First of all, I would like to express my deepest sympathies to all the people who have lost their closed ones in the Orlando attack. I'm very saddened by what has happened unfortunately no one can prepare for a loss. My support and love is always with you guys. Also, everyone is equal in this world, never ever consider yourself as being inferior to others just because you have differences. YOU ARE AMAZING THE WAY YOU ARE AND ALWAYS BE HAPPY WITH WHO YOU ARE. Today, we might have lost our brothers and sisters but heaven has gained angels who will always watch over us. May their souls rest in peace. 

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Few days have passed since Ethan and I kept ignoring each other. Everyone in the house could sense the tension between the both of us. If the beast was at home, he would lock himself up in his study and if he went to the office, he would stay there till late night. During these days, we did not interact at all but if we saw each other, I would glare at him and I could see regret in his eyes. But that's the beast we are talking about. He is like a volcano, ready to explode at anytime and usually it's me who bears this eruption.

During the few days, Ryan and I have become unbelievably close. We have become the best buddies ever. What I like the most about him is that he is aware that something has happened between the beast and I but he does not pester me into telling him the reason behind my coldness towards the beast.

Fortunately, today was Saturday, my off day. Today my plans were to go and visit Lucas. Oh, how much I've missed my little man.

The first thing I did once I woke up is pack my bags and said a goodbye to the twins as well as Cordelia. Thank goodness, the beast was not here. I was not in the mood in talking to him. Yes, it's been three days since we are both avoiding each other, but the thing is that this distance is nearly killing me. Despite his attitude towards me, a big part of me wants to talk to him, wants to kiss him. Good Lord, what the hell is happening to me?!

I took a cab and made my way towards Carraway Residence. During my entire journey, I couldn't help myself from wondering what must have happened to make Ethan so hostile towards me.

''We're here, ma'am.'' The taxi driver informed me. I got startled by his voice and looked at my surroundings. Yes, indeed we have arrived.

I paid the driver his money and got off the cab. I made my way towards the front door and knocked. Soon, Mrs Carraway opened the door with a huge smile on her face.

"Desiree, sweetheart.'' She hugged me with all her strength. I missed this woman.

"Hello Mrs Carraway, how are you?" I replied once I detangled myself from her.

"Oh, I'm good sweetie, what about you?" she asked warmly. I'm not good at all. Almost every night I'm crying myself to sleep, this is what I wanted to say but I stuck to saying that I was fine.

"Are you sure you're fine darling because you don't seem like it." Mrs Carraway asked concernedly. I will perhaps never understand how these ladies know that something's wrong just by looking someone's expression. I swear they have certain powers that we are unaware of.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just tired." I lied. Well part of it was a lie. I was really tired because I kept myself busy in doing all the household chores every day just to keep my mind off the beast.

"Where's Lucas?" I asked to divert her mind away from me. a smile crept on her face at the mention of Lucas. I'm glad they love him.

"The little brat is still sleeping. Went off to bed late last night. Wait I'll wake him up." Mrs Carraway rose from her seat.

"Oh, no Mrs Carraway. Let him sleep. I'll come later. Just tell him I'll call him in the afternoon."

"Are you sure dear? I could wake him up."

"Yeah, I'm sure. Let him sleep. He needs it." I smiled at her and made my way towards the door. Before leaving, I thanked a lot for looking after Lucas so well and hugged her goodbye.

I took another cab and made my way back home. After half an hour, I reached home. Marisa's car was still outside. Good, she has not left home yet. I was kind of missing her.

I opened the door and was welcomed with a strong smell of coffee.

"Desi" Marisa cried and hugged me tightly.

"Can't-breathe." I managed to say.

"Damn girl, you leave for three days and this place does not feel like home. Gosh I missed you." Even I missed Mari and Mike. It feels so good to be back home.

"I'm glad to be back home, too." I replied honestly. I dropped my bag on the couch and walked towards the kitchen.

"So, how was your stay at the Generes'?" At the mention of Generes' house, my eyes started to water and soon the waterworks started. This is so not like me to cry over a guy but I guess I needed to get this out of my system once and for all. Mari rubbed my back saying soothing words just to calm me down but unfortunately this made me cry harder.

After thirty minutes of crying uncontrollably, I managed to narrate the whole story to Mari and to say she was angry was an understatement. She looked like she was about to kill Ethan.

"He did that!" Mari screeched. I simply nodded my head, unable to talk since all this crying had a throat burning.

