MATURE SCENES WARNING:
+ BOTTOM HOSEOK
+ TOP  FEM READER
+ ROLE REVERSAL
+ VEIN KINK
+ ONE SHOT

Requested by @SunflowerKeen

If Hoseok knew your hands felt this good, he would've asked you to choke him sooner.

C h o k e M e

Hoseok had really done it this time. He really fell down the rabbit hole.

He doesn't remember why or how he got there. All he knew now was that he was staring at a video of a man being choked by his girlfriend on tumblr. The caption reading:

Imagine being choked by your girlfriend in bed, her veiny hands circling around your neck as you struggle and beg to cum.

Keep in mind, Hoseok has never been the type to want to be choked by a woman during sex. But here he was, shirtless in his room with his laptop on his lap, staring at gifs and videos at a woman's veiny hands and ignoring the arising bulge in his boxers. What a turn of events.

Hoseok continued scrolling down the page before coming to its end. The bottom of the page had a list of hashtags and sites for more resources. He looked down the list of hashtags before stopping on one that had gotten his attention. The word was circled in a little blue bubble, the letters just sitting there as if they hadn't just caused a noticeable hitch in Hoseok's throat.

# VeinKinks

Now, Hoseok wanted to say that he didn't click the hashtag. That instead he closed all the tabs and got ready for your arrival but that certainly just isn't true. Hoseok found himself in bed for another hour, completely forgetting that you were coming over to help write lyrics; clicking through all the posts under the hashtag, feeling at his throat subconsciously and wanting to feel someone else's hands around his skin.

Maybe this was all just too weird. You don't hear to many men wanting their girlfriends to choke them, none of the other members do- that he knows of. Well, Jungkook is a little adventurous but choking might be a little bit of a reach for him, Hoseok thought.

The doorbell rang, the ringing signalled a reminder in his brain that you were coming over to help him out with lyrics.

You were a successful producer and songwriter, as well as an A-list celebrity that is invited on talk and game shows quite often. You lived a very, very lavish life but you always acted like yourself, you didn't change because of the sudden influx in your bank account. Or all the interviews you get requested for, you still prioritized making time for the people that care about you. Things that make Hoseok glad he's been your friend. You've done everything for him, before you both debuted or were famous. Your friendship was something special that you both felt absolutely nothing could get in the way of. The promise you two shared before debut, to stick together no matter what hung around even after BTS' world tours, or your endless travels to collaborate with different artists.

Hoseok's friendship with you was really something he'd cherish forever. Because it was like nothing he's ever had. Hoseok shot up from his bed, pulling on a pair of sweats on the ground and walking to the door. He remained shirtless, since it was just you. You've seen each other without shirts on before.

"Hey Hobi!" You greeted, walking through the open doorway and giving Hoseok a nice hug against his warm skin. He smiled, wrapping his arms around your waist and digging his face into your shoulder. He let out a sigh as he smelt the familiar body wash that laid on your skin. He missed your voice and how it stuck in his head like honey, and the warmth of the sun seemed to pour from your chest into his. People always called Hoseok their sunshine, but to him- you were his everything. The stars, moon, sun, they were almost insignificant compared to you. It seems impossible and maybe cliche even, but no words could describe how at home and happy you make Hoseok feel. You were like coming home to a blanket after a long cold day, he felt secure and he knew the warmth would last forever.

"I missed you (y/n)." Hoseok whispered into your neck, unconsciously gripping you tighter. "You were gone for so long."

You chuckled and Hoseok smile lightly into your neck. You patted his messy black hair and gave him a soft kiss on the ear. "I've been gone a month. We've been apart longer before."

Hoseok shook his head. "This is different. It felt way longer this time. I'm not sure why but it was almost like you weren't here at all, I felt empty."

You pulled away from him, reluctantly might you add. "Hey, I'll always be here." You pointed at his chest, right over his heart. "No matter where I am."

Hoseok nodded smiling back at you. You grinned, dragging him back to his studio. "Now lets get started!!"

You and Hoseok have been discussing concepts and lyrics for almost 2 hours before you had even begun writing. The process was long, you always pulled out your absolute best whenever you were working with Hoseok on his music. His work was almost important as your own. No one could ever compare.

You and Hoseok had very similar writing styles, as well as ideas. So it was easy to come up with lyrics to his solo song on their next coming album.

But once you had begun writing the lyrics down, that's when things began to take a turn for Hoseok. You had been writing for a good couple of minutes, that whole time Hoseok spent watching the veins bulge out of your hands. Hoseok couldn't deny, you worked out- really fucking well and you were the only girl he knew that had a whole rack of chocolate bar looking abs. And fuck, was Hoseok jealous.

