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Manik's pov

And our family moment came to an end when all settled next to us..i pressed a smile to dad, as i don't have face him ever, i will never be able to do that..smitha smacked my head as she passed all files to me to sign, i gave glare to her, which she isn't affected and will be never, and i won't be available for 2 days, its my days..as tomorrow i have class and then day out with mom..and next day is preserved for her alone..i won't be in mumbai but in lonavala..i don't know, what i will say to nandini as excuse for day after tomorrow..i don't want share some ugly things of my life with her..she can't take it..she is glass doll, who can't tolerate small hurt of any, if i'm the one she will be more broken..i will never let that happen again..never..

ye le sign karle..she threw pen on my lap, i glared at her..wow! such respect u see..i turned to nandini, who gave amused look, because i never let anyone rule me unless it is nandini and mukthi..this were only girls i let in too close to me..and let do anything to me..

huh! nandini sorry introduction dena bulgaya, this cherry..i mean smitha vishwas sinha..vishwas's wife..my secretary,my best friend and my best sister..i said to her..i know i know they know each other..but i don't want to get hit by nandini for reading her diary, to be in safer side, this option will be best..and even i want play along with people, who made me fool..and smitha will be second in list of abhay's support club..and i don't want them to get to know..i already learned things about them..i will let them play..

and i hope, apko introduction ki zarurath nai hai? i asked smitha..i should also not forget, she was the first person to fool me, among..as she seen nandini's photo in my wallet..when she found me in one of my most disaster accident of life..and still she kept mum..i won't blame her, maybe she didn't trusted enough to say me anything that time..and i don't mind now, when people don't trust me..i'm used it from my life..i doesn't hurts but hurts like a bitch..

ji nai..hum janthe hai..ye apki jaanu hai..jes app har jaga dund rahe the..aur finally milgai hai..and apne ye bath muje aur mrudula ko pele bath chuke hai..aur kuch bolna hai muje..i rolled my eyes with her over respect, she loves to see my annoyed face..sister's made for it..i guess..

nai kuch zayada bolgai..i said to her..where abhay giggled with his two friends..what an acting, they need to be rewarded with filmfare..

and nandini, that's prathik and his little sister..kids of smitha n vishwas..i said to nandini, in return they waved hi for her..nandini smiled broadly at prathik, he returned same for her..

manik, i know her..it was nandini, this time u need to give me one award for me also..

nandini what are u saying? u know smitha..i mean..i know how my son acted so well..its me alone, as it is in blood..and transferred to him..i'm proud of ourselves u see..

manik she is right..i know her before hand..she's the girl, i was talking about to u that day..smitha said to me..i know her past, she had shared with me, when i lost everything..i feel we both are alike in every sense..maybe past..maybe pain of loneliness..maybe feeling unwanted..maybe attempting to end our life..one nano second late of her's, i would have ended my life twice..i owe my life for her, if i'm breathing still on this planet is just because of her..and i mean it..she taught me life, she taught me how to live in this world without hope..she is the one who gave me food, when i didn't had penny to eat for months together..she is one who respected me, when whole world called me what not..she is one among person, who brought me out of my darkness..because she knows my pain in better way as she had gone through, what i have gone through..as she felt for herself..and i trust her blindly, as i know she won't leave me..because she held my hand, when everyone left my hand..and the person, who held ur hand in ur disaster, is a person..u should never forget..and i can't forget my four pillars of my life..i can't..

what? unnecessary expressions of shock..i don't believe can play this well..i patted my back feeling proud about myself..

manik tum sab janthe ho? it was nandini..oh! god, holding ur mouth, when u know whole thing, is damn difficult..i'm feeling it right now..i mean now i can picturise all scenes which played behind my back..

yeah! but i didn't knew it was u..i said to her..i was impressed my own drama's..wow! good going manik..

apne nai bathaya manik ko? after seeing my pic in his cabin.. nandini hit the point with confusion, its super to get entertained with drama's..i got why people love daily soaps..

voh..she looked me, as i gave blank look to her..but literally i was laughing at each expenses of them..this game is damn interesting u see..but it will be worth watching to see in between mrudula and abhay..

smitha forced a nervous smile to me, as she turned back, to get help from abhi and vishwas..who were equally puzzled to answer us..

manik, i wanted say u..when u find her..that's the reason..that's all..she said with all stammer, seeing her phone and my eyes immediately land to person next to me..seeing his audacity, my blood boiled,he was next to me but know how to fool around..as he had messaged smitha to answer above lines for us..he is quick and smart at same time..and have real guts to stand in front of me..abhay malhotra, u gonna have life wait and watch..

oh! nandini said, did she really bought them..nandini murthy yell ur son, he is culprit of whole situation, and see he is sitting as if, he had not done nothing..once he says story na..see what i'm gonna do..i will hang him upside down for making my whole 2 years, upside down..

ya..but i'm happy to see u again..and this time i know ur name..smitha said with a smile..nandini smiled at her..

and he is ur son? she asked smitha..who bobbed her head with all her happiness..prathik was ray of hope in smitha's life..and reason of her life..and child like prathik deserved love of smitha in all way..i'm great full that they found him in church warna kids like him, would have been in worst.. which a child shouldn't be..and removing demons from smitha's life was one hectic job for me..its been three years of her divorce with her ex.husband..and he was son of bitch in all sense to me..it took my all power to eliminate that man from her life..and when vishwas fell in love with smitha, i don't know..their love was beyond imagination of mine..its pure, much away from ugly things..and her family accepting cherry with all their heart was blessing to her..and happiness on her marriage day was priceless to me..and prathik accepting vishwas was above everything..and today, both go so well..i bet no one believe that prathik isn't his son..they always stood for each other..they were best example for father and son to me..they proved me blood relations never mattered for love..what mattered was heart..

yeah our son..it was vishwas..i smiled at his words, which have deep effect..that's make him stand out every time in front of me..do i need say anything about vishwas.. i don't think so..he took prathik in side hug..where both smiled seeing each other..

Good to hear that.. Nandini admitted with her smile, she was satisfied now, seeing Smitha and prathik happy in their life..And Nandini Murthy did a great job..If she wouldn't have saved Smitha..I wouldn't been saved..Things are to indirect yet felt like planned..Who knew Smitha gonna enter my life to hold my hand, when I'm falling..Which once was held by Nandini..She used say me, everything have its reasons in our life..Maybe..

And I'm hungry..Its Abhi..So we went ahead towards my farmhouse..Which I had bought on very fond of mrudula, as she likes to be between nature, whenever she is upset..Yeah, Lonavala we can go but she likes to spend some time here..Once in month , so making her happy is all was my Moto..So this..

This is our home, which have a memories of mine and my bird,of all three years..This my fourth home to me.. I pulled out the car in front of the house, where nandini was clung to me like baby all way, i could hardly concentrate on her as i was occupied my kids and mrudula, with their prank they did in school..and mrudula ran faster than anyone seeing the place..I smiled at her kid act, which should never change for me..Never ever..