"You know what, I really wish to cut his dick into small small pieces and feed them to crows so that he is unable to have Junior Ethans and trust me I can do it." Marisa affirmed. I laughed at her creativity. "Nobody, I mean nobody makes my best friend and my future children's aunt cry. Generes in now on my shit list. I don't care how hot he is but he is on my shit list."

"What's wrong? Why are you screaming so much Mari?" Mike asked sleepily. I laughed at the sight of him. He wore nothing but an underwear with small hearts everywhere. His eyes snapped to mine.

"Desi?" he asked eyes opened wide and he immediately went back to his room and came back wearing a pair of pants. By now I was laughing loudly at his actions.

"Yes, I'm here. And nice underwear Mikey." I giggled. Mike blushed crimson at my words.

"You were supposed to come on Saturday." Mike said thoughtfully.

"It is Saturday, today Einstein." Mari slapped him on the back of his head.

"Hey, that hurts woman." Mike rubbed the back of his head. Really, when Mari slaps someone, it really hurts.

Ahh, it feels so good to be back home. Hopefully, today my mind will be off Ethan.

"Oh come on Desi, it'll be fun." Mari pleaded. It's been three hours since Mari has been begging me to go clubbing with her and Mike.

"No, Mari, I'm tired. Besides, I've got lots of things to do." I replied sitting on my bed.

"Oh yeah, like what?" Mari crossed her arms. Uh-oh, seems like I won't be winning this one. Anyways, it's always hard to win against Mari. We both know at the end I will go clubbing even if I don't want to.

"I'm still waiting, Desi." Mari tapped her feet. I sighed heavily, not knowing what to answer.

"Fine, I'll come." Mari jumped up and down clapping her hands like a five year old girl. "But do you mind if a call a friend to come along?"

"Who?" Mari asked curiously.

"Um, Mike, he's Ethan's younger brother and he's been wanting to meet you since a very long time." I explained. Mari frowned at the mention of Ethan. Guess, I'll have to give more explanations.

"He's more outgoing than Ethan and he's really hot, just like you like it." I finished my explanation and by then Mari's face brightened. Haa, I knew I could make her accept if I said this. Mission completed.

"Yeah, sure. Call him up." Mari left the room leaving me alone to call Ryan. Losing no time, I dialled Ryan's number and waited for him to pick up. After four rings, he finally managed to answer the phone.

"Hey D, already missing me?" I could feel him smirk on the phone. I heard him curse on the phone and say something which seemed like "damn it Ethan." My heart skipped a beat at the mention of his name but chose to ignore it. Perhaps I'm imagining things.

"Haa, you wish." I replied back. "Anyways, I called up to see if you were free this evening. Actually, my friend Mari and I were going clubbing and I was wondering if you wanted to come along."

"You're not kidding me, right?" Ryan asked suspiciously.

"No, why would I?" I answered back.

"Oh, Desi, you're the best you know that?" I heard him screaming happily. "Where are we going then?"

"Um, we'll be going to The Cave." I said.

"Great, I'll meet you there around seven-ish?" Ryan asked finally calming down.

"Yeah, sure." With that I hung up. I looked at my clock. Shit it was now five. Time to start getting ready.

"No, Mari I can't wear this dress." I kept on arguing with Mari. The black strapless dress she made me wear was really short. Just few centimetres above my knees. Sure it was sexy as hell but this was not me.

"Of course you can. I mean have you seen your body girl?!" Mari waved both her hands in my direction.

"No, Mari, this dress makes me look too slutty." I disagreed.

"Nonsense. I'm doing your make up and you're wearing those black pumps. End of discussion." Well I guess I don't have a say once again.

After doing my hair and make up for one whole hour, I was now allowed to look at myself in the mirror. Oh boy! This girl is so not me. In front of me is a confident and beautiful girl with wavy brown hair. Sure she looks like me but she is a hundred times better than me.

"Is this--" I was unable to complete the sentence since I was so dumbstruck at my own reflection. Mari simply nodded. "This is amazing Mari, I-I don't know what to say." I said still stunned. Thankfully, Mari kept my make-up light. She knew I did not like too much paint on my face.

"Well, you could just say thank you and that I was right." Mari mused loudly.

"You were right Mari and thank you." I repeated what she said. With that, Mari started to get ready. She took less time to get ready. After some time, we both went in the living room where Mike was about to spit all the water he was drinking once he saw us.

"You look absolutely breath-taking." He managed to say. Even Mike looked great. With a tight shirt and jeans along with combat boots and a leather jacket, Mike looked ready to break some hearts tonight.

"I know we look good. Stop wasting time and let's have some fun." Mari cheered.

