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It contains some disturbing content if you don't wanna read skip it but I don't want anyone complaining afterwards!

Okay! It's Nandini's pov and everything written here is happening in her own head. So don't get confused.

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Chapter 14 B

Nandini's POV...

"Nandu baby! Where are you?" I heard his poisonous, coated in honey voice and I placed my palm on my lips to conceal the sobs which were threatening to escape my mouth. I shrink myself more under the bed and let the silent tears flow down my cheeks.

Mommy come home soon...please...mommy.

I prayed silently and heard his footsteps approaching.

"Aww baby! Come to Daddy! You know Daddy loves you!" He was shouting sweetly but I knew he don't love me.

He just hates me so much...

Just like he hates Mommy.

He loved to torture me whenever he got the chance. He was a bad guy.

Mommy says there are two kinds of people in the world...Good guys and bad guys.

Daddy is a bad guy.

Because he hurts me. He hurts my Mommy.

He doesn't love us.

"Nandini! Come out!" He shouted this time in anger and kicked my bed to which I jumped in fright but didn't let any sound come out of my mouth.

I needed to be strong. That's what Mommy says.

"I know you are in there you little b!tch! Come out!!!!!!" He shouted violently and before I could register anything he bent down. My teary fearful eyes met his merciless angry ones and he smiled.

His yellow dirty teeth made me feel like puking right there and he grabbed my arm.

"Got you!" He mumbled evilly and the next moment he pulled me out not caring when my head hit the wood of the bed hard.

I shrieked trying to pull away but he slapped me hard to which I fell on the floor next second.

My lower lip was bleeding now but he didn't care.

God always protect his kids...

Mommy's whisper rang in my head and I spit on the floor on her lies.

She lies...God doesn't even exist. If he does then why doesn't he protect me?

Am I not his loveable kid?

I refused to shed another tear and tried to close my ears so that I won't have to hear the horrible voice of Daddy who was abusing me to his heart content.

"GET UP!" He roared and wiping my dried tears I got up.

I will not let my tears waste on this man...he doesn't deserve it.

"Follow me!" He ordered more and biting my lower trembling lip I followed him quietly to the lounge.

He sprawled himself on Mommy's favorite couch and I stood two feet away from him crossing my arms, with lowered head.

"What a little good girl you are!" He mumbled staring at me with his dirty eyes and my chin wobbled, my eyes refused to shed more tears.

"Now come here!" He spoke politely gesturing me with his finger. With trembling legs I walked closer to him and he now gestured at his feet.

He was resting his legs on the coffee table and was wearing boats.

"Take them off dear!" He ordered me and I looked at him for a second in disbelief.

That was it he grabbed my hair and I let out a scream which was definitely music to his ears.

"Good girls don't give these kinda looks to Daddy!" He growled in my ear and I wriggled like a fish without water in his hands.

"Daddy it's hurting!" I cried hysterically when he pulled my hair more and more.

"Tell me you get it??" He shouted without caring for my shouts and I nodded with a sob.

"Yes! Yes!" I cried and hiccupped frantically repeating the yes yes mantraaa...

He chuckled and left me.

"Good girl! Now take my shoes off and after that you are gonna serve me some champagne okay sweetie?" He told me...it wasn't a choice...it was an order and I nodded crying my heart out.

My trembling hands reached for the laces of his shoes and I tried to wipe the tears which were blurring my vision again and again...

After I took off his ugly shoes, I served him the things he demanded and he made me stood beside his couch while he watched some weird ugly girls on the TV...

I stood expressionless...

Mommy...where are you?

I stood there which felt like hours when suddenly he gestured me to light his cigarette up.

I immediately tumbled towards the drawer and pulled out the lighter case for him.

I lit his cigarette and he smiled at me...

I knew that devil smile.

My heart hammered badly when suddenly he grabbed my tiny arm and pulled me beside him on the couch.

"You know little girl! Daddy loves you so much!" He whispered lowly rubbing my wrist with his free hand because in the other hand he was holding his cigarette.

"Yes!" I whimpered and he caressed my hair gently.

"Please don't hurt me Daddy!" I whimpered in vain trying to melt his heart and he smiled at me.

"Awww baby! Daddy can never hurt you!" He spoke lovingly and I felt a relief wash through me but it was temporary because...