I asked all to follow where mrudula was pulling out key from flower pot near the window..How much ever I say her to carry them, she does exactly opposite of it..I gave disbelief look to her..

Chachu key nai mil Rahi hai..She complained again, as I pulled out another spare key from my pocket...She pouted for losing yet another key. Must definitely be inside this home itself..As we both spent more time here before leaving to London in this home, with our family for sake of mrudula..

Come in..I said to everyone who were gaping at home..Which was surrounded by greenery all way..What will be there reaction for my another home in Lonavala..they will be mesmerized for sure..Avni ran behind mrudula, who took her to show home..Followed by other kids..

Chachu..I heard a exictement shout from another hall..I walked in to see what's up with her..

I look so good..Thank..Thank u..She jumped holding my hand..It was her portrait, which was painted by me..Yeah I'm artist.. That's the reason Avni have it in her blood (i guess someone guessed it right in inline comments-good guess dear)..And it's secret, no one knows it except mrudula, Smitha and neyonika mom..which I found out myself three and half years ago..To find myself..And that journey made me found that I'm good painter..Which was a way to bring out my feeling in form of paint..There are many such paintings in Lonavala..Which is flooded with my emotions..I just wanted to show my emtions in something..Music will always be my priority but painting is something which I found in my darkness all alone in that home..

Apne kab banaya?? She asked jumping on me from back..Where Avni pouted little, I immediately pulled her up in my arms..I never going to ignore any or I let anyone insecure between them..I will equally love them with my heart..And I will make sure they won't feel ignored in presence of mine, when both are together..

London Jane se Pele.. yape Bore horatha..So, this.. I said remembering the day before leaving to london..As I had nightmare, I couldn't sleep..So I painted her, who bought smile in my face..

I called my servants who live in out house..To whom I said to prepare lunch arrangements..All occupied respective rooms to freshen up till food comes..Where I was helped by kids to see arrangements..And Nandini was seeing frames on wall which is in hall..

So, painter?? I didn't knew u were painter..She said tracing painting of mrudula..I smiled seeing nandini's smile..

Hmm..Muje khud nai patha tha..but Life ne mujhe khud Samje ne keliye vakth diya tha..thab Patha chala..I'm painter..I said to her..As she saw her own painting on other wall..

ur good painter manii..she said as she leaned on my shoulder, i held her by waist as i kissed my love..

Thank you..I said as I showed whole home.. Where she was all way holding my hand as if I will disappear..what's up this women? was my question..mind me to answer..

Smitha n Vishwas's bedroom

Prathik's room

Manan's room

Mrudula's room

Avni's room

Abhay's room

Nandini's pov

I was walking with him..By holding him, as near as I could..I know he would've mentally noted about my behaviour and I know he will charge me, when I'll be alone with him..He was showing me all rooms of the house..It was pretty home with best white theme interiors..He also said mrudula likes white just like me, so whole home was based on her taste, and her taste said me, she was daughter of perfectionist alya..Seeing the painting of mrudula in hall made me really mesmerized..His words really made me think what must have he gone through..I felt myself too guilt to handle..How could he survived with them all this years with his guilt, I don't know..I even didn't bothered..And he never complained me for same..He was different man I ever meet, where are there other men's in world, who spoil image of girl after their breakup with them..And he was my man..Who was exclusive made for me..Whom I pushed and walked out without seeing my back..Where he was struggling to hold me when he couldn't handle himself with nervous breakdown..He wasn't cruel but I was..

And this is mrudula's room..Next followed by all our rooms..He said climbing first floor of the home..It was spacious room with a beautiful view..Where I saw many pics of Manik and his bird's frames..

I guess, mrudula will be of 5 in this frame..They both looked more like father and daughter than chachu and his bird..And smile on mrudula's face was reflected on manik's lips..

Ye photo..Cherry ne click Kiya tha..Usne muje office se kich kar, park lekar gayithi..And we enjoyed alot that day..there was smile on his face, which was exact same like in frame, mrudula was succeeded to bring his innocent smile like a kid, and I'm really great full for her..

and this in lonaval..mrudula ko summer holidays aytha thab ka tha..and u don't believe me..usne muje hide seek kelna sikaya..jo maine kabhi nae kelatha..he said remembering his childhood..manik lost a beautiful childhood in his life, which every kid love cherish what so ever age they are today..but he don't have any good memories about them..and he couldn't see his own kids early childhood also..how unlucky he is..

bird hates math..manik said laughing looking at frame, it looked little older of 3 to 4 years back..where manik looked too pale and thin..he nor wore any expensive attire..he looked impoverished..and mrudula was there when he was not able to survive, she accepted him in whatever state he was unlike me, who left him, in worst situation, where he had been bankrupt, i walked without turning back..that reminds dad's words..where was manik? for whole 7 years..he wasn't there anywhere..and his come back was on my birthday on concert in Singapore, was a big hit..And from that day there was no turning back for The Manik Malhotra..i still remember abhay's reaction seeing manik..but my thoughts were disturbed by manik again..

aur ye jab, bird mujse gussa hogay thi..jab maine usse need se uta diya tha..pura ghar ko afath lagayi thi uski wajese..i love to disturb her from her beauty sleep..he said laughingly..he tried to pull her cheeks in frame..

i miss that small mrudula..he said looking at her frame..i smiled seeing such manik..who was completely different, which i experienced years back..he wasn't same any more..

aur ye this is on her birthday..isn't she cute? he asked me..i bobbed my head with smile..i saw excitement in his eyes whenever he talks about mrudula or her childhood..she was special to him..and he was for her..

when is her birthday? i asked to make her birthday grand as much as I could to make her happy, the way she did for manik..but it was replied by abhay on manik's behalf..

march 11..kitten and his's birthday are on same date..abhay filled up facts..but how does he know that..oh! how can i forget he knows everything about manik and his world than any..And mrudula is his all world..Since years.. And where manik had unknown smirk..did i miss something again?

Muje mrudula ki bachpan photo dikna hai..I said in excitement..Where manik's face fell, all his smirk went to bin..

I don't have any such photos..Manik said meekly..As he gulped little bit..I saw abhay even he was little some what blank hearing me.. What's up with this two..

Arey ese kese Manik..U must be having her baby photo with u..Like u holding her..Are playing with her..Small mrudula..I simply didn't asked that question but to know things about Manik..As he said he never held any small baby in his entire life..But manik's face went blank, his eyes were devoid from my every emtions..Where Abhay looked manik with helpless face..

I wasn't there when she was born..He said turning towards frame..As he avoided me..Where Abhay supported him like always to cover him up..

and if u both are done.. Please come downstairs food is ready..He changed topic so well..Ye ladka bohuth smart hai..Bilkul Apne baap pe Gaya hai..

