Hello people..I'm much alive..And this update is evidence..I'm sorry being late..Ass many know tat I was caught up with personal matter and college submission..So I couldn't update or reply to any comments..Sorry honey's..

Well I wanna say this part is really crap..Sorry..I tried my level best..But I ended with this..Sorry in advance..

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Manik's pov

Before u say ur answer to my question..don't u wanna know anything from me? she asked me, making me little surprise..i made her sit on couch, where i knee down in front of her..I was ready to hear from her..

yes, i wanna hear..but when u feel like telling me..i said calmly, i held her hand to assure her..where she smiled sadly..

I'm sorry..i looked her in confusion,..why was she asking that..it should be me, who should be sorry for everything in our life..

sorry ?? Nandu, why are saying that? i asked her..where her doe eyes became watery..this is something need be worried..

arey ro kyu rahi hai, tu? i asked where she dashed to my heart like baby..i held her, started saying sweet things to her..and finally she stopped her sob..putting my heart little peace..is it my all girl's want cry today? i don't know..i can never understand girls in my entire life..

ab bolo..kya huwa? i asked calmly coaxing her..where she started narrating things, how she got suspicious of Abhay and me..how she found at about he knowing me from 2 years..and how she misunderstood about me..everything..where i took sigh, thinking that she didn't got to know everything about me.. Abhay played smartly, he rubbed off my secrets.. I'm glad he did it..because today at this second i got to know, what my girl is capable and what not..i don't know, how to say things to her..i was worried, if by chance she get to know anything from anyone about me..No one can handle her..No one can..I don't know..What stored in future for us..But I should beware about her thinking..Where her mind always plays a vital role in her each decision, than her heart..I don't know how to deal with this..I'm scared to lose her anyway..She is what I have left in this world..If not her I don't think, there is a reason for my existence..

And about Abhay..God only should help this boy..Why didn't he said anything to Nandini about us..When I clearly mentioned him to say about me to his(Ammy) mom..Where I got an yes as from his side..After that what happened to him..I don't know..where his next call became a nightmare for me..where he cried and hiccuped each word he said..where his tone said me his story of loneliness..a boy of 9 was in deep darkness, who covers his pain with a smile..as if he doesn't hurts him..that day was the day i met myself with him..same childhood..same pain..same reality..same darkness..same helplessness..same fake smile..same hatred for our dad's..i consoled him, the way i could..he was better..but i didn't knew, life once again threw me in deep mess..it was another disaster month of my life..

And after that call, what happened with him..i don't know..As he started ignoring me..Where he used talk rudely with me, or he used not receive my calls..I was so worried about him, where I felt I lost him, forever..I felt I lost one more person in my life..Where I felt why did I let him enter my life..He is like everyone, who leaves me like others..No one care about my heart, my pain..No one..That made me so weak that time..I had trusted him, that he won't leave my hand..But that moment he did exact opposite, where my both daughter's had big hand to hold me tight..Warna Manik Malhotra would be gone again from track..Where his ignorance make me alone again..There was no day without precious conversation with him..But he didn't talked a word with me for one whole month..it was big thing for me..my entire lonely day just waits to hear from someone..i didn't had any but few, and he was daily caller for my phone, where i used to wait for one call from his side..i wanted someone at least..i had become so lonely again..where my stay in office goes endless for weeks..just to divert my mind..where i lost hope on him too..and then one midnight, i end up hearing a wailing call from his side again...but this time he was saying a never ending sorry's to me..i was too shocked to hear that from him..who said me not to call him ever..was saying all this made me confuse in total..eventually i made him calm, that's when i got to know, he was in mess..a deep mess in his life..where relationship became complicated to him with everyone..he lost his smile..things went nasty with him..i tired cheer him up..but nothing was working with him..and i got same reply from both girls..where i had sent mrudula to britain for workshop just to make sure about him..and then their birthday happened..that's when i heard excitement in his voice..warna it always went low like lifeless..but true that, he was in chaos..he needed a break from everything..and my phone ringed every three times in a day..he needed assurance from me..bringing him, back to line was the most toughest job,..where each one in abhay's team have their own contribution to make him smile..cabir, oh! god his tribute was high than any..to make him smile..where abhay used make us run under his finger tip at the time of smitha's delivery..where his pranks went on us..and we used bare his tantrums without a word..that's how my son smiled back..and then my unexpected visit to London and all thanks to Abhay Malhotra, where i met hulk again..i don't know what again messed him up, where he started hating me again..uff..it was roller coaster with him always..now, it is going good, i hope he got closure, which he searching..and let him not get hurt again from anyone..