"Yeah," we all cried in unison and made our way to the care.

At quarter to seven, we finally reached The Cave. Since Mike already knew the bouncers there, we didn't have to wait in the line. Well it has some perks when you know the right persons.

The club was absolutely loud and crowded and I could already see people grinding against each other. Oh boy, why did I accept to come here. I could have been under my quilt watching The Notebook and Ryan Gosling's gorgeous face and body.

"Come with me." Mari yelled because of the loud music. I could hear Miley Cyrus' 'We can't stop'. Perfect song for the people in this club. They seem that they cannot stop grinding against each other.

Soon, Mari took me to the bar and ordered three margaritas. I hope this is nice because I've never had one before in my entire life. The bartender was a cute one. He even winked at me when he handed me the margarita. For the first time, I did not blush when someone did that to me, instead I felt disgusted.

I took a sip of the margarita and winced at the taste of it. It burnt my throat but soon the burning stopped and was replaced with a delicious taste. Well, this is not so bad then. I could have another one. Soon, I finished this one and asked for another one. This is just what I needed. Loosen up for a while and forget all about the beast. Why the hell am I still thinking of him now? I should be having fun and this is what I'll do. Before I could go dancing, I felt my phone vibrate. It was Ryan calling.

"Hello." I yelled so that he could hear me

"I'm at the club, where are you?" I heard him yell back.

"I'm at the bar." I answered back. Shit, the alcohol had me slurring a bit and my head spinning. I did not hear him answer back. I put the phone back in my purse and felt as if someone was in front of me.

"Ryan," I said loudly, happy that he's here.

"The one and only."

"Come I'll introduce you to someone." I grabbed his hand and took him where Mari was sitting talking to a girl. I tapped her shoulder. She turned towards me and her eyes landed on Ryan. I've never ever seen Mari so surprised to see someone. Guess she didn't expect Ryan to be so handsome. Even Ryan seemed entranced by Mari. Who wouldn't actually.

I cleared my throat and started the introductions.

"So Mari, this is one of my best friends Ryan and Ryan this is my best friend and roommate Marisa." Both of them nodded at each other, not uttering a word. I took this opportunity to get away from them and hit the dancefloor. I had no one to dance with. I have no idea where Mike is, well probably screwing some girl in the bathroom of the club.

The song that came on was Sia's Cheap Thrills. This is one of my favourite actually and I started shaking my hips along this song. The good thing about being drunk is that you don't really care about who is thinking what about you. I just kept on dancing and moving to the beat until I felt a pair of hands on my waist. I did not turn around to see who it was. Instead I continued to move my hips against that person. After a while of dancing, I felt the person's hand move from my waist to my inner thighs, way too close to my private part. Sure I was drunk but I was in my senses. Immediately, I detangled myself from the intruder and without looking at him, I walked towards the bar and ordered another margarita. Again, the bartender tried to have a small talk with me but I cut him off by simply saying yes and no as answers. I guess he understood I was not interested because your mind is still lingered on the beast. I looked around the club and could not see neither Mari nor Ryan. I smiled to myself. I would be so glad if they got together. The air inside the club was getting hotter and hotter that my dress completely clung to my skin.

I got off from the bar stool and made my way outside the bar to get some fresh air or I thought I could get some fresh air. The air here reeked of alcohol and cigarettes. I guess I was better off inside. I started to walk away from the club. The scent of alcohol and cigarette seemed to dwindle as I got away from the club. This light breeze now made me fell way better. I had to rub my arms with my hands because the cold wind was now piercing through my bare skin. As I was walking through a now silent pavement I heard an incoherent voice saying

"Hey babygirl, come let's continue what we started inside the club." A not so gorgeous slurred. I made the mistake of turning towards him. So this was the person who wanted to touch me. Yuck, he smelt of scotch and cheap cigarette and he tried to get close to me. Oh you stupid Desi, couldn't you have stayed in the club like any normal person?! Which sane person comes to explore the pavement in the middle of the night in a really short dress?

"No, thank you." I replied curtly before moving away from him but I guess he wasn't accepting none of that crap because he not so subtly grabbed my arm and pulled me to him. I tried to push myself from him, keyword, tried which made him grab my arm harder. This was definitely leaving a bruise tomorrow. What is it with everyone trying to hurt me?! First it was blondie, now it's this dirty disgusting blonde guy. He had the look of a rapist. Oh no! I'm about to get deflowered on the streets of Chicago and tomorrow my not so beautiful face will be appearing on the front news of all newspapers.

"Please, let me go." I cried trying to get out of his hold.

