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He turns pain into power.

Sorrows into strenghts.

His heart beats for other.

Like a lone wolf he conquers.

A man of only few words.

Words which are wise!!

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Flashback continues

Airport scene

Manik's pov

Wow! what a bharath milap of Son and Dad..i'm quite impressed by u people..she said sarcastically..while i rolled my eyes..i looked away..where each second felt like i was breathing poison..

MUkthi..he said her to be quite..

Manik, one last time i'm asking u, to let go Nandini..before its too late for u..he was serious..he really didn't want to hurt her but me..where Mukthi rolled her eyes..for the protectiveness of my dad towards Nandini..

I will leave my life but i won't leave my Nandini..heard me..i will never leave her..i yelled at him..everyone looking at us..my dad was smart enough to clear crowd..

So, u decide, what u need more

Money u own

or

Nandini..

i was obviously not shocked with his statement..he was tiff with his words..yet his eyes said something more..i don't know..i just not want to think also..

Its always Nandini..

I howled at him..he glared at me..

Then get ready to become bankrupt..u gonna lose all ur money, which u earned till date..u will lose everything u own today..are u ready Baby? he tried to threaten me..he knew, i won't back out..because he know what Nandini means to me..but still he wanted to try..

Nothing is important to me..than my Nandini..i say nothing devil..my determined voice made him defeated..

Let her go Manik..for heaven sake..he yelled at me..he himself had tears in corner of his eyes..was he real? he cares her so much..but why not me?? dad, please love me like u love others..please..my heart yelled..it really craved for him..but he..for him everything is important but his son..

Never..i'll not let her go..i will not..i was never selfish for anything in world..but her..she is my selfish possession of world..

Then u decided it..i bobbed my head..i was feeling heart break..why dad? why? don't break me more..please..i can't bear it..please..my heart yelled..but nothing came out of my mouth..seeing his hatred eyes again..maybe i will never see love in ur eyes..don't make so late dad..that i became void for u..please..

Then i bet u, she will walk out of ur life by her own, leaving u behind in ur own miseries, forever..i will make her leave u Manik, this time u can't find her..he roared in anger and hatred..suddenly my eyes went teary, was he my dad? i knew he was capable of it..but i had hope in him..maybe a line of hope..that he won't take her away from me..but today he is erasing it by himself..where i had trust on Nandini, that she won't leave..she won't..she promised me, that she will be with me..whatever happens..and Nandini Murthy, never breaks her promise..that was my trust on her..

I know u are capable of it..but she is not a thing, for u to bet over her..and about she leaving me..Never going to happen..because, Nandini Murthy never breaks her promises, which she promised me..so, u better back off..i shouted at him..he flinched at my tone with Mukthi..

okay so u decided it..just one call baby..sadak pe ajoge..sochle..(he took pause) NANDINI ya, phir ..tera paise jo thune bohuth mahinthse kamaya hai..he asked me..while i looked at him right back..

Mera liye Nandini ke zyada kuch aur mayne nai raktha hai..i said him sternly..nothing can be equal to her..nothing..my money is worthless but she is my priceless possession..non can replace her..non..

Get the papers..he screamed to his PA..after composing himself ..

Sign it..Sign it now..lets' see what u love the most..where his PA looked guilty at me..as he passed papers to me..i remember saving his daughter once giving my money for him, for her operation..he was loyal person, who i knew..and he is very concerned about me..

I'm sorry Sir..I didn't want to do this,..but i'm helpless..he bend his head down..as he passed papers..while i thought why was he so guilty..when i saw What it was..i was damn shocked..his PA betrayed me..he had made me bankrupt..by hacking my entire business with my bank balance..by bringing me to roads..he manipulated me..he manipulated to destroy me..i looked him for answers..his PA knew it, it was me, who made, losses for Malhotra heights for months together..but he shut his mouth, even though knowing truth..because he was very loyal to me..but today he betrayed me..my mind laughed sarcastically..this how, world works Manik..everyone are selfish..everyone..ur own people are betraying..u can't just except that from outsider..right?

Thanks for backstabbing Uncle..(he was old man, really not necessary to know him, he is very good at hacking..smart enough to destroy anyone)..and i don't forget this betrayal of urs for my concern..i added to him..he was ashamed for his deeds..but today..shit! why do i trust people so easily..why i trust people so blindly??why? i should've get ideas when my partner called me up, to say about our companies share are going down in market..and they are traded in higher rate..i was so messed up to think anything but this is beyond for me..

I'm sorry sir..i'm really..he bowed his head more..i took papers from his hand..this what u get, for caring for others, when u are not capable of taking of ur own selves..i thought he won't back stab me but now..forget..i signed the papers without checking them..i was really sorry for my partner..who trusted me..but look here, i gave him loss for his trust..it shouldn't have happened for him, if he would've not helped me..

I looked dad..he was happy at my miseries..that eyes can never love me..never..

So finally , Manik Malhotra became bankrupt..that to by the person, who he thought will be loyal for him and never betray him..he said with evil laugh..maybe this my fate..

Now Nandini will leave u..who wants to leave with a person like u..who can't even afford a time food for her..he laughed evilly in victory..i bent down not because she will leave me..but because he enjoys my pain..i had really worked hard for each penny i earned..but today everything is gone..i'm standing with empty hands, from where i started.. i don't know what to do..how will i look after my Nandini?how will i full her wishes?what will be our future?what i'm going to keep her happy? how will i send her to London for her studies? how will i? what will i do?

everything came running to my mind..shit! this is what i never thought..how we will survive this? i have no idea..today, i became un capable person of world to look after her..i don't deserve her..she don't deserve this..she don't deserve to be with me..my every dream of beautiful life with her, is coming to end..my dreamy life with my future baby is coming end..why can't i be happy? why don't my happiness last long?? what sin? i have done for this fate of mine..

yes, u are right? no one wants to live with person like me..but she is not everyone..she will sail with me..i being bankrupt or i being rich..it never matters her..she is living with me, for what i'm..i have confidence on her..she won't leave me..I said with my smile..he was shocked with Mukthi and His PA.. for my smile..that's me..i never let anyone to celebrate upon my pain..i don't show my weakness to the people..who enjoy upon my pain..i'm not fool to give them a treat for their victory..

Not bad..u love her lot Manik..u trust her lot..i loved ur confidence on her..My dad said sarcastically..while i avoided this two..my mind was messed up..

But Manik u don't love her really!!

I gave deadly glare to him..which he was least concerned..how bloody dare he say that..that i don't love her..how dare he?

If u would've loved her so much na..u would've let her go, long back for her own good..but u?

Ur selfish Man in whole earth!! he poked on my heart..making me imbalance in all sense..

jo hamesha apne baare mai soch tha hai! 

us ladki ke baare mai, ek baar bhi nai soch tha nae hai!!

(he took deep pause)

voh sochtha hogna!!

she would've been safe today!!

Just because of u, Just because of u..

 she is in danger..

Ur love is bringing her near to death!!

If anything happens to her na Manik..

i swear on God! thu zinda nae hoga es duniya mia..Mai khud mardunga tuje!!

He said with pure hatred..his each words threw acid on my entire body..

As sentences hit my ear..everything went numb..my heart broke into thousands..my soul was ripped thousand times..is it so? My love for her, bringing her to death..is it so? somebody tell me that he lying to make me feel weak..please Nandini say me that, my love for is not danger for u..please..please..i was crying from inside but nothing was coming out of my eyes..

so, let go her..for her better life, Manik!! he shouted with unknown feelings..

Before its too late for u too realize!!

he was serious..where Mukthi sat on her luggage to watch the show..she was ready to destroy my life..i knew it..but i couldn't cope of myself to speak a word..he made me speechless..his words were burning me..how am i related to this? 

Why he so concerned about Nandini? and why not me? doesn't he remember i'm his son..his own son..or i'm not? he loves her so much..but me, what i done for that hatred dude! why can't i deserve that love from him..like others..why? why? why?

why are u so concerned about her? i and Mukthi asked him in unison..though my tone was of concern but from Mukthi it was pure hatred..where devil was numb as he if he spilled out something wrong..i was aware of his concern for Nandini..but i was never aware of that love of his for her..when he clearly hates me..

Oh! wait...It was Mukthi..as if she got jackpot..she smiled cunningly..While i sensed something was damn wrong with this girl..where Devil was sweating like hell!..that was new to me..but the thing made my heart struggle for breath also..

"kahi ye apki naajeaz beti nae? jese ye hai? "

She said pointing me..i was like, what the fuck are u talking about?

But it took me minute to understand what she actually said..

"Naajayz??"

did she said me naajeyz..how bloody dare she? where i got numb..i want to slap right across her face, for this words..but how can it be possible? how bloody can it happen with me..And how can she even say that?? I'm her Brother..is she not getting,a simple thing..that i'm getting hurt by her words..

i looked my dad for answers..i know, he hates me..but i also know this can't happen..he is my own dad..neyo mom, is my mom..that's period!! i trust him this much..that i'm not naajeyz son..or something..

thud

Mukthi was rewarded with best answer for her words..but what shocked me was his lines..