And huh! How do u know, mine and bird's birthday are on same date?? Manik asked turning to abhay, who became sudden concious hearing mrudula's name..

Voh Avni ko bol rahi thi, tab Suna Mene..He was fumbling each word..Which hardly had few words..And he ran out immediately..And Manik Malhotra very well know, how to change the topic, which he was stuck seconds back..He was dumbass..

did i miss something? i asked in confusion pout..where he kissed my pout..

bohuth kuch..and i hope u will digest things the way i'm doing..he said looking at the door, from where abhay just left..

kena kya chathe ho malhotra? i asked him crossing my arms..where he pulled me by waist, as he started drawing circles on my bare waist..and tucking my strands..

ki chote malhotra se bach ki rehena..he knows to play game in real good..which is beyond mine and ur imagination..be ready murthy..ur life isn't simple and all thanks to ur son..he warned as he walked out looking for his son sure..who was one smart ass with jerk personality..urgg..malhotra's, beyond my imagination..

where i went back to that memory line..

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flashback 

3 years ago

nandini's birthday

i was sitting in lawn of our home, where everyone were wishing me..my birthdays' were made special by all three men's of my life..one was my dad, my man and my son..and it was also one special day for me, made by my son..yes..he isn't that old to organise a grand party..But he was good at whatever he does..Abhay Malhotra surprises only to people, who he loves the most..And I'm in first list since he is born..A perfect carbon copy of my man..

But my birthday's were incomplete without my man's wish..I'm missing his wish since 8 years..Neither I have seen him in any concerts, news article, news channels, music industry, which he was famous for..He was missing since Dubai concert..And even I don't bother to remember that cheater, who cheated me..Blood jerk..Let him rot in hell..I cursed him again..As I heard small melody which was played by my son..He is learning guitar..He can play small melody..And his way of playing matches in all way to Manik..

Mom this for u..He played some melody, which I enjoyed..He was what every mother wish to have in her son..And I'm blessed to have kids like them..

My birthday was in full swing with my daughters new sketches gift..viren and jeevika's exclusive wardrobe collection for me.. abhi's beautiful pearl set..but nothing could match manik and dad's gift for me, which are beyond someone's imagination.. Until viren received call..He ran to drawing room to on TV..Followed by we all..As we never seen viren so excited for something except jeevika and we..

And what I saw in TV took all my breath..Where Abhay stood in front next to that was Avni with her smile..

The Manik Malhotra is finally back..It was viren..Who had tears in his eyes..He also don't know where is Manik..Seeing him after 8 years, really made my birthday a best birthday..I simply sat on couch as tears made my way..Whatever it is, how much ever ruthless he is..But my heart couldn't hate him..Neither it could accept his betrayal for me..nor it could stop loving him..It was infinity for him always..He was the one whom I loved like hell..But what I got was betrayal..How foolish I was, to trust a heartless man like him..He never deserved me neither my kids..He don't deserve anything in this world..He Don't..

And there I saw Manik Malhotra entering with same attitude..Holding small baby girl of 5 year..Did he got married?? Was my minds first question..How ever my mind badly cursed him..My mind very well know he is my man..And she accepting Manik with girl, never going to happen..I will kill that women with my bare hands..And then put knife to Manik..If cheats me with other women..And I will kill myself too..I can live in this world until he is breathing in this world..Warna..I will end my breathing next second..I'm living peacefully now because I know he is there somewhere in this part of world breathing..Because I never gave him permission to die..And he can't  die without my consent..Because I hold is soul..Within me..As he holds mine..

He looked all pale..his eyes had bagges and it was covered with glares..I could hardly read them..he walked in arena with same Attitude of his..followed by fab5, who had smile except mukthi but her eyes conveyed sadness and guilt in her eyes.. fab4 tried to take manik's place in his absence, they tried to rebuild fab5 without Manik..But nothing worked for them.. Because The Manik Malhotra built the fab5 without him no one is going to accept them, it was universal truth..Proved by his fandom..He gave evil smirk to his dad, who immediately gulped seeing it.. What's happening here..He put baby down..As I saw baby's name with Topivala next to it..Which made me sigh in relief as she is daughter of dhruvlya, but for heaven sake I never seen her before in any concerts and award function with them..And u can't blame u see..And she smiled at Manik, he returned it same..ek second, What I just thought Manik will marry someone..Someone will kill me..because I know myself that's not going to happen..never.. And my heart said...U aren't going to change in near future..And baby u have stored hell in ur life be ready for it..For which me and my mind rolled..at Her stupid logics..she herself Never going to change either..

Good evening Singapore..It was his shout..And I felt I'm alive again..Hearing him after years, where my heart carved for him, and he finally fulfilled my wish to see him, on my this birthday atleast..thanku manii..Where I felt hand around my Shoulders..I saw Abhi..Who assured everything will be fine..Where I don't, I have to worried for Manik..As I know Abhi never let Manik to enter my life because he hates Manik in infinity for his deeds..For which I suffered very badly..After our kids birth..He was responsible for everything..For all bad..He is the reason..he is worst nightmare of my life..my mind said..where my heart was still admiring her man..she can never stop drooling over him..never..

Oh! Aiyyappa..He as such mesmerizing voice..It was my daughter who fell for her dad's charming voice, I can't help even her mother fell for same..

Afterall bhai kiska hai?? Viren said in proud. Where my kids gave confuse look.. Especially abhay..

Ur brother..U mean The Manik Malhotra is Ur brother..I mean u are talking about this Rockstar..I'm sorry but I never heard about him or seen with this fab4..Abhay said in little shock..As Abhay have good track about Rockstar's of various countries..And Manik being not in that list..Good for us..

Because..We ourselves didn't knew where was he..U don't know Abhay..He is great musician, he is world famous rockstar, his fan's die for his voice..U should hear from him..And let me tell u his sister is Ur Mami..I mean abhimanyu's wife.. Mukthi Abhimanyu Thakur..He filled some facts, which I wanted keep away from my kids as much as possible..I don't want any damn Malhotra's near my kids.. Especially Manik Malhotra..

I don't care he is best or not..And I give damn about it..I really do think, is really age of 7..I don't think so.. Attitude tho baap se like ayya hai..

Then u will soon.. Abhay u don't know  my brother's charm..I bet u can't stop Ur self complimenting him..He is best whatever he is..he said proudly.. i rolled my eyes..best my foot..

Let's see.. Abhay said but my daughter dropped a huge bomb on me by her sentences..

Doesn't his voice, attitude and looks, exactly matches with abhay..Why should my daughter be so smart ass..everyone gave me blank look..Oh! Aiyyappa please do some miracle that they forget this topic..But I just missed most suspicious look of abhay towards me..As I was too into me..To look around me..