With core muscle comes arm muscle, your arms were toned and defined. Your hands were strong, the tips of your fingers were calloused while the palms of your hand was soft like silk. He loved you hands, he loved holding your hand, he loved your hands holding him.

Maybe he'd love your hands around his neck too. Hoseok's breath stopped at the thought as he watched your hands clutch the yellow pencil in your hands. The blueish green making an appearance by erupting just under your skin.

Fuck your hands looked so hot and Hoseok wanted them. He wanted them on him, in him, around him.

He felt odd at the new feeling, these new desires that have never crossed his mind before. Hoseok felt a twitch in his pants as you stretched your hands, spreading them out before curling them into a tight fist. At this point if you punched him in the face he'd probably thank you.

It didn't take him too long before he broke, desperate to feel your hands anywhere.

"(y/n)."

You smirked. Of course you knew what he was thinking, the two of you had known each other since your late teens and being adults now, you knew how his mind worked. Hoseok knew how yours worked too, but there were some things you were able to see in him that he would probably never notice in you. It was convenient for sure, including now. You could practically smell his arousal when you stepped into his apartment, and that fact you could feel his hardened cock push against your thigh as he greeted you tightly only confirmed your assumption on what he was doing before you got to his apartment.

"What is it Hoseok?" You asked, a mock look of concern on your face. You knew along the lines of what he was going to ask, as you felt his gaze fall on your hands for the last hour.

Hoseok sighed to himself, looking anywhere but your eyes. He wanted this so badly, his little friend wanted it just as much- if not more. But he didn't want to risk you finding him weird, or worse, ended your friendship with him all because he let his dick do the talking.

But no, you had promised each other nothing would ever get in the way of your friendship. No matter what. With that thought in mind and your reassuring gaze on him, Hoseok finally shared what was on his mind.

"(y/n), I know this might sound odd. But you don't have to do it if you don't to." Hoseok trailed off, staring into your eyes and trying to find any source of uncomfortableness. "But I want to ask you something."

You chuckled, waiting for him to finally get to the point. "Hoseok, you know I'd do anything for you. You're my best friend, it doesn't matter what it is. If it makes you happy I'll do it. As long as I don't end up in jail."

You and Hoseok laughed together, you felt as if you were successful in taking the weight off his shoulders as he smiled down at his lap, fumbling with his fingers.

"So I was wondering," Hoseok continued, "if you could like, I don't know. Hold my neck... in your hands... and grip it just enough for it to like feel good."

You pretended to act surprised as you widened you eyes. "Like... choke you?"

Hoseok waved his arms out in front of him, as if he was trying to deescalate a situation that was never escalated in the first place. "I mean if you don't want to that's cool I was totally kidding, ha, ha.....unless?"

You stopped yourself from bursting into a fit of giggles. You smirked, leaning back into your chair as the look in your eyes became noticeably darker. "My Baby Hoseok wants me to choke him huh?"

Hoseok's eyes widened as he felt his hard-on twitch under his sweatpants. He could feel it now, the bubbling sensation that pooled in his abdomen. It was desire, and it was almost painful. But he trusted you, if not with choking him then at least keeping it a secret from his other members. You trusted each other and Hoseok felt like that was all that mattered.

Hoseok nodded, a blush creeping up on his cheeks and he could already feel goosebumps on his bare chest. He had almost forgotten he wasn't wearing a shirt until he felt your piercing gaze shoot through his body.

"Yes." He whispered, reaching out to hold your hand across the table. Not because he was turned on by them, which he was. But because he wanted something or rather someone to hold on to. Someone he knew would never leave him; it was you, it always had been. And maybe he just didn't fully see it until now.

You kissed his hand and he smiled softly at you. "If that's what you want then I'll do it for you." You got up, still holding his hand and leading him to his bedroom.

You lay him down on the bed, crawling up his body and sitting just above his crotch. You looked down at him, taking in all the beautiful features you felt like you've never seen before. Well, you always knew Hoseok was insanely attractive but you felt as if you were unmasking something completely different. You saw Hoseok in a new light, a light that was always there but didn't shine as bright until now. You lifted your hand and grazed Hoseok's
soft cheek as he leaned into the hand you held his face in, a smile emerging from his small mouth.

"Hoseok," You said softly, holding his face in both hands now as he looked up at you with the same expression. He let out a soft hum in response and you took that as your chance to continue. "Can I kiss you?"