How bloody dare u say, My Son as Naajeaz??

 how bloody dare u?

 hothi koun ho tum??

 mera bete kho ye bolne vali? 

who the hell are u say that to My son?

he rewarded her one more..i was like someone pinch me..i was definitely dreaming..he can't take stand for me..the jerk dad of mine can't take my side ever in this life..that too he is slapping his own daughter ..pakka ye mera dream hai? haina i asked my mind? which was still looking both..trying hard  to know what's happening with me..

where his eyes spitting fire against her..i never seen him that angry in my entire..even i didn't see such monster in him ever..this man have shades, which still hidden from everyone..but my soul danced with happiness seeing him, taking stand for me..but was my heart? i don't know..it's losing its track..

Ur son? wow!

He is son of ur Mistress..

She yelled at him in anger..where i felt, my world coming to end..i was sweating..i was badly..i suddenly had tears in my eyes..Sudden voidness entered my life..i felt this world is a lie..a big lie..i felt suffocated..i felt, i don't have existence in this world..i don't know to react..is this reason why he hates me? I'm his Mistress son? 

No ...bloody no..

This can't happen..My mom is Neyonika Malhotra and that's period..I'm not son of any women than her..yes, yes..this is truth..

This is what my mind said to my heart, it was consoling my heart..who was struggling to breath also between bitter truth..

I fucking needed answers for my questions..i knew this can't happen..i looked dad..

Thud..

What u just said to my wife? 

Mistress?

Mardalunga tume!! I kill u..he threatened her..where she feared at his tone..but nothing compared to me..where he was huffing in anger..he was really ready to kill her..

if u say one nasty word against my wife and son!!!

U won't find urself on this earth..did u hear me? he jerked her by her arms..while she was shocked to even react..seeing such worst monster in him..but still she wasn't done with her drama..

That feared me..my hopes on him was destroying bit by bit..i couldn't breath for seconds..tears started flowing from my eyes..i walked to him..while he was spitting his rage on his daughter..i held his hands..

he turned to me..he had tears in his eyes..but what i felt ,was more than him..i was small kid, who needed father's assurance..i really needed it..

What she is talking about?

Voh muje ese bul kyu rahi? 

Who is that lady?

My question was more or less like a whisper..he immediately made me sit on near by chair..asked his guards to bring water for me..for the first in my entire life..i saw concern in his eyes for me rather than hatred..he knew it..i was not stable..i was not..because he knew, the matter was not simple thing..its really not simple for kid like me, who got love from my mom alone..he knows what she means to me..and he know, if someone mess with her matter...i can't stand..and today same happened, where he went mum with his head down..his face had shame..that made me feel miserable..where i can't put words for what i went through..

Aap please kuch boli hai? my whole trust was on his sentence..where i saw whole new Raj Malhotra in my life..this person..who is my dad..is really not devil..he looked like my father for the first time..but it didn't made me happy for seconds also..yes, i wanted my dad in my life but definitely not in this situation..definitely not like this..

voh Kya bolenge? Mai bolungi na...he fucking cheated my mom..he lied my mom..just because of ur mom..

Mukthi cried..but why it felt so fake..but nothing came from dad..where as i felt sky falling on my head..she just said my mom as her mom..does that mean? i'm..i'm..

No..No..this can't happen..

Dad?

My dad immediately looked up..i was baldy hurt..where he held me by shoulder..to give me strength..

She lying right? ye jutt bol rahi hai na?

I asked him with a fear..fear of truth..i was trying to run away from this..but suddenly he held my shoulder as he sat on knees in front of me..where his eyes went teary again..

I'm sorry, Manik..I'm sorry..he bent his head down with guilt..where i heard clapping sound..i lifted my head..it was Mukthi..

Vah kya pyaar hai? Ainke tharas gaye mere..

She said sarcastically..i really want to shut her mouth..but i was unable do that..i was losing my energy..i was feeling, i will lose battle sooner..i will..

Dad say something?

I didn't called him devil because for the first time..i saw my dad in him..i don't know, whether he was faking it or it was real..but my heart believed what his eyes showed to me..what his actions said me..

He made me drink water..but i wanted throw away but badly needed it..

Voh sahi ke rahi hai..Ur not Neyonika's son..he said with head down as his tears eloped from his eyes..

My whole fucking world came to end..did he just said that..I'm not my mom's son..i jerked him away from me..

U bloody jerk..Don't play with my feelings..ye sab jutta hai..

i don't fucking believe u..

My mom is Neyonika Malhotra..

Suna tumne? she is my mom..

i yelled with my all strength..where i was jerked by hand..i looked at source it was Mukthi..who was spitting fire against me..as if i care bloody care..

She is not ur mom..she is my mom..

dare u say that again..U sinister..

That she is ur mom..i will dig ur grave, right here..

she is just my mom..not urs..

Suna tune? Illegitimate child of my dad..

She yelled at me..while i looked at her with shock..i was trying to react but i was not able to do that..did she just said that to me..my sister said me that..i took a step back..i was about collapse..this is what i get to hear, for my love..from my baby sister..i felt death was easy than to bear this words..

Please somebody say that i'm her son..no one loved me like her..yes,, she is mad at me..but she truly loves me..she truly cares for me..like a mother does..and she being not mom..is really not acceptable..and not happening too..

They both are playing with me..yes, they are playing with me..ye sab jutt hai..to make me weak..I looked at them..

Ye sab Jutta haina? Neyonika Malhotra ye meri mom haina? i asked him i last hope..

Samaj kyu nae raha, thu Manik..

Neyonika tera mom nae hai..

Teri mom,Devika hai..she is ur real mom..she gave u birth not Neyonika..

thu meri aur Devika ka beta hai..Hamra beta hai..

He shook me, to make me realize, what he was saying is truth..is eyes had pain..some kind of pain, which i don't know..i wasn't able to grasp anything..everything went blank..i couldn't feel any emotion in me..

Nandini..i whispered her name..only she can take me away from this mess..i need to go to her..she will take care of me from this people..she will protect me from this people..she will look after me..i need her..i need my Jaanu..to say everything is fine..she will make everything alright..she will..she won't leave me..ye sab log jutt bol rahi hai..voh kabhi jutt nae bole gi..

I will ask her to kick this man's ass to make him realize what he is saying..he saying my mom is Devika..who is she? i never heard about her in my entire life..i never do..why he is saying my mom as someone other than neyo mom..is he insane? i want reward him perfect punch..but tears in his eyes were stopping me..does devil too have heart? i don't know..

Maybe? my soul echoed..

Where my heart and brain shrugged it..knowing him to well..

Though my heart was accepting what he saying but my brain wasn't ready to believe his words..even me too..

Aap jutt bol rahi hai dad..i said firmly..while he was tired to explain me..

For hell sake why can't u believe me once, Manik??

Because i don't believe u..I said to him sternly..he looked hurt..do u think i care? hell no..

Fine..

Tumne..

Devika Dushmukh naam janthe ho kya? 

He asked me..while i nodded..c'mon boy, who doesn't know such personality..she is famous women of Asia..best cardiologist of entire India..famous social worker..famous person of Page3..she is celebrity, with lakhs of followers for her nature..I admire that lady very much..she is truly gem upto my knowledge..

Yes, i do..i said to him with confusion..he made me sit on chair again..but why did he asked about..is she? is she? 

No..No..

Biwi hai meri..he said kneeling down..my eyes went wide listening that..

Mathlab u cheated mom..u lied her? i asked him angrily..while he nodded..

I cheated ur both mom's..but ye saach hai..

Devika is ur mom..

I will faint..i will..but what our trance was broken by a loud thud..

We both saw source..i went numb so was dad..where my eyes met with painful orbs..as she held nearby chair..

Mom..

Neyo..

Is the only word echoed in airport..where she collapsed on floor..where we all ran to her..did she heard him? did she? oh! please let it not be..she can't take this..she can't..she is very sensitive for this kind of things..i knew he was betraying her..but this extent..for hell sake..i didn't knew..why god? why her? she such sweet and lovely lady..why it should happen to her?

Neyo??

he sat on his knees..took her in his arms...started chanting his sorry's..where lady in his arms didn't reacted bit..she was stiff..her eyes were teary..she looked so pale..the truth really shook her..which was evident in her eyes..

Tumne muje dokha dehi diya? jese en duno bol rahi the..she said eyeing us..as dad broke hug with her..he was hurt..but nothing compared to her..she truly loved him..but he? did he ever loved her? if he would've loved her na..then, this day would've not come for him??

Neyo just listen to me once..please..mai tume kabhi dokha dena nae chatha tha? trust me..i never wanted to hurt u..mai mujbur tha..please believe me..he tried to say, which went to deaf ears of her..so, as for me..

Phir bhi dokha diya tumne, muje? I trusted u Raj upon this people(she pointed me and Mukthi)..phir bhi mera Sath esa kyu, Raj?? she yelled by holding his collar..where his face was down..he was ashamed, he was guilty..but why? what he did was wrong.. he cheated her..he cheated women, who loved him dearly..this isn't acceptable by any damn women in the world..and she is no different from others..

why? why? muje kyu dokha diya tumne??when u clearly had wife and son of ur own? kyu?? she slapped on his face..but old hack deserves it..but she didn't..