Hope u all remember me..It was Manik..I took deep sigh as he grabbed attention of Everyone in the hall but yet again i missed abhay's consent gaze on me..manik became savior at the time..Where all crowd hooted saying an yes, that they remember him..

And hope u remember me too jaanu..He said with small meaningful smile, it had equal sadness..How can I even forget a person like u, whose is equally reason of my happiness and tears..It bloody hurts Manik Malhotra..It hurts..

And whose this jaanu now?? It was jeevika..Who was viewing TV with all her interest..Why are they talking like commercial ads, can't they sit quiet and let me hear him after 8 long years..

His girlfriend.. That's what I heard years back, he loves her like hell.. and he used organize concerts on her birthday to just to wish her..he said, that made me smile little..

How romantic and cute he is..My daughter kissed his frame on TV..But smile, he doesn't deserve that cuteness from u..He isn't good baby..Come back to mamma, he isn't good for us..But my heart said dare u teach our daughter this and tell ill words about my Manik ..I rolled typical Nandini Murthy's heart..Where she gave whatever look to me..

Indeed he is..Such lovely boy he is..It was jeevika.. Oh! Girl, if u aren't my friend I would've killed u by now..Dare u say lovely to him..I only have that right to call him whatever I want..And no one is allowed to do so..

hope u are hearing me atleast today..yeah firstly Wish u Many Many More Happy returns of the day to u Jaanu..may ur lord bless u with all world's happiness to u..stay blessed..stay safe, wherever u are..and i miss u..he finally wished me as tears rolled from my eyes..this is what i missed all this years..his wishes..which were always pure..he don't believe in god..but he never stopped me to pray my aiyyappa, who gave me my Manik to this life..and my heart cried hearing him..she missed him..and even my mind also wanted to run to his arms and never let him leave me..forgetting everything..but my mind instantly stopped me..and i was back..i don't want him..i don't need him..which was big lie of my life..he was all i needed in this life..in all my life..

So, Singapore ready to rock with me..he shouted at his head phone..which got huge hooting in his name..he was there, where he wanted to live..and i was here, where i never wanted to be..i'm happy for u manii..i'm for u atleast..

yeah..whole home echoed one name manik malhotra even abhi..abhi is big fan of manik's voice.. And he once said to me..and my servant Merry was big of his..she started shouted with joy, seeing him back again..where my daughter stood next to her..and i stood to listen him, after years together by my man..and like always it will be for me alone, it will be dedicated to me..

So, Jaanu..this is for u..wishing u again..A very happy birthday to u from my side..This for u love..he said to me..

(Guyss do listen this, u will feel manik's emotion and feelings_humari adhuri kahani- n this boy's voice is real fab)

he was playing his guitar in same passion, like he had always for it..and there started The Manik Malhotra's era, and today onwards there was no looking back..his voice had unknown depth..and his song and lines definitely made me cry..It was his story in form of his lyrics..Where he told our story..Which didn't had proper ending..

Paas aaye..
Dooriyaan phir bhi kam naa hui
Ek adhuri si hamari kahani rahi
Aasmaan ko zameen, ye zaroori nahi
Jaa mile.. jaa mile..
Ishq saccha wahi
Jisko milti nahi manzilein.. manzilein..

he sang lines, which were definitely for me..he wanted to communicate this to me alone..music is always way to know manik..and he said that he couldn't reach me,which is hell truth..i don't need him near me also.. his love was true..and i can't say a word against it..i had felt it..and i can feel it even today..he is known for his selfless love but there was always great distance between us..and he is sole reason for it..he is alone..he himself bought this distance between us..

Rang thhe, noor tha
Jab kareeb tu tha
Ek jannat sa tha, yeh jahaan
Waqt ki ret pe kuch mere naam sa
Likh ke chhod gaya tu kahaan

that reminds our beautiful past..which can i ever forget..he had given me everything before i ask for him, he is best i could get, even my mind knows it so well ..he took care of me like my mom, when i missed her..he used cook for me and feed me like my mom..he used take good care of me, when i used be ill..he used to cry, if anything happens to me..he used protect me like a father from his parents and everyone..and never said a word to me..he all wanted my happiness and my smile, which always reflected on his lips..all he wanted was me Alone...

Hamari adhuri kahani..
Hamari adhuri kahani.. (x2)

this really made me tear up..Our relationship ended with a very bad note..the way we never thought in our worst nightmare also..and we are away.. far away from each other, maybe it physically or mentally but what today also..we hold us is our soul..which couldn't be distanced ever..which couldn't be either from us..And we don't that also..

Khushbuon se teri yunhi takra gaye
Chalte chalte dekho na hum kahaan aa gaye

yes, he was right..today he is standing in another world, while i in other..there is no connection between us..still he is connected to my heart..forever and ever..Till my last breath..

Jannatein agar yahin
Tu dikhe kyon nahin
Chaand suraj sabhi hai yahaan
Intezar tera sadiyon se kar raha
Pyaasi baithi hai kab se yahaan

i just wanted to see his eyes..which always pooled up with great emotions of his..my bad, he had bravely covered up them from me..i could only cry hearing his words, which always comes out from his heart directly..he missed me like hell..he waited for me like hell..telling me his emotions to me in beyond..he needed all me..as if he is saying..i betrayed his trust, which he had on me..as if he was finding for me in whole world..what white lie it was..he never come for me..he never..he just used me..

Humari adhoori kahaani
Humari adhoori kahaani.. (x2)

he ended..where my tears didn't stopped at all..i palmed my face as i felt, i did biggest mistake of my life..i felt i'm his culprit..which was other way for me..i felt like i broke him in zillions..i felt like i broke his trust..i felt such a guilt..where i wanted to get rip my heart..it hurts badly..i looked tv..he had already turned his face for a second..where i couldn't see his face at all..and when he turned back..nothing was there except blankness..i couldn't read my man for the first time..and my heart felt a perfect knife into it..and it started bleeding like hell..i was feeling suffocated of my own..i felt hatred on my own self..where my mind stopped working..where my heart didn't said word for me..i wanted to hear from her..but seeing him all blank, she went mute..she couldn't ever imagine her manik like that never ever..

i looked around, my whole home was pooled in tears..my smile, who was reason for everyone's smile..had tears hearing him, she immediately flung to my arms..where viren was crying hearing him..he was his brother after all..jeevika merry everyone were in tears..abhi had unknown guilt in his eyes just like me..

nandini..i'm feeling suffocated..he said rubbing his chest, after hearing manik same was my case..everyone were in tears except the person, who poured his emotions in form of his music..he stood blank, unaffected..and there was thunderous of clapping in whole arena..he just pressed his lips..and gave his best famous fake smile to world..was he the same man,who had abandoned of pain and loneliness in his heart..yet he can smile with that..and i finally looked the person, no one can make him cry..or he never allowed anyone to see his tear..and never to be messed boy was having tears in his eyes..and i saw it for the first time in live in my life, which I never seen..warna he is mahir in hiding them like his dad..