The next second he smashed the burning end of the cigarette with my wrist and I let out a hysterical scream.

The pain was unbearable....

He grabbed the sleeve of my floral frock and torn it the next second.

Then he burnt my skin over and over again until I lost the count and everything went dark...

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"Richard! What have you done to my daughter!?" I got my conscious back when I heard Mommy shouting at Daddy.

"She was misbehaving!" Daddy sounded so casual and the next second I heard a slap.

I jumped off my bed and peeked out of my room door to see Daddy standing in front of Mommy with low face.

Mommy had slapped him.

"Misbehaving?" Mommy roared at him and he just gritted his teeth. "Firstly I am not ready to believe if she really misbehaved! But if she did! That's not the way you treat your daughter!" Mommy lashed out at him and he looked up at her with deadly face.

"She's in not my daughter Kayla!" He spoke in a cold, serious tone and I was shocked, numb.

"She was your mistake! That you committed with Rohan! And after he left I volunteered to help!" He told the reality on her face and my tiny head was all wobbled gobbled.

What is a mistake?

Who was Rohan?

"YOU!" Mommy shouted showing him his finger. "Dare not to call my daughter a mistake do you get it? And you volunteered to give her your name because my father gave you 1 million rupees to marry me!" She was shouted at his face and he grabbed Mommy's hair all of a sudden...

NO! NO!

"Shut up!" He growled and Mommy wriggled in his grasp.

"It's a two way street Richard! You reap what you sow!" She shouted at him once again and he grabbed her neck this time...that too tightly.

"Let's see! What kind of two way it is! Because am gonna kill you tonight, love!" He mumbled in Mommy's ears and her eyes widened...

That was enough for me...

He's not gonna kill my Mommy...he can't....

"Leave my Mommy! Leave her!!" I shouted at him and run out of my room but Mommy's glare stopped me.

"NO Nandini!" She screamed at me and I stared at her petrified.

"Go...have your last words with your daughter!" He mumbled at Mommy and jerked her towards me.

She fell in my feet and I gathered Mommy in my arms...more likely she gathered me.

"Mommy!" I cried in her neck and she hugged me tightly.

"Hey baby! Listen to Mommy!" She whispered in my ears lovingly and I hiccupped in her neck more and more.

"Mommy loves you okay? You are the only love of Mommy's life!" She was whispering and my whole world was collapsing.

"Mommy has been always selfish but tonight! Mommy wants to tell you that you are the best daughter she could ever have!" She continued and her lips lingered over my hair while I was going hysterical in her arms. "You are beautiful! Strong and lovely girl! Mommy is so proud to have you! You are Mommy's world love! And stay strong!" She whispered more and pecked my forehead.

I gripped to her jacket tightly and shook my head.

"Is he gonna kill you?" I asked horrified and already dead with fear.

She let out a small laugh and rubbed her nose with me.

"Of course not baby!" She was smiling...her smile was so beautiful and serene.

"We'll sort it out okay?" She spoke caressing my hair and I nodded my head with my babyish expressions.

"I love you too Mommy!" I told her lovingly and pecked her cheek. "Promise me that youll never leave me again?" I spoke with my lower lip already trembling.

"I promise! As long as I live! I won't leave you!" She spoke lovingly and wiped my tears with her thumbs.

"Pinky promise?" I asked showing her my pinky finger and she chuckled once again before tangling her pinky with mine.

"Yes baby! Pinky promise!" She spoke nodding her head and I hugged her once again.

"Baby! Just tell Mommy that you forgive her for everything!" She was whispering again and I was confused but I played along.

"I forgive you Mommy!" I spoke lovingly and she parted away.

"Okay! So now you are gonna go back to your room and lock it!" She told me cupping to my cheeks and I nodded obediently.

She walked me to my room and I saw her shutting the door with a smile.

She mouthed an ILOVEYOU and I mouthed it back.

I never knew I was seeing my Mommy the last time...

Because the next morning when I woke up I saw my worst nightmare coming true...

Mommy's corpse was hanging down the ceiling...

She was dead...

I cried...I begged...I shouted for her to come back but she was gone...

Daddy killed her and faked her death as a suicide.

He was crying the loudest in the funeral and my hatred for him doubled.

I hate him! I hate him.

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"No! Nandini will stay with me! I have lost Kayla! I can't let my daughter go!" I heard him talking to Grandpa out of my room door and my eyes widened.