Mai..batha tha hu..listen..he trailed in meek tone..there was something in his voice..something which i couldn't understand..is he real? Or he is faking an act again?? I swear if it is act, he so dead from me..

But my heart believed what was happening but not my mind..

Nae suna hai,muje..nai suna hai..tumari ghatiya clarifications..she jerked him..and was about to run..while i held her hands..

Mom..

i said meekly..definitely i needed her..yes, she won't disappoint me..when i'm in tears..she won't..

Mom? koun Mom? 

she yelled at me with pure disgust..it burned entire soul of mine..i was not able to recover from things..here everything was happening in speed of light..i don't know what was happening with me..how should i react..why everyone are hurting me today..why??

Mom? aap ye kya ke raho? i asked her while blinking my eyes rapidly as my eyes were going blur often..the pain of mine was unsaid..the women, who i thought as my mom..is really not my mom..can anything more worse can happen with any?

The whole damn life of 20 years,was just a lie.. i thought she is my mom..but in reality she isn't my mom..the one whom, i never seen..is my mom..can someone say this is lie? please i beg u..

Nandini kaha pe ho? dekho ye log kese treat kar muje sab..bol ense..ese na karne ke liye..please Nandini save me from this..please Jaanu..

Mom? koun Mom? 

i'm not ur mom..

ur dad just clearly said that to u, right?

Nae hu, Mai tumari maa..she yelled painfully with disgust in her eyes for me..what i have done wrong?

I'm ur step mom..suna tumne..ur my step son..

aur kuch nae hu..

I felt numb..i won't recover with this storm ever in my life..i won't..her words will ring in my ears for life..even in nightmares..i tried to seek love in her eyes..but hell no..there was everything but love in her eyes..

Aaj se..abhi se..

mai tumse voh sab rishte thodthi hu..jo mera, tumra sath tha..

kohi rishta nae rahega mera tumse..

suna tumne??

u are big nothing in my life.. Mr.Manik Malhotra..

ur just step son...of mine..

And u can't be son ever in this life again..

Thunderous roar was that..I wanted die at very moment..please now really wake me up from this nightmare..I can't take this pain..it's hurting lot..I'm unable to put words for what I'm feeling..please stop this..please..

Mom meri kya galthi hai?? I wanted sound better but for the first time my own voice and tone ditched me..I couldn't compose myself for second..seeing her eyes..which had pure hatred and disgust for me..

One's upon time that eyes used have infinity amount of love for me..affection for me..concern for me..care for me..happiness for me..sadness for me..

But today everything is replaced with something which I never thought in my life..is this life to live atleast??? I just wanted to go back where she was my loving mamma, who loves me with all my flaws..

But!!

Everything changed with mere concept of I being her step son..does she know how it's hurting me?? Does she??

Yes, i can understand her feelings..her trust is broken..but meri kya galthi hai? kya maine uss ki trust thoda kya? my dad betrayed her, not me..unki saza muje kyu?

Voh mujse pyaar karthi haina? phir muje kyu hurt kar rahi hai? please stop Mamma bear..i can't take this..please..i love so much..i can't hear anything from u..please don't hate me..please..

Tumri galthi kya hai?? Right???

U are mistake is u being son of this jerk..who cheated me with u..saying that U are my son to me..but in reality Ur son of his first wife..

Tum tho meri souten ka beta ho!! that's the reason i hate u..i hate u too core..

she yelled at me..as she pushed me with all her force and i couldn't hold, which i wanted to do desperately..where i couldn't balance myself..i fell down on ground with great force..and hit my head to sharp corner of some pillar..everything went black for a second..i held my head and my opened eyes only to see my mom running out with dad behind her, to hear him once..non cared about me..non cared to see what had happened to me..I wasn't their priority again..whose priority am i? i wanted to shout at people and ask them..

I held my head from behind..only to feel blood behind my head..

tch..tch..dard hora hai? Manik Malhotra ko?

My head snapped to see the person..i was already feeling dizzy..my head was going heavy..and i was feeling i will black out sooner..what's happening with me? but seeing the person..i felt pain..unexplainable pain..my pain, is happiness of someone..

Mukthi??

i wanted to explain her that, I will make everything right between her and Abhi..i just wanted a chance from her..to prove once myself..that i really love her like her own brother..but i don't know whether she trusts me, to give that chance to me..

Aww..is it hurting bhai? she asked evilly..i blinked my eyes to get my composure back..i stood with great difficulty..holding my head..it was throbbing like hell..i was in deep shit..i need to cover up this in front of Nandini..until she departures from here..god! save me..till then..warna logo se zayada bhagwan ko pyaara hoja hunga..oh! that's better than living in this creepy world..

Sorry sorry..Soutele bhai..

my head snapped hearing that..do people change this much after knowing u are not their own blood..i didn't knew this..but i realized it..a brother is a brother..until he is real from ur own mother..a son is a son.. until he is ur own flesh..thanks to this ladies ..they both gave me good lesson for life..

Is it still hurting u? she faked concern..it hurt a brother to hear that also..but i was numb..numb to react or to tell what's happening inside me..this was the first, i was hurt and i don't know whether i will recover or not..

But nothing will hurt u this much(showing a papers in her hand)..even ur throbbing head(she pointed my head)..she said with cunning smile, showing me papers, which she took from dad's PA..i could see, a spark of happiness in her eyes, where my Pain was foundation for it..

I took that papers from her hand..as i sat on chair, i was not able to stand..where dad's PA came running to me..to hold me..i showed my hands to him..he stood with head down near my legs..

I started reading it..Life can't betray me this much..can life stop playing worst game with me again and again..And i being fool signed papers without looking what it was..and i deserve it, for trusting people so easily and blindly..i deserve it more now..

Papers slipped from my hands and hit ground..as my life ended..as tears rolled uncontrollably, i palmed my face..as i held my guitar near to my heart..I lost it..i lost everything in world today..as i fell on my knees..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! !!!

i shouted loud enough..today my misery is unsaid..i won't forget this day at all in my life..i won't forget this betrayal in my life..

AWWWW! dard hora hai? she ruffled my hairs..i jerked her hands from hairs..sudden hatred was formed inside me for her..I never hated anyone like i hated my dad..but today she broke the record of my dad..even my dad never hurt me the way she has hurt me..

Why? Why? 

I shouted with all my pitch..she flinched in fear hearing my hallow..

"Because u deserve it..for choosing that bitch over me.."

she said slyly..with all her anger on Nandini..

"Ab koun bachayega tume mujse, Manik..koun? "

"voh ladki jese tum es duniya mai sabse zyada pyaar karthe ho.."

"she won't save u..she gonna leave u in rotten hell for life.."

"Chod degi voh tuje.."

"Beautiful alvida ke dena apne pyaar ko.."

"kya patha? thu uss dubra dek payega yaa nae..."

she laughed evilly..i just wanted punch her so hard that she won't wake up next second..i wish she was not my sister..i undoubtedly wished at this moment..she can't be my sister..she can't be..chi..I Trusted this girl for my life..I trusted this girl for my happiness..and Indeed i got best for my trust..shit! why? why? I trust this women..who always used hurt me..kyu?

"U are going to be slave of mine..uff..kithna maza ayyega.."

"tume roz thode thode maroge.. voh bhi, bena tera Jaan ke?"

 she eyed my guitar..where i held it to my heart..nothing is dear to me in this world other than my guitar..my Jaan..

"huh! baby ko bura lagra hai? don't worry i will keep ur guitar safe.."

she tried to pull my JAAN..where i tried to shoo her hands from it..but i was not that strong to hold anything today..but i tried my best..

But it was too late to hold it..it was time to let go..My Jaan..

My Jaan..My own life..My only family..My soul..

Because My Music was taken away from me!! by trapping me.. I can't play my Music again in my life..I can't touch my Jaan again without her permission..i was her slave..Slave, where i need to lead a life, the way she wants to play in my life..I have no right in my life to take any decision from this very minute..I need to be the way, she tells me..I need to dance like her puppet..where even MUSIC, is not allowed in my life..where i can't have my Jaan with me..my life is gone..so, gone..that no one can save me..

My life is destroyed forever..

My peace was taken forever..

"U know what Manik? i feel pity for u..a real pity.."

"But u know what, 'that thing' about is making my soul so happy.."

"Uff non can save u from my hold..Non.."

"U know what dad ne, ye papers yaa pe rakwaya tha? "

she said turning her face other side..but her words stammered for seconds..while i was shocked..can devil do this to me? can he?

My mind gave an immediate yes..because he was the one who made me sign this papers..but my heart..

Nooo..

Devil can mess with anything but my Music..i know this much..if he really wanted to do that, he would done long back..Noo..he can't do this to me..i have this much faith in him..unknown faith in him..

"He can't do this..he will never do this.."

i said meekly..

"wow! ethna trust..par mai ye batha du..usi insane abhi abhi tume Bankrupt bandiya..kade kade, u became bankrupt..he took all ur money, which u earned..without second thought..do u think he won't do this to u.."