manliya mamo..he have great soulful voice..which i never heard..which i have never seen..and I agree he as charm to hold any in his voice..maine manliya he is infinity..and no one reach that place the way he has reached..abhay finally accepted it..and for which he didn't had regret..it was first time, that abhay was praising someone..abhay never does that..but he did it for manik..his dad..

and concert continued with slow numbers with equal rocking tunes of manik..he won hearts of thousands at that moment..and he looked unaffected, it hardly mattered him, the way it used be, the way he dreamt..he didn't had peace in his face..he didn't had any emotion on his face..but his voice and words would can make any cry and  smile..he was THE MANIK MALHOTRA, THE ROCKSTAR..AFTERALL..

all took me to church as it is tradition of me praying god on my birthday..since my birth..i can't miss it..and avni will never let me miss them either..but i forgot to see my son who was still stuck to tv..he never admired any or fascinated by any..but it went complate wrong in manik's case..he stood there till concert completes, till manik walking away without caring about any media or rest fab4 with small girl..who kissed him, for his best performance..he finally smiled looking at that small angel ..which was specially sent by God for broken soul..to mend and heal his heart and soul..

"APKO JANKE RAHUNAGA MR.MANIK MALOTRA..ITS PROMISE FROM ABHAY..MY ROCKSTAR..abhay had smile, which had meaning..which i didn't seen in my son's face..he was determined to know his rockstar..he was..that was start afterall..and to the journey to reach THE MANIK MALHOTRA TO MANIK..HIS DAD..His Rockstar.."

end of flashback..

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it just gave me shiver, even to remember that day, where i felt depth of guilty and failure of my own self..i hated myself..i don't know, why i felt so.but today somewhere i know i'm behind all this..i looked abhay who was nudging manik to feed him..where manik gave disbelief to all of us..including me..as he was feeding all kids with me..and abhay used chuckle whenever manik gives him annoyed look..are they both real, is my question..there is always a bond between manik and abhay, which was beyond my imagination..

ahh..manik opened his mouth as avni was feeding him by her hands..while he feeding us..she used take care of him just like his dreamy mom..Manik Malhotra had won his kids heart, at first glimpse of his before he entering our life..Avni loves to hear him after that concert..And abhay I don't know anything about him..

he came to me, as he even feed me followed by mrudula, prathik, abhay and avni..where others occupied dinner table to complete lunch..where manik avoided all encounters with my dad..he used pass fake smile towards him, my dad tried to talk with him..but he made sure he was occupied with any of us..why was he doing that? there was huge amount of guilt and pain in his eyes, whenever he sees dad's face..he avoided eye contact with him..yes, dad said true..we lost our manik, very badly..i feel i'm the sole reason for it..and my heart was bleeding hearing his side of story..i already left message to neyonika aunty to meet her..and she said an yes, she will meet me day after tomorrow as she will be busy with day out with manik tomorrow..and i said an yes..till then i need to search about manik..yes, i need to..he is mystery to me, and the truth is covered from me..a real big one, behind me..where everyone knows it, except the girl, who says she love him in infinity..

nandini murthy to the earth..it was manik and abhi..i shivered for a second, and both were laughing like hell seeing me all zoned out and their prank got really well on me..As I was scared to shit..

duffers..u scared me...i shouted at them..as they both ran in different direction as i ran behind them..where everyone were laughing at us..this is what abhi and manik are..Whom I missed..their bond..they were great friends and everything was ruined badly..where i saw hatred in abhi's eyes for manik..where manik didn't said word but accepted it..he never stopped any allegation upon him..he accepted them, how badly he was hurt by us..he never showed to us..but deep down we have cut his hearts in always..we did..and a word didn't came from his mouth..

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i was standing in our room, which had only my frames, which i ever seen.. I looked beautiful in each frame of mine..i looked cute..i looked beautiful..i looked gorgeous..i looked sexy..i looked hot..i looked grumpy..i looked annoyed..i looked angry..i looked naughty..i looked shock..i looked surprised..i looked happy..i looked sad..i looked cried..this was the way manik had captured me in his memory..and it was displayed on this wall..just the way it is there in his heart..

when i felt a pair of hand surrounding me from my back around my bare waist..i leaned my frame against his broad chest, where i fit perfectly..he kissed my hairs..i can feel his smile..

I look beautiful malhotra..i said to him..where he smiled and replied..

u are indeed beautiful soon to be mrs. malhotra..he referred i blushed hearing them..he giggled with grin, and i can actually imagine in it..even by not seeing him..

manik, do i deserve u?? I asked him..Where he losened the grip listening to me..I felt unknown fear..Maybe he will leave me for my deeds..

I guess no..He said turning me towards him..I wasn't shock it will be lie..Yes, I asked him that doesn't mean..He answers me like that..

Because I deserve someone, who is utterly obsessed with me..He said in soft tone to make me understand.. Holding my either side of arms..Where my eyes was locked with his..

And that's only u..Who is so so obsessed with me.. Henceforth u deserve me more than that I deserve u..He said lovingly..And his words did magic on my heart..His words had it and only he has it..I engulfed him for bear hug..Where he patted my head while pressing a kiss on my forehead..

Change and take nap baby..U still have more surprises ahead..u Birthday girl..He lightly patted my cheeks..I just clung to him again..I need him near to me, as I'm scared to let him go for Seconds..

I don't want to do anything ..I need u.. That's all..I announced..He must be thinking I'm insane, u can't help me..Things around me is making me all cranky, he needs to take care of it..

Okay..Okay..Then I'm here..Just go and change..I'm here only baby..He rest the case..But nothing can help him, when I'm cranky like small kid..He need to pamper me with his love and care.. That's what I need from him..To get assured..

Hell no..I'm not in a mood..I said, he made me sit on his lap before removing a pair of my and his cloths from bag with cotton pads to remove my little make up..As he sat comfortably on bed with head board support..As he started removing jewellery where I was doodling I love u..I miss u on his heart. Which he hardly noticed..He was done with jewellery and removal of make up..Now it was time of changing..

Nandini go and change..He said softly where my head gave negative nod to him..He sighed and asked again..

Are u sure..U want me to do this,.I mean..I cut him middle..

Cent percent..And I want to get rid of this soon..Its so heavy..i can't carry them more..Where he laughed at my grumpy and frustrated face..He had guts..I say u..I gave grumpy pout..he stopped immediately..

Why are so cute jaanu?? I feel like i gobble u up..He bite my cheeks..I could only blush at his act..