I needed to leave this man...

He was the devil...

I needed to escape...I needed to escape.

I frantically run out of my room and hugged Grandpa.

"Grandpa! Please! Please take me with you! I wanna come with you!" I mumbled in his neck and he hugged me back giving a confused look to Daddy who shook his head.

"She's in shock! She needs me!" Daddy spoke softly and came forward to part me away from Grandpa.

"Stay away from me!!" I roared at him and hide behind Grandpa who glared at Daddy now.

"Nandini my darlin'! Don't make your Grandpa worried!" Neyonika...Daddy's sister spoke sweetly but I wasn't going to lose.

"Come on Mr.Murthy! She's gonna be fine! Neyonika and I'll take care of her!" He spoke holding to Grandpa's hands in assurance and I was amazed on his flattering acting.

"Are you sure you can handle her?" Grandpa was asking and he nodded enthusiastically.

What no!!!

"Grandpa no! Don't leave me alone!" I shouted hugging to Grandpa once more and he parted me away from him once more...

"Baby! You're gonna be fine! He'll take care of you!" He spoke cupping to my cheeks and I cried...

"Grandpa you have to take me with you please!!" I cried-begged but Daddy came forward so did Neyonika.

She dragged me away and Daddy pushed Grandpa towards the main door greeting him one last time.

"No! Grandpa don't leave me! Please don't!" I cried my lungs out but Neyonika pushed me on the floor. As soon as Daddy locked the main door she slapped my face hard.

"Shut up!" She growled grasping to my chin and I spit on her face.

"I am not scared of you!" I shouted back at her.

"You little b!tch!" She lashed back rewarding me with another slap and I cried out in pain because she was pulling to my hair tightly.

"Ahh ahh sister! Hush! Don't hurt my daughter!" This time Daddy came forward and both siblings bent over me.

I stared at them with disgust and they started laughing over my face.

"Awww! Poor little Nandini! You are my trump card to Murthy's business! You think I'll let you go so easily?" He spoke in soft poisonous tone and caressed my swollen cheek.

I breathed heavily and jerked his hand away.

"YOU KILLED MY MOMMY!" I barked at him and he again started laughing.

How inhumane!!!!

GOD??? GOD???

Where are you?

Where is your justice?

"It was my pleasure little!" He mocked at my face and I had nothing to say.

"She has insulted me so much Big brother! She deserves a punishment!" Neyonika spoke evilly standing beside her brother and I once again stared at both of them.

Punishment?

"Oh yeah! My little, sweet 11 years old Nandini deserves a punishment!" Daddy spoke coolly and started unbuttoning his suit jacket, Neyonika quietly chuckled after showing thumbs up to Daddy she was out of the house while Daddy started undressing himself.

What was he gonna do?

I wondered with my innocent mind and soon I got to know what he was gonna do...

He tore my clothes and made me his little sl*t...

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Two long painful and filled with humiliation years went by very slowly...

The night I lost my grace...that night the real innocent sweet Mommy's girl died.

The girl alive was sl*t...

She was Daddy's bad girl who deserved nothing else but punishments.

He made me starve for days...

He used to tie my wrists tightly.

He used to slap me...he used to burn his cigarette on my body...

He had me kept standing under the rain for hours.

He used to wear the clown masks and used to force himself on my over and over again while wearing that mask...

I was immune now...

I was out of fight now...

I had lost hope....I had lost everything because he used to assure Grandpa that I was fine with him.

Until one day....

I heard him talking to his sister.

They were now planning to kill my Grandpa...

I was horrified.

He killed Mommy...he's gonna kill grandpa and one day he'll kill me?

No...

Before he kills me...I'll kill him...

I can do this...

The night I was doing the dishes after dinner and his sister left I hide a knife in my jeans pocket.

I will not let him kill my Grandpa...

"Nandini!" His voice slurred as he called for me and I gulped tightly coming out of the kitchen.

"Yes? Daddy?" I asked lowly and as soon as I realized what he was holding in his hands I froze.

A small acid bottle!!

I trembled on my place and he smiled at me...

"Come here my sweet girl!" His voice disgusted me and I controlled myself because I didn't want to puke.

Taking dead steps I reached him and sat beside him on the couch...