"U know, I love dad for this..he gave me best gift of life.."

"To Torture u to hell.."

"uff kithna happening hai mera life.."

"abhi mai tume roz, thodi thodi marungi..ethna hurt karungi tume..ki, thum roz thadpoge..par tumre ainko se asu nae ayyenge..u feel the pain but u can't cry for ur pain.."

"Now i will show u..How pain will be in real?"

"this is ur punishment for choosing ur love over ur sister.."

i was just looking at her..is she my same sister..who used love me so much..who used do anything to make me happy..who used to make anyone's living hell, if they hurt me..i don't know? when my baby sister disappeared..and when a bitch came into picture..did she started hating me so much now? to make me suffer this much..i don't know..she became like devil..sorry more than him..i closed my eyes in defeat..defeat of not proving myself..

when i opened my eyes..she was about smash my Jaan to floor..

I was horrified..

"Bohuth Pyaar haina esmai..Jaan basthi haina, tumri?"

"Ab deko..How will smash it in front of ur eyes, just the way ur heart is smashed!!"

she was about to smash it..

Before she could do anything..she was in floor by herself..I looked the person with wide eyes..as he was spitting fire on her..while he pulled My Jaan from her hand..

"Keep this safe..One scratch on it..i will kill u.."

Devil uttered sternly to his PA.. making anyone fear by his words..his PA readily took my guitar from him..where devil walked to her with slow step, where his each step towards her made us scared of him..he was predator and she was his prey..as he pulled her by her hairs rashly..i was so shock, so was others..

I ran to him to free her..but it was no use..because the monster, who disappeared in air was back with a bang..

"How bloody dare to do this with us? how?"

I tried to stop him..but my attempts to protect her from him was too weak..as i was feeling dizziness..Somebody hold me, warna i will slip badly..i held my head strongly for seconds to compose myself..

"Leave her.."i screamed at him..

where it went to deaf ears of his..he slapped so tight on her face..that it started bleeding from her corner of lips..where she was raging in anger and hatred for us..

"Why are hitting her? "

i howled at him..where he gave his famous monster look to me..which scared shit out of me too..where i took a step backwards seeing him like that..he was dangerous..messing with him..is big mistake of ur life at this point..i can just remember my childhood in blink..it made me shiver for death..

oh! wait, didn't he went behind mom? then why did he came back??did he not went to console her? or for any apology from her?

"Because u aren't doing any damn thing in the world, rather than protecting this bitch from me.."

Pure hatred was dripped both in his eyes and tone..but for change or to shock of my life, it was not for me..but for his daughter..today is something wrong with this person..i'm sure about it..something was there, which i'm not able to figure out..He is someone behind mask..whom i never seen..

"Do u have any idea..what she did? huh!"

"She was the one who brought Neyo here..on very purpose to destroy ur's and Neyo's relationship..

i looked him like he was speaking chinese..i blinked to realize what he actually said..

"U don't believe, right? pucho usse? "

he pointed to Mukthi..where she was still holding her cheeks without any shame or guilt in her face..I just looked him for confirmation..very he was ready to hit her with all in his rage..he was looking like huffed bull..today no one can save her from him..

he slapped right on her face..where i didn't stopped him..she was the one, who took away my mom from me..i won't spare for this ever in my life..i swear, i won't forgive her for this bitch act of her's ever in my life..Sorry she is a bitch, who spoiled beautiful relationship of mother and son..just for her mere revenge..fuck this girl up..somewhere..

"Didn't i warned u to stay away from Manik..didn't i?"

he asked her pointing his forefinger...with so much anger..it can scare anyone..making me shock like fucking hell..

"I said, i will deal with my son in my own way..who bloody gave u right..to hurt my son..who?"

he slapped her for each sentence and shameless girl..didn't had anything but rage and hatred for me in her eyes..while i was numb..i didn't know how to react..whether i should be happy that he is taking my side..or to cry and say its too late for any love of father..I'm not able to feel anything but void..maybe its too late for my wait..its too late..i don't want that love now..i don't want..

In all this i got to know that..my faith on devil was correct, because he didn't took my music from me but she did..to hurt me more..and kept that papers in that file without anyone knowing it..i being fool signed it without any knowledge..where devil yelled me with full rage, for trusting such trash people in my life..as if he is saint from others..i agree what he said but he was the one who started it..if he would've not made me sign papers..this would've never happened..his mistake, he trusted wrong people too like me..

At this second, i don't have anything but Nandini..please Jaanu..one last time trust me, and stay baby..kuch nae magunga tumse, kabhi bhi..please stay for us once..just one last time..I promise to keep u happy..just trust me..

Is all i hope..my all expectations is on her..i know she won't stab my expectations like others..because i never expect anything from any but her..and it will be from her forever..

"Guards..jake police ko call karo..i need to send people, where they need to be.."

"I should've done this long back..warna ye den, nae atha muje.."

devil yelled his guards eyeing Mukthi..my eyes went wide hearing it..what the fuck? he is speaking..does he realizing what the hell he is doing?

"Police? "

i and mukthi muttered in meek..

"Yes..where she needs to be with HER PARTNER(It will be disclosed sooner)..usne ye sab karvaya na, tumse..

aur tum uske bath pe agayi..Aur tum ne puri family ko bar baad kardiya na.."

"u betrayed me Mukthi..I trusted u but u, never mind..

 i don't leave any person..who betrays me..even if it is my daughter also, i don't care for it.."

"get ready to go to jail with HIM..tab samaj atha tuje..thu kithni Girgayi ho, uske sath milke? I will make u rot in hell this time..for back stabbing me.."

"PARTNER? "

Now who is he? i thought it was devil, who spoiled her..but hell no..it is someone else..my head will blast with explosions..with things going around me..

"Huh! madam ki ab ek partner bhi hai..usne kene pe, ye sab kar rahi ye.."he was about to kick her..but i held him by wrist..as i saw most wicked smile on her face..she is upto something..she still not done yet..her show is still not end..

She stood with great difficulty..she was trembling because the intensity she fell on ground was equal to mine..but for the first time in history..i didn't felt any damn thing to her..

"tch..tch..tch..Raj Malhotra..do u think so..i will get scared..a hell no.."

she said venom..how badly she turned out something..which she never was..i couldn't still believe..is she real ? is she same Mukthi?

"Bohuth duki news diya maine ne aap logo ko..now its time..to give some happy news to U.."

"Mr. Manik Malhotra.."

"Uff..i have best news for ur life..jese aap salo se enth zar kar rahi hai"

she faked happiness for me..i looked her without any blink..i was not ready for anything..but she is still not done..they want to pull out every ounce of happiness from me..and she is topping first today..rather my devil..where devil turned to be my dad, for the first time, when i lost all hopes on him..now, i can't accept him ever..i'm done for any relationship with him..i'm done..call me selfish..i'm..

"Aur voh hai.."

"Guess karona dad? " she faked a wail towards dad..where he was huffing still..can somebody kill her for me??

"okay..okay..i will tell na.."

"That Malhotra's are going to welcome new member to their family.."

I frowned holding my head..i couldn't understand single word..did i became so dumb with all assaults..i don't know..all i feel is numbness with pain..i'm not able to showcase or put words for anything happening with me..or i can feel anything inside me..

"Aren't u both excited??"

she clapped her hands like kid..but that kid didn't had innocence but pure bitchy material in it..where dad frowned with her new drama..

"Okay..i got..u people didn't understand, what i'm saying?"

"Fine..i will tell na.."

Ki..

ki..

"Will u speak up or i call police, now?" dad warned her..he as his ways to deal with people..unlike me..who trust everyone..

"Why so hyper old man? "

"u won't do that fucking thing ever in ur life, because i have ur 'dearest thing' with me? "

"And u also know consequences will not be so good to u..u know that..don't u? "she blackmailed him..she blackmailed Raj Malhotra? uff..she guts to hit her head to rock..but she is messing with wrong person in world..Raj Malhotra..a man never to be messed..if done say bye to happy world..

"What are u upto?" he asked murderously..

"What i'm upto is latter matter..but for now..u have news..

"And the news is.."

""THE GREAT MANIK MALHOTRA IS GOING TO BE FATHER OF BEAUTIFUL BABY!!! ""

"WHAT???? "

whole airport echoed with our voices...where  our voices returned back to us..where we exchanged look with each other..where he was equally blank as i..

"Oh! i thought u both will be happy..but its like..its not..that happy news,, or it is??" she narrowed her eyes in curiousness..

"U are lying?" it was first thing came out of devil's mouth..

"Sacchi bol rahi hu yaar.."

""Nandini is pregnant with Manik's baby""

Everything dying cell of mine came alive..is it true? my nandini is pregnant..is she? are we going to be parents..i'm going to be father..oh! my god..oh! my god..

I never believed god..but trust me i believed him at this second..after taking everything away from me..he is giving my everything in my baby..

"Oh! my god..DAD I'M GOING TO BE DAD SOON.."

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

My happiness didn't had boundary..i ran everywhere in happiness..i was dying with pain..but the thought of our symbol of love is going to take birth made me alive again..gave me hopes..which were dying..