Manik, i'm sorry...i'm really..i misunderstood u again..i have always been proved as bad partner to u..before she continues i kept my finger on her lips..where pearls were dropping from her sockets..i wiped it as i held her hands with mine..in a firm way, assuring her about me..

Jo tumne kiya voh galath nae tha Jaanu..tumari jaga mai kohi aur bhi ho, they would've thought same thing..and they would've done same thing..don't worry..i assured her..but i felt, she didn't trusted me again..what should i do in world to make people believe on me..i don't know..i sign in defeat again..

ja tum ho, vah mai bhi tha salo peeche..i can understand u well..i understand what betrayal means..how it feels..i said to her in absent mind, where i remember how was my past..but the thing is, what nandini felt was wrong but for me, it didn't..my own sister betrayed me..she took all happiness of mine without thinking that i didn't had anything left with..ek insaan kithna gira skathe ho..uthna usne muje giradiya..where i went biggest trauma in my life..just because i was her step brother..es mai meri kya galathi hai..maine kuch bhi nae china thana..why? why? me alone..can she answer this for me..kya bigada tha mai uska? jo usne meri sub kuch barbad kardiya..

kya huwa manik? who betrayed u? she asked with shock..where my senses were back hearing her..i looked at her in shock..kya kha maine usse? i was so into me, that i forgot what i said to her..where i need console her rather than speaking myself..

kohi nae..i was...was..nandini chuck it na..i stammered all letters where she got me..where she lifted my chin and looked straight into my eyes..now i knew, my eyes answer her better than my words..

kyu manik? hamesha tum es kyu kar rahe ho? what's stopping u to say things to me..its ur jaanu here..no one else..mujse share karne mai kya problem hai tumra? there was concern and hurt in her tears, where i didn't knew what to answer her..but i guess my eyes were betraying me, they answered behalf of my heart,,

it US..we don't trust each other the way we used trust years back..its not same Manik..its not same Nandini..its not same MaNan..we are lacking our essence, which we had in our relationship..That trust, isn't there..where we used trust each other blindly..but today we don't have that nandini..its not u alone, who isn't trusting me..its me too..i don't trust u the way, i used trust years back..u lost that very long back..can someone slap me at the instant, for what i said, because she is literally in tears..kya kardiya yaar..u moron heart, can't u shut ur mouth for a while..just her eyes spelled u, and spilled out..wow! now see my Jaanu is crying again, just because of u..why should i open my mouth..god! kick me..

oh! shit, i'm sorry..i'm so sorry..i should've not said that..Nandini please stop crying..i was helpless seeing her in tears..damn, kyu? why I let my mouth open..it would've been better if i would've not said a word..think before u talk..mantra of mine..is gone for holiday for sure..aur ye suddenly kaise hosaktha hai..when i know, how to control my tongue well, from years of practice..urgg..i hate myself now..

jutt..that's what she said in annoyed tone with tears still flowing from her eyes..i gave helpless sigh to her..and what wrong did i said..she doesn't look mad but hurt ..i don't want things go wrong again..please for heaven sake..

jutt..u are same Manii of mine..and u just proved me seconds back..u are still same for me..i gave are u nuts look to her..she should be mad and hurt that i didn't trusted her like those days..but here comes surprise for me, which i wasn't aware myself..wow! simply wow!

explain..i pressed my annoyance, wait a second..why i'm going so liberal with my expressions with her, is what my brain pointed me..which i didn't had clue..even from my heart i guess..or maybe other way..uff..i just became complicated again..i was sorted man in life..and here i'm turning like same moron, which i was years back..for change that didn't mattered me, because she was happy for that..was she? definitely..was answer for my heart..

she pulled my face near to her..and smiled within tears..can u please tell me or confirm me, why she is bipolar person..damn, i can never understand this women, in my entire life..i guess i need rebirth to know her well..

because u just spoke ur heart without thinking twice about its consequences just like my Manii does..u are getting back to ur shoes again..she said sweetly with smile of content..that put my heart into relief that she smiled at least after my horrible confrontation to her..and suddenly my brain worked what she said..i looked her with wide eyes..did i just did that, without thinking..just like years back..and my shock was guest of minutes..and surprise within me was permanent...i smiled from heart..yes, i did it..i just said my heart to her..though it was really harsh reality between us..but i spoke my heart with My Jaanu, after years..it felt so overwhelming feeling from my heart..i smiled brighter realizing it, i just spoke my heart without second thought, after years only to her again, whom it was preserved..didn't i told u, she gonna break walls around me sooner..it was first step..and she was successfully in entering my world's door steps..i'm just waiting for her, to take me from here..and live in our world territory..not in mine any more..

