(Author's Note: Requested by YukiRen9201.)

(Y/N)'s POV

I'm a guy who were born different than normal kids out there. I have no parents because they died when I'm at middle school, leaving me all by myself. No one's willing to adopt me, so I would end up being independent myself. Good thing I managed to adapt easily, but that's not enough to cure my depression.

I really wanted to end my life, but I don't want to end it instantly. I'm going to do it slow and painful to make a lesson to not return to this world ever again if I don't want to suffer.

Present day...

(Y/N)'s House

Thursday, Morning

Another day of me living in this sad world and I'm getting ready to go to school. Once I have done everything, I locked the front door and walk through the neighborhood.

???: Good morning!

I heard someone greeting me and it's a girl around my age. It's Saaya Yamabuki, the drummer of a band girls named Poppin'Party. She's also my friend. I didn't greet her back because I have no mood to do so.

Saaya: What's wrong?

(Y/N): Good morning, Saaya.

She was confused as to why am I so gloomy.

Saaya: Don't be sad. Here.

She offered me a paper bag filled with pastry from her shop.

Saaya: I make this for you.

She gave me a warm smile as I took the paper bag off her hand.

(Y/N): Th-Thank you. Anyway, I'll see you-

Saaya: Wait.

She grabbed my hand as I stop walking.

Saaya: I want to walk with you together.

(Y/N): But, I thought that you have your friends.

Saaya: I already told them I'll be going to school with you.

Looks like I have no excuses to counter her argument. So, I accept her offer at last.

(Y/N): Fine.

Saaya: Thank you.

We walked to school together with Saaya being so close to me. I tried distancing myself a few inches away from her, but she would be close to me anyway.

Saaya: Alright, I guess this is where we part ways. I'll see you later. Bye.

She waved a bit before parting ways from me to her class. I got to say she seems to be a nice person. But, I don't need her kindness to restore my will to live.

As I pass through the hallway, I accidentally bumped onto someone. The person got angered by me and scold me.

Bully: Watch where you're going, edgy boy.

(Y/N): I-I'm sorry.

Bully: Sorry? Here's your forgiveness!

He said before punching me at the face really hard. I couldn't fight back since the injury in my arms restrict me from doing so. Once he's done, I fell down to the floor.

Bully: Man, you're so weak.

He took my wallet and grab all of my money from there. Luckily, it's not much and I kept some at a place that I'm the only one knows.

Bully: If you did it again, you'll get worse than this. Got it?

He walk away from me after beating me up. I head to class slowly as my classmates didn't bother about me that much because of them gossipping.

(Y/N): Oh no, I didn't finish my homework.

Just before I was about to do it, the school bell rings and the teacher enter the class.

Teacher: Good morning, class. Before we start our lesson, I want you to collect all of your homework.

I heard him talking as I was busy working on my homework. But then, someone took it away while I'm just a few questions in and... it was my teacher. He looked at me and then the unfinished homework.

Teacher: I see. You haven't done anything for the past week. What did you do?

(Y/N): Umm... I...

Male Classmate: He was busy thinking about his dead parents! Just move on, what's so hard about it?

He answered the teacher's question for me... in quite an offensive way.

Teacher: I can't let you go without any sort of punishment.

He said as he showed me his back.

Teacher: Your punishment is that you have to clean the entire classroom after school for the rest of the week. No buts, and if you can't do it, then I guess I'll expell you. Understand?

(Y/N): Yes, teacher.

I accepted the punishment from teacher as he continues the class.

Timeskip...

Recess time...

I decided to be alone by myself and eat Saaya's pastry under a shady tree. I prefer to not be with people and hear them talk about random things I don't really care about.

I was busy reminiscing about my punishment for not finishing the homework. I mean, it is my fault that I kept remembering my parents instead of focusing at present time.

As I was staring at the sky, someone greeted me and I gazed at them. It was Saaya and she has a smile on her face.

Saaya: Hey, it's me again. Mind if I sit with you?

(Y/N): ... Sure.

Saaya: Sorry for bothering you.

She said before sitting beside me, take a pastry out of the paper bag she brought along and eat it. I only stare at her chewing down her food and she gazed at me.

Saaya: What's wrong? You've been looking at me for a while now.

(Y/N): Umm... hey. May I ask you something?

Saaya: Go ahead. I'll be listening.

(Y/N): Why do you wanted to be my friend and be close to me so bad? Not to be rude, but I thought that you have your friends.

She stopped biting her food and answered me.

Saaya: I can't just help it, watching you be alone and have no one else to care about you.

(Y/N): I see.

Saaya: Hope you don't mind.

Kasumi: Saaya! Come and sit with us!

The girl yelled at Saaya and she only gazed at the girl.

(Y/N): Your friend's calling you. Go ahead.

Saaya: B-But, I want to be with you.

(Y/N): It's okay. Besides, I need some loneliness right now.

Saaya: Oh... I see. Alright then.

She put her head down in disappointment before standing up and brushing her skirts as she head to the girl that called her.

Once I finished my food, I clean up the place and head back to my class.