I'm getting someone life today..whom i can call mine..mine and Nandini's baby..our baby..non can take that baby of ours..because its ours..oh! my god..i'm happy like never before in my life..i had tears of happiness..where i was yelling in happiness..nothing in the world gave me this happiness..happiness which any man express, any man account..my life was complete..i was jumping like frog..I was going to be father to cute bundle..oh! my god..I'm gonna be daddy dear..hwww! that feeling unexpressed or unsaid to any..that can be felt only by father's..only they know their wait for their own baby..today i'm expressing one such..

Tomorrow someone will call me 'papa'..it will be million moment for any man..this is what i waited for, our baby..my baby..i'm soon gonna be dadda..uff..i feel even english alphabets are less to say my happiness because its beyond infinity..

"Mukthi u are saying truth na??

 that i'm going to be father?"

 i asked her with my twinkling eyes..the eyes which went numb while back..came alive on hearing my bud getting nurture in Nandini's womb..oh! Nandini's aiyyappa thank u thank u..so much.. for giving a reason to live..thank u..i won't forget this gift of urs ever in my life..i promise..i will remember it for life long..

Oh! yes, Manik..have look? she gave Nandini's pregnancy report me..which clearly stated Nandini being pregnant and she was two months pregnant..aww! my baby is already having baby inside her..wow! yaar..

"Manik, can have look of reports?? " I passed file to dad..he finally smiled..like real smile..i just wanted to rub my eyes to see, whether i saw him smiling..or its my dream or i'm seeing something else..but to my astonishment..i saw him smiling with all heart..he was truly happy like me..

"Oh! my god..I'm Going to be Daddu.."

he was so happy..trust me, i never saw  him so happy..he looked good unlike being monster..a child can do wonders..it can change any monster to human..my baby proved it to me..

"Yes! we gonna welcome new member to our world..I'm so happy!!!"

i yelled louder..which echoed in airport..every guards of dad smiled hearing that..i hugged dad out of happiness..where he patted my back..for the first time, i felt a known feeling inside me..which felt alien..but it really had warmth, which i carved in whole world..my father's warmth..did i forgive him? did i?

I didn't knew the answer..but this feeling made my soul happy like never before..maybe my soul too waited for him..but heart, i don't know..it was numb to react for his gestures..

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My gaze didn't left on piece of paper..which said Nandini being pregnant..where my mind and heart was working in cord for upcoming days..

U know..i had everything done for my kids future..from A to Z, when they come to me na..everything will be done for them..i'm ready with their names too..i will keep their name..i will get everything best for them..i won't let my kids down like my parents did..i will keep them so happy, that they never will feel pain in their life..i will keep them like my eyes..

uff..how can i forget Nandini..my baby's mother..i'm gonna pamper her like hell..she gave best thing in world that non could give me..she made me father..i'm going to be father just because of her..her trust on our relationship and me..aww! am i sounding like girl..my heart asked my mind..where my mind say it doesn't never matters now..oh! god i'm so so so happy today..thank u Nandini..thank u..this small word for my happiness u gave me..for this happiness i will shower u with every possible thing with my capacity on u..i will shower u all my love to u..u know i fell for u more today..because u gave me reason, when i lost everything..Thank u Jaanu..thank u..Non can make me happy in my disaster like u..she deserves every best..she do..

Now she gonna see different Manik..who will keep her like Queen..because my princess is coming to me..uff! i have many things to do..in all this i need to be careful with Nandini..i should make sure she doesn't work a bit..she will just sit and relax..and enjoy her pregnancy, the way i have dreamt..she should get fed up of my possessiveness and care..i'll take all her tantrums..i'll make her eat so much, till her stomach blasts, not to forget healthy food only..no ice creams..i'll keep her happy..i won't let anyone touch that smile of my girl..i'll take all her mood swings..i'll make her fat..how does she looks, when she turns all chubby..all cute cute..aww! she will look so beautiful and cute with that big womb just like "Baby Pumpkin", that's what i will call my baby from now on..and glow on her face increases..and makes my world..

oh! god..i have such big list..their first glimpse..they will be most cutest babies of world..i will cherish that moment like anything..i will hang 'picture perfect frame of ours', in our room..i will hold them for the first time..how it will feel..oh! gosh it will be such beautiful feeling..being a father..i don't want miss that bliss full moment in my life..how will they look me for the first time..with their big big eyes..i'm sure, i will be crying mess that day..to see my kids like that..i'll take care of them like every mother does..i'll bring so many toys for them..i'll dance and sing if they cry..and yeah, i'll change there nappies without any word..i'll put them to sleep..i'll capture their first feeding in memory of life..i'll capture their first step..i'll capture their walk..i'll teach them, how to talk..i'll teach them to scribble..i'll teach them to play music..i'll teach them, how to trouble Nandini..i'll not let them go to school on their very first and yeah even i'm ready to get scolding from Nandini for that matter..i'll make them learn how to ride bicycle..in all this i will be there for my kids..i will be their for them, with each passing step..i won't let them fall..i will hold them..i will never let my babies cry..oh! my god..i such big list..

Oh! wait, why i'm saying 'they'..it must be 'her' na..'my pumpkin'..but why i'm using they? pagal hogai mai..khushi mai..i scolded myself..but smile didn't left my lips..my dreamy of happy family..is finally coming true..i can't wait now..to feel beautiful relationship, which i never felt till date.. 

When will my babies come to my hand? i'm desperately waiting for them..with all heart..

This wait, i can't bear it..i will ask Nandini to get babies fast...

My whole trance was broken by some noises..i just not wanted to let go but be in same warmth forever, where i'm now..but my dad's hold on me went tight..as we broke the hug indicating something was wrong again..was i hugging him from so long? it was quiet awkward..but he rubbed my tears..

"TRUST ME, I'M REALLY HAPPY FOR U..FROM MY ALL HEART.."

"WE GONNA WELCOME NEW MALHOTRA TO OUR FAMILY IN THE BEST WAY..I PROMISE.."

his words had genuineness..his eyes really had happiness..that was first ever face off real Raj Malhotra, i ever meet..he was good man..but never forget he is devil even today..my mind whispered..that's true..

but my whole moment of happiness came to an end..as i saw something, which took breath away..my happiness was sucked again..as i hit the wall behind..while dad was shocked equally And he palmed his face in shame of being her father..my breath went abnormal..i was feeling a suffocation, as i held my heart..

I looked Mukthi for answers as she thrust her ipad in my hand..i held them with trembling hands..i knew Mukthi lost humanity..but i didn't knew she will fall this low..can any damn girl, can stoop so low..i never knew..i sucked my breath as i saw the video, which was playing in her ipad..and what next thing happened was..

Mukthi was on floor..with bleeding mouth..and her iPad was smashed into pieces..

And it was reward from Manik Malhotra himself..when people lose their senses..its very kind duty of mine to make them right..because I can't tolerate wrong against any..when it is matter of my life..ur so done with ur life..and be ready to say hi to hell..because i soon gonna parcel her there..

"I never knew u can stoop so low, Ms.Malhotra.."

where dad himself trembled as he sat on chair with thud..he was ashamed of his own daughter..like fucking hell..and this lady was the reason..bloody women doesn't deserve to be women at all..while she snapped her head at me with rage..but non can match my anger at this moment..

"Manik,, Nandini is cheating u over her sex partner..Abhimanyu.."

"And Nandini is pregnant with Abhimanyu's baby..she is cheating u Manik"

she said so innocently and making me feel how concerned she is for me..

Any damn person should believe her..she is best actor for hell sake..

how fake she can be? she just showed me..even devil wasn't this good at acting..trust me on that..

I held her by hairs..i can murder this women at this very point, that was my very rage for her shitty words and video..i hit her so hardly..i forgot that she was girl..where my mind mocked me,,girl, thab soch tha na..jab ye aurth ka izzath bachne vale kam kare tho..

But damn u heard her right!!

Yes!! she had captured mine and Nandini's love making video and morphed my face with Abhimanyu's face..fucking women ! had whole recording of our most private moments..which couple share..where i was replaced by Abhimanyu..hath mai ajjeye voh..mar dalunga mai usse..uski ek galthi ke vajese mai ye sab sera hu..that jerk..definitely needs a punishment for life..and this women, bloody women should be hanged to death..for capturing such private things..and that too of Nandini..like really..can any certify her not being girl for once..if then, i will kill her with my bare hands..

But what made my rage more, was..how can she capture that..when i clearly remember that, we both were in our cruise, when we did it..that..that..means..someone had already fixed camera in our room..shit!...who can it be..fuck..someone kill me for my carelessness, but wait..i never shared this news with any of them..not even with Cabir or Sanskar..then that means she left people behind me..who had done this..

(Writer's pov-for this scene u need to remember Nandini's past-part 18, where she mentions about Raj's call at very first of part-18b, where she mentions about call and Manik getting upset over it..i didn't leaked the reason..so here it is..)