Hoseok felt as if his heart stopped beating, as if it flew out his chest and into a dark sky only to burst into fireworks of all sorts of colours. He felt like he had been waiting to hear those words since they met. Maybe he really was.

Looking back, all the soft touches, long hugs, cuddles, and gentle laughs all led up to this very moment. As if they were leading each other down a path blindfolded, only taking them off to look back and see how far they've come at the end of their journey.

Hoseok didn't realize it back then, but looking up at you now made him realize that he really loved you all his life. He knew you loved him too, he's known all along. Your gaze on him couldn't be mistaken for anything else.

He lifted his hand to place it at the back of your neck and wordlessly guided your lips to his.
All the missing pieces of the puzzle pieced itself together in that moment. And as he felt his lips on yours he felt as if he had finally accomplished something. Like he had one thing in his life that finally made sense.

He knew that no matter how screwed things get, no matter how many things get jumbled and messed around in his life; the only thing that will forever be constant and unchanging would be you.

The kiss was now increasing in passion, the years of cluelessness and oblivion all pouring out into the open. You licked at this lips, asking for an entrance. Hoseok let out a soft sigh as he opened his mouth to you, letting you explore as he sucked on your slick tongue every one and a while.

You broke the kiss, a string of saliva following your lips as you buried yourself into Hoseok's neck. Licking and sucking at his skin as his breath began to quicken. He let out a soft moan when you nibbled at his collarbone, raking his hands through your hair and whispering things unintelligible to you.

You smiled at how unraveled he became in such little time. You began to kiss down his chest, stopping at his nipples to suck and bite them. The action making Hoseok's back arch and a louder moan place itself on his lips.

You went back up to kiss him softly. "I'm gonna make you feel so fucking good Hoseok. I'm gonna make you cry and scream for me all fucking night." Hoseok moaned at your words, closing his eyes to all the dirty words you spoke
in his ear.

"I trust you (y/n)." Hoseok whispered, kissing your ear before letting his head plop back against the pillow.

You smiled before going back down his chest and lowering to kiss at his deep "V" line. You gripped at his sweatpants and you knew he wasn't wearing anything underneath. You pulled it all down in one go and there Hoseok was, naked in all his glory right in front of you.

He threw his arm over his eyes in a slight embarrassment which made you chuckle lightly. "Don't worry baby, you'll feel good soon okay? This is gonna be a little different but you're just gonna have to trust me."

You took three fingers and poked at Hoseok's chin. "Make them real wet for me."

Hoseok obliged, wrapping his mouth around your fingers and sucking at then whilst watching you with lidded eyes- looking for approval. You nod, kissing his knee as you wiggled your fingers, letting him know to release you from his mouth.

Your fingers dripped with saliva and you could already tell this was gonna be fun, for the both of you. Mostly for Hoseok. "Now baby, I want you to give me a word, any word you want. It'll be our safe word and once you feel like it's getting too much then say it and we can take a break, or stop completely and save it for another time. I know I'm taking control but you still have a choice on what you do or do not want. Do you understand?"

You wanted to be clear with him, you didnt want to risk hurting him or making him uncomfortable. As you knew it would cause a strain on his sex life in the future if you messed things up and you didn't want to do that to him.

Hoseok nodded, "Can the safe word be 'sunshine'? Is that okay?"

You almost cooed at the question, "of course baby. 'Sunshine' it is."

You took your index finger and prodded it at his hole, his breath hitching lightly as he felt your finger slowly get deeper and deeper. You were surprised when you saw no expression of pain on his face, just a mix of concentration and bliss. You watched in awe as his pretty pink hole sucked in your whole index finger without any trouble at all. You decided against putting your second finger in, instead thrusting your index finger in and out of his body to get him use to the feeling.

"Ohh, (y/n)." Hoseok gasped, "this feels different."

His chest felt hot and the bubbling sensation in his abdomen only increased with each thrust of your finger. He was desperate for more and his cock twitched in anticipation.

You saw his frustration and added another finger, opening and closing your two fingers in a scissor like manner as you thrusted you fingers in and out. You wanted to fist him so badly, you knew how much he would like it since he loved your hands so much. But you decided to leave that a little further into your future.

Hoseok moaned out again, throwing his hands over his head and showing himself off to you in a form of submission. You watched the expressions on his face grow more intense at you felt a soft surface under you fingers.

"Ah! (Y/N)!" Hoseok moaned, he moved his hip in rhythm to your hands. "There, it feels so good there (y/n)."

