⚠ Warning: Depressing and Possibly Sad ⚠

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"Fine by me!" I gave him a questioning look, "Your fine with getting kidnapped or raped?" I asked making his face flush red, he then nervously laughed while he scratched the back of his neck. "N-no, not that! I mean, I'm just fine that you were okay with me walking you home, th-that's all." Evan rephrased, I giggled. "Well, should we get walking, my good lady?" Evan asked and puts his arm out, I giggled and then nodded before linking arms with him. He smiled and we then walked out of school.

' ' Don't wake me up from this sweet little dream... ' '

While walking down the sidewalk a familiar voice snaps me back into reality, "(Y/n)!"

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"Huh?" I asked aloud, then I turned around to see Brock. I smiled, "Hey Brock!" I said while waving at him, he smiles and walks over to both of us. "H-hey (Y/n).. um, if you don't mind me asking, don't you u-usually walk with Jon..?" He asked making me freeze, Evan noticed so he answers for me. "Um, you see.." Evan starts, making Brock looks at him, "Jonathan messed up, making (Y/n), uhh.. hurt?" He wasn't wrong though, Jonathan did hurt me. Emotionally that is. Brock seemed to understand so he just nodded, "O-okay, sorry for asking!" He said and starts walking the way we were going... Right, his house is like four houses away from mine.

"Wait Brock!" I called out making him turn around with a confused look, "Let's walk home together!" I said making Evan make a weird worried sound, Brock seemed to brighten up. "S-sure!" He responded with a nod, I turned to Evan who now has a frown on his face. I put my hand on his shoulder, startling him, "Sorry, did you say something?" Evan asked, I shook my head no then sighed, "No, but I'll be walking home with Brock. So you can go home now, Ev." I explained, he seemed hesitant but he nodded. I have him a small smile, "See you at school tomorrow?" I asked, he lightened up and nodded making me giggle, he ruffled my hair before walking off. I turned back to Brock and walked up to him, "Let's go!"

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[ ??? POV ]

"Why am I like this?" I asked aloud and then I turned to my best friend, who was just looking at me, concerned. "Why?" I asked again, he sighed and puts his hand on my shoulder. "I don't know Jon, I just.. don't know." He said and looks down, I closed my eyes, going deep in thought.

' ' Maybe it's destiny telling me that I'm not a good match for her... ' '

' ' ...telling me that I'll just mess up, all the time. Break her heart, all the time. ' '

"Jonathan, don't say that." Luke said, snapping me from my trance. "W-wait, I-I said those aloud?" I asked, stuttering a bit. "Yes, yes you did," He plainly answers and sighed once again. I felt guilty because it feels like I'm just dragging him into my situation... no, I am dragging him into my situation. Ugh, why am I such a problem?!

I put my head in my hands and tried calling down, usually when something would make me angry, I would just laugh it away. But this is not a laughing matter. I officially fucking lost her. This isn't the first time I messed up and I know that...

"Jon, calm down.." Luke said and tried giving me a hug but I pushed him away, "H-hey, ch-chill, every problem has a solution, D-Del!" Luke said, slowly growing terrified, he knows what happens if I'm too much in a depressed mood that's why he called me by my codename instead. I started laughing, the insane creepy one of course, "I can't be chill Cartoonz, I'm the problem!" I said and ran out of his house. I always go to his house when I have a.. predicament, his parents were on a business trip so that why we don't worry that much about his parents.

I just noticed that it was raining... and that I had tears in my eyes, I quickly wiped them but new ones kept streaming out, this made my vision blurry... I didn't exactly know where I was going, before I knew it, everything went black.

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[ Your POV ]
I got back home two hours ago, my parents questioned once again of why I didn't walk with him. I simply answered with, "He's sick." which they believed. We already ate dinner as well, so I was just doing the dishes. As I was putting the last dish away, my mom called me from the living room, "(Y/n) dear, come and see this!" I quickly put the last dish away, wiped my hands and rushed into the living room. "Yes mom?" I asked and looked at her, she simply eyed the television, I then looked at dad, who seemed unhappy. Their actions confused me so I turned my attention towards the television, it was on the News Channel and what I saw as the headline almost made me want to go back in time.

'' Teen ran over by a delivery truck. ''

"And here we have the parents of the teen, Mrs. Dennis, what do you want to say?" "I-I j-just really wanted what's best for him..."

I quickly left the room and ran into my bedroom with watery eyes, I closed the door and then locked it. I hung my head low and put it in my hands, suddenly my phone went off. I wiped my tears and walked over to my bed where I left my phone, I picked it up and then turned it on. A message. I tapped on it... it was from Evan, right. I began reading it.

So uhh, you watched the news?

Before the whole thing happened, Jon left a note somewhere outside your house the last time you walked home with him..

I'm so sorry (Y/n)...

It's fine... I guess

I really should've forgave him huh?

I turned my phone off and left it on my bed again, I got up, unlocked the door and I opened it and walked outside. My parents weren't in the living room anymore so I guessed they were in their room. Perfect, they won't have to question why I need to go outside. I quietly went down the stairs... then I walked to the front door, I opened it and then I closed it and quickly tried to find it. Once I found a folded piece of at the very top of the door which I somehow managed to get, I unfolded it and read it.

'' "Every Problem Has a Solution" right? Well I just thought that... I was the problem and you are my solution <3  ''

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I'm sorry....

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