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manik's pov

i was just seating in her room seeing her frame by keeping my head on bed..asking her whether she have some mercy on me..i had little time with her..but couldn't cherish even a small good moment with her..the day i found her till she left me..only tears were gifted to me..but her last smile on her face was something, which i couldn't forget ever..the smile which promised that some day i will be happy with all my heart without her..but i don't think so, the place she have can be taken from anyone..

my head was throbbing badly..i wasn't able to take as i was crying from last three hours..where my tears had no stop..and i was trying to sleep..but my sleep never wants to get into my eyes..i needed break from every heart break..i stood up holding my head, which felt someone was hitting me with hammer..i kissed her frame..smiled seeing her smile..it was one innocent smile of hers, which can give ur heart peace..miss u..i mouthed..as i opened the door..sleep definitely will not knock my eyes..i need to indulge myself in something..i went downstairs saw grocery bag..something is better than nothing..i cleaned my face..gave a look to all rooms..all were sleeping in avni's room..i hope both bird and abhay have managed situation..i started removing each item from bag..and filled each container with all grocery..i have ordered more amount of items with heavy quantity, as someone is there to eat food, unlike me..

my head was giving bad time for me, all i need was peaceful sleep..i took out my tablet from upper cabinet,which is out of reach from everyone..i gulped them soon..to stop this ache as i continued my work to occupy myself in something..i made black coffee for myself..i saw time it was 4 am..not again..i guess for sleep also i need to beg..i'm have insomnia..sleep is last thing can happen to me..i should rot in hell with all my pain, is damn my punishment without peace in my sleep also, i will get bloody nightmares, reminding my each past, to kill me thousand times..

i completed my task in another hour..sat seeing old hindi films in theater room, which nandini had bought as it was her fav. hero shaid kapoor's movie..but my mind was still stuck in same nightmare of my past..due to whose grace i don't know, i slept seeing movie..

$Z$

don't leave me..please don't..

please

splash..

i got up in jerk..breathing heavily, my eyes went to teary again..not again..but somebody shaked me badly to get my attention..i looked above..only to see my son, whose face told his worry, he himself was in tears..he cupped my face with his hands, as tears made a way again..i saw time it was just half an hour of my sleep..it was 6 am..he gently rubbed my tears..

what happened?he asked me trying to calm me..but all i could do was embrace him without second thought..losing of people is definitely worst thing in world..i have gone through hell no. of times and some are too permanent where i can't bring many..he just patted my back as i cried more like baby..he himself was crying for sure..

u won't leave me right? i asked in chocking voice, a question without my knowledge it was my heart which asked him, which had insecurities which u even can't explain to any..my fears are so much deep that, it is never going to leave me even in my death..that's the reason i don't allow anyone to enter my life..because everyone left me..I don't have a heart to hear another confession from people I love backing out from me..leaving me all alone yet again..as if they never entered my life..it hurts, it badly hurts me in my heart I can't say them..I don't say it doesn't mean I'm not hurt..now people showed me how to deal with them..where I smile like nothing happened..but damn I know how I'm suppressing my tears, which always love to flow from my eyes..I never know, I will be weak in front of my son..but I know he won't judge..I don't know why, I trust him..and expect him to take care of me, which I actually need to do for him..but down the line I know he knows me better than anyone because what he had gone through even I have gone through same long back..I feel my past connects with him easily..but I won't let my son get that dirtiest life like me even in my worst dreams also..even if it takes my life..I will protect him from this cruel world..I will..because he isn't unlucky like me..and he deserves every damn love of world..and I will try to give him, my best possible..

I won't..he said like a promise without questioning me..he patted my back until my tears stopped, he passed water to me..which I gulped..

Sarpe daar hora hai kya? He asked as I was still holding my throbbing head in my hand..trying to reduce them..he himself got behind couch as he started pressing my head..in few minutes pain reduced yet sleep wasn't ready to come..