You kissed at his chest as you pushed your third finger in, Hoseok's hole taking it like a fucking champ. "I know baby, I know. Don't you love it when my hands fuck you like this."

Hoseok gasped, he didn't expect you to say something so dirty. You didn't curse much, and was very polite in almost every situation. Using vulgar language was never really your thing. But when your cursed in his ear like that as you pounded at his prostate and made him see stars; he wish you cursed a bit more often.

"Fuck (y/n) I love it." Hoseok whispered, his voice hoarse from all the moans that rolled off his tongue. "Don't stop please."

You chuckled, "I wouldn't dream of it." You said, pulling your fingers out. Hoseok would've whined if it weren't for you grabbing his hips and flipping him around to his stomach. You lifted his hips and his ass was spread in front of you. You looked at Hoseok, his head laying against the pillow as small bits of drool dripped from his mouth. He looked lost in his own world, his gaze was hazy and he barely moved. You suspected he was in subspace, and you almost considered not continuing before Hoseok look at you, a confused look on his face.

"Are you okay?" Hoseok asked, "Why'd you stop? Please don't."

You could only nod, looking back to Hoseok's hole and watch as it clenched dramatically over nothing. You smiled, kissing his thighs and leading your tongue to his hole.

You licked it cautiously, listening to any change in Hoseok's breathing. He moaned lightly and pushed his ass back onto you, and you continued your assault on his ass.

You were in your own world as you licked and sucked at his hole. Lost in the sounds of Hoseok's moans and calls for your name, how he moaned at such a high pitch you could've sworn it was coming from a woman. Hoseok arched his back, sending himself into a frenzy as he felt you get deeper inside him. Tears began to run down his face as he experienced a pleasure he never had before. Your name and the words 'harder', 'deeper' dripped off his tongue like a sinful prayer. He rocked his body back and forth with the thrusts of your tongue as he dropped his head into the pillow, releasing an earsplitting moan as you slid in two fingers next to your tongue. You pounded at his prostate and Hoseok felt as if he stopped breathing, all he felt was you in and around him. The tight grip on his ass taking him to a pleasure filled place he knew would take a while to come back from. Hoseok lost himself in the pleasure, leaving his body at your disposal as his mind slipped into this other realm of himself.

He muttered your name, asking you to choke him before he came. You flip him on his back again and slip your fingers out of his hole, instead gripping his hard red member and jerking it at a fast pace that sent Hoseok crashing back down into his body.

You spoke loud to get his attention, knowing that subspace had him by the hair. "If it hurts and you begin to lose consciousness then scratch my arm and I'll let go. I promise I won't hurt you."

Hoseok moaned in response as he watched your veiny hand moved up his chest and towards his neck. And there it was, what he had been waiting for almost all fucking night. The hands wrapping around his neck as he struggled to cum.

You jerked him off faster- if it was even possible- as you watched Hoseok bite his lips.
His eyes rolling to the back of his head as he rolled his hips in tune to your hands. He moaned loudly and you can practically feel the cum ready to shoot out from his painfully hard cock.

"Fucking cum for me Hoseok, cum like the slut you are." You spat in his ear and it was then where Hoseok fucking lost it.
He came with a scream of your name, his come shooting from his cock and landing all over his chest and chin. Hoseok swore he never came so hard in his life. Cum ran down his cock and pooled at his abdomen as he calmed his breathing, his legs and stomach twitching at the intensity of the orgasm.

You gave him a kiss on his forehead, whispering what a good job he did before getting up to go to his bathroom. You grabbed a washcloth and ran it under some nice warm water before walking back to the bedroom to see Hoseok falling asleep.

You cleaned him up and dressed him in new clothes before he finally fell asleep, a soft 'I love you' fell from his lips and he snuggled into your neck.

You smiled, rubbing his back and placing a kiss on the top of his head.

"I love you too Hoseok."

••••

hey, it's been a while huh? sorry it took me so long to update i was on vacation and i just got back a couple days ago.

something i would like to address is that school is coming up for me. and i will not have time to update as i am trying to study so i could graduate early. i had just turned 16 so graduating at this age would be such a great accomplishment for me. so to strive for such an achievement, sacrifices must be made. i might not update at all during this coming school year, i absolutely will if i find that i have the time too.

school is very important to me and i am really driven to graduate early with high marks in all my classes. so i hope you're not too upset with me hahah

this does not mean that i won't be updating at all, rather that i'll be updating very very rarely. BUT I WILL UPDATE AS MUCH AS I CAN IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS BEFORE SCHOOL OFFICIALLY BEGINS SO LETS GO BITCHES