~•~ JEALOUS SERIES ~•~

Author note: For you guys should listen the above song no matter it's your first time or not, I just love that. Don't forget to loop. Ok enjoy

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" Hey bacon, where've you been? "
I approached close to my dazed best friend who had been in the list of lost child for the whole morning. It was mid winter obviously the snow were frosting the streets and coats of pedestrians of the froze secluded road. And there, bizarrely, my best friend was only in his long sleeved hoodie and running in the quarter as if he was a marathon runner or some plugged out buffer

" Not your business "
The friend of mine I always patronised wasn't like that at all, tactless and obnoxious. He was mostly of the time cheerful and exuberant like he could burn down the boredom of people around him lifting their mood up to the next level. So I immediately realized something was going on in the little sly head of his

" Excuse me, my best friend for a life time, who never had a depressed sleepless face like this, is now turning into a human panda. If this is not my business, then what's my business? "
At the end of my complaint, the pouty boy escaped a giggle completely satisfied by my overwhelmed attention breathing upon him. He always loved attention and I knew he got better from whatever he was sustaining if I fed him a piece of attention. But then, he convexed his lips into a downward curl regaining the insomnia patient's depressed face again. And slowly I got impatient at his childishness gradually from the past few seconds

" C'mon, what's the deal? Lemme know it and help you solve too "
Tugging on his long coat sleeve, I whined and jerked annoyingly, causing him to glare at me back in 180° angle. Actually, it always gave me goosebumps whenever he glared at me, like seriously he was getting mad at me for some pointless reason which I didn't even know

" Where's your study partner, anyways? "
The soft whisper stirred with sarcasms in his tone asked me pretentiously

" At his home? "
Nothing made senses. I couldn't figure out why he was inspecting about someone else to me when I was with him. Also, I got confused the fact that he started liking boys over the pretty fat ass girls, since him asking me about males except my dad, was totally abnormal

" How long has it been? "
This time, I took him surprise asking out-of-no-where-question from out of no where. Of course, he gazed at me brows knitting and eyes squinting

" How long what? "
The angry boy halted on his track and gyrated his direction towards me, gripping my hand upon his sleeve with other hand

" That you start liking boys "
As soon as I finished my remark, he yelled at me out of his lungs furious and irritated, over my joke aside. And me, who was expecting him to laugh out loud was startled under his fierce gaze like a beast scanning his prey before he mauled it into two

" I don't "
He fumed a grunt retaining his dark gloomy aura revolving around his eyes. That was my first time experiencing him in that grumpy mood like he could kill someone right now, but one thing was still unclear that the fact I was embracing his all anger when I did nothing wrong. And that he's making a mistake for being combative in front of me

" Excuse me. Yah, Byun Baekhyun. Why are you mad at me? "
I spurred him to even name my mistake which I had no idea if I committed it or not. He might feel my inside was also sprouting similar anger by his tactless and obnoxious altitudes

" I've lost my appetize of playing with you "
Not even letting him answer my question, I declared my idea upon tolerating his teenaged hormonal mood swings, and my last elimination was leaving him alone till he maintained his composure back. As I let go of his sleeve and removing his grip on my wrist, I averted my steps away from him with a sorrowful expression reigning my whole visage. I totally got fed up by his rudeness over pointless nothing out of blue, seasoning sorrow over my dish " happiness ". Always being the one who was yelled and blamed whenever he was broken from one of his courts, was something I didn't sign up for

* He'll heal himself from his heart breaking. I'm done with him *
I assumed right away after leaving him behind accelerating my steps to somewhere further from him. It wasn't the best time for dispute and I wasn't welcomed to those blame on's at all

At the very out of my patience, he had to hold me, tighter than every hug he ever gave me before. He should've bewared the timing for such beg before he took it in actions. The only tightened grip upon my biceps reminded me of the reality was what I always imagined in the wildest dreams of my nights. He just hugged me

Y/n: Hey, hey
My hands reached up to his long slender digits to loosen the choker of his tightness upon my bristle existence. For even reminding myself that he was just facing hormonal mood swings, not that he's catching feelings for me, I forced myself to escape out of his reach because, the closer he got, the harder to resist my feelings for him. Went from beautiful to ugly, according the way those insecurities told me he wasn't into me, also I was afraid of getting hurt if he wouldn't be seeing me from a different angle. The most possible way was that he would be needing a company to comfort him, and the fact that he still friend-zoned me wasn't reversing at all

* I'll always be his best friend *
He never recognized me being beside him whenever he needed someone, since he just was seeing girls in front of him and how I wished him to just turned to his sides for at least noticing I was always there. Thus he liked me as a friend and I realized his altitudes upon me weren't more than a friend, I kept a distance between us from the start of this year. I studied alone in library not bothered calling him out from his courting work. I ate my lunch in some corners of the classes not begging him to be my company from his precious courting