And u know what, i'm so happy u said ur heart to me..yes, it hurts to hear that, u don't trust me the way u used to do, which i deserve it, for living u without looking back..but the best part is i have earned little trust in ur heart again..and look here u are speaking to me like same old Manik of mine..i'm happy..i'm so happy..she hugged me in real tight, where i pulled her more into me..i wrapped my arms against her bare back..where she was kneading my hairs to sooth me..i closed my eyes..that's where i belong..i belong to her..My Jaanu..My soul..and the hug had something, which i can't express..and i nuzzled more into her..and she let me do it in my way..where it didn't mattered her, that i don't trust her like before, but she was confident enough on earning them for me..i can hear that in her tone and eyes..she was different, she understood before i do honors to it..that's the reason i fell for again and again..but i loved that fact more than anything in this world..i simply loved it..

take me soon where i belong..take me to u..make me like i was..what all i said, where her tears wet my neck as she dug more into them..i know we are going back..but going back, isn't easy..tears are must and should happen..unless u want to give ur self into anyone..i was ready..i'm ready to get back us..to reach there to meet her, to make US..

i will..i don't have choice..u see..she said like me in tease still sobbing in my arms but their was sweet smile on her lips, which touched my nape, where i rubbed my tears, which were in corner of my eyes..one more word, i would end up being cry baby for sure..i chuckled at her sentence..

i'm gonna earn ur trust like u have earned mine..sooner..u will be mine, Malhotra..all mine..she uttered sweetly yet it had confidence in them..i believe her and her words..where i titled my head towards her face,,almost touching her skin with my each detail of lips..so close, that was..

did i earned ur trust? i asked innocently, yes i was..i couldn't believe she just said that to me..where she opened her eyes and looked into my eyes..where her smile touched my lips..

yes u did..she said in determine tone..and such a love full voice..where i fell for her again..i smiled widely as i settled down to my previous position..i earned her trust, did u heard that heart..did u..my brain yelled in excitement, where my heart had its own tears of happiness..i couldn't believe, that i earned it..i earned her trust..i had won the battle of my life..i did..

Nandini, lets take this slow then..we can marry, when we are destinated to be together with all knots..lets try to bring back us..lets bring that Manan of ours back..lets bring that magic of ours back..and more ever, u always wished a day wedding than night one..i said what i felt.. i guess that's the best for us..i want to be hers, like she is mine..when i tie knot with her without any mess in our feelings..i want pure relationship between us..i want for us..

no we won't..we will marry now at this moment..we'll make everything all right after this..i want us Manik..i want us..i want u..i heard her choking tone..where i tightened my grip on her waist to make her feel my presence in her words..where i felt she was insecure with something..her tone, her body, and her heart said same to me..

Jaanu, what's wrong? i tried to break our hug in worry..but she didn't let me..but started wailing in my arms again..what's troubling her, from morning..she is quite disturbed after a talk with her dad..i don't what happened between them..they looked all fine to me..that's why i didn't questioned her anything..but this something really to get worried topic..what's that..is it me?

i'm..i'm scared to lose u manii..dar lag raha hai muje..nae kona hai muje, tume..i'm scared..i don't want to lose u..please make me urs..please..her pleads made my heart wail..she tried to suppress that lump..but eventually she failed miserably in front of me..where my mind flashed same scene of mine with her and i was wailing in her lap like this only, when i was leaving for my international concerts for 2 months..things were reversed, she is in my place and i in her place after 11 years..i held her more, i know that fear..i had felt that each second of my life..i won't..i won't let my girl, pass through what i had went through..i don't know what makes her think like this..but whatever it is..she isn't allowed to feel fear, when i'm here for her..i always protected her..and i will do it forever..its my promise, which is unsaid to her..

but nandini..its dark honey..u always wished for day wedding..i was cut off by her answer..which made my heart jump in happiness..

