Hello People!! Salam...Namasty and all the greetings of the world for all my lovely, beautiful and patient readers.

A very long time no see! 4 months I guess isn't it? Yes I know I shouldn't be disappearing like that but trust me...life has been so busy and this semester was TASK for me! Huff ok am tired but the good news is...its over! And I am free for few days...at least till this weekend so I thought of updating a bit small but still a chapter!

Hope that you all are also fine! I am sorry for not replying to any of you but I didn't know what to tell! Please just don't be angry.

And yes Ky2 is coming Back tou drumrolls!! Yayee! Manik is coming back and I can't get more happy!

I hope all the readers of befikra are still out there ready to read the chapter! Anyone??

Here you go with the chapter but yes...next is last...and there is no epilogue...so you guys have to stick with that! Time to say a bye bye to befikra!

And lastly how many of you missed me? ;)

Happy Reading!

Chapter 15 C

Manik's POV...

The moment... That certain moment froze and I felt little thorns piercing in my heart with some gun...

She killed?

She killed whom?

She was a killer?

How can an innocent girl like her be a killer?

And wait... Did I just hear it right?

She can't... Be... A mother?

What the fu*k that suppose to mean?

No... It can't be true!!!!

It can't be fu*king true!!!!

Manik! Relax! Mr. Subconscious mewed, gulping down the lump and I was DEAD.

I sat without taking a single breath.

I so wished everything to be a dream...

I so wished to wake up from that horrible dream but it didn't happen.

It never happened.

The girl sitting in front of me was real.

Her tears were real.

Her heart wrenching sobs were real.

Her pain was real.

Her shivering figure, fragile body was in desperate need of to be held.

But the fu*king soul inside me was frozen.

I just blankly stared at her vulnerable face as she sat with her knees folded.

Pools and pools of tears dripped off her chin. She didn't bother to rub them away.

Maybe... Maybe because she wanted me to wipe them?

What the hell Manik! Just get up and hold your woman! Mr. Subconscious was shaking me badly but I felt my each nerve racking up.

"I killed my stepfather Manik!" Her voice felt like coming from some deep well or maybe I was in too much trance to hear it properly.

"He raped me when I was 11!" Her words were ringing in my ears and I still sat motionless.

The motherfu*ker!

Was he really dead? Because if he wasn't then I'll kill him myself!

My blood was boiling at 100° and my mind was on fire.

I fisted my hands more tightly and felt blood drawing from my clenched jaws.

"Manik... Bo-bohat dard hua tha! Roz hota tha!" Her meek whisper tore my heart away and I finally looked in her eyes which looked like a broken kid.

Bohat dard hua tha...

Roz hota tha!

Those four small words fell like hot lava to my ears and my throat parched.

Suddenly her scared dilated pupils from our first night flashed through my thoughts and I remembered how much scared she was.

Her eyes spoke volume at that moment.

Her each act... Her each nerve started falling in place.

Her shying away!

Her getting scared of my touch so badly!

Her insecurities.

Her vulnerability.

Her fear of losing me.

Her committing suicide on just a small misunderstanding.

Everything was justified that very second.

Realization dawn me badly and I felt myself like a loser.

I was a fu*king male egoistic bastard for being so rude to her in the whole previous week.

She tou needed me so badly and I thought she didn't trust me?

She did trust you Manik! Mr. Subconscious was saying lowly. It was her fate which wasn't trust worthy! He added with a low mew.

I was so scared now...

I was so unfair with her.

She had told me thousand times that I was the only person in her life then how could she afford losing me?

Oh Nandini...

My sweet, innocent woman.

Staring in her eyes like a defeated man I didn't know what to do.

She was trembling like an autumn leaf and I couldn't resist but slowly spread my hand towards her.

A gesture for her to come to me.

I knew that I wouldn't be able to bear her having away from me any second longer.

She stared at my hand with teary eyes as if registering what I was asking and as soon as the realization dawned her she crawled on her knees forward like a toddler, latching over my hand like a mad woman she leapt over my legs and hugged my waist throwing her head in my chest with a bang.

I wrapped my arms around her desperately and pulled her up in my lap.

I wanted her close to me...

The only thing I knew at that moment was I needed to hold her.

I needed to hold her closer than my own breath so that she could feel safe.

So that the pain...

The pain which was running into her blood could fade away.

Her legs were on my either sides and her face was now dug in the crook of my neck.

I didn't stop her from crying.

Because it was the last night she was crying with pain. I wanted her to let all her painful tears flow away.