So, ek Kam karthe hai..let's go for jogging ves suna hai beach pe jogging at this hour is really nice..and even sun rise too..so, get ready..he actually ordered me..oh! No, I'm badly tired he wants me to take to jogging seriously..but I don't have an option but join..he literally dragged all way to my room..he pushed me in washroom to freshen up..freshen up tab hoga Insan jab voh need kartha hai..but here I'm unable to sleep a winy..uss Mai bhi nightmare.. seriously I doubt God whether he thinks I'm a human or a God..to take all this..I cursed him one more time..which I do every damn second of my life from birth till now..and when will I stop I don't know..maybe never because he don't have mercy on me and he will never ever have on me..

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Abhay, please hogaya..im done..aur jogging nai karpunga Mai..I have run about 2 km stretch with him..Abhay had good stamina as I came to know he is sports man..he loves to play football..came to know it's another pass time of his...

Ethna sa..I thought The Manik Malhotra is strong..I thought I can't beat u..he said..I chuckled sarcastically..I don't have that stamina at all, my energy cells have come down from years..all thanks to my drinking habbit, hell no. of tablets, less food and sleeplessness..the basic need for any person to be strong with his immune..which I definitely don't have..

Im not that strong abhay..maybe I look like that all strong but I'm not..I answered someone genuinely..he smiled and sat next to me seating exactly like me on sand..by leaning backwards with help on hands..I closed my eyes as I'm feeling too tired..I was trying to compose myself infront of abhay..as I don't want him to see my discomfort..

Tho Bano strong..jes tum the..try being strong..stop letting people affect u..try to be happy with small things..try to be u..try to find urself, which u lost years back..don't let anyone to bother ur personal peace..there is always one person who is really genuine to see a smile and peace on ur face..not ur tears..try to overcome ur fear..don't let them rule it..Ur strong..u were strong and u will be strong..and I don't think I need to tell u that.. how strong u are because u know that better than me.. don't u?? He asked me..I was observing his words, which I never heard from any other than Nandini..he was true in his words although..

u have already accepted ur sins..and u paid them with all heavy interest upon it..now it's ur time to let them go in flow..just take life the way it takes u..don't worry, everything will come around soon..the way u dreamt to have one..and people left u, soon they'll come around.. its just matter of time..just trust urself ur love that u gave each one without selflessness..and from now it's ur time to cherish happiness and love for what all u done and this time... it's forever...he said something which made my soul happy..i don't know whether they are coming true or not but I feel like to trust him and his words.. bcz his eyes made a promise, an assurance, which I was finding all over the world.. he gave me hope which I was missing it very badly..there was something in his eyes..which said he will care of everything.. for the second time I'm going to depend on someone other than Nandini..but I know this time I will not break..bcz I trust him, even if broke down..he will be there to catch me before I hit the darkness..i believe him and I badly trust him..because I have another reason that i.e., I believe that abhay know each and every past of mine, knowing them also he wasn't judging me..but he accepted the way I'm..that makes real huge difference btw him and others..it includes my best friend cabir..who judged me like others did..where i wasn't wrong at all..but I definitely didn't expected cabir to leave my hand in my too weak moment..I had learnt enough for this life..I hardly trust few..but never dared to depend on any until I did today..but I don't need to check whether to trust abhay or not..because he had himself made trust in my heart for him..

I smiled at him as I extended my hand for him..I didn't asked anything because I know he will never answer..but I trust him by all my heart..I know he can't do any wrong..he know what he was doing and what it's result..because he is great analyser, I personally have seen it..he is mature enough to deal with things..and its father duty and responsibility to trust him because it's something which every child craves to hear.. it gives huge confidence to them, in whatever they are doing..

I trust ur each word baby.. I'll wait until that time, where u gonna come to me and say by urself the real truth..I said as he cuddled himself like baby in my lap..where he hugged me back with brightest smile on his face..he looks damn nice, when he smiles just like me but it's rare to see him smiling..

I won't break ur trust unlike others did..i mean it..he said as we both sat seeing sunrise..a perfect moment where he promised me something which I wanted hear from him..I hope he won't break my trust..and I know he will never..

We both entered our apartment.. this stupid man next to me, made me run all the way to home from the beach, which is more than 3 km..thanks to our hats, we both were wearing..warna Manik Malhotra would have been headlines that being caught in streets on Mumbai that too on jogging tracks..all thanks to my son..I gave all annoyed look to him, when he rejected my driver, when he came to pick up us..which he rolled his eyes, badly to my irritation. He damn knows to irritate me also..