He removed pin from back, where I sitting between his legs..And for my bad luck, the blouse was backless..I cursed myself..As my pallu was thrown on other side of bed..Where I was trembling just by imagining what can happen next..I called for it..I need to pull it..And turning on with him is great feeling u see..And I'm feeling it right now..He started his trail of kisses on my back..where my breath hitched at his sensual act..he pulled me more to him..i sitting on his lap again but this time i can feel his member..oh! nandini u are gone..where his hands encircled my waist as slowly as he could..where i had dig my nails into his skin..where his hands reached to my tucked plates..to my death..his hands went inside them..i arched back, making him to hold me tighter..this is called,calling ur own death..which nandini tends to more..without thinking twice..

he removed plates of saree..but his hands were measuring every inch on my lower part and massaging them..i hid my head in his crook, by pulling his hairs towards me more..for heaven sake i don't want him stop at all..if almighty permits i will stick to him forever and ever..he threw entire saree in one go as i sat on his lap with my undone blouse and skirt..

nandini..u will be my death for sure..he said huskily near my ears biting them, taking his own time..i pulled his hairs more from back..as i'm going crazy under his acts..

as if u aren't, mine? i said overcoming my uneven breath and as result he will be grinning for sure..where his tortures continued with wet kisses on sweet spot to nape..i arched more for it..i gave full access to him..where he took all my hairs kept on my left shoulder..his hands went to strings of my blouse..he removed them taking his own time..and placed more kisses on them..his hands reached hook of blouse..within seconds my blouse was in corner of the room..where i shied seeing our position and myself..

where he kept his chin on my right shoulders..as he titled and looked into my eyes with his all desire..the intensity was so much..that i felt jelly down there..my cheeks were heated do to proximity..it was clear indication to him proceed further..as i know, i can't stop him..i let go in flow..i don't mind whatever happens next..where his index finger trailing on my body..which gave my whole body shiver..as his finger traveled from forehead to assure me, nose which was having uneven breath, lips which were trembling at his tortures, he chinned me up, his finger trailed from my throat to neck..and reached my chest..he looked my eyes, still drawing circles on them, taking my all insanity..his finger traveled over my boobs which was still covers with my black lingerie..and his eyes shined with his passion and need for me..his hands moved little downwards passing my navel, tummy reaching to the knot of skirt..where my eyes was still fixed with his..he removed knot of skirt, and in seconds i was sitting in front of him only with my inners..i blushed and turned my face..

where he gave back tight back hug to me after making me wear my shots..where he still didn't had buttoned them..

nandini..he said sweetly, i titled my face to him..i kissed his cheeks lovingly..where he grinned wider..

i'm happy but still u can make it up more..u know that, right? he teased me..i gave him amused smile of mine..he was tease and perfect opportunist in matter of romance..he will never let go this things that easily..i know it..

u know what i mean..don't u baby? he said eyeing his lips..where i gave oh! look as i bite my lower lips..which was just adding more salt to his desires..

don't? he added as i laughed at his irritation..where he pouted for not having his favorite candy..i sat side ways on his lap..and he adjusted me properly..where i pulled his hairs..i smiled at him as i pressed my lips with his..and fireworks started..where i can feel his smile and his hands where touching my skin ever lazily and sexily..making me go wild..

and his hand reached between my thighs..which stopped me to respond..even he stopped seeing my sudden stop but our lips contact didn't left..as we both opened our eyes..looked into each others eyes..i blushed and pulled him more and started kissing him again..where he had boyish grin of his..and his hands went inside my shorts..where my right hand accidentally pressed his member..and he groaned more as our slow kiss went wild with all passion of world..nothing matter us in the world..it was simply us..the way it was years back..

where he started massaging my clit over fabric, and I moaning in loudest in his mouth..and i was no less..i was squeezing his member in real hard..it was really different feeling..which can't put in words, where he was groaning badly..and i could feeling i was getting wet as his pase got faster making go crazy for him..and he got so carried away that his hand entered into my panty..making me go all insane for him..i needed him..where his finger found its desired place..it make me jump in kiss..where we both broke the kiss immediately unwillingly..i opened my eyes to see him, who was already looking at me..as he took out his hands from there..and he put his finger in his mouth, let me tell u his look and act literally made me burn within him..

u taste heavenly love..he said sexily and i crashed into his embrace as i couldn't take his intensity, his passion and his wild desire for me..where he hugged me back..

be like this, my innocent nandu..he said as he kissed my ears, and his words made me feel too good..i glee in happiness as i kissed on his broad shoulders..and our moment was disturbed by knock..i made grumpy face..but manik made out immediately..

avni..is that u? he asked loudly..where he made me where my shirt..as he buttoned my shorts..where i was shocked seeing him all calm..if things would've been, like years before, he would have barked or rip that person's head for disturbing his romance..and seeing him calm, i became frustrated and irritated..for the first time, i hated my daughter's for sudden entry..u can't blame me..it was our moment after all..urg Avni Malhotra..

yeah..she shouted back..manik made me sit on bed covering me from covers till my tummy..he kissed my forehead..

we will continue this some other time..he said teasingly looking at my shorts and me..i gave him glare as he knows i was annoyed for interruption and his teasing will fetch him higher cost this time..

he jog to door..and there stood another junior nandini murthy..all grumpy..she pushed manik aside, as she walked inside room..she sat on bed..giving glare to manik..where he walked back to us..giving nervous smile to his daughter..he simply stood without a word..thinking what our daughter was thinking..where i was calculating why was she angry with manik..

i'm angry..she said loudly was he didn't attempted to ask what's the matter, making manik jump with her sudden voice..he looked me and her again..

maa beti ek jese ho..we both glared him..where he took cloths moved to washroom ineffected by our looks..

i will be back..where avni ran behind him, as she started banging door..to irritate him..and laughing loudly with her mischief..i can never understand this daughter and her daddy..where manik came back with in a minute in his shorts and vest..he swiftly lifted avni in his arms as both jumped on other side of bed..

muje teas karogi..huh!..he started tickling her where she was laughing whole heartily..where i can't stop admiring them..this what avni missed, all this years..its her dad alone..when she got it, she became most happiest soul of the world, which she deserved..and her smile became more genuine and meaningful..where manik gave her all love of world..which she missed all this years..he never let her feel ignored in his presence..he is there before me for her now..And that's what I wanted for my daughter..Her happiness, which always lied with her daddy dear..

and i saw both were sleeping peacefully without thinking anything..where avni was patting manik's head, while he was doing same for her, I smiled at that care both had for each other, it was something unique, and out of the box if u ask me..i moved towards them..avni was sleeping on his stomach..they are best daughter and dad..i could ever see.. Avni, how she easily accepted him, she accepted him with all flaws without thinking twice..she never asked any question to manik, for not being there..and manik didn't gave her any reason to ask that question as she was filled up with all love, she missed years back..he always compensated for her..i smiled remembering there memories as i took manik's phone from side table clicked there pics, many selfies of ours..i adored the duo for a while, who are other name of cuteness to me..

stop admiring murthy..we know, we both malhotra's are too cute to handle..so, sleep now..he said still in sleepy voice as pulled me towards him, where i settled on his left arm..wasn't he asleep..where i kissed both of them on their cheeks..and both smiled in sleep..making me smile..this is what family is for me..a imperfectly perfect..