I want to marry u in dark only..not because its ur wish but my wish to stand with u in dark..and then lite our world in light together..she said to my heart..this time, i didn't mind to cry in happiness..

I Love U..i usually don't say that..when i say, i mean it..i love her like anything in my world..she deserved more than I Love her..but i'm selfish for her..only for her, in my entire life..call me selfish i don't mind a bit..she is my selfish..

mine ditto..i chuckled at her words..life was simple, we made it complicated by our impulsiveness and my words..time tricked both of us..made us apart..made us hopeless for each other..made us lonely..made us feel betrayed..made us feel broken..but eventually it made us strong to fight any demon against us..and today we are here again..which i felt it will be dream of my life..but hell no, its coming true in real..my dream of making MS. NANDINI MURTHY to MRS. NANDINI MANIK MALHOTRA..was going to happen..in real..mom are u seeing this..i wanted to shout and say to her, how happy i'm at this moment in my life..i got a closure, which i wanted from her..she made it for us..she did it..when i gave upon us..she fixed it for us..My life is on track now..the way i had dreamt years back..

kuch nae dogge Nandini Murthy ko? its last time, i'm asking being me..i laughed at her words..Nandini Murthy gonna lose her last name to get mine next to her, forever..wow! it sound so good..Nandini Manik Malhotra..my wife..my heart..my heart beat..my music..my soul..

kya chayye hai? i asked her breaking hug..i wiped her tears where smile was all along, the real one..just like how i love it..her eyes, they said they were happy to me..to my heart..i smiled with my heart..he was happy..too happy for us..i was at relief to some extent that i said, what my heart wants to say her..yes, i don't trust her the way, i should do..but i know..she gonna earn it sooner..there is no wait..to start new..i was free from keeping things, which she should know before i become her's fully..i was content..and no one could measure it..no one..

ye..she said as she pulled me more..smile was not going to leave us, we had each other for life time..no break up..no separation..no nothing can break us apart..nothing..

a last kiss to my girlfriend..i muttered against her lips..smile spread all over..world never looked this beautiful for me..never..because my world was smiling for me with all heart..

it was beautiful kiss to my girlfriend, u can say it is dreamy one..it simply said happiness to each other soul..our kiss was communicating with our soul, more than us..my soul was happy in my life second time..my first happiness just vanished from my lips in seconds where this happiness gonna last long forever and ever..i'm happy..i'm really happy..

so, chale ex. girlfriend?? i asked her, forwarding my left hand..where she took them with smile..

yes, ex. boyfriend..i smiled stupidly..we are definitely getting back to each other..with each passing second..

i have something for u..i will be right back..i said to her, where i didn't waited for her reply..as i ran to my mom's room, near to avni's room..where i pushed door asap, as i switched on lights of the room..room glowed like always..where i rushed to wardrobe, as i found what i had preserved for her..with all hard work of mine..i had bought them 11 years back, when i came home..i wanted marry nandini at that second after my revelation of aborting our baby because that's only way i could protect her..but i became a betrayal of her life..than a protector..and now, time has changed..so as situation..where i don't need to fear for anything..i can have her the way, i want to..just like my dream..

i gave brief look to my mom, and removed drawer which is near big frame of her's...i took sindoor box given by my mom..i smiled taking them..looked at her and then kissed her cheeks..

be with me always, the way u promised me..i said to her, as i smiled with tears..i traced her face once as i left from there, taking her blessings..

kaha the? she asked me, as i reached terrace..where i looked her head to toe..oh! wait, i haven't looked her properly..but when i observed my eyes popped out..i looked her, to check what i saw..

how come u got them? was all i asked her in shock..this bride attire was bought by me..for our marriage years back..but how she got them..

ye..this..i found in my closet..she answered by twirling holding its end just like avni does..i smiled at her..

when did u bought them? she asked me still twirling in them..she was in her land and admiring herself in lengthy mirror, which was placed in left side of our terrace..i walked as she called me for selfie..

when i thought i should marry u..i said resting my chin over her left shoulder, that's the truth,..yeah half truth..that's all i can say her..to shut my lie..a lie.. a impulsive behavior of mine, which bought me here..us here..

hmm..where we clicked last pics being boyfriend and girlfriend..huh! voh bath alag hai..ye bf gf ko already bacche hai..we are rare u see..so as my kids..where memory of happiness is just start for my life..in real sense..