"Do you know? What it is?" He asked lowly rolling the little bottle in his hands and I pursed my lips before shaking my head.

Though I knew what it was...

"It's acid!" He spoke casually looking at my innocent now stained with tears face and I hiccupped.

"Are you gonna burn me?" I asked whimpering, staring at the bottle and he chuckled twirling the lid open.

"Ohh no baby! I am using this so that you don't try to run away from me ever! It's like! If you won't have a pretty face or a fuc*able body! Then you would have no choice but to stay with me here!" He spoke his evil plan and I gasped shrinking away from him...

"Please....please don't hurt me!" I begged with a crying my lungs out but he grabbed my one arm.

"Ahhh shhhh! Little girl! Its okay! It's gonna be okay!" He spoke preparing himself to throw the acid at me and I was trembling...

Oh come on! You are strong! You have knife in your pocket! Just cut his throat already!! For the first time Queen shouted at me and I suddenly remembered about the knife...

Before he could throw the acid at me I pulled out the knife and using my full power I slit his throat....

The acid bottle from his hand fell on me and the acid burnt my neck, shoulders...moreover his blood was all over me...

The shock...the pain and the agony made me senseless..

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I was a killer...

The jail...the ugly ladies were disgusting...

But the temptation of drugs to wipe my depression was very alluring....

My Grandpa was fighting the case for me telling that the murder I committed was an act of self defense.

No...it wasn't an act of self defense I killed him with full intentions.

But I don't care for anything anymore....

There was a lady in the jail who used to provide I and many other ladies with drugs.

The drugs used to keep me away from depression.

I remained drowsy all day away from the bickering and fuss of typical jail...

Until one day...

Grandpa won the case.

I remained in jail for 18 months and came out as a drug addict.

I was not in my true self.

Grandpa tried to control me but once I ran away from the house in search of drugs but my guards caught me.

"Nandini!!!" Grandpa spoke trying to hold my arms when my guards dragged me back home...

"Leave me!! I need it! I need it!" I shouted-cried and the next moment Grandpa hugged me...

"No baby! It's gonna be okay! Shhh!" He whispered continuously in my ears and I kept wriggling until my strength gave away.

His fatherly scent...his light patting on my head...his soothing words in my ears...he...he reminded of Mommy...

"This isn't you my doll! You are Mommy's strong girl! You have to fight with it!" He whispered more in my ear and suddenly pool of tears gathered in my eyes...

I didn't remember when I had cried this much.

I kept crying hugging to Grandpa for hours and he was so patient with me...

"Grandpa!" I finally whispered and he broke away a little to look at my face. "Save me!" I sobbed staring at his face and he smiled sadly nodding his head, wiping my cheeks.

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Three years...

It took me three long years to heal from the addiction of those two painful years.

I remember the last day of my tests.

Doctor Martha called Grandpa and me to sit with her while she discussed my final reports.

"So? How's she doing doctor?" Grandpa asked softly sipping to the green tea which was served to us by Doctor's assistant.

I was smiling.

That's what they taught me.

The therapy sessions taught me to smile.

It doesn't matter if it's fake or real.

I needed to smile.

"Ahh yes Mr. Murthy! Your dear daughter is 18 now! And she's absolutely doing great! She is my most obedient and beautiful patient ever!" Doctor praised me and I giggled while Grandpa looked at me with almost proud.

"Her reports! Everything seems normal!" She spoke nodding her head and handed Grandpa my reports.

"But...the drugs she used for two long years left its side effects!" Her tone was sad and gloomy which made my heartbeat skipped.

Grandpa frowned and opened the file to read the reports while my palms turned sweaty.

"What kind of side effects?" He asked in a fearful voice and I licked my dry lips.

"Nandini is a grown up woman!" She started sadly and I held my heart.

"When she'll meet the love of her life and will get married! I am afraid she won't be able to conceive!" She dropped the bomb over me and the file almost slipped from Grandpa's hands.

"Why? What?" He whimpered staring at the Doctor in disbelief while I was still in shock.

"The drugs! They have affected her badly, Sir! Her womb...it's not in a position to carry a life!" She was also very sad and the fake smile I was carrying for the teaching's sake disappeared from my face.

The silent tears rolled down my eyes and Martha held my hand.

"It's okay my dear! I wish you get a guy who doesn't care for your disabilities! I wish he loves you beyond that!" She whispered lovingly and I hiccupped looking down.

