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Chapter 13

"Hi !" I said to Rishabh and gave him a peck on his cheeks.

"Common sis! Don't do this. I am a man now." He said while wiping his cheeks. He was immaculatel dress just like a nice gentleman .

" How was your day?" I ask him and prop down on the chair to have our dinner.

"Good. Thank you. "

"But what was he doing inside your room?" He asked while raising his eyebrows.

I sighed.

"It was nothing. Just for Amy." I told him cause I know telling him the real reason will make things worse . And I don't want any trouble now. It has been a long day and I really can't tolerate more drama. I wish to just close my eyes for few hours then again, I have nightmares to face though. I sigh. I really don't have anything which gives me peace. I want to laugh at my life. I am a loser! A big fat loser.

People learn from their mistakes but here I am grieving in my misery but it is hard . I can't just forget it like it didn't matter. Cause it mattered. It shaped my life the way I am now. Why I don't have my child today? My boy today if he was here would have been ten years old. But I never got a chance to hold him.

"Sis! Stop it. Don't think about him." Rishabh said frustrated.

"I am not thinking about Manik." I tell him. Because it is the truth. He doesn't matter to me. Once, he was my everything but now he doesn't hold a simple at most small space in my life. Because I am better then him. Better without him.

He was a mistake.

A big horrible mistake.

He is the one who killed my child.

I remember the night still fresh in my mind . I was begging to  explain myself but he never listened . He just blamed me, called me a white but like a stupid I am I was still there preaching for my love.
He once said that trust is everything to him. Then why didn't he trusted me then? Didn't believed me. His so called love.

If he hadn't pushed me that night and I had not been fallen down those stairs my baby would have been alive. Here with me. I can't believe that once he was the one whom I loved.

Love is a pure feeling. It comes with a wave , rapid one and behaves like a storm and after the period is over it destroys the places it has put its presence on. Maybe I was  unlucky one because never have I heard of love to be so cruel but when my life has become a sick game then how will I think anything else.

This is the problem of getting attached to someone. When they leave or breaks you , you just feel lost. It happened to me . I know and my nightmares are a complete different story all about.

I hate getting flashbacks of the scenes I don't want to remember.

" Not him. About Miracle." He says concerned. I gasp.

All the memories which I was trying to hide in my heart seems unbearable. It is a different thing to think about him in my mind but when my own brother is openly reminding me about him It is so painful. It hurts so much.

That I will never be able to see him just because of his own father. I can't help myself all my pent up emotions starts releasing and I can hear the Doctor telling me that I had lost him. I knew that something was wrong but the truth was so intense that I can still remember the day I cried when I lost him. All the things are repeating again and again.

And I can't breathe anymore. It is like I am drowning in the large ocean and only it Can give me peace.

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Oh no! What is wrong with me. How could I say Miracle all of a sudden in the air. I should have remembered it.

"Sis! "

"Sis ! Are you OK?"  I ask worried but she starts shaking and crying  suddenly. It is just like the last time when she had a panic attack.

I cover the table fast to reach get before she falls into more deeper attack.

"I am sorry. So sorry." I shout at her but she doesn't respond. Oh no! I can't help but cry on seeing her like this. My tears are fucking traitors but I don't care now. Let these monsters watch me cry because of my sister . They are the sole reason of her situation in the first place.

I shake hEr and still she doesn't respond just keep on wailing like the day she learned about that She has lost Miracle. The day I got my voice back.

The DAY when my sister list her smile and became a living corpse.

All because of Manik Malhotra. I hate that guy. He should rotten in hell.

"Sis! Wake up." I shout and slap her but still no effect.

"Rishabh , what are you doing?" Asked Navya trying to take me away from my sister. I  shoved her. I didn't mean it but she was trying to take me away from my sister when only I can calm her down

I repeatedly slap her again and again but she keeps on murmuring 'he is gone.'

"Sis! Sake of Miracle. Calm down." I shout frustrated. To see her in this condition breaks my heart. But my stupid mouth needs a treatment cause again I wispered the forbidden word.

She wails and sobs more and more. It is like all the things related to Miracle are reaching to her. Do I continue to shake her.

"Rishabh. Have you gone crazy dude leave her?" Shouted cabir

"Shut the fuck up!" I growled.

"Don't mess with me." I said enraged. They don't know why I am doing this so they better stay out of my way.

"Common sis ! Listen to me." I shake her but this time I am throwing away. I swear if this is cabir again then I am gonna beat him up.

But as I turn to see the fucker who pushed me away I see red.

How dare he?

"You get away from her." I growl out loud

"Shut up. Don't you care about her" he ask concerned.

I laughed at his behavior.

"Yeah. Right . Care lesson coming from you is really hilarious." I said like a maniac. All this is because of him anyways. So punched him good.

Let me tell you it is not a normal punch. It is brawl. And I never lose from it. I tackle h to the ground and give him good two three Solid kick and right hook. But that fucker is fast. I will give him that. He swings his fist to me and I fall down.

But as I start to retreat again I hear whimpers. My sister's whimpers.

I go to her instead of that rascal .

"He is gone." She keeps on sobbing and out of this world.

"Gone...." I hear her whispers.

I quickly pick her up and take her inside her room. Then search through her cabinets and use the injection to inject her. After that sleep engulf her and I can hear her normal breathing.

But the door of heR room keeps on banging. "Rishabh open the door. " Questioned the bastard.

Not happening. Fucker.

"Rishabh..  listen to me. Let us know..." I think it was cabir.

"Oh they want to know. I will tell them good and better." I cover my sister and make my way out . I am a man on The mission.

I make my way out.....

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