I saw Avni was climbing on big stool to find something in upper shelf of kitchen with help of mrudula, who was holding stool for her..and all thanks to my daughter's height, who couldn't reach small height of shelf also..I walked in saw time, it was already 9 in morning..and Nandini Murthy was nowhere to be found..even their apartment was locked it means she was still sleeping..God! Such kumbkaran she is..I walked in followed by abhay..I saw Avni was actually finding chocolate sauce for her milkshake..before her hands get there I removed for her..she looked my hand first then followed its direction to meet me..where she gave her big smile..I kissed her cheeks as she jumped into my arms..bird sat on kitchen slab with help of stool..where abhay was royally seating on the counter by keeping his legs one above the other and drinking water with huge lumps.. I started making milkshake for Avni..bird loves to drink plain milk..where my other kid gave yuck look on hearing its name..where he served fresh orange juice himself and me..where I was like, what the hell..I drinking juice in morning is really not me..

Main poch nai rahu..Balki bol Raha Hu..now c'mon finish..he ordered me like my mom..he took his badla of making him drink milk yesterday..he badly knows to set score against me..

Not only today from here on..u gonna have organe juice in morning with breakfast..u gonna maintain all ur diet in proper..and I'm warning u..u are not gonna miss any food at it's regular intervals.. I'm I clear to u?? And I'm gonna personally check it in my ways..so, u better follow each one Malhotra..just somebody tell me he is my son not my parent..he was actually baby seating me, by making all his order against me..but for change I loved it..he was throwing his right on me..which means he was accepting me slowly..I agreed showing him some nakra..which is my habit since childhood..because care was the word I felt when Nandini showed me..now my kids are showing me same..I don't have choice but to accept that care with all my heart..I kissed his cheeks when I was done glass of juice..

I started preparing some real breakfast after so many days..they asked Punjabi chicken food..which I did taking order from my kids..where mrudula opted with some roti and veg curry..

In next one hour, I prepared all the list given by them, where all the three asking what is this, what is that where I answered them calmly..I thought of waking up Nandini for breakfast..where abhay stopped me..saying that she slept late night as she had video conference regarding some office related work..but stuffed me food in my mouth..where I feed each one..in return they all feeding me..I thought of having them with Nandini..but my kids didn't left me..they started their session of feeding me more than my capacity..where my stomach had bad time as my diet, again got imbalance but for good..they all land up on couch when they were done with breakfast..where I was finally feeling sleepy..I hope this time I don't get any nightmare..Abhay was already sulking to have sleep as he got up early all thanks to me..where both girls, weren't leaving him..as today we don't have any class, because I take up classes alternatively adjusting my work with workshop..all four were free..so, I have no issues to get up as I already under off today, because I know I badly need a sleep by hook or crook, or else my head will explode with pain..where my kids were free to do anything..

Finally they agreed to abhay to let him sleep on one condition that he will join them to park in apartment quarters..specially made for kids, who will live in apartments..as my guards will be around them I don't need to check upon them..if any problem is there abhay will call me..bidding bye to two girls..who hit mrudula's to play some girlly games..which I don't know what it is..even mukthi used play with her Barbie's, cooking, doctor set and with her teddies..if remember..I smiled remembering my sister..she is just became a memory now..I sighed to my life..walked to see Nandini..I checked each room to find her except our room with coffee mug and small cornflakes and toastes..but I couldn't find her..so, lastly went to our room, where we had fight, which lead all this..i thought she will never go to that room but there she was..sleeping all good in that room..even I didn't dared to sleep in that room..because it is scares me to shit..I have enough of nightmares go deal with..I don't want another to add..