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manik's pov

kaka..mrudula ka dyan rakna...she is sleeping in her room..just be checking her once in while..if she wants anything get her..tek hai? where my servant bobbed his head..as i took avni in my arms..as she is no mood to leave me like her mom..both women's are clung to me..and it felt too good to have them near to me..

where abhay walked out with dad..as we all are going to hospital to see mom..and nandini isn't aware of it still..i opened passenger door for nandini as i settled in driving seat with avni in my lap..abhay and dad in back seat..and others will reach concert directly and its just past 4..And concert starts at 8..

mom..aaj na mai na bohuth kush hu..it was happiest soul Abhay..

why so happy abhay? it was avni behalf of nandini..where i looked him in rare mirror..he winked at me seeing me..i knew he was going to tease any of us here...

aaj app thodi meri mom jese dikrahi ho..i'm so happy to see u like this..i can't put it in words,u see...i laughed at his statement where nandini glared all the three of us..u can't help us either..he was my son after all in tease..

manan's attire

avya's attire

where we reached hospital sooner..where i talked little to dad..but to thanks to lords my attention was fully occupied by avni..who was asking me what's that? what's this..i need to answer each and everything..i love to spend my time with her..i feel, i'm spending my time with my mom more than my daughter..as she takes care of me than i do for her..i feel so happy and excited when she is around..now i won't miss my mom, as i have my pumpkin..

nandini eyes cringed more, finding herself on same hospital where she was thrown out years back..but dad took care of her..where i walked infront with my kids..all were smiling at me with their wishes..

hey Manik..i turned back as i saw sanskar, who was coming out of OT..i smiled at him..where abhay and avni waved him hi..

hello beauty and hulk..he said pulling avni's cheek, where she pouted at him..she gave complaining look to me to yell at him for his acts..

sanskar, she hates that man..so, don't..i said where my daughter smiled in victory..where sanskar smiled at us..

sanskar, meet nandini..nandini this is Dr. Sanskar..i introduced to her..he shook his hand with her giving genuine smile to her..

hello mam..welcome to city hospital..he said to her..

hello..she said with unknown fear..what's up with this women? 

Dr.sanskar can we see my wife? where nandini's eye shot up hearing it..she looked her dad and then me..i held her by shoudlers..She needed an assurance from me that's all..And her eyes are asking same from morning, what happened to her..Was my question..

Off course, why not? Manik ne already puch liya tha mujse..U can meet her..He said to us..Where he himself guided us to ICU..Where I wanted to ran away from guilt..I feel I'm responsible for every happening..I'm so unlucky that whomever I love to core leave me..It hurts and badly hurts, where I can't hold them..However I want to hold their hands..But in vain I can't..I stood far away from everything..She looked so pale and white without proper food in her body..She is worn out..Seeing her like this, it churned my heart in billions..She was not my girl's mom but she was my mom too..She never made me feel I was outsider in their family..She always wanted share something with me..But she couldn't get gather herself to say that to me..And I still remember, how mom had called me up, when I was sitting in airport with all empty hand..Nothing was left in my hands..I was tied up badly..I sat in my sit as tears flew from eyes..As biggest truth of my life came in front of me in my worst place..Where I'm helpless in all situations.. That's the last time I talked to her..When she asked where was I?? I didn't knew why she wanted to talk to me that urgently..But I needed someone at the moment..I told her that I was in airport..After that I don't know why didn't she came to meet me..I waited for long time till I clashed with my dad and mukthi again..And after that my life turned to 360 degree..Where I lost most precious things in matter of 4 days..That showed where I stood in everyone's life..Where my life thought me biggest lesson's for life..Which I can't forget in my life..Where I lost my own self so badly that, I used shiver with fear in dark corner of our apartment..Waiting for Nandini to enter our home and tell me..That she won't go any where leaving me...Such things never happened..And after Dubai concert it was my last hope..Which got crashed badly..Where I lost..I truly lost my trust on Nandini..And that's when I entered dark world of my life..Where no one reach me except my pain..My guilt..My heartbreaks..My broken trust..My own hatred..My own crashed hope..My ugly life truth..

Mom..Please get up..Mom uto..It was Nandini, who bought me to real world..As I looked her crying figure..Shaking mom badly..I let her do anything..Hope for the best..Let mom wake up, at least for jaanu's plead..Where my kids and dad stood with tears..

Mom app ese kese karsakthi ho..U need to get up..Kithna sal se sorahi ho..Get up mom..Please..I had tears for myself..It badly hurts..The one who gave birth to u doesn't respond to u..I know that feeling..I know that..

Mom, please diko..See I have come with my kids..Diko kithna badi bachi hai muje..Please get up mamma..Please see them..She said to mom..I couldn't see Nandini like that..She looked so helpless..I don't know what to do..But I heard beeping sound from system..I looked machine..And smiled seeing mom's hand reacting..

She is gaining her conciousness..i said in happiness..As I ran myself infront..I held her hands within mine..

Mom..Mom..Get up..Yes, u can get up..Open Ur eyes..I know u can hear me..Get up..I just forgot everything..I knew she will wake up this time..I looked beeping machine again..Where Sanskar bobbed his head saying yes..U are right..I smiled hugely..It was infinity moment for me..If ask u me..As tears rolled from my eyes..When I saw her eye balls rotating within closed lids..She is trying her best to open her eyes..

Manik she will open her eyes and talk with me, right?? Nandini asked me, I just looked into her eyes..Which were looking assurance in my eyes..I could only Bob my head..As I could hardly put some words out from my mouth..

She finally opened her eyes..After decade and year above it..Trying to open to adjust her eyes to bright lights and her surrounding..Where all were jumping in joy..I smiled at them..As I gave place to Sanskar..Who was equally happy to see her wide awake after years..His work paid him..

I walked out of ICU..As I don't want take their family moment..And I'm happy that she is awake..And I don't want become obstacle in their happy life again..I sat on near by chair..Bowing my head..At exact moment..I missed one person in this world..My mom..I took out my wallet..As I traced her face, she is one beautiful woman with gold heart, that's what calls her..My mom..

Miss u..I never wanted say this, but still things are far to fetch..I dialed mom's phone..As I need her now..If I could run to her arm's, how it will be..But can't.. That's my fate..

Mom..I said with choking voice..

Baby bear..Kya huwa?? Why is my baby crying huh! Kisi ne kuch kaha kya?? What happened baby?? I cried more..I just want to run to her..She is what all I need..

