your gonna wanna listen to the song above while reading y/ns Diary it makes it a lot more realistic i think as i was listening to it while writing, drink water today by the way xo.

Y/n's Diary

You know what im sick of  Harry having it all, He was the boy who lived and I was the girl who was forgotten and i couldn't help but hate that so here I am, With my death-eaters mark.  It's not because i envy him. It's not because i want the attention, It's not because im the girl who was forgotten., It's not because I want to be more than Harry...It's because hes the boy who lived and i need to protect him I need to know what they're plotting against my brother because i need him to be far away from it before if happens. I love him and i cant bare to loose him, He's all i have left. So i will Sacrifise my life for his. As for the life inside me it will be safe too. Hermione promised me the baby would be safe as I said the spell that put the little life inside me into her. It hurt me a lot, not my feelings but physically, And mentally but my baby will be safe and thats all i care about. Because i know in my gut That  my baby will be safer with Hermione. She promised me she would go home and stay with the Weaslys after Christmas to keep my baby safe. And that's all i care about right now that my baby and Harry are safe. And Draco Lucis Malfoy your driving me mad and your one of my main priorities too. I've missed you all summer and i can't wait to see you but It kills me that i can't tell you i was carrying your child and now it's in my best friends whom instead of mine. How crazy does that sound. But i can't risk loosing this child, you or Harry. That's why i have my mark. I hope u understand Draco even though I'm never going to tell you...

-Y/n Potter

Dracos Diary

I love you y/n potter and u know it which makes me crazy. The whole summer all i thought about was you. I have been daydreaming about u a lot and it makes me happy at the thought of you. Which makes my mother happy to see me Happy. And trust me i need alot of u right now ive been so stressed. Because i have my death eaters mark now. My father made me get it behind my mothers back, she then found out and now he doesn't live with us, me and mother were thinking about moving out of the manor because it's too big for two people. But im glad he's gone I despised him and i always will. Mother never lets me go to the meetings I'm kinda happy about that they scare me. But i can't wait to see you and feel your touch again y/n potter becasue i despise when i can't have you.

-Draco Malfoy '

I can't wait to get to Hogwarts to see him and smell his cologne again i missed you Malfoy. I suddenly see a blond head knock at the window and open the compartment door.
"May I borrow y/n"? They all gave him death stairs as i got up and shut the compartment door. I gave him the biggest hug ever and dragged him into an empty compartment shutting the door closed behind me then the blinds, I continued to push him on the chair and sit on top of him straddling his hips, while kissing and grinding on him passionately. His hands were all over me and mine were all over him. "I've missed you y/n potter" he wispered in my ear while leaving hickys all down my neck and over the top of my breasts just where my shirt was unbuttoned. I've missed u too i say as i slowly suck on his neck as he bucks his head back in pleasure, I slowly move down to his zipper on his trousers and unzip it, then i take out his dick and start massaging up and down. I then take my mouth to his tip and start going up and down taking his full dick in my mouth while he grab's my breasts. I make him cum and then i clean myself up.I button up my shirt quite proud of my master piece that was plastered all over his neck and under his jaw. He looked at me while i pulled my red laced thong back up and i can feel his eyes scanning my body. I turn around laughing at him seeing the state of his neck, He looks down too see nothing but hickys and love bits that he was covered in and said,
"i'll get u back for that Y/n". I looked him in the eyes ad said "i'm sure you will" with a wink the train stopped. I looked at him again and squealed "you might need to get me first!"i said running out and jumping off the train trying to catch up with Harry,Hermione and Ron i quickly jump on there carrige. Hey Hermione smirks at me Ron looks Disgusted and Harry Gave me a death stare. They seen all the love bits on my neck, shit I thought, I knew I was fucked, Harry was pissed and ignored me the whole night. The next day draco decided to be  dick and be rude to Harry as he says "she said it's her first time" Harry looks at him in disgust. "Think she might have lied she feels so damn good." "You know thats my sister your talking about" scoulds harry draco smirks and "i dont know why" he says Harry walks over to him fists clenched "Im addicted" he says raising his tone. Harry grabs his shirts and pushes him onto the tree lifting his feet off the floor. "Actually Ron was her first time" Harry shouted. Draco stopped in his tracks and rushed down the hall to find me.