Jaanu had clutched my pillow in tight..thinking it's me..I kept food tray aside..as I slept on my place..where she was smiling in sleep..where I was admiring her like always..she looks goddess to me..she looks all cute like a baby..I guess she felt me..she kept the pillow behind my head opening duvet for me..still closing her eyes..I was sure she was all wake..where I went inside duvet..where we we hugged like we used to do under covers..it was heavenly feeling to have her in my arms like old times..where i dig my head into her crook leading myself into my final destination her hairs..which will hide me away from everyone, where i feel protected, where no one scare me, where i feel myself living with her in our world..where i had tears in my eyes..i missed her this side badly..i missed every bit of her..in each step of life, where i needed her most..where she was cuddling me like infant..as i kissed my big baby, near her ears..where she held me close to her..i could hear our heart beat going in same sync..

good morning jaanu..i said with smile where i could feel of curve near my neck..it was how i used wake her up, when we off in college..where she snuggled more into me..where i patted her head to sleep..i pulled out food tray for her on bed from side table..

wakey wakey murthy..have something and sleep..i said as i got up breaking the hug..where she pulled me back to her by pulling me for nape, by pressing her lips on mine..a perfect morning kiss of ours..where she was still closing her eyes..the way we used to do back in our past..

where we kissed softly, wow that's called a feeling, where my each cell got activated by her lips on mine..where she was responding equally...

we finally broke the kiss..i kept my forehead on hers..where she rubbing her thumbs against my closed eyes smoothly, trying to sooth them..where i was sleeping complete upon her..still didn't figured out she was only in her inners ..

good morning monster..she said as i smiled as I slept upon her chest, its damn my habit, which i can't change ever..then i realized when i slept on her actual cleavage.. i opened my eyes immediately, as i pulled out duvet, only to get my eyes widen..where nandini pulled duvet back to cover up herself, with all her red face..i was too shock to react, where my sleep which i had got sometime back, went to vacation again..she was sleeping with her inners, without caring about anything..

tumre intensions kuch nake nai lagra hai muje..i said still in daze mood..where she hit my hand in real hard as my grip was lose,my face land perfectly its destination.. I moulded my lips against her as Nandini was taken a back moment but in seconds she replied in same passion..it wasnt planned one, but we didn't wanted it to let go..and had another kiss..I can't get enough of her lips any sooner in this life..she removed my t-shirt in btw kiss..where we continued our pending work..without caring about our breathlessness..

I pulled out seeing her breathless..where Nandini sat my tummy..her shyness was forgotten business..she was half naked in front but my eyes were still locked with her..I never lusted her body..in fact I made love to her only once that to with all my love not with lust that precious night..for me it's biggest gift that she gave me..for me it's best night in my entire life.. I can't forget that night which bought huge happiness in my life.. because she gave herself to me with all her trust.. which I know, I broked..I made love to her that night, the love which I had for only her..i kissed each part of her with all my love.. saying endless I love u to her.. she was always moaning my name or used crumble bedsheets at her fist or used scratch my back with her nails..she completed me that day..because no one had ever trusted or loved me like her..I was smiling remembering that night..
night of my life..

What are u smiling at monster?? she asked but I shook my head saying nothing as I didn't want to spoil her mood by reminding our past..which may she won't like..

Nothing Pele Jake freshen hojav then eat something..so now go and freshen up fast...where Nandini her ways to sulk when she is too lazy...

I'm not in mood freshen and I don't want even to brush..I will eat them like tat only..she took tray from bed, which was aside us without spiling out.. I'm impressed by ourself that we didn't spilled them from our little romance..she got up from my tummy..pulled me from wrist.. she asked to open the glass door, which is connected to bulcony of our room..this room as best view of sea..I and Nandini used spend all cosy moments here..its all for our little romance..and cute cuddles..where other room is where we fight like Tom and Jerry..that room had different set of memories compared to this room..

No..Nandini go and freshen..tumse accha Avni hai..she isn't lazy like u..I scolded her, where she huffed in anger as she stood standing to see the sea view..

Getting no response from her side..I gave up..as I don't want her to be hungry as it is already 10.. I pulled her back, she huffed more in my chest, when she collided me..

Accha I will rest my case..now be good girl and have ur food.. I said as I gave her cup of coffee..she smiled as I sat on floor..where she sat on my lap..I was astonished..I gave her a look with my smirk..