So, that the only emotions remain in her will be of happiness and joy.

I didn't realize I was also crying with her until I felt something wet on my cheeks too.

I sighed on our pain and let my hands run through her tangled hair.

For the first time in my life I was out of words.

I didn't know what to say.

I let my lips linger over her hair and she cried harder.

The only sound in the room was her sobs and my ragging heartbeat.

How will I heal her!?

I wondered to myself with a gulp stuck in my throat.

She was hurt beyond repair.

How'll I deal with her?

I was busy in my thoughts when I felt her cries were diminishing.

She was no more shaking like the way she was shivering earlier.

I brought my attention towards her as she parted away slowly, almost weak-ly.

I cautiously stared at her face and carefully raised my one hand to tuck her hair strands away which were stuck around her eyes due to tears.

She was quiet and I also stayed the same as I wiped her face with my shaky fingers not meeting her eyes at all.

She stared at my face for few seconds and cupped my left cheek with her petite hand.

She forced me to look into her eyes and I looked at her with shaky expressions.

I didn't know what to say.

"Manik tm mjy maaf kar do! Just one last chance! Please!" She finally let out the whimper which she was holding since long and I frantically shook my head cupping her cheeks.

I wanted to shout so loud that the apology was not needed.

Not after whatever she went through.

I should be the one asking for forgiveness.

I should be the one sitting in her feet to seek her forgiveness but my bloody tongue didn't support me.

"Oh Nandini! No please!" I took her name in a breathy voice and she let out a sob as we instinctively rested foreheads with each other, cupping to each other's faces, closing our eyes.

"Say it again!" She whisper-sobbed and I closed my eyes more tightly on her desperation.

"What?" I asked helplessly as the pain which was radiating through her body was consuming me too and it was getting difficult to handle.

"My name... Mera naam lo na... Jesy tm hamesha lety ho! Pyaar say! Tumhari Nandini!" Her words stabbed my heart with a knife and I opened my eyes with a jerk to see her already staring in mine.

"Bolo na...!" She whispered in a loving tone and her thumb traced the corner of my lips as her whole focus was on them.

"Nan-Nandini!" I whispered back in the same loving tone as hers and her lips turned into a sad-heartbreaking smile.

"Meri Nandini!" I added with same desperation and her smile went bright.

"Sirf Meri!" Last two words came out as sobs and she hugged me back crying once again.

I cried with her kissing to her hair almost frantically.

"I am sorry too!" I finally let it out.

That the sorry, it was for everything.

For hurting her.

For making her cry.

For being so angry with her.

For not understanding her pain.

"I am so sorry!" I added with the same pain and she shook her head in my neck frantically.

"It's not your fault! Please! Tum sorry mat bolo! I am responsible for all this! I should have told you everything earlier!" She spoke crying her heart out and I made her look at me.

"Oh Nandini!" I whimpered staring at her vulnerable face and she looked down hiccupping.

"He hurt me so much! He and his sister hurt me so much! I used to starve for days! He used to tie my wrists and made me his slave! I was a little kid Manik! He killed my mother! He killed me! He killed me so many times!" She kept on speaking and speaking while I just listened to her.

I wish I could kill that motherfu*ker!

Though he was already dead but I wish I could kill him again and again, until the pain of my love subsided away.

I held her wrists in my hands and stared at those faded wounds.

One wrist which she had cut to commit suicide was still wrapped in the bandage.

Carefully I brought her wrist to my lips and placed a small kiss over it with her fingers brushing my chin.

"In spite of being a woman, his sister never cared for whatever he was doing to me!" She kept rambling and I looked at her.

"Who was his sister?" I asked already doubting and Nandini sighed.

"Neyonika!" She whimpered and that moment I felt like shredding that b!tch into pieces.

She has destroyed so many lives!

Mine....my love's life!

What else was left on her part now?

"Manik! Please! Don't be angry with me! I promise me kbhi bhi tmhy distrust ni karon ge! Myny pehly bhi nahi kiya tha! Bus wo Neyoni--!" She was rambling like a mad woman and before her words could pain our hearts more I placed my lips over hers shutting her completely distracting her.

Because trust me!

That moment I really didn't know what else to do!

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Nandini's POV...

The second his lips met mine the ragging storm inside me settled down that very moment and I was forced to gasp out loud over his sudden approach.

My hands which were in his hands traveled in his hair and he too sighed.

We both knew how much we were craving for this all the time.

The closure...the seeking of each other got the path and his arms snacked around my waist causing me to hold him tight too.