"Miracles can also happen!" She added with a smile towards Grandpa and I shook my head.

Miracles in my life?

Never...

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7 years passed and I stood in the driveway of Murthy enterprises, staring at the big building which was my Grandpa's dream.

May your soul rest in peace Grandpa...

I love you so much.

I promise I'll take your company to the heights.

A week after Grandpa died I joined his company.

The business study helped me a lot to learn everything efficiently.

The 7 years of my life were very important for me.

Grandpa gave me the confidence to live my life and I covered myself from evil eyes.

The hijab thing gave me confidence for myself and it became my necessity.

The scars on my body were never forgotten.

But yes for the time being I tried to forget them and moved on in my life.

The day Grandpa died my life once again collapsed and I felt myself going into depression.

But I controlled myself and started with the business.

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I wish you get a guy who doesn't care for your disabilities! I wish he loves you beyond that!

Doctor Martha's words were long forgotten by me until one day my phone buzzed.

"Yes Rita?" I spoke casually typing a document on my macbook and she coughed a little from other side. Fake cough.

"Mam! The guy who was coming for the post of manager is here!" She spoke lowly and I frowned looking at my wrist watch.

"It's 10 am! He was supposed to be here at 9! Sorry not interested! Ask him to leave!" I spoke sternly and was about to hung up when...

"Ma'am! Please! He needs this job!" She pleaded and I rolled my eyes. "He...he has a sick mother and five siblings to feed at home! Or else his mother jo cancer say lar rahi hai mar jaye ge!" She spoke robotically and I sighed rubbing my forehead.

Seriously?

Who is this idiot?

And what kind of shitty bollywood story he has fed to my receptionist.

He needs some serious tuning...

"Send him in!" I muttered on the phone before slamming the cradle back.

Idiot...usy lagta hai he can fool me.

Abhi btati hoon.

I was thinking about that drama king and my cell rang.

"Yes Mr. Sharma!" I greeted my client as soon as I picked the phone up and soon I was busy with him.

About 5 minutes passed and I kept talking to him. I nibbled the back of my pencil, rolling carelessly on my chair and suddenly my eyes fell on my office door.

For once I thought I was hallucinating, so literally rubbed my eyes and stared at the door wider.

A guy in his late twenties, was setting his hair in the door of my office?

You gotta be kidding me...

He was the same guy who fooled my receptionist.

He was late already and now he was wasting his time in setting his hair in the office door.

Does he know that I am watching him?

Of course not...

An unknown idiot kind of smile spread across my lips and I stared at the adorable way with which he was setting his hair.

I could see the little of his tongue coming out of the corner of his lips and...

I couldn't fail to see that he was the cutest creature on planet earth for me that moment.

Suddenly I felt him giving himself one last satisfactory look before he knocked my door.

Damn!

I immediately rolled my chair and now I was hidden away from him.

"Hello Miss Mruthy? You there?" Mr. Sharma was calling me from other side and I remembered I was talking to him.

Shit...

"Yes yes! Am listening!" I spoke to him and the guy was now entering my office.

I heard the footsteps stopping just near my desk and he greeted me.

I excused myself from Mr. Sharma and turned to him to which he was shocked.

His eyes went wide when he stared at me and that moment I also took my chance to notice that yes....yes...

Not only cute he was the most handsome soul on the planet earth.

His brown big doe eyes filled with a different kind of innocence and his perfectly shaped nose. His jawline was so sharp and his cheeks were plain. The little grown shave looked so awesome on him.

In short he was perfect.

Nandini! Are you seriously staring at a GUY? Queen snickered at me and I rolled my eyes.

I am just looking! Not staring! There is a difference! I shrugged at her and she giggled singing her typical La-La song.

"You are late!" I thundered on the guy and his mouth shut close.

"I was stuck!" He spoke softly and I fisted my hands.

What a husky voice! PHEW!

I was over with man.

Never in my wildest dreams I had ever thought that any man will take my attention.

We got into a conversation and I realized that not only cute and handsome but he was the biggest BADTAMEEZ , GADHA, IDIOTIC creature on the earth also.

He made me so angry that I asked him to get out but he came closer to me pleading and telling me that if I don't give him the job he'll have to wash his friend's clothes.

And he also said that his friend doesn't shower.