Kyu tumri avni and bird bett sekthe hai..its my right also, stop smirking idiot..she yelled at my ears.. I could only smile at her possessiveness..as I pulled my girl by leaning my back on glass door..where she was still sipping her coffee seeing the view by keeping her head on my chest..i where I was lost in her..

Hmm.. now eat some toast and cornflakes..I passed to her..where she turned other side.. now what she wants..can anyone get me any device to read women's heart..I will pay u in crores..

Now what?? Nandini please ye math bathana that u want me to cook for u also..deko Abhi adjust karo.. badmai kuch banake Dunga..I said she turned to me, as she passed bowl in my hands. I looked bowl and then her..I was still confused as she huffed more like my baby pumpkin..making all pout of cuteness..

What?? I asked still not getting why was she annoyed from me..did I do any wrong again..God, jab kuch accha nai kar skathe hao tho buri bi math karo..

What ke bacche?? U will feed me..huh! Unsab ke liye ethna pyar se khana kilathe ho,voh bi voh log puchne se Pele..aur muje khon kilaega?she ended with her fake tears.. God ethna drama.. aiyyappa kise..mathlab kise manufacturer kar diya ese..galathi meri hai, ethna pamper nae karna na chai tha muje..

Okay..okay..relax..ethna drama kyu? u should have ordered for it..I said to her, where she glared me..

Tum sirf Apne baccho se pyar karthe ho..u don't love me..kehi ye pirse pregnant tho nae bangai?? Es mood swings?? Tabi atte hai..I have heard about them but never experienced it..and all thanks goes to me..and now the question is, is she pregnant??

Are u pregnant?? I asked in daze, where it took seconds for her to realize what I actually said..

What's wrong with u?? Mai aur pregnant.. Manik pe raki kya tumne?? She slapped my cheeks lightly..

Then u aren't pregnant.. I still asked in doubt because she was highly behaving like one from yesterday..

I hope mera sentence ka vai mathlab hai..she yelled into my ears as bit my earlobe little harshly..huh! Monster Kahi ki..

Then why are behaving like one..tume Patha hai Kithna tantrums throw Karai ho..and ur comparing urself with our kids..jes Mai tumse pyar nai karthu and all.. what's that jaanu??i asked all confused, firstly my head is going out of control..and secondly her insane behavior getting my nervous..

Aur nai tho Kya? U aren't looking after me like the way u used look after me in past.. where I was ur first priority..where u used feed me..where u used carry me everywhere..where u used take me out everywhere.. where u used share everything with me..aur ab..ab sab Badal gaya hai...u don't look after me like those days.. khana bi nai kilathe ho..Sab apni baccho ko karthe ho...u won't take me out..jithna tum un sab ki sath time spend karthe ho, utna mera sath nai karthe ho.. Where u also share ur feelings with everything with mrudula, abhay and avni..where i'm? in ur list manik? she started crying..i was just looking all dumb..does women's can be this bipolar, i never knew..wasn't she suppose to be hell angry and hurt..i'm not saying its not wrong but i do feel like something isn't going on track..i can sense that..but before i figure out i should stop her crying, i can't see her tears..it hurts my heart badly..and bloody me, who is reason again..

shh..nandini, es kuch nai..i love u jaanu..i love u more than anyone..ur my life, because of whom i got my kids..nandini woh log tumre jaga kabi nai le sakthe hai..but i won't say that they aren't important to me..nandini the three kids inside this house are really important for me..they are very precious part to my life..but u, u are my whole life..my soul..my jaanu.. and I'm solely owned my jaanu..i gave my honest answer to her..i couldn't connect her eyes with mine..because she avoided..a contact with my eyes..

i took bowl as i started feeding her..where she was looking away somewhere yet nowhere..if she was lost even i was lost..maybe silence works...something storm is awaiting for me..i can feel yet again..wow! i was actually thinking how my life can go smoothly without any disaster..what else is left to lost..i complete feeding her..where she was just used open her mouth whenever i used press spoon upon her lips..if her words didn't hurt me, it was highly wrong, i was hurt..how can she always compare herself with kids.. she is much important me than anyone..she should know that..i took her in my arms..lead her down on bed..i was about occupy my place..

