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Chapter 16

I wake up with a slow little caress on my hair. It is gentle and kind and makes me feel secure. I feel safe in these arms. It must be Rishabh. My brother is really a gem. Taking care of me when I have only given him burden of my pain and troubles.

My eyelids open to see his face but then they get the shock of their life as it is not Rishabh who is caring for me in his arms but the last person I imagined to be here and soothe my worries. It is Manik.

He is watching me with so intense eyes that I feel his warmth through them. How can he do this? One Time he hated me and the next second he is all warm and kind. He is so mercurial??

I don't know what is wrong with me that I never really can't get away from him. There is Everytime something. Something, that always binds me to him.

His dark intense gaze is kind , cocooning me in its gentleness. But these hands are the same which were once responsible for my child's death. It is both warm and cold here.

Our eyes lock and I can still relieve those memories.

Both happy and worst.

"What aye you doing here?" I ask him with my hoarse voice. It must be from sleeping.
Well, atleast I didn't get any nightmares .

That's a relief.

"Sorry. I am ..."  Tears make their way in his eyes.

But I don't understand. Why is he crying all of a sudden?

Why is he sorry? What happened when I was out? What is changed?

Then I remembe the scene before I lost consciousness. Everything came back. Everything.

So he knows. He now knows and asking me forgiveness .

How nice?

I get up. Away from his embrace. Away from his arms. Away from him.

"Do you think asking sorry will make him alive?" I start with my questions.

"I know.. I am...So.."

"I am not finished" I shout and point a finger towards him.

"Don't speak. Just listen."

"Do you think after all these years you mean something to me. After the pain and lose , I care for you? No. I don't." I tell him in my most cold voice.

"You didn't heard me then. Didn't allow me to explain. Now I don't want to hear your apology." I tell him calmly as calm as I can right now.

"Please give me a chance. Hear me.."

"Huh! Chance . Hear you out. Like you had givey me ten years ago" I laugh at his poor attempt. Mocking laugh.

"I know . I know I am stupid . I don't deserve to live but please hear me out once. For him. For our baby." He pleaded on his knees.

Just like I was pleading him years ago. But he didn't liSten and pusgd
Me down.

But I am not like him. I will listen for my baby.

"And yes! It is not your baby. He is only mine. My child not ours. There is no us. Get this clear in your head."

He looks crestfallen and devasted. I pity him but I don't want to give him any assurance.

"I know. I was impulsive . Heck! I killed my own baby. I didn't trusted you. I am sorry. I am loser. I am sorry Nandini. I know you will never forgivee but please give me a chance to redeem my self. For the baby I could have called mine. I deserve your hatred. I won't ask for more. Let me take care if you. Please."

He pleaded and cried like he was washing his sins. But what should I do?

Should I give him a chance or leave him like he did years ago?

"I was already a disturbed guy. My childhood was not good. I was impulsive Nandini. I am sorry . But you know me I could never do the heinous acts ifkkilling my own baby. I didn't knew you were pregnant. Please give me a chance. I know I failed as your love as a father but I never knew that you were pregnancy. When I saw you like that with Harshad I saw you were also like my mom. I am sorry. I know it doesn't justify my actions but when you are all alone and start to trust people it is not easy. It takes time. I fucked up. But it is also true  I never loved anyone other than you. Maybe I was showing my hatred towards you but my heart was always with you
I was jealous, insecure  and angry that day and I pushed you in my stupid madness. I am sorry Nandini." He told me while crying.

I know what he said was true. It was his vulnerability that made me love him first. I was trying to protect him but fate played a cruel game and now we are here.

"For the love we had Nandini. Give me a chance to bring happiness in your life.plese" he once again pleaded and then left my room.

I didn't know what to do anymore. It is not in my hand. I know he intentionally didn't killed our baby but I lost my baby. My love didn't trust me.

I don't know what to do.

I know he was always like this. He was a disturbed boy. His mother and father were never good to him.

He was always taught a same lesson.

'To get something you have to give something."

'Everything is a deal.'

I don't know where do we stand . It is fate or it was our immature phase.

But my child faced the consequences.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Manik was right. He didn't know I was pregnant. Was I wrong? Not to tell him the truth?

Was I wrong all along?

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