me the opportunity to slide my tongue inside. I kissed her to my heart content until she went out of oxygen and I left her lips. But I was in no mood of leaving her skin so I went to kissing her neck and she hide herself more into my body.

I sucked to her sweet spot and she shivered with the pleasure and need. I went on further when suddenly I felt her tap on my shoulder.

"Hey Manik!" She whispered sweetly taking my attention and I came to her face.

"What is it baby?" I asked lovingly kissing to her tiny nose and she let out a small giggle.

"I...I am cold!" She whispered innocently and I realized her body was really so cold as she tried to hide herself in my warmth.

I also chuckled and with she shyly hide her face in my neck as I tucked us in the blanket.

"Better now?" I asked once we were wrapped in that fluffy blanket and she again giggled.

"Best!" She breathed out and I pecked her lips.

"Good, so no talking now!" I instructed her in a romantic to which she wrapped her arms around my neck tightly ready to ride the night with me.

I took her lips in a passionate kiss and that's how it all started.

I kissed her, I kissed her and kissed her over and over again.

The night tick by and I found her going breathless each time I kissed the sensitive spots on her body.

I kissed her fragile figure and she almost screamed out when the pleasure rode out of her body. Because tonight was for her, only for her.

"Manik! Manik please!" I could hear her whimper my name as her nails dug in the flesh of my shoulders. I knew she was ready, she wouldn't be able to wait anymore so I came to her face and she stared at me with breathless face.

"Manik!" She again begged and I cupped her cheek.

"I know baby! I know!" I whispered kissing to her other cheek and she cried out softly.

"Please!" She again whimpered and I looked into her eyes.

"Yes baby! It's okay! Look at me! You have to look into my eyes when we do this okay?" I wanted to assure her. I didn't want her to slip into some bad memory when we consummate.

"Tell me you won't close your eyes love?" I spoke out loud and she bite her lower lip crying softly.

"I...wont!" She whimpered shaking her head and I sighed.

"Good! Now hold me tight! We are gonna do this!" I whispered lovingly and her eyes lit up but she let out a scream as I claimed her unannounced.

"Manik!" She cried out my name as she bite to my shoulder while her tears wet my skin.

"It's okay! It's fine!" I cooed her lowly as she came back from her high and I patted her head.

"Oh..my...my god!" She let out a shaky cry and clinged to me tightly.

"Hey love? Hey! Look...look at me!" I spoke lovingly after few moments when I realized she wasn't going to stop crying.

She looked at me with teary eyes and I shook my head with a smile wiping to her tears.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked softly caressing to her hair and she shook her head in a small no.

"Then why are you crying so much honey?" I asked in a sad tone and she hiccupped once again before looking down.

"Because I wasn't good!" She whispered lowly and suddenly she looked so innocent to me.

"Oh my...you stupid woman!" I let out a small laugh before pulling her in my arms. "You were amazing! You don't have to be so worried!" I scolded her in a fake anger as she sniffed looking at me.

"Really?" She asked like a baby and let out a chuckle.

"Yes! Really!" I spoke smiling to her and she also smiled but immediately made a sad face.

To which I raised my eyebrows to ask what.

"Manik...I...can't give you a ba—baby!" She let out the biggest truth of our lives and my breath hitched in my throat.

I had thought about this thing for so many times and every time it left me heartbroken. But I had promised myself that I won't let it show to Nandini because it wasn't her fault.

"I know!" I whispered softly tucking a small strand of hair behind her ear.

"So?" She asked sadly and I shrugged casually.

"So, I am a firm believer of miracles!" I spoke in a loving tone which left her amazed but before she could think further I threw her back on the bed and sealed our lips.

I could hear her moaning, "Thank you" In between the kiss and I smiled.

I love this woman and I wasn't letting her go at any cost....

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Here Befikra comes to an end.

Many things need closure like what happened to Neyonika, did MaNan got married? Did they have a baby and much more.

I'll try writing up these small points in the epilogue itself.

Till then you guys have to tell me how much you loved this Befikra Manik?

And yes the question which I ask at the end of my every story,

WHICH IS YOUR MOST FAV CHAPTER FROM THE STORY??

You gotta answer it and I know we all are going to miss this story but good things come to an end eventually.

Love, Cheers!

Mawara