why u left people walk away manik? she asked straight into my eyes..she had something in her eyes..which i never seen..but her words definitely threw perfect knife to my heart..where i wanted to scream at her..and tell how badly her question hurt me..

i tried to hold them nandini with all best i could, but people have their own set of priorities, where i never stand in first for anyone..so they chose to walkout even i wanted to hold them...but for them they have their own reasons to walk out, above me..and now u need sleep nandini, just sleep...i said as calmly as I could and I removed her hand, which was holding my wrist..i just walked of the room by covering her again with duvet..

i directly went to our other room, i locked my room..pulled out my journal from my office bag..started writing my heart out..the only thing, which can lessen's my pain..where i cried with each word i wrote..how can she say i let people walk way.. did she see my behind efforfs.. no.. never..i sat in balcony with bottle of wine..sleep again got out of my eyes..where i was just looking sea every now and then..i emptied another bottle, as i my eyes went blood shot..i wiped my tears, just looked took drop of tear in my index finger, something which never left me since from my birth..i smiled sadly having my tears at least..i kept my journal in my bag safely..as I threw myself on bed to have sleep.. finding no option I pick up the sleeping pill bottle from my office bag.. I gulp them..and thinking about my past , at last I closed my eyes to stay away from all the mess, try to find peaceful sleep without nightmare..

I felt her next to me as her scent hit my senses..but I was lossing my senses..i believe she encircled my arms on her shoulder as I tightened grip on them.. to feel my girl next to me..and last I heard was..

Baby take me beneath u.. I smiled as slightly opened my eyes to see her..where she blushed at her words..God jaanu as her ways to calm me..where she gave me peace in blink..I lifted myself a bit..where she came beneath me..all I could do was sleep upon her chest for my much needed sleep..where she was hmm a melody for my sleep..I slept hearing them with beautiful smile after 11 complete years..where I filled much needed kiss on her chest as per ritual of mine..where her body arched more kiss from me but sorry I was fast asleep in minutes along her..as I heard steady breath of hers on my face..

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I could feel sweet torture on entire face, jawline, ear lobe..where she was kissing, nibbling and biting them..where I was smiling at her acts in my sleep also..where her hands had different job on my entire back..she was drawing patterns upon my back..i bad enough of her sweet things.. as i flipped my position..she was above me..now she had her hands on my bare chest, where she was writing our kids name..I smiled her cute gestures..she is little insecure and i need to take care of it..before it goes out of my hand.. I should balance all of them together..but before that I should calm my heart..

Manii..get up its 5 now..she said in my ears as she was playing with me..she tracing my face with her index finger by pecking my chin..I smiled at her gesture..but even I wasn't less as my hands travelled to her bare back..I opened her bra hook in second..as i did there was complete pause in work..I opened my eyes, only to meet her eyes like saucers..and she looked down to see her condition where, my eyes were fixed upon her face..I can tell that she was having bad time in controlling her blush and embarrassment..she was comfortable with my act, there was no line of uncomfortableness..as I did my job of writing patterns on her fully exposed back..showing her how it feels her act on me..

U look heavenly jaanu..and her blush..Mari Dala..I said like Majnu.. where she was trying to get up holding her bra in front tightly but couldn't as my intense eyes weren't allowing to do that..where she, slept completely upon me, resting her case..I could feel her cleavage on my bare chest..where she was trying to control her breath with mine..I nuzzled to her Crook..where she gave full access to me..I kissed her neck lovingly..where she was digging her nails into my skin..I titled to see her face to confirm that whether she was okay with my gesture...I continued my pecks, as I know she will stop once she feels uncomfortable..I slipped her bra strings to either side of her hands..as my long fingers did there job actively as they are too perfect in their work u see..I took the ends of bra and hook them back..I really don't want to take advantage of our break..especially remembering our worst 11years, which was after effects our blissful night..I don't want to make any foolish attempts to full my desire and pay them more largely..I had enough of them..then I slept keeping my head on her Crook..

Manii get up..she said again.. but I was in mood to wake up..

Nandini bas sone do yaar..I badly need sleep..muje Sona hai bas.. now sleep jaanu..I said as again went slumber and all thanks to my sleeping pills..I knew she was making all attempts to wake me up..but my senses weren't working according to her attempts..