" Are you ok? "
I was ready to comfort him from any pain he was suffering like I always was. May be I might show him some of my cousin's photo for him to find a distraction from his problem with courting her, though he'd never realise it stabbed my organs into blood cells

" I am not "
There's his pouty tone. If there was a cute devil like him out there, he'd be the devil who fed upon the attention. He always loved being the centre of attention. Being loud, cheerful, diplomatic, affable and reachable for everyone around him paying them comfort to play around him was his characteristics

" Why? "
Even though I didn't tend to hear another girl's name out of his beautiful pair of lips, I gathered all of my strength and went straight to the reluctant question

" Another girl? "
He nodded. I could feel my body tensing up at my own audacious question and at the vibration his chin sent to my collarbone, at his rapid nod since he was snuggling in the crook of my neck. No, I wasn't ready to hear another name of the girl in his head right now. It just didn't feel right

" Anyways, save it for later. I need to go to Kai's house to tutor him again "
I reasoned wasting Kai's name for such lame situation like that. But Baekhyun was there silent and froze upon the fact that I stole his answer and replaced if with my own reason

" Why are you being like that? "
Now, his tone had more intense coldness rather than the first harsh angry tone. With one gyration of my body, he spun me to face him with aggression

" Why? I'm being noting at all "
I denied. The vacuum air was filled with tension between our bodies lifting each other into the secluded dimension made only for two of us, to blast our angers, happiness, dread and fear, all kinds of emotions we wanted to express

" Stop saying someone else's names "
The different change of his aura in his furious tone took me by surprise over my look, dazed and gazed

You're the one who's always saying someone else's names
I couldn't say it

" You have no idea how it hurts me "
He added again maintaining the awkward atmosphere around us, letting it more sultry by the sudden closure of his body against mine

You have no idea how it hurts me too
Unspoken words, there's more of them in my heart and my brain which I never had courage to form them into confession

" Please, don't leave me. I want to hang out with you like old days. Or may be study with you "
He offered slightly raspy at his tone negotiating a better result like a business man, and I knew he really meant upon his statements since he put the study one in it which he always denied to do with me. He's not more of a lazyass at all

Hang out like a friend?

I wasn't responding his offer as it took me concerning my brain out over the meanings, behind each of his words he just blurted casually. I didn't want to be fooled with fake yearnings and hopes which no longer would be my reality

" What's wrong with you? "
It was fair of me asking him the reason behind his surreal behaviours like he just got a disease out of no where. So, I presumed he was just messing with me like the so called old days, and shook my head in disapproval before turning back to the direction of Kai's house which was opposite of Baekhyun's. But my feet couldn't get further away from him as I heard him weeping behind my back

" I like you. And may be, I love you "
Since the first day meet of us in the KG till now in the last year of highschool, I always waited for this moment, him confessing his feelings towards me begging for my mercy brokenly though it reversed my life 12 years to wait and long him till now, finally I found the reciprocal

" I- I- "
I practiced how I should be reacting at those days back there, how to react if he suddenly confessed me. I did practise every night before I laid on my bed bringing my pillow up close to my face pretending to end my day kissing him. And now, my never came true dreams were venturing in front of me

" Don't go. Just stay with me "
I had no idea to motion myself into actions and form my thoughts into words. It just didn't work like that. My all practices just bid goodbye to my brain and I was numb at the unbelievably miracle situation. It didn't have to be worse than that but when he barged a step closer towards me, I just had to succumb the gravity which was pulling my legs and nuzzled myself in his arms

" I won't let you go untill you promise me, that you won't go to him "
The always dominant bad side of him returned back and now ordering me like a guardian. But that was so much belligerent of him manipulating me like a popping

" And why is that? Why do I have to promise you? "
I wouldn't make a promise since the beginning if it seemed to just give me hurdle at keeping it. That's why, he needed to give me a reason to comply his demand. But I actually didn't expect that to come out of him

" Cause you're mine, sweetheart "
A kiss on my left cheek, just so sudden and extremely sloppy. For a second, I just assumed I must be dreaming but his breaths on my bare neck endorsed that it was all happening for real. He wasn't finishing his essay though. There's still three words he needed to say

" And I'm yours "
There it was, he just said

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Today, my dad went back to his work at the lower Myanmar and left us. I miss him so much just right now. Dad has no idea I'm even missing him now. He always believes I'm just so cold and separating. I am not

And also have a good day or night everyone. This is one of the jealous series. Lemme know if you have better idea for next chapters too

Words count- 2058
Date - 7.12.2021