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I gave a look to Nandini, as i don't have any idea about vows taken during pheras..where she smiled at me..

i know vows..she said seeing my worried face..i smiled like a kid..off course she needs to know ethna shadi jo kar vaya hai madam ne..nae..

(from here Nandini says significance of each vow, sorry-i'm badly poor at wedding things..i'm not person to know more about vows and all..and this is what i got in google-kuch galath ho, i'm sorry in advance)

where i lifted Nandini in my arms before she protests..and she looked me in surprise..

i want this way..u being in my arms..where she kissed my jaw..as she started telling where i walked around fire, lite by both of us..a new starts began again now in real sense..

For the First Vow, U promise me: "om esha ekapadi bhava iti prathaman"mathlab 'You will offer me food and be helpful in every way. I will cherish you and provide welfare and happiness for you and our children'. And in return i comply:"dhanam dhanyam pade vadet"' I am responsible for the home and all household, food and finance responsibilities'. Concisely, we should promise each other prosperity by fulfilling their respective roles in their lives.

i completed first phera with never ending smile on each other face..i kissed her forehead..assuring my promise to her in my way..

For the Second Vow i should say: "om oorje jara dastayaha", it means 'Together we will protect our house and children'. and in return she promised me "kutumburn rakshayishyammi sa aravindharam", which say as 'I will be by your side as your courage and strength. I will rejoice in your happiness. In return, you will love me solely'.

i do..i said hearing her words..where she smiled..and kissed my cheeks..muttering i know to me..as we took one more round, around fire..

During the Third Vow, U promise me, "om rayas santu joradastayaha" by which it means 'May we grow wealthy and prosperous and strive for the education of our children and may our children live long.' In return i promise u, "tava bhakti as vadedvachacha", meaning 'I will love you solely for the rest of my life, as you are my husband. Every other man in my life will be secondary. I vow to remain chaste'. 

u do? i asked her in serious tone..where she smiled and nodded her head..where i promised to give my best to my kids..and kissed her left eyes..

During the Fourth Vow, U declare "om mayo bhavyas jaradastaya ha" by which means 'You have brought sacredness into my life, and have completed me. May we be blessed with noble and obedient children' In return for this promise,and i say "lalayami cha pade vadet", by which she means, 'I will shower you with joy, from head to toe. I will strive to please you in every way I can'.

we already have best kids..i said to her..

indeed we have..she muttered my nose..i smiled at her broadly..indeed best kids were blessed to us..and we are very lucky enough to have them..

For the Fifth Vow, u promise me, "om prajabhyaha santu jaradastayaha", which means 'You are my best friend, and staunchest well-wisher. You have come into my life, enriching it. God bless you'. to this i promise u, "arte arba sapade vadet" or 'I promise to love and cherish you for as long as I live. Your happiness is my happiness, and your sorrow is my sorrow. I will trust and honor you, and will strive to fulfill all your wishes'.

i will not break my promise again..pakka promise..she said with tears in her eyes..i kissed her right eyes..muttering i know to her..

During the Sixth Vow, U promise that, "Rutubhyah shat padi bhava" which means 'Now that you have taken six steps with me, you have filled my heart with immense happiness. Will you do the kindness of filling my heart with happiness like this for all times?' to this I reply, "yajna hom shashthe vacho vadet" meaning 'I will always be by your side'.

 i will..we said unison..where she kissed my another cheek with all her love..i got her for me..a last vow to be accomplished to make her only mine..no one can take her away from me..a dream of mine going to come true in next phera around fire..where my soul smiled, making me feel happiness like never before..

For the Last and Seventh Vow, U promise me"Om sakhi jaradastayahga", by which it proclaims 'We are now husband and wife, and are one. You are mine and I am yours for eternity.' and i being Bride accepts this proclamation of urs and say "Attramshe sakshino vadet pade", which means 'As God is witness, I am now your wife. We will love, honor and cherish each other forever.'

as her words left from lips my eyes betrayed to hold on tears from my eyes..she was mine..mine to be called..mine to be possessed..she is mine..where she hugged me in real tight..i know how i craved for her..only for her..i know how was my life without her..i know..i felt it..when u finally get back, what u lost..u will know the feeling and it's value..which i'm going through and I know..