Oh! fuck dad..I remember dad calling me next day and yelling at me for my irresponsibility..i didn't know what the fuck he was speaking about, that day..he gave such bad lecture..of taking Nandini out without any guards..but this i couldn't believe..he had warned me on our anniversary to be very careful indirectly..shit! shit! he knew that something was going wrong behind us..and i being dumb head..was least interested to hear anything from him..as i thought it was his new drama..he was repeating his lines to leave Nandini or else something bad will happen..god! why i'm born so careless, hit me for this..after that he sternly instructed me to fire all the employs of my cruise and home..which i did, as i saw his genuine care for Nandini, which i indirectly noted in his behaviour and words..where i replaced all servants with new one's in both places, which was rechecked by dad again, without anyone getting it..but i got to know about this by Sanskar..who had eyes on dad..

I looked dad for answers..where he sat with head down..and his face covered with his palm..

dad? i didn't had any feelings for now..if i had, it was to kill her..and never let her breath next one..

"Manik..warn kiya tha maine tuje.."

"let go Nandini..par nae..tuj tho sirf apni padi thi.."

"kaha tha maine..Nandini is in deep shit..why can't u understand single thing Manik..usse thu chod detha na ye sab nae hotha..but thu..vahi kartha ayya..jo tuj tek samj..what the fuck u will do now? "

"This is what ur love gave her? simple nothing?"

"Aur ye sab tere vajesh huwa hai..u are responsible for all this.."

"If anyone destroyed her life..then its u..u destroyed her life..her dignity..just because of u..her head will go down..when u clearly know..she breathes her dignity like her pride.."

"its her pride Manik..which is humilated today.."

He howled at me..surely he gonna kill me for this..in all this months, i got to know something about him..that his concern is nothing, but to protect Nandini at any cost..where my hurt and pain is mere Nothing to him..sorry i'm not jealous or something..but i just wanted that little care myself from him..u know being child..but i never got that..but when i saw him doing everything for Nandini and not me.. definitely hurt me..but I never said anything..but today what I felt was I'm big zero in everyone's life..no one needs me..no one cares for me..I felt empty within myself..I shouldn't have expected anything from anyone..it's hurting beyond..my love didn't betrayed it's just that my expectations did..maybe i should never expect that from anyone in that matter..

Yes, he is right...he is hell right..I'm reason for whatever wrong happened in her life..I'm her life's biggest mistake..if I wouldn't entered her life..she would've been happier Without any fear..my selfishness brought her..I should've let her go..if i had done that na..she wouldn't faced such disasters in her life..sorry I'm her disaster..I'm fucking unlucky guy to her..she deserved the best..not man like me, who don't have anything at very moment..sivay meri Jaan..I don't deserve that girl for single second..

He is right..I'm selfish..i became so selfish that i forgot about her..her safety..i should've let her go..my mistake was to believe myself..that i will protect her from every evil..where i only became evil to her life..

And that very thought broke me to millions..where i won't able to pick that pieces of mine ever..i was shattered, this time no recovery at all..And guilt of destroying her life, will eat me till my last breath..i deserve all this pain for destroying her dignity..I'm sorry..i'm really Nandini..i never knew my love was poison to u..if i would've known na, i would've stayed far far away from u..I'm sorry..i couldn't protect u..i couldn't..

At very second, i felt..i should've died rather than becoming her worst nightmare..what will i do know??how will i save her??i don't have any idea..please..please somebody help me to save her..i'm not the right guy to her..i'm not..why the hell i'm still alive..why??

Where Mukthi breathed a deep air, faking her tiredness towards us..where dad marched to her, as i held my throbbing head..where blood was oozing continuously, from back of my head..which was making dizzy..i will collapse in any moment..if don't get it treated asap..but i cared for the moment more than me..where i did the biggest mistake of life..of not taking treatment for my head injury..which i will repent for life..

"What u want?"Dad asked her sternly, he was too angry..he will kill her for sure..

"What i want? u know it better..don't u?" she asked sitting on near by chair with her attitude..

"I'm not gonna leave u, if u mess with Nandini.."a perfect stern answer..he won't let anyone mess with Nandini..he was very sure about it..i know if someone can save her, it can be him alone, at very moment..

"Don't u think so, u love her more than ur kids.."she asked him..where i was blacking out now and then, with irregular breathing problem..

"Yes, i do.."he said without any fear in his voice

"i really appreciate ur truthfulness Mr. Raj Malhotra.., u proved me, that for u 'That bitch' is more important than ur own kids"..she patted his shoulders proudly with sarcastic reply..where he shrugged giving her i-won't-leave-look..where she continued seriously..

"I don't need more..u know..just simple thing.."

"Nandini.."

"Sorry,,"

"Nandini's dead body.."

"I just.."

her words went in air, where she was choked to death from my hands..i had lifted her in air by her throat..while she was struggling to breath..she deserves it..she needs to die..she will die from my hand today..it will be done..no regrets..no offense..

"Kuch bol rahi thi..Nandini's dead body..right?"

"Uske pele..i will make u dead body.."

"i will kill u.."

i pressed my bare hands against her throat..where she was withering her legs in air..she was trying to shoo my hands but nothing helped her..non came to her rescue..non..not even her own dad..who he loves dearly..

"Manik..let her go.."

within fraction second she was freed from my hands as i felt sudden black out..and my hands went lose, a sudden weakness hit me..as dad pulled me away..where she was coughing like hell hitting her bum to floor..she was sweating profusely, in fear of dying..where i felt restlessness for not killing her..

where i was jerked back..while dad sat near her legs..she was taming with hungry lion..if one wrong move..she will be dead from him..

kaha pe hai, 'voh'? where is 'she'? he yelled at her..holding her hairs..where she struggled under his wrath..he is not easy going guy to let her go..but who is 'she' now..fucking sake..how many are involved in this dirty game..where i don't know, why people are hurting me intentionally..what i have done also? i don't know..

Where she started laughing hysterically in evil form..much to our irritation and madness..

"Aww! Raj Malhotra gets hurt either way..i'm loving this so much.."where her evil laughs echoed in airport..

"U will get hurt, if i hurt any of them..uff kithna maza ayyega.."

I was literally shocked..did she started hating dad too..did she? she is hurting him...her dad..who she loves more than any..where i could see strange pain in devil's eyes..he had tears of pain seeing his daughter hating him..but he deserves every bit..don't he?

kya chai tume? i asked her seeing dad going mum..he was just helpless..maybe i don't know..was i thinking straight? i don't know..

Nandini..Nandini ka moth..she said with determination..everything in her eyes said hatred and anger..

Kyu? just because i chose her over u? 

I questioned her..where she looked me with her smirk ..

"Undoubtedly yes,,"

"U chose her over me.."

"Abhimanyu chose her over me.."

"Dad chose her over me.."

"if she would've not been there na..i would've been happy..like real happy.."

"i would've had my brother for myself.."

"my love for myself.."

"My dad for myself.."

"she is the mistake of our life.."

"and i won't repeat my mistakes again.."

"and mistakes should be rectified.."

"and that rectification leads to her death.."

"her death is equal to mistake rectification from everyone's life.."

She had turned to physco in her love..fuck Abhimanyu..i'm so gonna kill u..why the hell did u enter our life?? just to destroy us..mot****ker..everything was going right.. why the hell he needed to propose Nandini? when he clearly loved Mukthi?? just because of him,,everything got messed up..every damn beautiful thing, i had..i won't forgive him for this..i won't..

"Do u think, i will let u touch Nandini? do u?" i asked her by jerking her from her shoulder..

"I know..U won't let me touch Nandini.."she said with sly smile..which meant something else..where her smile made my stomach flip in wrong way..where my senses alerted me with caution message..oh! fuck something is going wrong..i don't know what it is..i'm not feeling good about that thought also..

But,,

But?? what?? i asked her seriously..

""But i can kill ur baby!!""

she said with evil grin..i left her shoulder..where i looked dad with blank eyes..where his eyes went wide..he trembled himself seeing that evilness in her eyes..she had gone far away from humanity, beyond our imagination..i blinked my eyes..happiness which entered my life like a light just shattered like it never entered as i entered dark world..i wanted Nandini at this very moment to hold me..i'm not able to take this much of pain alone and i clearly didn't want to feel that darkness, which she eliminated from my life..i need her..very badly..to say, i will protect them..i will protect them from every evil..but she is no where..please Nandini come to me, take me away from this..take us away from this..

"U can't?" was it sentence or a question to her..i don't know..where she smirked at me..

"try me brother..sorry step brother.."she said confidently..where i felt my world shattering piece by piece where i can't do anything just look and feel them..is this how happiness is given? i don't know..i really don't know..if it was, then why did HE gave such huge happiness to me, which is never going to come true..its only to hurt me beyond repair..if yes? Tell HIM..HE SUCCEED TO HURT, AND THIS TIME THERE WAS NO LIMIT FOR MY HURT AND PAIN..HE SUCCEED TO DESTROY ME..HE DID IT..

"Okay..i have an offer to u.."

she said suggestively..putting my life at stake again..

"chose one.."

""Nandini's dignity""

Or 

""Ur baby's life""

"If u chose anyone..u lose one of the most precious thing of ur life..so, u better choice wisely.."

"Okay let me make it simple for u.."

"If u chose baby.."