"Why didn't u tell me?" I hear a voice behind me say. "Tell you what Draco?" i look at him confused. "About- about Ron and you". "What?" i say confused not sure if we're thinking the same thing. "Don't act fucking dumb Y/n You fucked Ron weasly For fuck sake" He said in disgust. "Draco Calm down it was in 3rd year" I say now knowing full well what he's talking about and trying to reassure him. "I still loved you y/n" he said sounding a bit uneasy. "I didnt know Draco I- I Im sorry..." I said trying to sympathise with him "k" he said slumping off. He was pissed

Later that day I heard a knock at the door it was dracos knock i knew it. I opened the door in my red pj shorts and white v-neck crop top. "What draco?" i said slightly mad at the way he had acted over everything. He looked me up and down and said "im so sorry y/n" he said grabbing me in a tight embrace "Hey its fine we could have talked about it though you didn't need to act like that" I told him. "I just dont like other poeple touching you y/n your mine and mine only" he said looking me up and down and with a slight smirk on his face.
"If u say so" I say giving him a kiss teasing him "well the doors there whenever u wanna go" i said walking back towards my bed knowing full well he was staring at my ass. ( I did purposely pull my shorts up extra high) I hop into bed and pull out my book from under me pillow and continue writing as i hear him walking, I look over and he's walking towards the door. But no he doesnt leave he locks it and then looks at me says "I still owe u from earlier y/n Potter". I look at him already getting wet as he takes off his shirt and walks over to me but i decide to take control. I pull him on the bed and get on top of him sitting on his boner and kissing him. I slowly start leaving more and more love bits sliding my hands all over his body and then I slowly make my way down to his belt undoing it and leaving him to take his trousers and boxers off. He holds my hair back while I get him started with a blowjob, He then goes down on me for awhile knowing exactly what to do. After this i get on my hand and knees on the bed and slowly slide down keeping my knees in place so he can fuck me from behind. After around 45-50 minutes of sex we both finished at least 3 times and he was in the shower, I decided to surprise him and hop in too i washed the suds off the soap off his chest while he ran the blueberry shampoo through my thick hair. He always said he loved the smell of that shampoo.

But then it takes a turn, There's never any happy moments without something bad is there. The makeup i had used to cover my mark started to come off in the shower, I watched as the water turned the colour of my concealer and foundation then all i could think was *Fuck* *Shit* *i'm so fucked* He looked at me as you could see it run down the drain, he then just stopped in his tracks and looked me dead in the eyes. I was confused and looked at him, why did he say anything i thought to myself?. He just stood there. He slowly lifted a cloth off my shower shelf and tried to wipe off the access make up i pulled my arm away and said "Draco get out now". How could i be so stupid wtf. "No I seen it y/n your one of them... " he said looking at me with no emotion on his face. "LEAVE DRACO NOW". I said getting upset with myself fr letting this happen. "Im not leaving you" he says as he turns his arm around.  I stare at his arm in shock. The blank ink plastered up his arm. Exactly the same as mine, How did I not notice this I said to myself "Your the one killing Dumbeldoor aren't you" he said looking me right in the eyes. "And your the one fixing the cabinet" I said staring at him the same as he had been at me. "But how if u have never been to the meeting, This has been planned for years y/n they were gonna make me kill him, until they said i just needed to fix the cabinet as there was someone else this did confuse me i have to say but i didn't know it was you, how could you? Why?" he was still staring at me his face blank it were as if his eyes were darting through me. I looked at him the tears flowing down my cheeks. "I needed to do it draco, For Harry I can't let him Die Draco, I can't he's the only family I have left. I can't loose him. I did it for him i couldn't let him be here when Voldemort gets here he'll kill him Draco you don't understand!" i screamed the tears were now unstoppable as i started to hyperventilate in panic. I jumped out of the shower and threw my towel robe on and sat on me bed. I few moments later Draco walks in and very softly sits down beside me, he embraces me in a hug and helps me breath again he grabs my face with both his hands and looks me in the eyes the tears slowly forming in his beautiful blue eyes and he says "We will do it together I promise i'll be here every second of it i promise you y/n" he said running his hand through my wet hair I put my head into his shoulder and gave him a hug. He lifted my chin and kissed me then wiped my tears. I wanted to tell him everything right there and then, I wanted to tell him about the baby and not keep it a secret but i couldn't do it i had to keep it hidden no matter what. He stayed the night with me to comfort me and i loved it but i also think it was for his comfort too but i didn't mind i loved having him stay. I cuddled back into his cheast and he wrapped his arms around me holding me tightly the whole night. I was happier, we were in this together and thats all i cared about but i was scared of what might happen next.