Aww..shadi ke baad ladki rothi hai..ladke nae?she teased me still being in hug where she herself was wetting my crook..

voh kya haina..tume puri life tho jelna haina..so, ye soch kar rora hu..i said tease tone..where she hit my chest in real bad..i laughed a loud..

shadi tho abhi abhi huwa hai..tum tho un sari husband ki jese bath kar rahi ho..go i won't talk to u..she said like innocent baby..should i say how cute she was looking..damn cute..

arey..u won't talk to me..okay, maine soch i will make u wear this..par its okay..u don't want na..i acted along..mera khun ki ek ek bund mai acting ka kida hai..i got it..and it hit string today finally..I should try in soaps u see. I will be star..

what? i made her stand on her legs..as i showed the thing i had bought for her..she smiled at me..

ye abhi lekar agaythe tum? its beautiful..she exclaimed to me in happiness..where i made her wear magalsuthra..its simple, that was all i could afford that time..i didn't had much penny in my pocket..i bought what i could afford in little money i had..but seeing her smile for my small things bought smile on my face..she is still same nandini of mine, who used get happy for small things i do for her..heart was finally into peace..Which It was craving from years..

where i applied sindoor on her forehead, where she closed her eyes and her face emitted serene to me..it was simple marriage, i wished..i just wanted to take vows under stars..i had this wish from my childhood..i had cherished night sky by seeing stars..they are being with me..at any point of time..and I wanted them in my wedding In​ because they always been there for me..I feel these part of darkness was made just to let stars twinkle in between them..that's what i fascinated for.. And i was person, who has grown without anyone around me..i was left alone..it was my fate..as and when i grew up, i got to know, how the world is in real..it is cruel world..where u find few people, who will be happy for u from heart, where others just fake it..i don't want anyone in my wedding other than the girl, who i love and respect and with whom i want to spend my life..i don't want any people..i wanted one..who knows me well in real..i got her..and she is my wife now..a weird wish of mine..i know..but i don't want any fake people or any fake smile on best memory of my life..but a genuine one on my wedding..that's my wish..unlike others..who wants hustle bustle wedding where many come to show of their standards ..where marriage is realistic and material things​ to many..there will be hand count of people, who are really happy for ur happiness..i want them in my wedding too but, as i said..i wanted only US, when we tie knot..being just US..

meri mom ne, tume dene ke liye bola tha..i gave her box, which my mom had passed me..where nandini took them gladly..

Its beautiful..i mean all things u gave today, where very beautiful..but the thing is, i had selected same things years back..i don't remember properly..but i'm sure..ye vahi hai..kuch vague memory hai..she said..looking at sindoor box.. i gave her confused look..Where she was more confuse than me..

tumne ye sab select kiya tha? how is that even possible nandini? i asked her in meek tone..where something was striking in my mind..i was just missing things..i need to join them..where the things i gave her, was selected by her only in past..she must be only bride, who gets such opportunities..who selected her things before she becomes my bride in real..

I don't know manik..mai jab mangalore gayi thi na..thab mai ye sab select kiya tha..mom asked me to do..she said remembering our past..where i don't know, when she went to mangalore..she had went just once, when she was with me, that to when i had confessed her my feelings..and her mom is current mystery to my life..uff..kithna aur solve karna hai muje..ye sab..i'm feed up for god sake..

tumari mom? that was what i actually intended to ask..because nandini calls two precious ladies in her life as her mom, that's what i know..

no mai, meri mom nae..voh..mom ki soulie ki bath kar rahi thi..she cleared my doubt almost..still wanna dig more..i composed my face, not showing my curiosity to her..somewhere i know about whom she is speaking about..i knew it..

soulie? that's what my mom says to her best friend..she talked all world things about her to me, when she had least time with me..i didn't asked her name, that's where i felt i did wrong..my mom waited for her till last breath of her's..just to have blink of her soulie, last time..but in vain she couldn't make it up..as nandini's mom slipped into coma..

arey..i was talking about Devika mom..and that's the answer i needed at this second..mathlab..the one my mom talked about is nandini's mom..whom nandini calls as mom, is my own mom..where my mom wanted me tie knot with nandini, like she wished..uff..nandini is the girl, whom my mom wanted me to marry..it felt like planned destiny..i fell for same girl other than any in the world..world is too small..that's what i thought..And my mom's fulfilled today..

a smile broke into my lips..i looked up..

I Love U..i shouted in loud..startling Nandini by my sudden act..

Manik, what happened? kese I LOVE U bol raha hai ho? she asked me and then looked sky..

meri fav. star ko, jo asman mai hai..i took her in my arms..where i kissed her hairs..