"Oh, no babygirl. You seem to have a fine body." The obnoxious guy moved his head towards my neck. I kept struggling against his hold but he was way too strong for me. Tears were now flowing on my cheeks. I shuddered against his touch. This was nothing like Ethan's touch. I felt disgusted by his moves on me.

"Please, please let me go." I begged of him.

"Shut up, you bitch." He slapped me hard across my face and boy did it hurt. My eyes stung even more at the hard slap. Damn me for being so weak!

"If I were you, I would not land another hand on her." I heard an angry yet sensuous say calmly. This voice sent tingles to my spines. My attacker turned away from me to look at the intruder disturbing him. He immediately let go of me and faced fully the dark angel. I took the chance to peek at my saviour. Although there was minimal amount of lighting, I could still see his dark features. Oh boy, he looked really furious. His gaze landed on me and he locked his eyes on mine, both of us still staring at each other without ever blinking. His jaw was clenched and his eyes held nothing but pure anger. Was it towards me or towards my assaulter?

"Oh, yeah, or else what?" My attacker now challenged him, unable to stand straight on his feet.

"Or else, I'll make sure you don't see the sunlight tomorrow." Ethan said calmly keeping his gaze on me. I don't know whether I should be scared by his tone or aroused.

"Oh, yeah, I'm so scared." The disgusting man said in a mocking voice. "You know what, I'm going to rape this pretty little thing in front of your eyes and we'll see if I'm able to see the sunlight tomorrow or not." This made Ethan snap out from his gaze because in a nanosecond, he was holding that man by throat. I gasped at the sight of it but was unable to say anything. I was shocked by (a) what the man had said and (b) by Ethan's actions. The man was clearly unable to breathe and he was trying hard to remove Ethan's hand from his throat.

"Ethan stop, please," I pleaded. This seemed to get Ethan out of his anger trance because he violently threw the man against the pavement. The man was coughing uncontrollably. The kind hearted person in me wanted to make sure the man was okay but since his intentions were not correct about me I guess I'll pass. Ethan was shaking uncontrollably, I guess he was trying to regain back his composure. I don't know whether I should calm him down or not.

Carefully, I took a step towards him. His eyes were still closed, I think it is safe me to go nearer. As I got closer, I could smell his strong cinnamon cologne.

"Are you okay?" I asked in a low voice. At the sound of my voice, Ethan opened his eyes and glared at me. Uh-oh, bad move. He grabbed me by my arm, shit my bruised arm and took me inside an empty lane. I made sure sot to wince, so as not to enrage him further. Ethan pinned me against the wall and caged me with his both hands on either side of my head. Clearly there is no escaping now.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" He barked at me. Why did I do now? Why is he so furious at me?

"What do you mean, what the fuck I'm doing?" I asked equally enraged. What the hell is his problem? He ignores me, I come here to have some fun but clearly, the Almighty had other plans for me. I am the one who nearly got raped and he has the guts to ask me what the fuck I'm doing?! "I was having fun, if this answers your question." I replied, moving closer to his face.

"Ha, I could see how much you're having fun. The tear stains on your cheeks say it all." He countered back. "If I was not here, you would have been raped and perhaps killed." He said angrily. Way to make me feel better Generes.

"Well, no one asked you to save me, dark knight in shining armour." Lie. I wanted someone to save me from that jerk. Speaking of jerk, I hope he's gone.

"Keep lying to yourself Desiree." He said in a low voice. "May I know why did you wear such short clothes to come to a club?" he asked, his eyes hard but that didn't prevent him from raking shamelessly my body. This simple action made me shiver slightly. I tried not to show him how his little actions affected me in the deepest way possible

"That's none of your business." I said sharply

"Yes, it is my business. You are my business." I am his business? He glared harshly at me. Yet I could see something more in his eyes... Lust? No, I couldn't let myself affected by his eyes right now, I am angry, furious even. How dare he call me his business when he was the one ignoring me.

"Oh yeah? What happened to few days back when you were ignoring me, huh?" I bit back. Haa, take that you dipshit! "Was I sti--'' He cut me off by crashing his rough lips on mine. I kissed him back with the same intensity. I missed his luscious lips on mine. Gosh, this is home, this is my addiction. I tried to show him how much I was hurt when he decided to ignore him. I put all my feelings in that kiss. Our teeth clashed and our tongues battled for dominance. I was not ready to submit to him, not just yet. He groaned when he realised I was not going to give up, but soon I and to give in unable to keep up with him. He seemed to smile in the kiss. He lifted me from the ground and I wrapped my legs around his muscled chest and my arms around his neck pulling him unbelievably closer to me, showing him how much I missed his touch on me.