"Nandini's dignity is gone..U may get her..but she won't be herself..or she may die as for girl, her dignity is her pride..if its gone..she is gone forever..in short zinda lash banjayegi teri Jaanu" she said with wicked smile..is she a girl? how can some girl play with other girl's pride?? how??

"if u chose Nandini's dignity.."

"u will lose both..because both will die..so as Nandini's baby.. as i kill baby in my way and a mother can lose anything but her baby..so it sums up that, either way she gonna lose anyone..it maybe her dignity or her baby"

"So, be wise step brother..ball is in ur court..u can save only one.."

she patted my back..as if she is encouraging me to give best decision of life..where i'm dealting to chose any between my flesh and Nandini..but what she said was true..if i chose any, i will lose everything..i will for sure..

"Mukthi? ur crossing ur limits..stop ur shit..this is not going u to get back Abhimanyu..so, please will u stop this shit of urs.."

"And what makes u think that i will let u touch any both ?? huh!"

"I'm not let any touch either Nandini or her kid!! "

"U can't harm them..u can't.."

My dad was more confident on what he was saying..where i breathed a relief..he can protect them more than me..he won't let anyone lay their eyes on them..i was satisfied much to some extent..though he didn't loved me or cared me..i was happy at least he loved, what i loved..and they will be safe in his embrace if not mine..i'm loser..who don't know how to protect..i only know to destroy beautiful things..

"Do u think so?"

"Ek bath bolu..i have already done my work.."

We frowned at her words..as something hit my brain..my eyes went wide..

"Ur guess absolutely right Manik Malhotra..and Raj Malhotra u can't save any.."

"Tumne jo body guards change kiya tha Nandini ke liye.."

"un mese meri log bhi hai.."

""The one who should protect her, will kill her mercilessly not before using her in wrong way..""

she said with wicked smile..the thought made me breath uneven..the thought made me shiver..Nandini is not safe, made my heart stop..she is still in danger..anyone can do anything with her..this helplessness of mine..made me feel a worthless man of world at very moment..she being alone made my fear to death..if someone touches her..she will die for sure..why i'm still alive? why? to see things happening around..to see such sight is better to die..i can't see my jaanu like that ever in my life..she getting hurt is last thing in world..that to when she is pregnant..how will i save u my life? how? i just because culprit for ur life Nandini..i'm sorry baby..

"U just have three hours.."

"Three hours to choice between either of them.."

"tick..tick..it starts now.."

I felt deep knife twisting my heart..my heart was bleeding..i became whole reason of her distraction, where i wanted other way..just because of me, she is suffering everything..how will i protect her..where i felt sudden black out as i held my head..Nandini's smiling face came infront of me..i need to protect her...i will..if it takes me also..i will protect her..i will..i will keep that smile of her's intact..non can touch her, until i'm alive..i promise i will..give my best to protect her..i will

"if i chose my baby? "

That's first thought came in my mind..in all this i should never forget..i being father..yes, Nandini is important so as my baby..yes, i'm selfish for Nandini..nothing is important to me in this world but her..that doesn't mean i don't love my baby..i always wished for a baby..i simply can't ignore them..i need to protect them..i need to..because its duty of every father protect its flesh..i'm know different in that being father..think Manik..think..what can save both of them??what can save Nandini's dignity??what??

"Manik?? have u gone nuts? u are choosing kids over Nandini..how can u?"

"Ethna ye pyaar tha tera uske liye? "

my dad shouted in hatred while i looked him..with at most blank eyes..nothing can make me happy ever..nothing..happiness is just myth of my life..

""Mera pyaar kithna hai..""

""ye mai tume explain karna ka zarurth nae hai..""

i"" don't need to give any explanation for my love to any..how much i love her..only i know..i don't need to give any justification to u ever or to any..""

""Aur rahi bath i choosing Nandini over my baby..its simply not ur bloody concern..i know how to protect them..and i will protect them at any cost..u don't need bother about it..""

""i know when i should be lover and when i should be father..i don't need ur guidance in it..which u are lacking..""

i gave him stern answer, which easily shut his mouth..he didn't expected that..but he was smart enough to catch what was going in my mind..where he smirked at me..as i nodded my head without Ms.Malhotra's notice..he knows that i'm expert in mind games just like him..where he is my dad in that..

"Aur tum batho, if i chose kids over Nandini?"

i asked her blankly..nothing can make me feel better..nothing..all i felt was, i falling in pit of darkness..where there is no come back..i know..i should never chose between them..but i knew what to do..what will protect my baby and Nandini at same time..i know its consequences too well..where my place in Nandini's life will be erased forever..but anything that could save both of them..sorry Nandini..i won't be part of ur life any more..sorry for life time..i thought to spend my life with u and my babies..but destiny have its own plan..maaf karn Jaanu..hoske..take care of my babies..i know u all be best mamma of world..unlike their dad, who will be reason for their tears..

"I will viral this video.."she said with smug smile..where i smiled back with confidence..covering my worst fear under my thickest mask..fake is way of life..where people love ur fake not ur real..that's what i want..a fake me..get ready to fake Manik..because the person in front of u can gauge ur soul better than anyone in the world..

""Then i chose my baby over Nandini..""

""Manik..do u know what are speaking? do u? ""dad asked me with fake..trust me, he will get awards in oscar this time..such fine actor he is..he knows how to be fake..maybe i got his genes of faking things to people..a best gift from him till date..because i need that more now..be ready fake again Manik..be ready..

"Wow! i never knew u will chose her over ur baby..but how can i forget, Manik's love for kids..he love them more than anything in this world..more than Nandini..i'm impressed huh! that someone is important to u other than Nandini..i'm happy about it.."she said to me..dad jerked me from by shoulder..where he was spitting fire..but my mind was running for plans, which i need execute for now..

"I never thought u being this selfish Manik..u are the worst person, i ever met..u don't deserve anyone in this world..u don't.."he yelled at me..with tears in his eyes..but it was not for me but for Nandini..where i smiled sadly..non can understand..non..though he was acting but his words pour acid on already burning heart..i guess,, i still had hopes on this man...somewhere are the corner of my heart..

""Akir tumra beta huna..selfish hona zarori hai..""i said to him, i didn't know, how words came out of my mouth without my knowledge..but it surely hurt him, but i cared less, because i couldn't feel my own pain, how can feel others..while i walked little away from them..but stopped abruptly, as i looked behind..

""But i will be better father to my kids, unlike u..i promise u that..""

"and "

""huh! i will get back where i was, ""

""I bet u, i will stand there where no one can touch me..not even u..i will come back with bang, one day..i will make u regret for hurting me..its my promise Raj Malhotra..i may have lost my battle, today..but trust me, i will make sure u lose battle of life once..""

I just wanted mock him hardly, for all my hurt..i pretty did, though it won't give peace to me..nothing in world will be my peace again..everything is snatched..everything has to let go..its time..for end of every happiness in my life..Thanks for showing me, what happiness is!! thank u Nandini..for being beautiful part of my life..thanks for coloring my life, who had only black color in his hand..thanks for showing value of other colors..non did it better than u..i'm glad to have u and feel u..but not any more..u will be best happening of my life..but i won't be best happening of ur life any more..

I walked far away from everyone..as i fell on my knees..i cried..i cried..this is how its going to end..this how ugly it ends..i never knew this how we gonna end..kash tume apna bana patha mai..Jaanu..kash..

I'm sorry baby..ur papa will never be there for u..please don't hate me..please..i really love u..its just, i will not be there to welcome u..to see ur birth..to feel that happiness, which i wanted to cherish..sorry for all things ..sorry for backing out of my duties that i need to do towards u, being ur father..i'm sorry..i hope u get best, which u deserve..ethna kar skatha hu tum logo ke liye..i'm sorry..

i cried all my heart till my heart said as things kept on coming to my mind where i breathed each pain..pain which is unsaid to anyone..i wish i had instant death rather than breathing at very second without her in my life..but.. forget it..

As i walked steadily..to welcome worst of my life..my own darkness, my best friend is waiting for me again..need to go back to home, where i reside till my last breath..

Are u ready? i asked my heart..where nothing came out..it was broken brutally..maybe i need life to get it repaired for pain i got today..i hope i survive with this heart breaks till i breath..

where i just jerked by warm hand by wrist near exit area..i looked hand and then person..who was in tears..

Manik..

A tear eloped from his eyes..

"I'm sorry Sinha uncle.."

Yes, he is my partner,..who trusted me enough to put all his money on me..but what he got return was really not he deserved..i became reason again..guilt is going to kill me for life..i need to repent for life..i need to,..

"Meri wajese apke paise gaye..i'm really guilty for it..i assure to pay back ur money, in this life of mine..i'm really sorry uncle.." i said to him, while he wiped my tears..he was man of 50's..a man with big heart..best business tycoon of India and Australia..have beautiful family of his own..his family is his life..

"I'm not feeling bad for loosing money, Manik.."

"But i'm feeling very bad to lose a gem!!"

"I'm sorry..i didn't knew this was coming..if i would've known...i would have done something for u, Manik..i'm really sorry Manik..i can't help u now..sorry..beta.."he patted my shoulders as he walked out..i turned back..

