Hello dearies.....

This chapter is dedicated to my first ever friend on wattpad...Shruti9726....

Shru you have been a great friend to me from the start......you have been a constant support system.....so this is a thank you gesture from my side....

I have been waiting for this chapter to do this....and what more better gift than dedicating the most imp chapter to you......

Happy reading...
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Nandini looked at manik and took a deep breath preparing herself.....no matter how sure you are to reveal your past.....it still takes a lot of courage to revisit those memories......those memories that you kept locked in a corner of your heart....it was always a forbidden topic for her no matter how much time has passed since the incident.........

For nandini it was like yesterday....everything was fresh in her memory....generally as we grow up we tend to forget our childhood memories.....no one has a crystal clear memory of their childhood but for nandini it was different.....not because she couldnt forget it.....it was simply because she refused to forget it.....

For her that was something she had to carry till her death....to remind her of what she had lost......to remind her that it was all because of her.....the person to be blamed was her.....

Seeing nandini lost again manik shook her lightly.....nandini finally snapped out of her trance and look at him......her eyes were blank but he could see a hint of fear in them.........fear that maybe he will also leave her after knowing the truth.......

Manik held her hand in his and entwined their fingers.....he gazed into her eyes and gave her a reassuring smile.....that was all nandini needed she knew that he will be by her side......for the first time she felt that maybe she dint need to do it all alone.....

Nandini ( looking at the photo frame ) : tumhe pata hai manik.....ye meri di hai......her name was aradhya murthy......

Manik looked at the photo frame....it was of a girl.... probably 16 year old....she looked very lively and happy....he could see the similarities between nandini and her.....he looked at nandini to find her staring at the girl in the frame with a spark in her eyes and faint smile on her lips.....probably reminiscing some good memories......

Nandini ( continued ) : when we were small na....humare amma appa office main busy rehte the.......they used to drop us to our school and then would be back only after we slept....they never really had time for us.....di humesha kehti thi it was because they started a new buisness......after it becomes a little stable we will be happy family.....they will spend time with us.......but slowly di started realising that the bigger the buisness the busier they get and the less time they have for us.......

From then on di started playing the role of both mother and father in my life...she used to be the one that would wake me up , get me ready for school , help me in home work , stand up for me.....fulfil my every wish.....she was my everything.....with out her i wouldnt even function properly......

Soon our buisness became stable so amma appa came back into our life....they felt guilty for abandoning us and wanted to rectify their mistake.......we forgave them easily because we were still kids and we needed them...di needed them more than me atleast i had her.....but she had no one to look after her....they started getting involved......we used to go on family dates.......amusement parks.....everything.......

Though they came back to us but still i was dependent on my di for eveything......amma tried to be there for me.....but i still felt more comfortable with di....so amma appa couldnt get connected to me as much as they did to di....i was fine with it since i had my di with me.....

And then flames came into my life.....and it felt that my life was completed......i had everything......parents , friends who were like my family and most importantly di.....but little did i know i was soon going to loose the most important person of my life.......

Listening to her manik held her hand tighter.......nandini wiped a tear that slipped from her eyes.....her lips had a painful smile....

Nandini : i was 13 when it happened....we flames wanted to go to our classmates party.......we had never been to a party because appa never allowed us due to rivals finding us.......but this time we were adampt  on going.....

I pleaded di for a whole day to go there....she dint agree at first......but seeing me  and flames pleading  she finally gave in.......after lots of debate she convince appa to let us go......appa agreed when di said that she will go with us to make sure we are safe.....

Everyone was hppy that we were going to party......the most happiest was aryaman...... he had a crush on di even after knowing that she is elder than him......we were on our way back when our car engine failed leaving us stranded on a vacant road......

Two cars stopped after us and five men stepped out.....by looking at them we knew they were bad.....when the sixth one stepped out di recognised him as the rival of dad......she panicked and asked us to run.....we ran as fast as we could.......while we were running di noticed a car garage......the garage was not locked properly so she pulled the shutter and asked us to hide behing a car and said to not  make any sounds......

Di moved to the front of the garage and the goons noticed her....they shot her leg so that she doesnt run....blood..... there was so much blood flowing....di was crying in pain and those people enjoyed her misery.......and we werent able to do anything....

They waited for appa to come.....when  appa came.......he begged the goons to release her......di was slowly loosing conscious.....i couldnt see her like that manik.....the only thing that came in my mind was di was in pain......di will leave me......so i ran towards them.......

Appa tried to stop me but i only saw my di's pain....her partial unconscious form.....she was staggering due to the blood loss....i was so into reaching her that i dint even notice the rival pointing his gun at me.......

And then BAM

He shot the bullet in my direction......but the bullet never hit me.....it hit my di.....right at her heart......di shielded me from the bullet.....and then she died....she died saving me.....she died because of me.....i can still clearly hear her last words " di loves you the most nandu "

I was crying....begging her to wake up......but she dint wake up manik....we flames were crying......but......you know manik....aryaman was totally blank...and that was when we realized that it was not a mere crush for him.....he loved her manik......

And i....i snatched his love.....because of me his love died....

Di's last rites were performed......i was lost...mujhe samajh nahi  aa raha tha ki main kya karu......unke bina kaise jiyu....my di taught me how to live manik.....but she never taught me how to live a life without her.....

She dint......

Nandini cried hugging manik while manik too was in tears feeling her pain....he carassed her hair....the way his warm and gentle hands moved stroking her hair had a soothing effect on nandini.....she instantly calmed under his touch........

Nandini : I badly needed some one to pull me out of that phase manik....i needed my parents that time.....but they were not there....they were still trying to cope with their daughter's death that they dint realise that i needed them....in just a few years they got so attached to my di that they couldnt bare that she wasnt there with them any more.....but what about me manik....since the time i was born i had only di with me....she was my mom dad...for me she was my everything...how must i be feeling...they never tried.......

And then bua came.....she started filling amma and appa's ears that i was responsible for di's death....i dont think they completely believed her manik.....for them they needed some one to accuse for loosing their daughter.....some one to be seen guilty......and so they conveniently put the blame on me

they accused me that if not for me  then she wouldnt have died....you know manik ek insaan ke saath agar hum ek jhoot bar bar bole tho kuch samay baad vo use sach maanne lagta hai.......

They accused me numerous times....whenever i used to come infront of them they used to look at me as their daughters murderer instead of their daughter.......

With time i accepted the fact that it was my fault....i grew accustomed to their expressions.....i grew up with the guilt of killing my sister.......everyday i used to think that what if i had not forced her then she would have been here with us....

Everyday i used to wake up with this guilt.....and with each passing day the guilt would become more and more unberable....i stopped throwing tantrums as it had cost me my di....i started following every instruction of my appa and amma so that they wont hate me anymore than they already do........

Everyday it was diffcult to look into aryaman's eyes without being guilt ridden...each time he glanced at couples with empty eyes and painful smile made me repeat to myself that it was because of me......

Every day of my life was snatched from my di's calendar.....every breath i took was ripped from my di....every happy memory i created was stolen from her......I....i should have been the one to die that day manik....i should have been the one to die......

When manik heard her say that she should have been the one to die.....he finally lost it.....a life with out nandini was something he couldnt imagine.....love was something he never wanted and now the same love was something he needed to breath......he hugged her and cried along with her hiding his face in the crook of her neck shaking his head asking her to never utter about her death........

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How was her past........?

Few words on nandini.........

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