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Manik..she shouted in my ears with her choking voice..my senses just jerked me from sleep..hearing her choking tone..

Finally I opened my eyes saw nandini worried eyes..she immediately hugged me with teary eyes as it rolled from her eyes..

Manik..Tum utt kyu nae re the? Tume Patha I was so scared..es kohi kartha hai kya?? mjue bohuth Dara Diya tumne..please don't to this to me..she wiped uncontrollably in my arms..where I was trying to recollect what was happening around me..finally I got all the views..I need to stop before she gets to know I was sleeping under doss of sleeping pills..

Shh..jaanu I'm fine..its just that I was too tired..es liye Maine nai Suna shayad..see im fine baby..deko tumre Manii tek hai..baby stop crying na..I said as I rubbed of her tears..where she took herself some time to compose herself..by keeping her head on my heart doodling our name on my hand..

Manik tum es Sora the jes ur under some drug..as if u had.. she couldn't complete as she came near my mouth.. immediately her worried face change into disgust..where she got up and made me seat on bed..where she started to throw her hands on my chest to beat..

U jerk u again got drunk..she badly started giving her smash..Nandini Murthy hates drunkard and I'm badly depended on it..I know she hates them but I can't help but to drink to keep my heart sane for some hours..

Sorry Nandu..I won't drink..it was just..my words went to air as I got blow on my jaw.. huh!bloody damn it hurts..i guess my jaws bone broke down it seems..I was having bad pain.

Just what damn it..I was so scared that u aren't waking up..and u Ash**le, sleeping around the effect of alcohol..she yelled at me..it wasn't her anger speaking but her fear was speaking..

Nandini language..I retreat her back.. where she huffed as she hit me with all cushions and again started weeping..she got up and walked to balcony with full tears..I didn't had option to just follow her with my one of the shirt as it was getting colder outside..sun was setting in the sky..giving awesome ending to his day by ending up with ocean..the whole arena was peaceful, where I gave back hug to her keeping my chin upon her left shoulder..where she didn't jerked my hands, which was her bare waist, neither she holded  them..I put on my shirt on her arms...made her wear them..where her eyes were still dripping with tears.. I turned her to my side..as I buttoned her shirt leaving two buttons from collar..she was looking all cute and sexy at same with her red face, thanks to her crying..I pulled her to my arms by keeping hands on my territory..where she was looking at sea, her eyes sadness to me..she was scared to whole core..

Jaanu, I'm sorry..it wasnt intentional..and I'm sorry..I won't drink like that..pakka..I said to her she looked back into my eyes, I could see how badly shaken she was..

Manii please es math karo..bohuth Darr gayi Mai..u have no freaking idea I was waking u up since half an hour..u weren't responding to me..not even to my touches and kissess..u jus...she couldn't, she crashed in my arms..as she cried royally yet again..where I was ruffling her hairs to let her cry..to let out that fear in forum of her tears..

Mai tumne ves Kabi dek nai paongi, where u won't responding to me..please don't pull that stunt against me ever..I can't lose u Manik..please es math karo..I can't live without u..she said to my heart..where I rubbed her constant tears..I took her in my arms..are legs encircled my waist line..where she clung to my front perfectly and kept her head propey on my neck..as she kissed my neck lovingly..I kissed her earlobe..

Im not going anywhere jaanu..im here with u..u won't lose me..until u leave me..and even I can't leave without u..please, I will promise u that I won't pull that stunt against u..please I beg don't leave me..if u want me to do anything, I will do..but please don't leave me..even I cried out my insecurities, which are at moon and back level..breaking that walls is really not easy..for any except her..because I need her protection, her assurance that she won't leave me not again..throwing me out of her life like a shit again..if she does again..trust me..u will find my body on the ground floor of this building..with all pool of blood..where is no chance of living..if that time comes in life again, I will try permanent attempt to die..where no one can save me..I mean no one..