Manik..Mamma haina tumri pass.. bolo what happened?? Kaha pe ho tum..I will come there..Bolo where are u? The concern in her voice made me more vulnerable..I wasn't cry baby..But in some matters, u all need is ur mom..And her lap..Where u can cry as much as u can.. Where no one can harm u..When u are on her warmth..

I'm feeling so guilt mom..Its hurting..Its badly hurting..I finally spit out..Where I palmed my face, it's something I feel, suffocted of myself..I tell u.. That's Ur disaster..Which will never leave u in peace for seconds..I feel I broke such wonderful family..I feel I broke trust of her parents..Which they had on me..I betrayed my girl..Where I can't get a blink of sleep because I feel..A huge guilt..Which are unpayable..Which can't be reduced..I'm living with them, for past 11 years..I feel..That death is easier than carrying a guilt..Which doesn't have end..

Baby bear..U haven't done anything baby..U are too good.. That's why u feel them..U aren't wrong baby..U aren't...neyo mom tried but sometimes..I feel myself so disgust to believe others..

No I'm not..I'm not..When I see hatred in nandini's eyes..When I see disappointment in my kids eyes..I feel I don't deserve them..Im not good mom..I'm not.. That's why Everyone will leave me..I cried more..

Chup ek dum chup (she shouted in high pitch, making me Shiver at her voice)..Bohuth hogaya Manik..Hothe kon tum, mere Bete ko not good bolne ke liye..My son is best anyone could have..if not they are unlucky..For others I don't know Manik, but u are best for me..Ur best son..Ur best for Ur bird..Ur best brother..Ur best friend for any..Ur best lover for Nandini..And Ur best for kids..U know what, they have best dad in the world unlike urs..Aur ye bath tum sunoge jaldi from their mouth..She said in motherly tone..She modulated her voice to make me understand..Which pretty made me feel better..

U are saying this to make feel better..I know I failed Everyone..I said with my sob..Where she chuckled from other side..

No u aren't..So, if Maine prove karliya, jo Maine Abhi tumse kaha, voh sach hogai tho..tab bola kya doge muje?? Baby bear..She asked in mischief..It usually happens with me..I pouted..I know..Once Neyonika Malhotra says..Not even God can change it..She can do anything in world for me..i mean damn anything..And she did look at where we are..im sitting in one place talking to her, when I need her the most..I'm tied in all ways, the she is tied..That didn't stopped her to take care of me..She is world's best mom for me..And damn no one can replace my babe..

Karne kya Vali ho, babe ?? I asked her..As I rubbed my tears..She successfully did her job to lift my mood.. That's what mom's are..They will be in ur worst before any..And she is always been there..And she will be with me forever..As promised..

It's called Neyonika's charm..U won't get it baby..So, be ready for surprise..From Ur mamma..And I want Manish Malhotra's new exclusive wardrobe collection for me with tomorrow's shopping list..And huh! Will be waiting to see my baby sooner..In concert..Jaldi se tayyar hoja..Aur mamma ki pas ajja..I frowned at her demand..But anything for my mom..If u can't buy anything Ur mom asked for, and Ur money is just waste for me..And what's surprise she is talking about..

Coming..I will leave now..Ap please jaldi ayye..I need u today by my side..And Ur wish is my command even if u don't give me surprise also..U just need to order me..I'm capable of buying anything damn thing for u today unlike before..u all need to do is to order me, babe..I said where she chuckled at my words and I bidded bye to her and hang the call..

She is fine Manik..U can meet her..She is out of danger.. You can take her home after signing discharge papers..and u can appoint a nurse for few days..Till she recovers..It was Sanskar..I sighed in relief..He patted my shoulder..

U should meet her once Manik..Her eyes were searching for u..He said I gave negative nod to him..

I don't have a face to see into her eyes.. I feel I'm responsible for all deeds happened to her..I said to him..

U aren't Manik..Jo dekthe hai..Jo tum sunthe ho..Voh hamesha sach nai hotha..U meet her..U will get to know..tum Galath nai the manik.. u aren't..He said to me, as if he knows something..

Kina kya chathe ho?? I asked him..Where he smiled at me..

U aren't responsible for anything that happened to supriya mam..And rest, she will tell to u by herself..Its her part of words..And don't undestimate Ur self so badly Manik..I'm sorry I heard u, when u were talking to Mrs. Malhotra..U aren't bad Manik..But things and people around u, made u look bad.. Just chill and relax.. Everything is fine now..Hmm..He said to me, giving meaningful smile he walked out..

Do u think..Its small thing that I heard..Its not..Its huge thing for me..A real huge one..I walked little forward near glass window of ICU..Where I can see mom, trying to talk to my kids..She was matching Avni and Nandini with a bright smile..And dad looked happiest soul of universe, why won't he, he got his wife back, finally after years together..Its a moment, which is beyond for him sure..And my small little family was happy to core..Nandini was telling their names I suppose to mom..She looked so happy..It reflected on her face..I smiled seeing her smile..Because my sole bright smile is hidden in her's..And my kids were nagging their grandparents..Avni became hyper active..She is jumping from sofa to couches..Where Abhay had bad time to hold her in one place..She is crazy girl..

I finally looked mom..She was listening to nandini's rant but suddenly her eyes dart towards me..I wanted move away..But for some reason..My legs gave up..I smiled looking at her..She had tears in her eyes..Wants say something to me..She wanted to say it..But she can't as she needs more time to speak..

She called me through eyes..I nodded no..It was most unlucky moment for me..Where I wanted to run and ask her..How she is feeling..But I'm standing here outside, where there is glass between us..Her tears rolled more..She turned to Nandini to call me..But when they saw my side..I was nowhere to be found..Because I was running from my own reality of life.. That's what Ur guilt makes u feel..To ran way from urself..Away from everything..

I sat inside my car..As I cried all my heart..It hurts it badly hurts..Deep inside..My heart is topped with all damages..Some are unbearable even today..But still I'm alive with all heart breaks..I have strong heart u see..I'm badly impressed by it..

I heard click sound of my side door..I turned my right..Where she climbed on my lap and sat comfortably by closing door..She pulled out phone from my pant pocket..Wrote a message I suppose to Abhay.. I gazed her in amuse..I needed someone..And someone was my daughter..Who didn't did anything, she just wiped my tears and hugged me around with her  little hands..I tell..U can't ask for more..I was blessed with bestest to bestest daughter of world..

I kissed her forehead as I drove car on busy streets of Mumbai..Her simple gesture made my life..She is tiny girl of 10 year old..Had capacity to calm me..Which even my mom couldn't do..

So, where u want me to take u pumpkin?? I asked her..She titled her head towards me from my Crook..Giving her smile to me..

To church..She said, I couldn't say no to her..If she believes Him..I won't stop her at all..She adjusted herself into me, and went to sleep..I kissed her..She is truly my mom..

"Nothing is really lost

Until Ur mom can't find it.."

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