After School...

It took me a while to clean the class, but at least I have done my work for the day. There's 6 days left and I'll be let go from my punishment.

(Y/N): Finally, I got back home.

Without waiting any longer, I went to the kitchen and grab a knife before exposing my sleeves up and show my arms. There's lots of cuts on my arms and I'm used to it.

I add another one by slashing my arms like when I'm cutting fish. I know that it stings, but that's what U want and I'm used to it.

The next morning...

Friday, Morning

I was walking to school as usual and Saaya walk up to me and greet me.

Saaya: Good morning, (Y/N).

(Y/N): Good morning.

I greet her with a hint of coldness in my voice.

Saaya: Here. Pastries from my bakery.

She gave me another paper bag filled with pastries inside.

(Y/N): Thank you.

Saaya: Hey! Wait for me!

She wouldn't leave me alone and she kept persistently doing so until we have reached school.

Saaya: I'll see you later, (Y/N).

She said before parting ways to her class again. She seems to be a nice girl, but I don't need her.

The day goes on as usual with nothing else, and with Saaya accompanying me again during school lunch instead of her friends. It's after school and I have done yet another day of my detention.

Saaya: (Y/N)...

I heard a voice calling me and it's Saaya. I thought that she's already gone home.

(Y/N): What? I'm about to go home, so go with your friends already. I don't want you to keep them waiting.

Saaya: May I visit your house? Pretty please...

She clapped her hands together and I believe she won't leave me alone until she get what she wants.

(Y/N): Sure.

Saaya: Really? Thank you.

I decided to just let her visit my house. She followed me all the way beside me and after around 20 minutes of walking, we're finally here.

(Y/N): This is my house.

I opened the front door as we entered the house. She sat at the couch as I head to the kitchen.

(Y/N): Want something to drink?

Saaya: No, thanks. I'm here just to see you.

(Y/N): Okay then.

I went to the kitchen and grab a glass of water to drink. I want to do it, but I can't let her see me.

Saaya: Do you live with anyone else?

I put my head down in sadness before answering her.

(Y/N): They're... already gone.

Saaya: Oh no. I'm so sorry to hear that.

(Y/N): It's fine. I'm already move on from that.

I said, lying to her.

Saaya: I brought you some gift.

(Y/N): Thank you.

Saaya: May I... look around your house?

(Y/N): Okay.

She smiled and proceed to visit every single room in my house. She was fascinated by how wide the room is.

(Y/N): Yeah, go ahead. Scrutinize my house all you want because I won't be living here anymore when I end myself.

After the visit, it's already evening and she thanked me as I went to see her one last time for the day.

Saaya: I had a good time with you.

(Y/N): Me too. You make me feel less lonely.

Saaya: Fufu~ If you want, I can visit you again.

(Y/N): Nah, it's fine.

Saaya: I should be going now. I don't want to worry my family. Well then, I'll see you at school.

She then walk away from my house as I smiled sadly, and now I can slash my arms again. I did, and my arms bleed once again.

(Y/N): Just let this ends quickly...

For the past few days, I've been trying to avoid Saaya. She seems to be really clingy to me and won't give up to at least talk to me. When she wants to talk to me, I would cut it short.

Everyday, the cuts in my arms gets even worse. At one point, it start bleeding. But, I don't care. I kept adding one, not caring about whether if it would heal or not. One day, I said in my heart.

(Y/N): Stop giving my kindness, Saaya. I want to give up in life, so let me do it.

Saaya's POV

I don't know what is up with (Y/N). Everytime I want to greet him, he would walk away and disappear from my sight. There's something going on with him and I need to know what happened.

Saaya: I need to check up on him. I think I know where he lives.

I talk to myself as I already planned to pay him a second visit later. I'll even brought him a gift.

Timeskip...

(Y/N)'s POV

(Y/N)'s House

Sunday, Morning

I woke up in the morning, now with the cuts on my hand getting worse. At some part, there's some bleeding and red line.

(Y/N): Dang it. Why am I still in this bedroom?

So, I went to the kitchen and grab a knife. As I point the sharp edge to my arms, my mind flashback to all of the memories I got.

The bitter ones... where I got bullied and my money stolen by him... where my classmate became heartless by answering my teacher as to why I didn't finish my homework...

And the sweet ones... where Saaya would become my friends, when she gave me her pastries every day I went to school.

(Y/N): I'm sorry, Saaya.

As I cut my wrist, I accidentally overdid it and now, blood spills out way too many. I yelled in immense pain as I fell down to the floor and hit my head hard.

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But, that's what I want anyway.

Today is the day, where I would end myself for good. I don't care if I would be in Heaven or Hell for what I've done. All what matters is that I want to be in afterlife with my mom and dad.

(Y/N): Farewell, everyone. I'll be going now... forever.

After that, my eyes closed as I saw a figure coming my way and I leave this world... hopefully.

(To be continued...)

(Author's Note: So, this guy right here wanted to make this one-shot into 2 parts, so this one-shot isn't complete yet. So, look forward to the next part later.)