I Love U Mrs. Malhotra..I kissed her nape..It sounds so good to say...I can say it any time from now on..

I Love U too Mr. Malhotra..She said and dig more to my crook..

Maniii..vaha deko shooting star..make a wish c'mon..she said breaking hug as she ran to edge of terrace to have clear view of shooting star with joining hands of her's..i smiled at child act..as i looked above..it was really beautiful sight to be watched..i never believe in wishing and praying..yes..but i admire them..where my wife's smile made way on my lips..Who thought she will be my wife in 24 hours..I couldn't believe myself, she is my wife.. Nandini Manik Malhotra..That's called life..Where u can't predict life..What it stores for u..U just need to accept what gives u..It tests u but certainly gives what u deserve..That's what I got to know about life till now..

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tho..when did u talked to ur kids ? for the first time? she asked me in curious tone, as we both were laying on couch on terrace..and she in my arms..

i didn't talk to them for the first time..they had sent me birthday present with birthday wish recording of their voice to our home..i said remembering that night, which had few minutes to end my birthday..in fact a best birthday of my entire life..where my kids entered my life, with their pure innocence and possessiveness steps..i smiled remembering it as i said her my first ever feeling they being in my life..

flashback

where i walked tiring to my apartment, after months together..i was so lost..i was alone on my birthday again..nothing new to me..everyone tired to cheer me up..but nothing made my heart smile..i was about to enter apartment..i felt something was down..when i looked down..it was basket with full of chocolates my fav one, two big gift boxes​..one was white and other was purple.. felt puzzle..And the same time, I was in no mood to open anything.. I switched on lights of home leaving them outside.. I went to kitchen, gulped water..when I closed my eyes.. I saw something.. I ran outside to take the box.. I verified what I saw..

how do u address ur fav star? ur fav actor? Ur inspiration??

something dear..love..etc right??

but that note referred something else..if i would've not seen that words..shayad i would've not open that gift..the fondness for gift lost its value in my life long back..so, I would've ignored it but the person, who had sent it to me, must be smart, who got what attention they require from me from that words.. Where i lifted them in my hand..as i walked to my baby's room, which I had built for my baby..i don't know why but i felt going there..i sat down on floor..as i traced that letters with tears in my eyes..

"MY MM"..was it..

that's the four letters changed entire life of Manik Malhotra..it really did..no one was so possessive about me, in their first meet with me..i mean no one..and here i see MY MM..on their very first gift for me..i was damn amazed and truly my heart needed someone like them..it was craving for love..badly..too badly..one could ever imagine..i kissed that writing..it felt like toddler writing but it had innocence in it..something which attracted me to open it..I felt I got what I wanted in this world..

i never entertain any gifts from my fans..most of them will be sorted by Smitha and Cabir on my behalf..but how they landed up to my home was real curious thing to me..i slowly opened note in my name, which was in purple color..where i heard something, which made me smile in real like small kid..i felt like i'm smiling..from heart...Hearing that..I felt my birth was worth it..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U..OUR MM..

it was voice of two kids in british accent..i smiled like kid with tears..trust me i felt so happy and emotional at same time, that I couldn't put them in words ..this is what i missed..a hearty birthday wishes..which can make me feel i'm not lonely..someone is their for me..their is someone who are wishing me..it was bestest birthday of my life..it felt like, my wait was over..they were the people..whom i was looking for in this whole world..A people who understands me and trust me without thinking twice..

birthday are never meant for me..was my thinking..since i got little knowledge about birthdays..i used go away from everyone as my birth didn't any value for any..even me too..my born day is always a day, which reminds me i was shit of world..i was someone's mistake..ii was someone's suffocation..I was doll of someone..I was orphan still having everything.. I was person, whom people don't want.. I was pity for myself..

with my trembling hands i pressed recording again..as i missed what they said..as i was too into wishes..where it again wished me..Trust me no birthdays gave me this type of gift in my entire life..They both were best gift of my life..And will be always..I never knew they will become my life's best characters than any..I never knew..At that second..They will become smile of my life..