Then I felt myself lifted over, without breaking the kiss he lifted me and soon my head touched the soft pillow and his hands on the sides of my head.

"I love you Manik!" The moaned escaped my lips when he broke away as we both ran out of oxygen but before he could pull away fully I got up a little to fuse our lips once again.

Because I needed him more...

Much more...

I kissed him like my life depend on it and he let me kiss him without resistance.

The intensity and the feeling to get close to him more than his own breath overpowered me and I felt helpless.

My hands were pulling his hair and his hands cupped my cheeks stroking them with his thumb to calm me down.

The kiss couldn't last longer because I ran out of oxygen shortly and Manik again pulled away to which I protested but....

"Shhh Nandini! Shhh!" He whispered lovingly pulling my face in his neck, patting my hair to calm me down as I cried out in frustration.

I wanted to scream that I needed him so much!

"Stop baby!" He whispered lowly and I fisted to his shirt tightly, tears of helplessness spilled out of my eyes as I lost control over my desires all of a sudden.

"Manik I need you!" I whimpered in his neck and his lips met my right ear shushing me once again.

"We can't do this! Not now!" His words were cool but not enough to calm me.

I pulled back to look in his eyes and he was already staring.

Nandini I swear to God don't you dare to ask any rubbish! Queen snapped at me but ouch TOO LATE...

"Because am not pure?" I already asked in a hollow voice and he sighed shaking his head.

"You are the purest woman for me ever Nandini! Stop telling this over and over again trust me love, it hurts!!" His words were simple, strict and angry, enough for me to know that he really mean it.

"When will you stop doubting me?" He asked in more strict voice and I felt like a fool again.

"Am...not doubting you Manik!" I said in a child-like tone and he cupped my cheek again. "It's just I want you closer to me! Very close!" I added looking away from his eyes and I felt him smiling.

"I know!" He whispered back and I hugged him tightly.

He laid down the bed and pulled me over him while adjusting the blanket over us.

His fingers ran in my hair as I felt him thinking too hard. His heart was beating slowly and consciously.

One beat per second...what a perfect rhythm.

But why was he so quiet?

Did he hear when I said that I can't be a mother?

Or he didn't?

Why isn't he talking?

Another fear started consuming my thoughts and my grip around his waist tightened.

"If you are thinking that am gonna leave you or anything has changed between us after listening to whatever you have gone through then trust me I'll be very angry with you!" His sudden gruff voice paused, all my rubbish thoughts flushed away and I gulped.

"Then what are you thinking?" I asked quietly and got up to adjust my chin over his chest.

He smiled small at me and tucked a lose strand behind my ear, before sadness leapt his face.

"I am thinking...that I failed...!" He spoke in a shaky tone and I gasped getting up with a jerk.

"Manik!" I screeched his name and he shook his head.

"Nandini! Yes! I failed to protect you! I just thought about myself! I thought about only that pain under which I went through! Ya nahi socha kay definitely koi badi reason hoge that's why you would have took such drastic step! But ni mjy tou wo sab dekha he ni! Myny tmhy itna dant diya! Pata nahi kya kya khudi sochta raha!" He rambled mostly to himself and I stared at him with wide eyes.

Why this man has a heart of gold?

"Nandini...I can't forgive myself for being so selfish to you! For being so rude to you! For being an idiot for a whole week! Tumhy meri zarorat the aur main! Main...!" He was unable to complete his words and I shook my head violently as I cupped his cheeks.

"Manik! I have no complaints! No nothing! I just need you! I just want you to be my side! Bus tm! Aur kuch nahi! Sirf tum! Please just forget everything! Please!" I begged forcing him to look into my eyes and his eyes looked breathtaking at that moment.

The depth...the emotions took my breath away.

"Nandini main na...main sab theek kar doonga!" He suddenly retorted and held my hands in an almost death grip as if trying his best to make me believe him. "I'll make it okay! I'll make us okay! Trust me baby! Trust me!" He ranted and ranted, to which I cupped his cheek again.

"Shhh Manik!" I whispered caressing to his cheek and he looked vulnerable. "I trust you!" I added lovingly and moved forward taking him in my arms.

"I'll make everything okay!" His promising whisper resonated in my ears and I smiled to myself while my face fell in his neck almost unconsciously.

I was so exhausted and emotionally tired that I felt so damn sleepy.

His warmth...his light patting over my hair and his sweet whispers...promising whispers...loving whispers...

The night I slept with one thing clear in my head and it was 'I was Manik's woman and he wasn't letting me go'...

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