Where she didn't answered anything..but her silence killed me millions there in my heart, where there are more chances of her leaving me again..what a life I have..I don't have anyone to say..that I'm not leaving u any more in this life.. I'm not in there priority..where I lay in their life..I guess next to zero or negative, I expected so much from anyone, it would be just her..but im not that fortunate person, to be in her first also, where she always been first in my heart but I stood nowhere near to her..

I took her silence as an answer but that doesn't mean im gonna give up on her and on my kids..I will try my best to get them back..I put her on floor of rest room..I closed the door for her to freshen up..as I walked to other room to take shower..

i went to take shower..i sat on floor as cold shower started pouring on my body, trying to calm me..trying to calm my fear..i was trying to say everything will go fine..but I know, what gonna happen, as once again my fears started throbbing upon me.. i needed just a little assurance from her, but I failed her so much that she didn't want to comfort me also..i cleaned my mouth several times..as both ladies won't like it..remembering the super smashes and punches of Nandini on my body.. i came out of the shower hearing knock on the door..i opened to see sighing abhay looking at me..

i thought u must be sleeping..he said as he entered the room

sleep and me? forget..i said little sarcastically, I guess I didn't caught them, good for me, when he jumped on the bed, where i went to closet to pull out a dress to me..before i do honors abhay pushed me aside..as he gave me pair of dress..i didn't noticed but put on them..abhay was waiting for my reaction..

what? i asked still confused..do people want me to confuse me, are i'm being so dumb today...I don't know..

nothing..he glared at me, abhay baby i had enough from ur mamma, not u baby..i have patience in my dictionary too..so, don't try to break them..i mentally said to him, while i walked to mirror to gel up my hairs..where he even took gel from my box..i chucked it..started gelling my hairs..then i looked him..he was exactly doing the same way..the way i was gelling up..i smiled but he didn't observed it..then i turned my gaze to his attire..vo..just wait..i examined mine and his attire..

u are wearing dress like me..i said..he was glared me back..

happy realization malhotra..he said sarcastically..so, for this he was glaring me..where i made him seat on dresser..i gelled his hairs neatly just like me..where he was trying to look at mirror, confirming that he was looking all handsome..

done..i said as i completed my job..he stood next to me..perfect replica of me, he was..he was handsome yet hot like me.. I smiled fullest seeing us..he and both clicked many selfies..to load my mobile even with his and mine pics..

(Just think same hairstyle..and imagine height by urself Abhay comes to chest of manik..where Avni comes to his waist)

oye..hello..photo shoot without avni...came my daughter all ready with mrudula..she too was wearing little similar to our attire..they both jumped to have pics with us..which certainly we allowed, u know boys are generous will taking selfies..i'm going to hang all photo's in our room..

avni's attire

mrudula's attire

(Mrudula and Manik)

(Manik, Avni and Abhay)

(Manik, Avni and Abhay)

I completely forgot about incident..I was completely into them..all laughing and clicking many pics out of all the mess I had, where I forgot myself with them..there were funny to make faces like them.. especially this two girl musketeers..Abhay was actually thinking whether Avni was his same sister because she was all way making crazy faces unlike Avni Malhotra..and all thanks to little bird, who was badly rubbing my daughter with her attitude, which suprisingly looked even cuter on my pumpkin..

Oh! Hello even I'm at home..visible nai Hu Kay Mai..there came our mamma Nandini Murthy shout..sorry there mamma..meri tho jaanu hai..

Humne Mana thodi Kiya hai..join if u want..Abhay said as he and me trying to pose exactly the same, but how could they let go, they spoiled perfectly on the click.. where all three were grining in the pic...as there photo came behalf of ours..perfect..I muttered..before throwing cushion on each of the girl with abhay..

He tried to find little assurance from her side in his fear. But only got non as a reply from her..it hurts and badly hurts him..where she gonna regret for her act, maybe for whole life..

Kaisa Laga bathna zaror..im waiting for ur comments and votes..lets see whether this part reach 400+votes or not..

Guyss be ready with tissues in advance..bcz Nandini Murthy gonna be tuff nut as I said before only..and there will be constant shield of abhay on Manik..to protect him from everyone..in precise from himself too..I want u all prepared..

Next will be for sure ShUd dESi rOmAnCe..

Lots of love..