Hello MM..i know..i know..u don't know me..so, i will introduce myself to u.. I'm baby doll..that's what my brother calls me (she chuckles making me do same) ..and i wish u many many happy returns of the day to u..stay blessed and let all ur dreams come true for u and please smile..u look more handsome and real..now bye..till then miss me..Love u MY MM..i heard cute girl with her ever melodious voice and saying this to me in her accent..i could say girl was too small and cute to handle by way of her talking and bubbliness..it made me smile ear to ear..it was million dollar moment to me..as if I waited to just hear her in whole world..And chuckle it just echoed in my soul making my heart dance in joy..It was moment I cherished something within me..a small girl was wishing me..i don't know, who she was..but definitely this girl made My day..My birthday.. just by wishing me with her all love and not forget her possessiveness, while saying My MM..I liked the way she addressed me.. That's what attracted me towards her.. "My"..

Hey don't run baby doll..u will get hurt..i heard some boy's voice..he had ever charming voice that i heard ever..Where I could here that she saying she is fine and still running away from him..Where boy gave helpless groan hearing that..That reminds me, when mukthi used say something to me, when I say her to be careful..Such beautiful memories..Erased by her..

Uff..this girl won't change for good..Stubborn as mom..(he said himself but I could hear them, I smiled hearing it)..oh I'm sorry.. i hope u are hearing me still..if..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U MANIK MALHOTRA..WISH U ALL THE HAPPINESS OF WORLD TO U..KEEP SMILING..

Oh! let I didn't introduce myself to u.. I'm AMMY..from London..a huge a fan of urs..and the one who wished u, while ago was my little baby sis..who is huge fan of urs more than me..and that's  the present given by her and me..i hope u will keep them..and yeah will talk u sooner..bye..Till then wait for me..

With love

Ammy and my sister baby doll

it was his voice..peaceful yet covered innocence..charming yet held weightage in his tone..i smiled heartily..but how come he can talk with me..i don't know..but somewhere my heart wants to hear from them..a seed of hope was sowed inside me..a small step for happiness was taken as they both entered my life in their own way..being they..that's what i liked about them..

flashback ends..

It was just not recording clip but a ray of hope..my happiness i said to her seeing night sky..same smile was adored by me..how cute were my kids, at very first step in my life..as time changed Abhay lost his innocence of being small kid..where i saw him, growing in mess just because of me and my dad..shayad they had normal family like other kids..shayad..

kya gift diya tha un logone? it was nandini, who had turned to me and asking things with same smile i had..

kabhi aur batha hunga..abhi lets go down..i said because, i know her next request me to show their gifts, which are kept in lonavala..that's why nandini didn't got anythings here related to me and them here..because i used stay in lonavala more than being in mumbai..and my kids usually send gifts to lonavala..as they know my stay in mumbai apartment is very less..i feel to alone to stay here..i feel darkness will eat me more..that's the reason i stay there..

manik this so mean..she said annoyingly..i laughed at her words..

Aur tumne uss din muje miss Kiya kya?? She asked me..I can never say how much I missed her..I can never..

Bohuth..I just needed u by my side.. That's it..I said to her..Where she hugged me..

I'm sorry..I'm sorry..I didn't wished u but I used pray for u on Ur birthday in front of aiyyappa..For Ur well being..She said genuinely with choking voice..I hugged her tight..Kissed her hairs..I can't ruin my present being in past..I want to keep them their and move on with her..

Jaanu..Let's not ruin our beautiful present reminding our pain full past..I said to her she just hmmed in response..I need to distract her soon..Before she dive in pool of worst past of ours..

And Nandini i won't be at home till mid night and even tomorrow.. i won't be in mumbai..so u can go to ur parents home and spend some time with them till day after tomorrow, as u haven't spent any time since many long years..now enjoy ur two days with them and make sure u be around Abhay and his where abouts and behaviour..i warned her because somewhere i don't want him to come behind me..as i feel he knows everything about me and my where abouts..and i damn don't want him on my too weak moment..that's tomorrow..

Par jaa ka rahe ho? she questioned me as we checked on avni's room and then abhay's room..both were in sound sleep with their babiness and innocence..and i looked her..

somewhere i need to be..where someone will be waiting for me tomorrow..so, need to go..but i will try to come soon to u..i said to her cubing her cheeks..she gave a small smile..

i will be waiting to see u..she said without enquiring any further that makes me rethink about her behaviour but I chucked it..As I  opened door of our room, where i kissed her forehead..

i will come to u sooner..i mumbled to her..where she side hugged me..and i looked other way to enter our room..i looked back at her..she smiled shyly..she can't be serious.. can she be?? no..she is package of surprise in my life..and she will be forever..

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Gud night..
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