I was soon out of breath and broke the kiss but Ethan was having none of that. He started kissing and sucking on my neck making me moan out loud. I really hope no one hears us right now. He rubbed his big bulge against my panties showing me how much he wanted me. Gosh, I was already wet by his movements.

"Ahh, Ethan" I moaned out loud grabbing a fistful of his hair.

"Yes, baby, tell me what you want." Ethan replied huskily, still grinding against me. I smiled when he called me baby. But damn that motherfucker. Now he wants me to say that loud.

"You, Ethan. I want you." I said confidently locking my eyes with his, showing him how much I needed him. I shocked myself when I said this so confidently. He smiled at my response.

"No, baby, we won't do it here." Frustration clouded on my face. I wanted him here and now. First he makes me aroused and now he refuses to give me my release. "But I can make your ache go away." He smiled crookedly. My eyes brightened just like a baby was given her favourite candy.

"Trust me?" I nodded. He moved his face to my neck and continued sucking on the sensitive skin when I felt him move his fingers to my panties. He started moving his fingers in a circular motion around them making my back arch.

"Oh, my baby is so wet for me. I can't wait to enter you and pound hardly inside you." He said huskily in my ears. These dirty words seemed to make me even wetter.

"Please, Ethan." I moaned. He instantly removed my panties in a swift movement making them hang at my ankles. I felt cold air inside me but was immediately replaced by Ethan's fingers. I gasped at the newly found sensation.

He started rubbing my clit slowly and sensuously. He kept repeating the process again and again making something build inside of me. When I felt I couldn't take it anymore, I felt him insert a finger inside of me making me gasp once again.

"Fuck Desi, you're so tight." Ethan groaned. He moved his face to the other side of my neck, sucking deeply making me wince. When I got accustomed to his finger inside of me I started riding his hand, and soon I felt him insert another one, moving in and out, repeating the process over and over again until I couldn't take it any longer. I started shaking uncontrollably in his arms.

"What's happening to me?" I asked my voice cracking.

"You're about to climax baby and I want you to scream my name." He increased his pace and I felt a pressure build inside of me and soon I came all over his hand moaning loudly his name. I was still shaking in his arms with my head on chest unable to make any movements and panting hardly.

"Are you okay?" I heard him ask.

I nodded unable to say something. Hell I could not even look at him in the eyes. Ethan put me back on my feet and I swayed a little bit before gaining my balance. Immediately, I put my panties but made no move to look at him.

"Desiree, look at me." Again, I did not look at him. Marisa's black pumps were more interesting. Seeing that I would not make any move, Ethan grabbed my chin softly and made me look at him.

"Are you ashamed of what happened just now?" Was I ashamed? Hell no. this was the best experience I've ever had. Ethan is making me feel things that I'd never thought I'd feel. He made me experience new facets and if I am being candid here, I love the sensations he's giving me, so I shook my head at his question.

"Then why are you avoiding looking at me?" he asked softly. His hand was still on my chin.

"I was shy, I guess?" this was more a question than a statement.

"You're shy after what I just did to you?" he smiled crookedly. I blushed crimson when I remembered what just happened a few minutes ago. Thank goodness, it was dark. "I'm sorry." I snapped my eyes back to him. The beast is apologizing?! Holy mother of skittles!

"I shouldn't have avoided you. I thought I could but I can't. I've never felt like this before. You make me want to always keep you by my side, kiss your plush lips and fuck you day and night till you can't walk straight. And I can't keep my hands off you especially since you wore such a short dress. Damn Desi." He confessed. So Ethan, my employer wants me just as much as I want him. He wants to fuck me day and night. How can I stay still after such a confession?! But did I hear correct? Oh you did, Granny Desi, my inner voice confirmed.

"But unfortunately I'm not the right man for you Desiree." Ethan admitted guiltily. "But I can't even stay away from you. You're like a magnet always attracting me wherever you are, it's fucking frustrating. I can't see you with another man, it irritates me so much." He ran his hand over his tousled hair making it hand messily over his forehead. Was the beast jealous? Well, that's news.

"Then don't stay away from me." I said honestly. Even I don't want Ethan to go away from me. I want him here with me, have his ways with me. Do whatever he wants to with my body and soul. I want him so bad that it hurts.

"I won't. Not anymore." Ethan held my head in both his hands and kissed me softly but passionately, as if he was trying to promise me that he won't stay away from me anymore.

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