"People who were never me, saw real me..but people who were mine.."

"Didn't see who i was.."

Hard thing to digest but its my breathing reality..i rubbed off my tears..as i walked out holding my head which was throbbing like hell..god save! i need to protect them..one last time..please..let me do my duties..one last time..

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i stepped out of airport..where i closed my eyes suddenly as thousands flash lights showering at me..everyone started capturing me..bugging with a question..thousands of reports were throwing themselves on me..asking how can let people loss their money??how did i became bankrupt? is it any trick of mine?to get huge money?? so far so forth..

do i look like villian to everyone..maybe yes..for everyone i'm monster..devil, which my dad made..he pretty, today i can't prove my innocence..i can't..where everyone were pulling me to get answers..financiers where trying to harm me..as i made people lose their money..where i was just blank..i didn't fought or said anything but kept mum..not because i feared but because i couldn't make a word for myself..i couldn't prove myself what i'm..this is what i'm to world..a big loser..who made lose everyone..who himself lost everything..hmm..what i dreamt, what i became..

where from nowhere people with black attire surrounded me..pushed all paparazzi away from me..all were armed people..I gave close look only to realize they are my bodyguards, how did they land up here, where they gave assuring smile to me..god! still good people do exist..they are courageous i say u..from nowhere someone started pulling me from crowd effortlessly..I don't know what was happening..but that hand had warmth which I was looking for..a small relief passed me as a hand hugged me from side ways..this is what i want, a person to hold me, when i'm drowning.. I looked the person..only to meet most gorgeous girl..who had courage to pull me out of mess without caring about herself, without care about her damn image..she was different..she was package of every man's desire..where I was threw into car's front passenger seat by her. I don't need her intro or I need to fear ..because I know, who she was ..how capable she was..

Swara.. Swara Deshmukh.. Sanskar's best friend..

"Are u fine Manik??" First ever question she asked me..she was worried for me..where I could only nod my head..holding my head..

"Can u take me to some mall, i need to shop little things.." i said to her, where she nodded her head with unsure..as she closed my side of door..where within seconds whole paparazzo were out of my site, she is powerful and bold beyond her age..

where reports really harmed my self respect today..everything which i earned till date was destroyed..my whole image was lost..today, at very second i'm the loser..loser, who don't have anything in the world..my self respect and dignity was harmed forever..non can get it back for me..non..as tears eloped from my eyes..as words of my mom and sister came running to my mind..i couldn't digest it..i couldn't..i looked outside..as fleets of car flowed our car..like nothing happened..

"Swara?? can i make few calls from ur phone?" i asked being unsure..holding my head..as i was blacking out often..

She thrust new mobile box in my hand..most expensive phone..i looked her for answers..

"Ur mom gave me to give u as she thought u need this.. because ur phone may get trapped at any second.."i gave narrow look to her..she means neyo mom..did she accepted me so soon..huff! i was about breath a relief..but stopped seeing her reaction, while she drove car for me..

"I mean ur mom, Devika..she gave me this to give u.."i took it being not so sure..but i needed it..so, i didn't objected either..

"Sim us mai hai.." i nodded my head..as i switched on phone..where i made necessary calls..in all this..i called Sanskar first..he can save Nandu till i reach there..

"thu tek hai?" he asked me without greeting..i don't know what to answer him..while tears eloped from my eyes..at very thought..she is going..she is going away from me..i'm letting her go..i never knew this day will come for me..i never knew..

"hmm..Sanskar..please remove all guards Nandini immediately.." I maintained my tone somehow..for god knows how..

Manik? u sound worried..huwa kya hai? kuch huwa kya? i palmed my face..where tears didn't stopped from my eyes..how would i tell him..what had happened? how would i? i was ashamed of myself to speak such deeds..i just want to bury myself in ground and never get up..

"Sanskar, please no questions..remove all guards right now.." i gave him stern orders..he being helpless will do that..he knows me this much..when i'm stern..there is no loop hole for any other questions..

"Aur kuch Manik.."he asked me all worried..

"Take care of urself..be underground till i say.."where he agreed with long bickering..he still a kid..

i kept my phone aside..as i leaned to seat..as i was loosing my consciousness..i need to be up till she leaves from here..

"Manik..u need to leave for Lonavala asap..u are needed there.." she said narrowing her eyes to road..but her voice had some seriousness...now what is waiting for me..

Kyu? is there anything i need to know? i asked meekly..still my eyes closed..where she pulled seat full down..as i leaned more..i needed this..a break from everything..a break from myself..

Lot more is waiting for u Manik..i hope u cope up with it..she said sadly looking at me..where i could smile sadly..destiny have its own plan for me..a plan to throw me to darkness..where my heart still didn't answered for my question..it needs its own time..

We are here Manik..she said, pulling brakes near posh mall..while we walked in giving keys to guard..for my very luck, non knew my head was bleeding..because of my shirt and jacket were black..so chances of other getting know, was zero..good for me..I walked to particular store..where before me, Swara did my work..she was smart..as i excused myself to use washroom to clean myself and change with new set of dress..i preferred black attire..most suited attire for Manik Malhotra for entire life..black is me..

I changed my attire which was stinking with blood smell..a sense of nausea hit me..i felt puking..i threw my dress in bin..as i washed my head where blood was mixed with running water..i need treatment, i knew it..but not more than protecting them..i dried myself and dressed myself holding heavy head..with constant black out..where my guards guarded me by staying outside of the washroom..

I hope i will pull it..all the best Manik..i encouraged myself, where mind was blank, heart felt heartless..soul it disappeared somewhere without any address..where i smile sadly..to maintain myself in front of others..

Where i entered bridal shop with Swara, who was already waiting for me..she was gaping at me..but she didn't spoke a word with me..she became my friend without my knowledge..though I was meeting her for first time..she had unknown bond with me..where she gave i'm-impressed-look seeing my selection..i smiled faintly..where she held my hands as i was going to pay amount from wallet..which were last few notes, which I earned..

Manik, i will pay na..she offered giving her card..

I had always wished to buy attire for my bride with my own money..Swara..she smiled weakly..let me do things..

Do u think..she will marry u? she asked me not so assure tone..while holding me by my arms..as i was falling weak..

I don't know..just felt to buy them..kya patha kabi karid na pau, tho? i asked her, where tears kissed her cheeks..seeing my condition..where i pulled her along me..where she stuffed all things in my luggage..which i didn't collected from airport..she did..

Where next Manik? she asked me..as she settled on back seat of other car..which was completely alien to her..where my bodyguards left other way with my car..as it had GPRS anyone can track me..it can be dangerous to me..so I preferred this car as non can doubt on me ever..

Malhotra farm house..it was not me..where her eyes bulged out seeing person in driving seat..while i leaned my head to window..

She will faint in shock..who won't..because he was..

Raj uncle..she sounded like scared kitten, where i turned to her..she looked petrified..she was damn scared of him..while i was blank..

Surprised right? We have plan..to save them..

yes, he will accompany me..as we have distracted Mukthi..to great extent..because she will be worried about my choice between baby over Nandini..she will be trying to figure out things..till she figure out, we will be done with our work..which is really needed at very moment..

Yes, Swara..he asked her seeing from rare mirror..where she was sweating like hell..though he looked normal, he wasn't..

Swara relax..ur safe..and he won't harm u..i assured her..but she was still she not comfortable with his presence..but she gave nod seeing me.

what's happening here, guyss? she asked me..while i turned behind..

we need ur help..i said to her..where she breathed in relax..where dad gave brief look to me..and i gave damn to it..

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I was cent percent sure, Nandini will be saved by dad..

And i will save my kids, at any damn cost..

they will be safe..

but the thing is they won't be with me again!!

I need to let go them..

for their own better future..

i can't be more selfish to put their life into stake..

for my happiness..

they deserve best..

they do!!

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Fake a smile. Tell a lie. Hide the

scars. Blink the tears away!

Pretend to be strong. Stand up

straight. Turn and walk away!

It is so hard to be real.

But it is easy to hide broken lives!

cc-thestrokestories- EleenJohn(instagram)

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He became a candle, just to lite his loved one's life..

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What shit I have written I have no idea..because my draft got deleted this is second rewrite of this part..I don't know how it came..I wrote what I could write..even I don't trust my writing this time..

I know its hell confusing, Raj Malhotra will clear everything in present no worries..but be patient..

Uff finally I'm done with most difficult chapter..but the thing is writing up coming chapter is more difficult to write..I hope i do write quickly..and please guys don't jump to any conclusion till past ends..

So,how was the chapter?? Finger crossed

Manik?? If u could say anything..

Raj?? From here, u see shades of Raj Malhotra..so, what u felt about him??

Mukthi?? I don't have words... still her show is not done..gear up read to more worst from her..

Partner?? Abhe hai koun hai??

Uff..Raj Malhotra is blackmailed??

Neyonika?? Did u expected that??

Swara??

What is Manik upto??

Raj is finally with Manik...hmm Ur words..

Is it trusting people is an bad idea??

Hmm..anything u wanna say..just inline here..

Thanks for being patient again..

Chalo now bye...

Lots of love❤❤