His sudden act made me sacred.

I got afraid of his advances. Bad memories started haunting me all of a sudden and he was shocked to see me like this.

"I'll never hurt you! Trust me! I promise!" He spoke softly raising his hands in defense but I asked him to leave to which he ran away.

After that I was out of mind.

It took me hours to come back to normal and the only thing which was resonating in my ears was his words.

I'll never hurt you! Trust me! I promise!

His words...the sincerity they held made me so restless.

My foolish idiot heart asked me to believe him.

I called Rita and asked for his number.

After that fighting myself for few more hours whether to call him or not finally called him and told him to come at office he was in.

The whole night went restless.

Why did I let him in?

Was I doing it right?

What if he was no different?

The next morning I reached office at my usual time and he wasn't there yet.

I walked to my bathroom and washed my hands before I start my work.

I was washing my hands and suddenly my eyes fell on the reflection of mine in the mirror.

I bite my lower lip and stared at myself for a moment.

Thinking for a moment I opened my drawer and pulled out the few makeup accessories I had in my office.

I opened the mascara lid and applied a bit more than usual I used to. Then I wore my lipstick which was a darker shade of red. Then I pinched my cheeks to make them look red and suddenly stopped.

What was I doing? And why I was doing that?

I wanted to impress MANIK?

No...

Of course Yes! Queen snickered once again and I shook my head.

Is that really me?

It's not even 24 hours since that idiot has come in my life and he was affecting me.

Shoving all thoughts I came out and paused in front of my office door.

His face...the way he was setting his hair yesterday in my door roamed in my head and before I could look away he suddenly, from nowhere appeared back.

He was here!!!!

I gasped backing off, thinking that he will barge in but he didn't...

Instead he once again started setting his hair and unintentionally I walked forward.

Closing the distance between the door and me I stared at the unbelievably cute man.

With hesitant fingers I touched the door and smiled on his adorableness.

He was so cute and such a child.

Aww Nandini! Staring again? Queen spoke with an awe and I was snapped out of my day dream.

Quickly I walked towards my window and felt my cheeks burning.

Damn I was blushing.

It was hard for me to believe that I was actually attracted towards a man...

Then we argued again because whenever he used to open his mouth he used to test my patience.

Anger eat me up and I gave him so much of work to do with that I threw him in the storeroom.

But before he could leave didn't forget to embarrass him about his hair dressing in my office door.

But the whole day I was worried for him.

The lunch I sent for him was just a jam sandwich.

Why I was doing that?

Because you are angry that why are you falling for him! My Queen spoke and I shook my head.

Am not falling for him! I shouted at her and she just shrugged.

Trust me! You are! She told me and I bite my lower lip.

Curiosity and guilt washed over me badly. It was 6 of the evening when I finally got up to check on him.

He was sweating badly and moreover he hadn't eaten anything.

He was angry and mad at me but I for the peace offering I brought him to the pantry.

"Did you eat?" His question left me startled and I was amazed...

He cares?

He cares for me?

He made me a nutella sandwich. I was scared what Nutella was until he showed the hazel nut cocoa spread. I never knew it was called Nutella.

Then he made me eat with him and it took everything in me not to fall for me but I failed.

I ran away and came to my office.

He offered me his friendship but I denied him.

He got angry and left the room slamming the door shut.

The coffee tray and sandwich plate which he had brought for me...I stared at them for a moment and pushed it away....

"NOOO!" I shouted to myself as the tray fell on the ground.

If I would have been a normal girl tou it wouldn't have been this much difficult.

Tears sprung in my cheeks and I shook my head staring at now broken coffee cup and broken plate.

Slowly I got up and knelt on the floor near the broken pieces.

I hurt him...

He was hurt...

His crystal clear eyes were telling that he was hurt.

I should be punished for that ain't I?

Tears slowly slid down my cheeks and I started gathering the broken cup when suddenly a piece pierced in my hand...

I got the punishment for hurting him.

The next morning I decided to stay away from him.

I gave him the office reserved for managing seat and he was also quiet.

For 10 days I avoided him but finally I needed him for the meeting with Saxena's.

He irritated the hell out of me when he refused to sit in my car and offered me to sit on his bike.

Manik was different he was different.

He was everywhere.

I was growing possessive for him unknowingly.

We reached for the meeting and he forced us to go with elevators.

