Jungkook wanted to to talk, ask why Jimin is doing this but no words came out of his mouth. It felt like all his words have been stuck in his throat. He could only whimper while tears breaming through his eyes. His eyes were still wide as ever changing his focus to the knife to Jimin and again. Heart was beating at its supremacy almost like it would break through his rib cage. He felt like the time was going like in those movies, slow as ever. The seconds felt like eternity, and finally he felt the pain breaking through his body making a small pained scream leave his lips.

Jimin's satisfied smile after hearing it didn't go unnoticed by Jungkook at all. He could feel his pain in his wrist but there was another pain which pained even more inside him, burning his heart feeling it shatters into pieces. He had finally been happy just yesterday and how much he enjoyed it. He won't hesitate to tell anyone that it was his favourite day from all the days he have lived. He was in a heaven but now he can only assume that it was all a lie. He even started debating himself if yesterday was some kind of a dream or not. Weather if it's a dream or not he have come to face the bitter truth.

Jimin didn't love him and would never do.

He wanted to laugh at himself for being so pathetic to think actually a person like Jimin would love him. He wanted to leave now for real. A part of him was amazed by his decision. He was about to stay here enduring anything that might happen before and now he didn't want to.

If Jimin can be selfish, Why can't he be a little either?

Jungkook suddenly got hit by a sudden wave of pain making him let out a scream. He came back from his trances and immediately glanced at his wrist. He hold it slightly from his other hand as he felt his hand numb completely now almost impossible to even think of moving it on it own. He looked at Jimin with new tears pooling in his eyes.

Jimin can't lie if he was broken out from the trace he was in the whole evening seeing the other looking at him like that. But he chooses to ignore while starting to work on other's leg.

Jimin finally let go of the knife looking at all things he did, Meaning by letting go means after he wiped off the blood with his tongue almost making it looked like it didn't do anything like that before shoving it inside his leather coat. He glanced at Jungkook who was already on the verge of falling into consciousness.

Jungkook welcomed the darkness with wide open hands, wanting to forget everything.

Jimin left the room after Jungkook got unconscious. His desire was long gone, he had a new feeling now.

Guiltiness.

He huffed at himself, opening the door of his room. He thought for a second if he should change or not but remembering some drops of blood must be on his clothes, he decided to change them. Even his clothes looked like he hadn't done anything like that.

After he was done changing into his usual clothes he glanced at bed. No he was not sleepy so he walked into his balcony instead. He was soon greeted by a cold wind but it didn't affect him even a little. He looked at the sky but he didn't see much because the sky was covered with a think layer of clouds. It was empty as ever. Jimin exhaled making it like a white smoke releasing his lips. He was bored by only seeing the blank sky so he decided to get back into his room.
While closing the balcony door behind, he plopped himself onto the bed. Snuggling one of a pillow he had in the bed. His feeling of guilty didn't seem like it wanted to leave soon as it was still there bothering him.

"I wanted to do that right?"

"He's not trust worthy right?"

"Then why am I feeling this?" He groaned into his pillow while squeezing his eyes shut. A part of him didn't want anything else but to go back to Jungkook and see if he was okay or not. And Jimin being Jimin didn't wanted to obey it. He turned his body towards the ceiling while having a staring contest with it. He sighed at himself. His guiltiness was like a rubber ball. His thoughts were the water. No matter how hard he tried to drown it into deep down of the water, it only kept coming back onto to the surface. He sighed again now closing his eyes hoping he would fall asleep.

Jimin opened his eyes and looked at his phone, I unlocking it.
2.00 a.m
He kept the phone back on its place at the nightstand and rubbed his eyes.

"Why won't this goddamn sleep come to me?" As he expected no answer. He closed his eyes again hoping at least god would listen to him this time.

He opened his eyes again after like an eternity for him. He looked at the time and nearly smashed it on the floor due to the anger. It was literally three in the morning.

"I freaking have a interview and a performance tomorrow, if I don't sleep now MY FACE WILL GET PUFFY AND ALL IN THE MORNING ARGHH." Jimin cried internally. He sat on his bed while rubbing his face. He walked towards his bathroom mirror not forgetting to put the lights. He cupped his face while staring at the mirror, turning it to side to side checking if his face was still okay.

"I swear if my face would get puffy in morning I'm gonna kill you." Jimin walked out of his room muttering to himself.

He saw Jungkook lying on the bed peacefully if you ignore how pale his face looked. Jimin sighed while walking towards him. He was sure that Jungkook would walk up tomorrow but the wounds didn't let Jimin live in peace. He walked to the bathroom and came back grabbing a first aid box.

After he was done with treating Jungkook's wounds, he got up from the bed still not breaking his stare at the younger. He covers him by the bedsheet and walked towards the door talking his last glance at the younger. He face palmed himself for not closing the door behind him when he entered it before. But he didn't forget to close it this time.

"Finally, now would you let me sleep peacefully?" Jimin said to himself when he came to his room. He smiled when he could feel himself getting sleepier and his feeling of guiltiness getting lower.

*Beep* *Beep*

Jimin groaned and turned himself to the other side of his bed hearing the annoying sound of his alarm.

*Beep* *Beep*

He was a fool for thinking it would stop itself. He woke up and practically ran to his mirror forgetting about night. He sighed in relief seeing his face perfect as ever.

He left the house not forgetting to have another glance at Jungkook before he leave just in case he was awake but he wasn't.

He sighed when he reached his destination.

"This is going to be a long day."

I somehow want to end this book before this year ends so let's hope it would success....... Hopefully.
My jobless self rn would get enough work next near to not even get a chance to read any fan fictions :(