My claustrophobia got into me but I didn't let him see my vulnerable side.

I was determined to be aware of him.

But then I saw him with Alya and my nightmares came true.

He was with Alya.

But he assured me in a very decent way that he was not with her and my psychotic behavior worried him.

Then we got stuck in the lift and I got to know that I can trust him...

He was amazing...he was my light.

He was my superhero.

Then for the first time in my life I felt that I can be loved when he cupped my cheek and pecked my forehead.

His lips felt so soft and so so hot on my skin.

I felt that I'll faint.

Then the next day I told him...a little that I was scared of man's touch he started understanding me good and gave me his ipod.

I listened to his songs over and over again.

I started getting addicted to him.

I used to call him to my office though he wasn't even needed.

He used to rant and rant...

And I used to stare at him.

He was unaware of my gazes and he used to speak for hours.

And I used to listen to him. His voice was music. He was love...

I was falling hard and fast for him while he was unknown.

Sometimes he used to hold my hand whenever he invented so illogical game for us to play.

I still remember the day I got to know he love rains.

I came out of my bathroom and saw Manik standing near my window.

"Hey?" He whispered with a smile at me and I smiled back.

His smile was contagious.

My inside fluttered and I walked closer to him.

"Let's start the work?" I spoke shrugging my shoulders and he smiled shaking his head.

"No! Lets watch the rain!" He announced and I chuckled.

"What about the rains?" I asked following his gaze and he looked like a small excited child.

Due to rain the whole window was covered with fog.

"Tum ny Ek Villain dekhi hai?" He asked with a questioning face and I looked at him with confused face.

"Ek kya?" I asked shaking my head and he laughed.

"Ek Villain! You know usme aik scene hai! The girl draws a smiley face!" He started telling me and I listened to him carefully.

"Like this!" He told me softly and started drawing a smiley on the foggy window. "See!" He gestured towards it and opened the window to go out.

"Kahan ja rahy ho?" I asked worriedly because he was getting wet.

"Am fine! Just place your finger on the nose of this smiley!" He told me with an excited voice and I was amazed on his idiotic childish acts.

Rolling my eyes, slowly I placed my finger on the nose and he did the same.

Now he was laughing to himself and pulled out his phone without caring for the rain and took a picture.

"Perfect!" He spoke still laughing. "Seriously kitna filmy hoon na main!" He commented on himself and I was motionless.

What was he?

My finger was still there on the nose and the smiley was now evaporating.

"Oye?? Tumhy kya hua?" He spoke tapping the glass from the other side and I stared at him in trance.

I LOVE YOU! Suddenly a scream resonated in my head and he laughed at my face before placing his hand flat palm on the window.

Now my eyes darted from his face to his hand and I raised my hand to follow his move.

Now our hands were almost parallel to each other and he smiled at it.

"Ander aa jaoan?" He asked breaking my trance and I backed off with a jerk nodding at him.

He came in and his clothes were almost wet moreover his hair was now looking more messy.

He was laughing at himself and I went to the bathroom to bring the towel.

He took the towel from my hands and wiped his face.

"It's fun! Barish main bheegna!" He told me casually and I nodded with a fake smile.

His rant was on and I was scared of my own feelings....

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Few days passed and he saw me in my panic attacks situation. He helped me out we celebrated his first salary.

He made me stole strawberries.

His promises...his words were growing stronger and I was growing weak.

I desperately wanted to tell him that I needed him but when he tried to kiss me I backed off...

I regretted it the very moment but it was late.

He dropped me home and I started counting seconds to meet him again.

I texted on his phone next morning that I wanted to meet him maybe I was ready to give him and me a chance but he didn't reply.

I called but his phone was switched off.

I kept calling whole day but there was no response.

I grew worried and reached his apartment but the house was locked.

Where did he go?

He left me?

Mj say kuch pocha nahi aur chala gaya?

The weekend was painful and long...

I missed him with every breath I take and I was angry anxious at him.

Finally he came back on Monday morning we had a fight...I cried hugging him tightly and realized I'll ruin us...

That's why I let him go...

I was wrong at that time and I was wrong today too because....

I didn't trust him...

I was dying in his arms...

He loves me and I love him...

Oh Jesus....

Please save me...

I DON'T WANNA DIE!

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Uff itna long chapter!

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